hey. sinisipag akong magsulat lately. how are you?
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had the exam yesterday. last year, when i went home after the exam, i had this look of death in my face as if the world had just fallen in on me. but yesterday, i went home all smiles. bro asked how the exam was and i told him "edi wala, wala akong nasagot", which he didnt believe. he said i always say the same thing and always ended up passing. but this time could be an exemption. even i find it weird na hindi ako in suicide mode ngayon. i know i did all i can. and maybe passing wouldnt be fair din naman. pero dahil sa believer ako ng miracle, gusto ko paring maniwala na may gagawin ang universe para pumasa parin ako ulet this time. pero pass or fail, life goes on. i guess, this time, i wanna be friends with failure. because, in failure, we learn----echos!! anoba!!Of course, gusto kong pumasa!!wahuhu. taeness.
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met up with my former colleagues yesterday.
just like the old times ulet. they are still the same crazy people that i left a few months less than a year ago.
nandun na naman yung "dahil sayo" joke na kamag-anak ng dating "tabi tayo" joke, "ako nalang" joke at yung iba pang rated PGish variant. kung nagkataon lang na hindi joke to, e di may lablayf na sana ko ngayon.. wahehehe..eeee!!haha. kainess..
pero, pramis, nakakamiss din talaga ang mga lokong to. i was really happy when i saw them all. yung happy kind of sad. sad kasi, i dont know when will i see them again. or, if i ever will. i knew that this will happen. i knew it since i decided to leave that this will be included in the package. parting of ways.. uncertainty on whether you'll meet them again or not. see, this may sound sad, but i think, this made me have that kind of thinking na, each and every person should be cherished now that they are still here. na its ok to show them that you care. na its ok to let them know. na its ok to say it..kasi you are not so sure if you'll ever have that chance again. and really, there is that sense of freedom in thinking that way and acting that thinking out.
yesterday, i saw jan and abe-kun at the exam venue. i dont know why every time i see someone i know lately, para bang bigla akong sumasaya..feast effect ba to? ang weird weird.. but at least its not bad. i think i really made a remarkable progress in terms of developing may social skills. but, i still have room for improvements of course.
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so, on the exam din, someone and i crossed paths again. kung iisipin, imposible din naman talagang hindi kami magkita on an event like this. but it wasnt bad. he actually came up to me and asked,
"kamusta na? galit ka pa ba saken?"
to which i replied,
"hindi. mejo awkward lang"
see, i can really be too honest sometimes lalo na pag cornered na. i hope it gave him some peace or whatever on his end. or that is, if nag ka effect man sa kanya. ewan ko din. you know what, kahet kasama ko yung dating kagalit ko, i never really felt out of place. awkward,oo, pero hindi out of place. siguro kasi, this people have been my 2nd family for almost five years, at sa tingin ko, hindi isang away-bata lang ang sisira non. sa totoo lang, even if he didnt walk up to me that day, hindi parin naman ako galit sa kanya. hindi naman talaga kasi ako nagalit sa kanya in the first place.
but still, it gave me peace.. sana sya rin. world peace..
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work matters.
qm's on vacation until weds. im on my own. hindi effective ang dasal ko na sana walang tumawag ngayon dahil ang daming tumawag ngayon.. akala ko nga hindi na ko lalabas ng buhay sa opis. huhu..hay.. 2 days pa bago matapos ang kalbaryong ito. pero siguro, heaven's way na rin to to push me into doing my best. sa tingin ko mas marami pa akong natutunan today than the rest of my live weeks combined. pero sana naman wala akong maencounter na pasaway na customer gaya nung last week. iniisip ko palang naiiyak na ko..wahuhu..
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im off to a Personal Financial Coaching And Financial Literacy Seminar on sat. too bad, yang and i wasnt able to attend in the same schedule. so, solo-solo kami..hindi tuloy ako masyadong excited. pero siguro, i should take this chance to meet people and improve my social skills ulet. hayy.. goodluck talaga saken.
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8:32pm, why, i so love stating the time..
see you soon!!
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{ 本} 100-10-20-70
{ 気分} happy and scared at the same time
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