Saturday. July 8, 2017

Bagay bagay at 12:56 ng madaling araw

Nakasabay ko si tintin sa bus kanina. Classmate ko nung highschool. Nagkakwentuhan hindi tuloy ako nakapagtext sa bahay nung malapit na ko. I texted sa may kanto na. I was so scared to walk i taught of waiting there kaso may pinatay na dati dun. So i proceeded walking kaso marami na na holdap at ni rape dun. Pak this.

Then i saw a huge ball of light from Dad's flashlight. I feel so sorry he had to run para masundo kagad ako. He's old and sickly and cant even walk straight anymore. I'm sorry, Dad... Huhu.

I can't imagine how it would be if my parents are not as they are. Puteeeek, kakatakot pala maglakad mag-isa sa dilim. And Dad has been doing that every single day para ihatid at sunduin kami ng kapatid ko.

Just a day to go. Advance Happy Birthday, tatay.

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Nalulungkot ako. Hindi ko alam kung dahil mukhang hindi ka na naman natutuwa sa mga kaganapan or siguro dahil hindi na kita nakakasama. Hindi ka naman exactly cold pero parang may kakaiba. Siguro pagod ka lang... Or baka naninibago lang rin ako/tayo kasi bago lang tayo dito.

Hindi dapat ginagawa ng mga bagay ng halfhearted, z.

Yung tipong when u love, may exit plan ka kagad kung pano mag move on in case hindi mag work.

Or ung when u decide to move on,  naka ready ka rin mag jump back kung biglang parang may pag-asa pa. Wag ganun.

Worse, wala naman nagsabing may pag-asa pa.

Again, wag ganun.

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But then maybe we can move on in our own pace ng hindi pinipilit ang sarili.

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I admit i am fond of the boy. Lalo na nga at nalaman ko na mabait at sweet din tong batang to pero seryoso naman ako nung sinabi ko na hands off ako e.

Kaya lang kanina when i was with LA and i told jay about the boy. I was just being animated. Charot lang naman talaga yung mga sinasabi ko e. Kaso sabi ni jay, "ambisyosa" jokingly.

Dont get me wrong, i love jay. She cant possibly offend me with that simple joke even if it's half meant. Its just that, words like that induce some reaction in me. It's when i am told i cant that i want to prove them wrong all the more.

So u think i cant do it? Oh, watch me...

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Ay, wait... Wag nalang pala. Haha!

Hay z... Walang kadala dala?


Written by cinderellaareus at 01:39 AM.

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