got home past 12 last night.

fail night out with qm and wife and partner.

the j-agents from another account injaned us so it was practically just us.

we went to qm's condo. eat some bizzare food(or at least, it seems to me) which was an assortment of squid(?), flakes(pork?), egg(i found some egg shell too !!!), cooked lettuce (i LOVE lettuce, but not the cooked one please).. it wasnt that bad.

we went to the swimming pool at his condo's penthouse. talked, climbed up to the helipad.. talked some more.. drank wine.. and off it went.. it wasnt that bad.. really..but then..

sighs..

oh, the wife proposed that on the holy week since they are planning to go to grotto, they might as well drop by to my place. without thinking i said yes..oh, slap my face..arg.

sighhhhhhs..

i dont know what's wrong. the whole family was teasing me to partner. i dont know why im feeling bad about this. there are just things i cant tell them.. true, i just want to protect partner in my own way, but somehow, i think in some way i am also protecting myself.

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an email from an j-engineering company came. i didnt apply to them whatsoever that's why i was surprised that they contacted me..

i wonder if its an escape route that the heavens sent me for my rescue. i dont know.i do not feel competent enough to qualify, but still, id like to give myself a chance. a few minutes ago, i just hit the "send" button.

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i would have written some more but now im off to my brother's friend's funeral.. a lot of people i know have been dying lately..

its just making me like death less and less and less..

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im off now.. goodnight..

{ 気分} craving for the sandwich guy's tofu sandwich

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