it's finally sinking in. the upcoming area contest.

mejo mixed yung feeling. most of the time, im in that mode where i ask myself, "what i have gotten into?" but there is also that other mode where i want to win and share that happy moment with the club and celebrate with them...

and then.. syempre meron din yung mode na gustong magsakit sakitan nalang sa sabado than to go through all the trouble-- if you know me well enough, you'd know that wont do that.

and really, this nonstop pumping in my chest is not helping. takte. huhu.

ok na rin na ngayon ako kinakabahan para sa sabado, ubos na to. sinusubukan ko nalang na hindi problemahin kung ilang tao ba ang nandoon. or kung kaya ko bang mag craft ng evaluation speech in 5 mins.. or kung kaya ko bang ideliver yun ng walang notes..

i am the type who would join contests, or even a simple game like bato bato pik, with the aim of winning.

but there are those rare times too where id gladly settle to not messing up and all.

sa totoo lang, naeexcite din naman ako..

pero, takte, kaya ko ba to?? huhu! 

...

i remember the first time when i attended the club as a guest. the first time i joined the table topics. or the first time i delivered a speech.. then, first time i became the topicsmaster. and then the TME.. and then GE. i was nervous too at first. but whenever im at the stage, i feel like that is my place, something that is for me. yung feeling na parang i was born for this, ganun. sana mafeel ko rin yun sa pag nandun na ko sa contest.

sighs... kinakabahan ako...

pero ok lang. matatapos din naman to. sighs ulet.

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