saw a former officemate last weds. i attended the last stretch of seminar i am yet to attend at COL that took place in the same bldg where i use to work.

after a few chats, i asked "ang aga mo ha..hindi ata kayo ot.." and former officemate replied, "ganun talaga pag leader na eh"..

i think, my old maldita self would be like "anak ng..what??!! *bleep bleep bleep bleep*!!!!!" or "*tooot tooot* ka ang yabang mo nasasapawan ako!!!" or something.  but i didnt feel that way.  maybe i matured in a way..or maybe i just stopped caring.. or maybe i am too full of my own worries for my life to actually bother comparing myself to others..

my 1st co still haunts me sometimes like a ghost. and i find it surprising that effects diminish faster that i expected to. i tried inspecting my insides on what i really feel about this and found out that i dont have any trace of regrets for leaving..

it may not be the wisest choice ive ever made. i am yet to fully get myself out of the trouble that ive put myself into..pero kahet ganun, hindi parin ako nagsisisi.

but that doesnt mean that im happy where i am now.

tsk. i might be doing something rash again soon. i dont know how long can i put up with my life's setup right now..wahhh!! i really dont know.

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went to fr. m's mass after that. its been months. he's still as awesome as ever. grabe sobrang namiss ko to. maybe ill start going to my weds mass again. i want to get rid of this lost lost feeling.

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oh, its friday.

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