black saturday.

spent the day playing battle realms, eating, and basically fooling around the house. ngayon ko lang nafeel ang holy week.

yesterday,i got home with mom having a "walking dead" marathon, claming the space of our living room, so i wasnt able to workout yesterday. i worked out doubled hours today and ate double the normal portion afterwards thus nullifying the effects. but i dont care. i just want to make the most of my one day worth holy day.

grand easter feast tomorrow. we will be going to moa to attend. i hope we'll get to get decent seats. i wonder if the 20K people who attended at the conference will attend to this one too..sana magising ako ng maaga.. pak..anlayo pa man din ng moa..

i actually have no idea what happens in grand feast. i wonder how different this is to a normal feast. tomorrow, im gonna find out.

been eating my hearts out for the past few days. ulcer's my unwanted guest as of the moment and right now i cant think of a better way to fight it other than eating. the gym's closed since thurs so i wasnt able to have my usual daily swim. cant wait to swim by mon. arrrg..i better not think about how id look in my swim suit for now..keri na yan..wapakels..sighs..

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i asked for a sign yesterday.. im not actually a fan of signs since i never really get them anyway.. and those really few times that i did, i most of the time ended up changing my mind about it and completely ignoring the sign..

but yesterday, i knew i needed to ask for one.

i asked and expected to not recieve. and that's exactly what i got.

i think i just need something tangible. something that has weight in it. something that i can hang on to so that i can proceed in acting out my resolve..

the resolve to move on with my life and forget about you..

its been months.. i was fed with facts and yet its been taking me months to digest the whole thing. i may not look devastated from the outside, ,ive been in denial about this for some time and still.. i know im far from being ok.

ayoko na, men..

as i grow older i feel like im starting to see love as how i see business opportunities.. kung sa tingin mo palugi, wag kang mag iinvest.

basta. 

last na to. sisiguraduhin kong yung susunod na pag singhap ko, hindi na dahil sayo..

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