nini and i were discussing about the wedding blah blah..she said that nep and portia want to go somewhere after the wedding. said she's busy so she cant go.

wala lang..sadyang hindi lahat ng friends pareparehas ng trip sa buhay..or siguro sadyang marami lang akong oras na pwedeng sayangin..

yesterday, i was searching for a wedding gift. as i look at the stuff that i suppose a newly wedded couple need, i just cant help but think that jeez..they're so adult na.. but of course im every bit as adult as they are, its just thatm it doest feel like it.

once in a while jie would send me ims saying she's found a new crush..or talk about this new guy who inspires her. its like were still in highschool. normally people our age would talk about husbands, wives, having kids, and then here we are talking about crushes. so highschool,right.. i dont know.. i just feel like, im adult by age but in terms of experience in relationship and stuff,,im more like a kid..or more like a fetus..and really, its not fun. its like there's a part of the world that you were never allowed to discover.

know what, basta.recently, it seems like i just woke up and found myself no longer interested in love stories, love song, etc. i dont know. maybe it has something to do with me trying to think and feel like an adult.. its unsettling..and kinda scary..to just wake up and realize that you no longer like something that uve liked for all your life..--but well, i still like handsome(even the not so handsome) guys though..so i guess im still fine.

for now all i want is an escape..get away from here..somewhere far..a news just came. i feel like heavens are giving me more reason to get myself out of here..i just wish, that other than an extra reason, Heavens will give me plane tickets too.. ive been obsessing about this lately..my dreams..i wanna get them all so badly..though i havent given them names yet.. but see, i wanna go out and see the world...and grow up and be a real adult in the process..

im scared of seeing my dreams..and my youth as well.. slip away and gone forever..

why do we have to chase dreams..why dont they just chase us intead..but, that, i do not know

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