tabby muna habang ngra-run ang pc..

please, remind me again why im here? today is sunday. and this is an office. the dots aint connecting.

mom asked me to be home yesterday(saturday) to help out because we're expecting customers to come because of that annual medical mission near the house. the number of patients who came were less than expected. good for me i was able to sleep and read my books. i shouldve been working yesterday, but since mom asked for that day, im here today instead.alone. plain great.

my back aches and im feeling feverish. i feel like this program's mocking me for hanging up. it never usually hang up. just today when im not in the best mood and im not feeling well..

so again, why am i here?

the girl deejay  in an fm station im listening to right now is  making my head ache. her english has that distict filipino accent but her tagalog really sucks. she cant seem to understand the difference between toyo and tuyo. and when a caller talks about sari-sari store, she got the meaning all mixed up. if it wasnt for this head ache i wouldve find her cute.

rich kids. they might look maarte..or maybe some are maarte for real. but maybe they just cant help it.

a friend reminded me that my birthday's getting near. i wonder if its the source of this rather low feeling lately. or maybe not.

oh, i made a new crush. he looks like my former classmate. nothing serious really. he's younger than me. so far we've been exchanging not more than 5 sentences all in all. but i like how he never use prefixes on me (prefix→i.e, ms., ma'am, madam, or worse, ate). i think he's nice. he's a little too familiar for someone who just came. but then not familiar enough to be called rude. i think he's just naturally friendly.

crush daw. huma highschool? whatever. maybe that's the source of the low feeling..

i wonder how is it like to fall like normal people do. where you can expect good things to come. unlike this, when all you can do is to let it pass because you know it cant be anyway. it plain sucks.                            

i remember an underground hospital and a doctor who went straight into conclusion. it cant kill her, so its fine to let her alone on this. that was the message the gestures conveyed.  they should have tried to check anyway. just to make her (the patient) feel like at least they tried. or maybe cling in for a few seconds of hope..is it really that hard?..had i been a doctor, will i do the same?

hope.. when its all you have and you got it withdrawn from you, how would you feel?

its a low day. its a sunday. and im off here..

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