finally weekend.
for the whole week i was longing for this day to come just so i can finally have a decent sleep and yet here i am wide awake waiting for this snail-paced internet connection to finally post my ad in olx.
1:06 am. its officially saturday. i usually have my weekends planned but ive been in a hermit mode for more than a couple of weeks now.. plus, i think i badly need sleep.
recieved a text from some ministry people. i havent come since the year started. i know i should go.. but my body's screaming against it.
all the plans i sought out since march started, failed. i dont have the time to sulk and be depressed about it and so im setting out a modified battle plan that will hopefully get results. im not as motivated about it as i was before because ive lost a favored target. im just reminding myself that every "no" is a step closer to a "yes"... so one "no" down.. i dont know how much more to go, but, bring it on!!
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bought 3 books last week, one of which is a tiny book entitled, #Hugot: Understanding the misunderstood by Cherry Camille Depano. Read it at the bus on my way home. Had it finished before the 2-hours worth bus ride was over. i mustve looked neurotic back then, laughing at one time and then crying at another. my tearducts had been exceptionally leaky recently. but i think im starting to accept the fact that as i age, i can no longer hold my tears back as efficiently as i use to. and i think, ok lang naman yun, di ba?
natuwa lang ako dun sa line sa book that went into something like, ang ibon daw, madaling hulihin pag nakatali. pero mas madaling hulihin pag may sugat. usapang rebound. its not that i can relate. mejo nabother lang ako dun sa "mas madaling hulihin pag may sugat" part.. para kasing ang dalas kong may sugat.
another book na binili ko this week e yung tagalog translation ng isa sa mga paborito kong libro. i dint realize na it was just a translation of something i already own that's why i bought it. pero ok narin. ive read the original book a lot of times that i actually know the contents by heart pero iba parin pala yung dating pag nakasulat sya sa tagalog. i decided to work on what ive learned. its hard to silence these screaming voices in my head that says 'your effort could go futile so why waste time when you might not get it anyway' kind of thing. Minsan pinaka mahirap talagang kalaban ang sarili. goodluck naman saken.
been buying a lot more books than i often do monthly. naisip ko kasi to cut back expenses on seminars and invest on books instead since its cheaper. Jay Castillo will be having his Usapang foreclosed properties seminar tomorrow. its like the part 2 of the seminar that he had last year-and i was there. its sad that i wont be there tomorrow. sighs.. daig pa kasi ng inflation rate ang pagtataas ng presyo ng mga seminars per year. siguro jay was preparing something more comprehensive than what he had last year, pero kahet na..pass muna ko.. im not really that poor. i just want to save some more so that i can fund a business idea when it comes..or at least just in case. i want to get my hands dirty soon. masyado na akong nalulunod sa theory, i think i need real life experience this time around.. kaso minsan nakakatamad talaga.
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2:14 am. takte, gising parin ako. workers will come by 6 i need to transfer to another house to have some place to sleep by then. parang hindi na naman ata ako matutulog.
dang, i cant wait for this construction to be over.
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2:21. sleep, here i come..
{ 音楽} second hand serenade - awake
{ 気分} half asleep while ranting
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