to just stir whatever life there is that was left of me, im back.
yay!!
so, how are things going?its pretty much a lazy boring week as always. the highlight of the week when a bus i was riding collided to another bus, which made my mom think that im a magnet for vehicular accident because this was the 2nd time around. oh, well, no one died though. thankfully.
ive been feeling unwell for the past days. slightly feverish and barely sleeping due to clogged nose. been also having dreams of some guy that wants to teach me how to see ghost and supernatural stuff. this re-occurring dream has been freaking me out for more than a couple of days now. well, maybe, that's how life balances things.. when your life lacks action, your dreams would. i just hope that life will give me something pleasant next time.
my mind was floating the whole week due to a fever+flu+lack of sleep+grumbling stomach which is not a very good combination. i ve sent wrong emails twice today.. im not being defensive here, but i think this is not so me. i use to be this detail freak and all, and now, i cant believe that i overlooked such crucial details. sighs.. this is not good.
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under-motivated still. there are things i need to do but i just cant find the will to actually do them..
half way thru november. 15 days to go before the exam. my body is finding all the excuse it can get just to skip studying. i hate failing. but i hate studying just as much. sh*t, i can almost see my future in this...lakas maka suicide mode. wahhh!!! PENGING BLADE!!! T_T
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23-24 would be the kerygma conference. im really looking forward to this. 
our account also happened to have its 10th year anniv on 23rd(if i remember it right). sa dinamidami ng petsa sa kalendaryo, sumakto pa dun sa date ng conference. i really feel bad for not being able to come. i mean, its been more than 3 months since ive been here pero iilan lang ang tao sa opis na alam ko ang pangalan , like mga 6..oo, ganun kakonti. i may have bumped into some of them in the hallways and corridors at malamang hindi ko marerecognize na part sila ng account and maybe likewise, hindi rin nila marerecognize na kasamahan nila ko. this is rather sad. my ability to socialize is not even that good to begin with, that's why i dont know if things can actually get better eventually. but well, bahala na.
i think this is my fear even back in my first co. to leave without having anyone notice that your gone...yeah, it didnt happen in my first co because ive stayed long enough.. but in this co, im not so sure.
actually, lahat ng part ng buhay ko ngayon, hindi ako sure.
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pressing stuff at home. im really starting to feel drained.
ang lovelife naman, as always, zero.
talking about lovelife makes me miss injan. i miss devising ridiculous schemes with her on how to catch the guys we like. we dont actually do them of course, but i just miss the fun. wala na kong mapagkwentuhan ng inexistent lovelife ko. i wonder how she is now.
sometimes, ang tough talaga ng buhay
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sabi sa nabasa kong libro, life has to be lived no matter what.
at siguro, kahit gano pa kahirap nyan, kung di k nyan kayang patayin, then, it can only turn u into a better person.
with that..good luck to us all.
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9:49... seems like ill be lacking of sleep again tonight.
goodnight
{ 本} Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children
{ 気分} having a tough life but standing still
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