thursday. i woke up thinking it's already friday.
gonna be no-toastmasters friday tomorrow. though i love toastmasters friday too, no-toastmasters friday means i can go to my favorite place (bookstore) and read a book or two (for free, if they will not tell me off), so i love it as well. even just the thought makes my heart race.
just bought 2 books a few days ago. i know i shouldnt be buying now coz im actually on tight budget.. promise, last na to..huhu.
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read from cc's fb about killings again. it's getting too rampant people are starting to think it's normal, necessary even. idk. maybe they're thinking its ok because their family's not one of the victims.. there were those who are not even drug pusher/user!!! this is just stupid and pointless and stupid and stupid and stupid and stupid and stupid and STUPIDDDDDDDD!!!! i can go on and on on this. mga leche kayo!! huhu..
im just scared for my family.. they could be the next victim. anyone can be the next victim. And then those stupid-down-to-the-last-cell-of-their-body, hardcore supporters think it's ok???! mga leche talaga kayo! i just cant NOT take this personally anymore.
if this happens to anyone in my family... i swear... jeez... i just cant imagine what i can turn into.
*breathe in, breathe out*
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got things to do. i agreed to translate some documents for someone who wants to claim child support.
then i also agreed to be the TME for the next toastmasters' meeting. i want to fake sickness whenever i think about it. my fault. i was i who said yes anyway. i just want to challenge my comfort zone. im not really a masochist. i just feel like if id just do easy things all the time, then how can i get better? i wish i dont feel this scared though. but whatever. it's gonna be over soon.
there's also this upcoming club contest on August 5. Humorous speech and evaluation speech contest daw. i suck at both, but i like to join. im pretty sure im not joining the evaluation contest. im hoping to take a shot at the humorous. iniisip ko palang, para na kong magkakasakit... i cant even think of a speech topic to write about. that would be in about 2 weeks from now.
but on the brighter side, on saturday will be another family day. we'll be going out to celebrate brother's birthday. my over praning self is scared that a gunman would shot him down and mark him "pusher ako" stuff before that day comes... My brother doesnt smoke nor drink and i bet he cant even tell the difference between shabu and tawas (me neither). kumukulo talaga ang dugo ko pag naiisip ko ang bagay na to.
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i feel so sorry for the Philippines. I feel so sorry for the victims and i feel remorse for the people who did these and those who are behind all these. Pag mayamang drug lord my due process, pag mahirap lang, wala. Hindi talaga ako maawaing tao at madalas wala naman akong pakialam.. but i hate injustice.. i hate persecution of innocent people.. i hate how people justify and think its ok..
it's just ironic the promise of safety for this country treathens the safety of the poor up to middle class Filipino families. i read an FB friend posting about how this battle against drugs is more humane than allowing Philippines to be like Mexico. i want to puke.
siguro kaya magkakaiba tayo ng opinyon e dahil sa magkakaiba tayo ng pinapahalagahan. But if anything happens to my family...
sigurado akong wala akong patatawarin.
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