having a hard time getting things done because im too sleeeeeeeeepy. i actually dont need my sleep hormones supplement anymore but still take them out of habit.

its a wednesday. its been a while since i last went to my panata day,  i wonder if fr. m will be there. i hope he will. i want to get rid of this lost lost feeling.

the coming weekend will be the only sched-free weekend of the month. maybe i can catch up on sleep and on reading some of my books.

bff will be going to rp on 23rd so we can visit our hs friend guads who's pregnant with twins. she's in the icu right now as they're trying to keep her from delivering the babies since its not time yet. we're suppose to give her a baby shower pero mukhang hindi na kami mahihintay ng mga baby. said they'll be allowing her to have the babies delivered by 14th.

on the 24th, we need to fly to cavite to pick up my niece and her mom as the following week will be her christening.

my niece's binyag will be sort of a big event. we're expecting relatives and family friends to come. there are few relatives that i wish to talk to regarding some project that a cousin and i are planning to start. i think maybe i dont have to look so far to gain connection when our family has a handful. dapat nagreresearch ako ngayon about it,, pero grabe, antok na antok talaga ko. tapos nakakatamad pa.

if i manage to buy reservation before 15th, i might be attending sha's writing seminar around the first week of june. JUNE. shocks. mag ju-JUNE na! oh, mother Earth.. why so fast? huhu.

yang and i are planning to join toast master's club. from the look of it, i dont think we can manage to pick the same chapter because of our schedule and location. also, yang and her ministry members(media people) are planning to put up a writing club too. yang said she'll introduce me to them. we use to plan putting up one under our old biz, RAVE. now we're wondering if we're just gonna have her ministry friends join us under RAVE or create a new one.

sa totoo lang, i think yang and i together have so many resources and connections(and erm, maybe talents too?). as i think about it the more convinced i am na we got so much potential. i wonder what's holding us back... ano bang hinihintay namin to unleash our greatness monster within us. or.. am i being delusional? ewan ko.

just the thought of all these activities makes me feel alive. siguro nami-miss ko na yung fast-paced na buhay. pero kung fast-paced nga pero directionless parin, then i think im still missing the point.

started that goal-setting thingy to have direction for myself. wednesday na, hindi ko parin natatapos. hindi ko maintindihan kung baket hirap na hirap akong isipin kung ano bang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko. a person can only do so much in life. we all have only 24 hours a day. feeling ko ang big deal na pumili ng isang bagay or iilang bagay na paglalaanan mo ng majority ng precious waking hours mo. i know that as i put my decision on hold, im also wasting those precious hours away. alam ko naman yun, pero kasi... hayyst. naiinis ako sa excuses. at naiinis din ako that im making one now.

sa ngayon, i think ang priority ko muna e to do those things that make me feel alive again. id make my decision once im settled. or maybe once im no longer too lazy to write it down.teehee.

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