Entries for February, 2025
That company who had me take a Berlitz language assessment, reached out. Said they received the results of my assessment but didn't receive the speaking and listening part. They asked me to let them know if I haven't taken it yet, so they can reschedule. I told them I already did. I wonder if they lost the results, and if I'd need to have a retake. If yes, then that will work on my favor.
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Kanina, I called out my cat, and he rushed back home upon hearing my voice. Mom said, "paano pag wala ka dito? E sakin di nakikinig yan."
Haaaa. Sa totoo long, kung hindi issue ang pera, I want to stay here at home, and be with my family, and my cats. I'm not sure if I'd be able to find a fully wfh job. I read somewhere from back in my previous company na government mandated yung rto. Like, pwede mag hybrid, but not 100% wfh. Something like to help the economy recover after the pandemic or something.
Well, there are non-bpo jobs, pero kasi...
Ewan. Bahala na.
I told Mom I'm going to work 1 year to save up, then resign and rest for 5 months, then find work again. I plan to spend the 5 months traveling with my parents, and just spending time at home with my family and my cats. Age is not usually an issue sa call center. I plan to study for N2 so that it'll be easier to get a job, and with better pay. Mom said, gawin ko na daw 2 years para mas maraming ipon. But I'm thinking I want to do it while my parents can still walk. Mom then said, "e di mag wheelchair". Mom's really optimistic.
I want my parents to live forever. I want to be able to be with them for another 70 years pa.
Yung mga companies na nag respond sa application ko e mostly in Mandaluyong and Taguig. 1 is hybrid, and the other is fully onsite. Even yung hybrid one, kailangan ko parin mag work onsite for 6 months during training. Which means, I'll be needing to rent a place in case I get accepted. Minimum of 6 full months of not seeing my family and my cats during weekdays. Sa totoo lang, nalulungkot ako.
But what else can I do? I really need money soon, lalo na't bagsak ang stockmarket at hindi advisable mag benta.
Haaa.
Lord, pahingi ng quick and easy 1,000,000 pesos.
01:12 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Not feeling great.
Kahapon, nag effort ako mag make up at mag outfit para sa camera-on job interview. Kaso nag hingalo yung laptop na hinirap ko sa kapatid ko, at yung walang pasensyang interviewer e nagsabi na reschedule nalang daw. Oh well.
So bukas yung bagong sched. Hindi na ko mag aayos. Will connect both sa laptop and phone para may backup sakaling maghingalo ulet yung laptop.
Speaking on hingalo. I had a dream last night. 3 of our relatives died daw. Nakalimutan ko yung iba except kay Tito Y who is very much alive pa. I told Mom this morning, pero wapakels sya. Lol. Asawa yun ng Tita ko sa side ni papa. Kaya siguro wapakels si mamabear. That Tito lives in Canada, so hindi naman kami close, but he has been kind to us though.
Well, it was just a dream anyway.
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Not it best state. I have 3 ongoing job application. Yung isa dun e mag wa 1 month nang ongoing. So, IDK. Yung other 2 e inendorse lang ng 2 different job agencies. Though I frequently check job search sites, wala naman akong maapplyan masyado dahil ang lalayo at fully onsite.
Push.
Nag-aalala ko. Pero seriously, ano bang pwede kong gawin other than to keep going and keep trying, di ba?
The one that I'll be having interview with tomorrow e fully WFH. I want to get hired there. Nag review ako today, and I've given all I can. So bukas, the rest is up to the Universe na. Nakalagay sa job posting e native level yung hinahanap, so IDK why they considered my application. Basta, I will do my best.
Let's do this.
Iniisip ko if may negative effect ba ang pag sign everytime, but just to be sure, let's avoid it.
Matatapos din to. Magiging okay din ang lahat.
06:10 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I want to live life with effortless ease.
EE.
I submitted a video introduction to a propective employer. Ayoko sana kasi baka kung saan nila gamitin yung video ko. When I told Mom, she said, "naku, baka gawan ka ng video na nakahubad". Lol. That doesn't scare me anymore. I mean, at this age, sa totoo lang, wapakels na. Wahaha.
Another interview tomorrow.
It's been 2 months since I started actively job hunting. Dati akala ko 2 months na yung pinakamatagal na job-hunt duration ko. Tokwa. Ang hirap hindi mag-alala, ma depress, at mag self-pity.
Pero I remember back then, pag nadedepress ako, the more painful it is, the faster I managed to get myself out of the situation. Parang yung line na nabasa ko saying, "pure hell forces action" something.
I have goofy niece and nephew, plus, I also have Mom. No matter how bad the situation is, hindi ko naman talaga mafeel yung "pure hell" since I have them. And that also brings me a diffent kind of fear.
Being unemployed gives me fear of being unable to provide.
Loving my family gives me fear that a day will come when I no longer have anyone to provide for.
Hindi ko pa rin maintindihan yung nabasa ko sa somewhere (I think, sa bible) na fear is the opposite of love daw.
I don't know why my love always comes with accompanying fear. Mali ba yung way ko of loving.
Well, idk.
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Tita sent me a message the last time. Nangungutang ng 250K. She borrowed 150K to me the last time, hindi pa bayad yung 50 + yung promise nyang interest na 20K. I told Tita na wala akong trabaho for a year now.
Hindi ako mahilig magpautang, but if I had an extra money, I think I'd help Tita out. My other Tita ran away with her money kasi. This Tita owns a school which was once thriving, until my other Tita withdrew the money from the school's account, and ran away with it.
Well, hindi ko naman alam ang full story.
Sabi ni Tita she'll pay her balance daw sakin soon as she gets the government subsidy sa school nila. Sabi ko kahit wag nya na muna bayaran at asikasuhin nya muna yung problem ng school, but she insisted. Well, wala pa naman syang bayad, so okay lang rin.
Haaaa.
Kahapon, bumili si mama ng ice cream para sa mga kids. Syempre kasama ako. I usually buy 3 tubs, total of 5-6 litters of ice cream para saming lahat. Pero kahapon, pinagkasya namin yung 1 tub parang sa aming 6.
Hindi na ako sanay sa kahirapan. Lol.
Nung bumili kami ng ice cream, humirit yung nanay ko na bilhan ko daw sya ng cornetto, which I did. Alam kong ang gusto nya e yung kitkat na ice cream cone keneme, pero dahil sa alam nyang mahal, nagsettle na sya sa cornetto. I feel sorry for Mom. I wanted to buy her that kitkat ice cream and more.
Magiging maayos din ang lahat. Malalagpasan din namin to.
04:37 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
