was in a rush as i was trying to finish our article before 12 and yet our internet connection decided to chillax and slow down like its having a vacation. grr.
but im done!yey!
been searching for this particular file din. i was pretty sure its just in the net. i tried different browsers. all not working. i wonder if it was deleted for some reason. and then i remember ive sent that file to a friend back then, so with so much patience i check my email's sent items only to find it empty. great. i remember i deleted everything in my mail box. arg.
so i digged back some backup file from years ago and found it. grabeng effort. why am i doing all these? jeez.
feeling the need to rush now as ive slacked off big time this week. i realized im not as disciplined as i thought i am.
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things are not really looking good at work. ive given myself another year to get myself out of here and now im not so sure if id make it to another year. was particularly worried kanina because partner texted last night about some interview he had at some company. partner assured me though that he doesnt plan to leave just yet. said he'll leave if i'll leave. he told me to consider going to that other company together. the offer's attractive. only, i dont think id like to have a 4th company at all.. i want this to be my last... as to how on earth am i gonna do that, im not sure. sighs..
the stuff yang and i need for this other venture we had in mind will arrive at around nov. that's a good 1 month away. been thinking of doing some stuff on my own as well. i contacted a supplier a few days ago. i thought id be able to get what i need from them today, but they backed out. the last ace i had in mind, i found out was recently demolished. great. so i guess i need to start over again. the good thing is i do not feel disheartened at all. though not motivated either..but at least not disheartened.
sighs.. truth be told ive been pondering lately on how nice it would be to just give it all up and let things be. to not strive for a better life and let "destiny" lead the way and all the BS that people believe just so they can justify why they're not amounting to something. Dont get me wrong. i know there are people who are genuinely happy and contented with what they have and that's ok. Its just that ive been hearing things i hate hearing lately. I often dont give a damn but i guess i just reached my threshold. good thing i have loads of extra patience or else they'll be really really sorry.
sighs.. PMS, is that you??haha..sighs ulet..
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its a weekend. j-holiday again on mon so its actually a long weekend for me. i so want to just slack off, read books or do nothing...but i need to go out and set myself out there to get a life. i wonder if these are all worth it. we will see..
{ 音楽} yui-rolling star
{ 本} dr. a
{ 気分} more chocolates please..
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