hey. its thursday.

at home now. i decided to stop jobhunting for a while to think. pero yesterday and today two companies called to say that i was shortlisted. nakakatamad. im still thinking of turning them down. i actually turned down the 2nd one. grabe ako pa ang may ganang mag turn down ng company..shet.pag di ako umayos san na kaya ko pupulutin neto.

dad said ive got two options if i really want to have a job. 1st, accept one of the job offers or 2nd, go back to my first company...... the 2nd option ive long eliminated. dad has been trying to let me see the logic. and i know..i know he got a point. grabe ang laki talaga ng problema ko. sarili ko.

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last tue, shara called telling us the date of her wedding. to my horror, it landed to the date when we are suppose to meet the parents of my brother's fiance. hay..ang saket sa ulo. sabi nila, if there's a will, there's a way daw. basta ang alam ko lang, i need to attend both. jeez..kaylangan ko ng doppelganger .

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sighs..gusto ko ng time.. pak. ang dami ko na ngang time, ano pa bang gusto ko.

my plan is/was to actually get to this job that is outside of my field where i can earn twice or thrice the usual. this will help me save money that i can invest in stock market at sa biz namin ni yang. 5-days a week lang ang work, so i can get to take a tesda course. im thinking of studying baking or yung bar tending something na course.o kaya i can get back to school and study graphic arts. parang ganun. then, i can give my sundays to yang for our meet up. then i can have some time for seminars too, etc. time and money. its like hitting 2 birds in one stone. pero kasi..as dad said, hindi yun sigurado. ive been to 2 company's that offer such job. even my used-to-be-so-zealous head hunter seem to have given up na already. its been 2 days and he hasnt called yet. ewan. my last ace to that type of job said they'd be calling me next week to schedule me for an assessment test kasi they dont have a test schedule this week. the exam i took to another co, i failed tragically. kung magaaral ako before next week comes, i might make it, wont i?haiist...as dad said, hindi nga sigurado. really getting back to my first co would have been my best option..pero kasi nga...hay..kasi nga..ayoko. pag tinanggihan ko pa etong isang co na to, masisira na talaga ang record ko ang mauubusan na ko ng maganda gandang company.. sighs self.

gusto ko lang ng time. to learn new things.to be with my friends. with my family.enjoy life. to do a job where i can excel and be good in it. be beneficial...  nung mas bata pa ko, ang hiling ko lang ay mag land sa job kung san pwede akong maging beneficial at maituring na asset ng kompanya na pagtatrabahuan ko. hindi pa super big deal ang pera saken non. feeling ko ngayon din naman. ako parin yung dati. sobrang idealistic ang sarap nang batukan. pero kasi hindi naman na pwede yung katulad ng dati. 

bro getting married. dad having maintenance meds. house in on-going construction. bills. debts. name it. we have it. kahit yung cake na kaylangan kong bilhin sa darating ng bday ng dad ko prinoproblema ko pa..haha..kulang talaga sa hulog. shet, kaylangan ko na magtrabaho...shara's wedding in two weeks. i dont want to give her a card. i want to give her something good. its her wedding. a dear friend's wedding. sighs.. sa tingin ko hindi talaga totoong money is the root of all evil. kasi sa tingin ko kaylangan mo rin nang pera to show your love for people. of course, presence and action do count. but still, kaylangan parin ng pera. basta. sighs..

bahala na. 

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