watched this Dove ad. grabe nakakaiyak. huhu. SOOO moving. urgh.

jeez, I hate how aging makes your eyes incredibly leaky. i swear i wasnt like this when i was younger.

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"every day, I go through the average door. but yesterday was a unique day. so i chose to go through the beautiful one."-1:55

i dont know, but i find that girl so brave i want to give her a hug.. huhu.. sh*t...why am i being like this??! so senti. eow.

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been feeling upset for more than 24 hours now. i tried examining my thoughts trying to find the reason why, pero hindi ko talaga alam. plus im having this dying thoughts again. see, i am a woman, I have a reliable intuition. so it's kind of eerie that im having these thoughts. i've been into a number of accidents already so im quite sure im not scared of dying. the thoughts itself is not scaring me either. im just sad. if things end here, i feel like ive failed myself, my loved ones... the universe and everything else. ganun.. ewan ko. am i dying soon??

and if im not dying yet, why am i not doing something to change my life the way i want to before the very end?

was crying(again) kanina to the Heavens.. i dont know why im crying. i just need to. im upset about something i dont know. am i losing days? i feel so unfulfilled. near zero motivation. and it seems like the word inspiration was temporarily(or at least i hope) removed from my vocabulary.

n years ago. i dreamed of becoming something great. of conquering the world. of being beneficial to the society or the world or the whole universe even.. and then n years later... here i am. i am just me. not the ME that i thought i would be or wanted to be.

i wonder if its too late to start now. if im not dying, then, its probably not. but i have no way of knowing if i am or i am not. if i know that im am, then its too late. if i know that im not, will i do things differently?

will i do things differently?

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sighs.. im not happy.

{ 気分} not happy

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