hey. its been a while, right?

the week was a roller coaster ride. jguy2 was in good mood for a couple of days until the issue about me having to go live was brought up again.

things particularly went wild yesterday that in the middle of our BCP i and the TL were pulled out for a meeting amongst the bosses of the boss. i dont know why jguy2 has to be this hard. damn..im getting really annoyed.

the setup was settled. i will undergo series of test that i should pass. but actually, failing is not gonna be an issue since had i fail, they'd just gonna ask the clients to extend my training for another month or so. but still, because i am so annoyed, i dont want to fail. i just dont want to give jguy2 that kind of satisfaction. I MUST NOT FAIL. damn. i wish i can say this with much more confidence.

his mood swing was in full swing yesterday which i found so immature and its already getting into my nerves.. jeez.. i have to pass. i am the type who hates failing after all. and plus, i remember what the bosses of the boss said during the meeting..

"ikaw na"

"dapat pumasa ka"

"wag ka mapressure"

things like that. labo. before the meeting with the bosses of the boss, another TL talked to me about the issue, and by then, i really felt bad for causing this so much trouble..but after seeing the bosses of the boss whom i haven't seen before, i cant help but feel...what? in awe? i dont know..parang starstrucked, something..ewan. because, see, mine is a huge company wherein bosses seem like mythical creatures..(ok, maybe this is exaggerated)..basta. ang weird na medyo natutuwa pa ko..haha.

--so all in all, it wasnt bad..

the bcp was not as bad as i thought. its actually fun pa nga. the people that i was with are of different shift, most of them, i havent really seen before and vice versa. there were some boys beside me talking in low volume when the boss said,"pag-usapan nyo pa ha..pinoy yan.nagtatagalog yan..kala nyo ha..naiintindihan kayo nyan.." Were they talking about me?? i think its very obvious that im not japanese..ang labo..haha. i remember during introduction, i was just saying hello to everyone and they were like, "haroo" and "harigatoh" in an attempt to sound like japanese.. maybe, i should have spoken more words other than hello to make it obvious na marunong ako magtagalog. talaga bang naisip nila na hindi ako ngtatagalog?parang ang weird kasi.haha..crazy.

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the TL and i had a few talks, i realize that she's kind of nice pala.

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maybe i should just focus on the things at hand. the series of test next week. jlpt on dec..jeez, baka maging suicide mode na naman ako neto after the exam. taenes..ayokong bumagsak.. wahh!!!

studies..

work..

rave stuff..

mom asking for my saturdays to help out for another medical mission near home

kerygma seminar soon

..

wait..my birthday's coming na pala..

ang fast paced ng buhay. the very opposite of what i used to have. true, it sometimes feel like a roller coaster ride, and most of the time, i do not feel safe at all..but clearly..i got what i wanted..and i think..i prefer this life over the other..

pero sana..maging maayos parin lahat.

tapos isa pag sana..

..

sana..

isang araw magising nalang ako,

na yung gusto ko,

gusto rin ako,

para everybody happy di ba??

wahh!!!did i just say that??eeeeeeeeeeeeeeew!

sigh.. i think im just lonely. maybe because shara is already married and my bro is getting married too. tapos, ako, i dont even have a boyfriend. jeez..ang pathetic..(slaps self at the face) arrrg!!

whatever.

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tama

first things first..

mag aaral nalang ako..

amp

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