sabi ng isa sa mga paborito kong bloggers, malalaman mo raw if tama ang decision mo depende sa amount ng peace na nararamdaman mo about it.
hindi na 'ko galit. hindi na rin ako naiinis. sabi nila hindi daw dapat nag de-decide pag ang emotions mo e nasa extreme, and i don't think im on the extreme right now. i think im perfectly chill.
the past few years had been turbulent. full of highs and lows. i think the highest of highs and the lowest of lows happened the last couple of years.
naalala ko yung sabi ni deepak chopra na pag calm daw ang waters, kahit isang pebble lang ang hinagis mo, may effect. Pero pag hindi daw calm, kahit isang empire state building pa daw ang ihagis mo, walang epekto.
a few more weeks and the year will end. i want my 2018 to be a whole lot peaceful than the previous years. the past years, i successfully shook my life. sa 2018, i want to bring back the calm.
five goals lang ang sinulat ko for 2018 and I wrote them in the simplest manner. pero lahat ng yon naka focus lang sa iisang Ultimate Goal. Yes, capital letter talaga yung start.
I remember yang and i were talking about our favorite class in KCON when she told me about Jon Escoto's class. I didn't take that class so I had yang told me about it. yang mentioned about "vortex". eto daw yung something na nagde-drain sayo at sa happiness mo. kailangan mo daw hanapin ang "vortex" mo at unahin to work on resolving that before everything else.
i think i know what my "vortex" is. I think ive known about this all along, pero kasi, pag nakita mo sya as a vortex, mafi-feel mo talaga yung urgency na takpan yung lintek na vortex na yan, para puteeeek, hindi na maubos ang happiness mo, and maybe kabataan mo, in the process.
dun ko gustong mag-focus sa 2018. para magawa ko yun, i need to let go of a few things. this might take a lot of explaining and i hate explaining things. sana maging ok ang lahat.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:44 PM.
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