Was your Christmas merry?

I spent the last 3 days with headache that my Christmas was just a series of eating and sleeping and eating and sleeping. I think i haven't slept and ate this much in a while. I know that these are just symptoms of the real issue that no one has to know.

Ugh, shoot. My head still hurts.

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For the last few years, my usual visitor every Christmas was Ana. One of her 4 children, Mauel, is my inaanak. Today, I had other visitors aside from Ana and her kids: Injan, husband and their baby boy, my inaanak, Xyrus. It sure damaged my wallet to the point that it seems to need a CPR already, but still I was happy I was able to see them.

It's such a huge thing, marriage, building a family, having kids and so on. I've seen how it changed my friends' and my brother's life and it's no where near fancy that's why it buffles me why people are pressuring me to get married when even their own married life doesn't look that much appealing.

But it sure can get lonely though at times. I guess, maybe, we all need to have something that we can call our own. Gaya nung unang beses na nagkaron ako ng cellphone. Mom had a cellphone then that never ran out of load and i can use it anytime. Pero iba parin pag sayo yung phone. Pede mo palitan yung housing. Lagyan ng backlight. Pwede mo ihagis pag feel mo or kaya pag pikon na pikon ka na sa mundo, pwede mong pagbuburahin lahat ng laman ng phonebook mo. Sayo e.

Iba kasi yung sayo. 

Sa tingin ko, may namimiss lang akong ilang mga bagay bagay.

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I might meet Gabby to work on the club sched a few days from now. Maybe the other officers will be there too. I will be seeing bff and the boyfie soon too. Truth is, I'm not really looking forward to any of these. Kasi kahit na parang hindi mabuti para sa emotional health ko, i think i just want to be alone for now.

11:31 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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