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Saturday: January 19, 2019



It's 10:38. Mom and Dad went out for some medical thingy and Brother left to see a doctor on a separate hospital. Niece and Sis-in-law followed and they met for their own mini family bonding. I was left to man the house, cook breakfast for Mom and Dad and that was pretty much it. 

Tomorrow is the feast of Sto. Nino. We'll have a mini feast at home. Still debating whether to go back to Metro tomorrow or go straight to the office by Monday. My weekends have been pretty uncomplicated these days, and I really like it.

My job is foreign-language related. Though I could be getting more more money somewhere else, I think I get a pretty decent pay. I give most of my salary to my mother. My needs are pretty scarce so what's left is more than enough for myself. It's not so bad, you know. I'm just watching Korean drama at the office anyway.

It's hard to get motivated to do better when I already got everything I need. I know it doesn't cover my future, but it's hard to look into the future when you don't even know what's in there.

Hayst.

Last year, I watch a Korean drama, Go Back Couple, and it kept haunting me up to this day. The storyline is, there is a couple who got a divorce. A lot of misunderstandings were involved. They said they wish they never met. Then by some miracle, they just woke up and they were both timetravelled back to the time they met-- in college.

This kept me daydreaming of also going back. 

If you will be given a chance to travel back in time, which part of your life will you go back to?

Mine is in college. I find it pretty odd. Not in the time when I made some stupid decision in my early 20s. Not in the time when I had the best days of my life in CKC, not in time when I was a sometimes-happy-sometimes-overdramatic teenager. I don't know why I want it to be college. I think I just want to do it better this  time.

I wasn't bad though. There were 50+ students in our section when we started, and I was one of the 5 who made it out alive after 5 years without extension. I wasn't bad. I know I did my best. I don't know why I want to go back there badly.

Of course, it can't happen. And all that's left to do is move forward. It's nice to know I've got nothing to lose. What's bad is that it makes me ask, "why bother?" That's why I don't and I'm getting stagnant.

Sometimes I wish that the Heavens will just tell me what to do so that I don't have to think about it myself.

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Universe, I want to feel happier tomorrow. 



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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:19 PM.

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Comment posted on January 22nd, 2019 at 08:54 AM
given the chance to travel back in time? hmmm I think I would go back to college as well. where there were pivotal choices i should have made differently. where i should have listened to what my parents have been telling me - not fall in love with love. i should have waited when i could make smarter and well informed decisions and not jump the boat just because.

sometimes it's difficult to overthink, but we do it always because we were made that way...well not to overthink but be able to think things through. minsan nasosobrahan nga lang kaya nasestress tayo. hehehe
Comment posted on January 23rd, 2019 at 12:49 PM
So, I'm not alone pala. It could be also because there is where we had our first taste of being an adult-but-not-quite. Don't you agree? Hahaha.

I'm sure there are more people who want to travel back in time. Iniisip ko tuloy kung bakit hanggang ngayon, wala paring time machine. So much overthinking. Hahaha.
Comment posted on January 24th, 2019 at 09:27 AM
of course you're not alone! ;-) and yes i agree. =)

on time machines, gurl kahit ako naisip ko din yan at some point. overthinking nga siguro. apir! hahaha
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