panic eating.

4:16pm. the day's about to end pero wala paring nadadagdag sa nalalaman ko.

sentensya na bukas. pak. gusto kong magsakit sakitan..taeness..

..arrrg!!..MORE RICE PLEEEEAASE.

tapos sa halip na mag aral, nandito pa ko. very good.

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sighs..hindi ko alam kung baket nalulungkot ako today. pag nalulungkot ka tapos hindi mo alam ang dahilan, di ba parang ang laki ng problema mo non?ewan ko. signs of aging ba to?

i didnt make it to injan's brother's funeral yesterday, so i joined the procession for his burial today. i learned that the brother is 47 and he's single..got a kid he was never able to meet..and so on. actually, he was killed.. but as a form of respect, i wont be including the details here.

well, it just made me think that..what if..soulmate, destiny, or whatever you may call it is actually for real..and then, what if for some reason, my destiny, soulmate, whatever, had prematurely died. what will happen to me then???

aarg. whatebs. see, when we went to meet tito and tita yesterday, they keep on telling me that i shoudnt follow the footsteps of my other 3 tita's who got old and still hadnt married. so on so fort. this things are not really new to me, although i feel like as time passes by, they are getting more persistent.

the truth of the matter is, im not really that concern of growing old and remain unmarried. well, maybe partly. still, what im more concern about is not finding "it"..marriage and finding "it" may sound the same but they are actually different. i mean, you can find your "it" and not have him. or you may get married but not to your "it"..damn, do i really have to elaborate all this? ang hirap, men..basta.

ayun. ewan ko.

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today, G(or maybe the girlfriend) changed his fb status into "engaged"..the news have long reached me, but i dont know why it still sucks. i dont think im actually jealous or whatever. i guess im just---what? bitter? i dont know..

damn.

whatever. goodnight.

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