Second day of sleeping in my parents' bed. Since I heard about cristina's death, I found it hard to sleep alone in my own room. Tried to sleep with the lights on...it was just impossible.  I needed to wake dad up so I can take his place in their bed and make him sleep in my room instead.. have u seen a 30 yo woman who still sleep next to her mom? Yeah, not something to be proud of, right?

Cris was one of the people who I shared ideas and theories with. We saw each other cry, laugh, get angry and so on.. we talked about death too. I've kept her many letters for me. She had a habit of writing letters.she was a great writer.  One of the best I know.. I wonder of she's OK about dying...  may Tao bang naging OK about dying?

Cancelled my gala with my tm girls to see cris in her wake. The people i would go and attend her wake with can only go sat night. I could go on my own.. Hindi nmn malaki any lugar nila sa citrus, I'm pretty sure na if magtatanong tanong ako, i can get to the right house kung saan nandun yung wake nia.. i just cant find the courage to do that on my own. I can't imagine seeing my own friend inside a casket... tsk. Hindi ko gusto ung ganito.. huhu..

Nasa langit n kaya si cris? or is her soul still here since wala p siang 40 days? or what if wala talagang mga ganun? What if life is all there is at after nun wala na? Ewan ko...

kamusta k nb cris? Naalala ko nuon ng naikwento mo n npanaginipan mo dati ung sarili mong lamay. We were in highschool then. Mkikita mo kaya kami sa wake mo? gusto kong isa ako sa mga taong makikita mo n dadalaw sau kahet ang totoo nian natatakot ako...

Rest in peace, cris. For sure, wala nang syringes and blood extraction sa heaven... ikaw ung nagsabi sakin non n "once a friend will always be a friend." you will never cease to be one, cris...

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