friday, 10:26 in the evening.

how are you?

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seems like insomnia was extracted out of my vocabulary now, i really feel so sleepy. the training's over. id go live next week. im just neutral about it. but let's wait till i get to the actual scenario. damn.

i use to be this workaholic type, working for like 14 hours a day and sometimes 7 times a week. nakakacultural shock lang ang ganitong environment na super petix. sighs...siguro naguguluhan na saken ang universe kung san nya ko ilalagay. but, really, mother earth, im not complaining..but part of me is scared. i dont know. uncertainty.. fear of stagnation.. and a lot more things..sighs.. ang hirap magsulat. 

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weekend na tomorrow, but apparently, rest is still out of sight. injan's bro passed away. im gonna go to their house for the funeral. its been a while since i last saw injan and its really sad that this has to be the reason. pero promise, im so itching to tell her all my adventures, and i bet she too got her own share. sighs..but then, i know that she'll gonna recover. that, i really hope. she seems fine when i was talking to her thru text. but i dont really know. im gonna find out.

will be going out with mom tom too. going to tita's house. attend to stuff. really, i never felt how sociable my parents are until i quitted my first job. now im not so sure if that can be counted as a good thing. social life means money wasted. the payday is a few days away pa. with my wallet's content, i dont know how i can survive. damn. money-wise, tulad parin ako nung jobless pa ko. sheeet..pak meeen.

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im reserving my sunday to study and review stuff. im not sure if this is all worth it. i use to be scared of not being able to keep my job. now im scared that my job will not be able to keep me. see, i dont really fear losing a job, i just fear the potential embarrassment i might face if they're gonna kick me out.. sighs..sighs ulet..sighs talaga.. 

siguro, ang pwede ko lang gawin e gawin yung kaya ko. tapos yung hindi ko na kayang icontrol na mga bagay bagay e ipaubaya ko nalang sa universe. una, yun lang rin naman kasi ung choice na meron ako. pangalawa, wala rin naman kasing maso-solve ang pag aalala lang di ba. sighs..bahala na..

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haiiiis..

nakakatanda daw ang pag sa- sigh...mukha parin ba kong 27?taeness..watebs.

じゃあ。。

so much for this. goodnight.

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