a proof of my html genius. i cant even view my own entries. dang.
a lot of things.
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we watched 50shades yesterday. it was boring. not worth corrupting my innocent mind for. i wonder if its the very concept that i found lousy coz i dont find any appeal to the book either. not because im being pa-innocent or whatever. ive read and seen stuff similar to those before. there were crappy ones, but there were good ones too..--50 shades definitely dont belong to the "good" category
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i signed up for a training for servants. 2nd sunday namin yesterday. 3 sundays more.
know what, i think i need to learn not to see everyone as a prospect whenever i meet someone new. well, really, i dont..its just that.. well, he's thin..and tall..and lanky..and he wears glasses. so he sort of reminds me of.... sighs... ayun. takte lang, awkwardness overload. ang dami namin sa group 2 at lahat sila late. so we spent the 1st 15 minutes of the class na kami lang dalawa. kung nakakamatay siguro ang awkwardness na-deds na ko. sighs.. pero keri lang. tingin ko, exposure daw ang gamot sa fear. at tsaka practice makes perfect. pag paulit ulit ko sigurong gawin to eventually mawawala na rin ung awkwardness..parang torture sa sarili, oo..pero i know ako rin yung mgbebenefit dito in the long run. sabi nga ni bro JC nung day 1 namin, i-minimize daw yung awkwardness sa buhay--at yun yung ine-aim ko ngayon. next sunday, im gonna make sure ill be releasing my amazing flirting prowess.---echos. haha.
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nag email na si MM. he gave me options kung pano ko makukuha yung prize. at wala sa options ang makita sya or makilala manlang sya. hayst. he sounds no-nonsense sa email. mejo intimadating pero fascinating parin. naalala ko nga sa kanya si A... grabe, nasan na ba si A?? hayst.. ma me-meet ko pa ba si MM? ayoko na syang kulitin pa. baka maasar na sya saken. hayy, bahala na nga. sabi nya iido-drop nya daw yung item sa mega by weds. im there on weds.. i wish i can tell him "lets just meet nalang" kaso baka maasar na sya saken. hayyy.. nakakalungkot. ewan.
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ang dami nagbabago. my time na gusto ko naring iwanan to pero may time kasi na its hard to breathe and the only way to improve your breathing is thru writing your feelings down. gaya ngayon..ang hirap huminga.. ang hirap kumain.. hindi naman ako in love. takte. haysst.
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giving up JFE. siguro this means move on na. may mga days na hindi ako makapaniwala na hinayaan lang nila akong mawala.. i mean, ANG GOOD CATCH KO KAYA!!.. haha.. well, whatever. i know what i can offer. bro said loss daw nila yun if hindi nila ako tinanggap. siguro nga mayabang ako, pero i think he's right. pero posibleng mali rin ako. i mean JFE will still be JFE even without me in it. siguro panahon na para babaan ko ng onti ang tingin ko sa sarili ko--- pero ayoko nga, bakit ba?!sighss..(now im hoping against hope that no one here in my friend list works for JFE.haha.)
parang ang hirap lang ulet magpatuloy ulet ngayon. parang lalo akong nalost sa kung anong gagawin ko na ulet. kung tutuusin, wala naman talagang nagbago.. kaso pag nakita mo na pala ung chance na makuha mo yung pagbabago na gusto mo, tapos hindi mo nakuha, parang ang hirap na ulet bumalik dun sa dati..basta ewan.
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will be clicking "post entry" now. hindi ko manlang mababasa ang sarili kong entry. takte, kelan ba aaus ang html na to..
sighsss..
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alam mo ba yung feeling ng pagod na pagod kahit wala ka namang ginagawa? my feelings exactly.
sighs ulet.
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