its been a while.

hey.

i guess, everyone's busy due to the festive season..

so, how are you?

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ill be out of work the whole week next week. i guess, after being a bum for like 2 months a few months ago, this long vacation is not really something im looking forward to. for one, there will be no feast this sunday and the next feast will be next next sunday pa. so right now, i really dont know what im gonna do with this too much time. i hope i can find a way to spend my time in a way that will earn me money.

anyway, ill be meeting bff later. actually im kind of running late now, and yet here i am, painting my nails(while typing this). taeness. our supposed to be palawan trip was reduced to a full-body massage session. said she run out of budget..kaya, eto. i think, bff will be buying her own house that's why she's cutting down her expenses. im yet to know. maybe laters.

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goodbye 2013 na.. even know when its still here pa, 2013 already feels like ages ago to me na. i remember craving for change back then when i welcomed 2013..now, my 2014 appears to carry tons of change with it for me to even crave at all. it actually scares me. pero, sabi nila, kung gusto mo daw maging successful, you should be comfortable with being uncomfortable. change causes me to be uncomfortable. the current setup of my life is actually sound as it is, but 2014 is presenting me so much change that i feel like it will be rocking the soundness of my life..

im terrified. yes. but bring it on, life.

bro and sis-in-law will go back to the house on the 30th and they'd gonna live with us n. i dont know what will happen after this, i just hope that things will be alright. change..

sa work naman, this new applicant (who was a former dj to some local radio station) might be starting to work with me na by the time ill get back to work next year. well,of course, that is, if he'll accept the offer. personally, id prefer having a girl for a partner. we already have enough boys in the office. i guess it would be more fun if id have someone to talk girl stuff with instead. change...

on january would be my 6th month at work(if i counted it right). im giving myself another 6 months after that, to plan, think, and act my plan out and have results. 6 months doesnt sound enough, but that is what i want my ultimatum to be. im not getting any younger anyway. change..

i left my 1st job to kick myself out of complacency. i am far from being complacent now. danger is what lurks every moment and uncertainty is as always present as the air itself. change...

i should be having results now.

next year, i want a better life. im gonna get a better life.

heavens..please be with me on this..

i really scared. of not making it. of failing. of seeing my life.. my youth.. my dreams.. slip before me.. pass me by..

im really really scared.

sighs..

still, im gonna give it my all for this.. watch me.. 

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bring it on, world!!sighs.. kaya ko to!!

{ 気分} cheering myself on, but actually trembling inside

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