Last night, I talked to Mom and Dad about my plan to resign. Earlier sa office, sinabi ko na rin kay Kayla. I'll be sending my resignation letter on Monday, para hanggang February 15 nalang ako sa office.

Haaaayst. Ewan ko.

Nag post yung dati kong workmate na may urgent hiring daw sa kanila for J-speakers. I was already typing my message for him, nang maisip ko, "teka, gusto ko muna magpahinga".

Sobrang dami ng ticket namin kahapon. 30+, at naninigas na yung kamay ko from too much typing. Even my arms, nangangalay na rin. 

They pulled 6 people from Espoire project to focus on JT tickets. Tatlo nalang kaming natira sa BAU. Hindi ko maintindihan bakit hirap na hirap silang magdagdag ng tao. Pag Friday, 2 lang kami. Pag may nagkasakit or nag leave, kawawa yung natitira.

Tapos, ginawa pa nila akong crisis writer. I'm on my first ticket ever. Si Grace yung crisis manager. I hate working with Grace. It's obvious that she doesn't like me, which is fine, pero kasi, yung dislike nya sa tao, nagrereflect sa trabaho. And since I'm not the type na uupo lang pag inaapi, ibang way ang ginagawa nya to bully me.

All good sana kung hindi ako crisis writer and won't have to work with Grace.

But then, this is not only about Grace. I'm tired. I feel like I'm gonna get sick for real if this goes on. Hanggang ngayon, masakit parin ang arms at kamay ko.

Kanina while eating lunch at the office, mejo naiyak ako ng maisip ko na I won't be able to provide more for my family. Hindi ko na sila mati treat sa masasarap na restaurant, or mapapasyal sa ibang bansa.

I feel so sorry for my Mom and Dad. I want to give them the best life. Habang nabubuhay pa sila at kasama ko pa sila. Pano ko gagawin yun if I no longer have this high-paying job?

Tokwa. Naiiyak na naman ako.

Pero ayoko na talaga mag stay dito. I know things here will not get better soon. Lahat ng tao dito overworked, except yung mga nasa Espoir. I'm technically a backup for Espoir, pero tokwa, ano ako, robot?

Ayoko na.

Basta. Kaya ko to. Gagawa ako ng paraan to earn more money kahit wala akong trabaho. Kaya ko to.

I'm gonna find a way to give an even better life—the best life, for my family and for myself. Kaya ko to.

Haaaaaa.

Kaya ko to.

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