Tita E passed away the night of May 14. Last night was the first night of her wake. Ayoko ng corpses. Ayoko sanang pumunta, but the other option was to be left alone at home ng gabi, so sumama nalang ako kila mama. Ok naman. Hindi ko nalang tiningnan yung kabaong. I got to talk with my cousins and it was fun. Mom and Dad plans to go there again tonight. Every night until the burial, actually. Ayoko na. Kaya ko kayang maiwan mag-isa sa bahay? Gah.

For some reason, it doesn't feel as scary as back when my 18-year-old neighbor died. Siguro kasi mejo expected na yung nangyari kay Tita since she had been sick for a while, and she was already spending some time in the hospital.

Rest in peace, Tita E.

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Para sa unemployed, ang daming ganap, at hindi ako magkandaugaga sa gawain. I am trying to finish a project, pero hindi ko maasikaso dahil panay ang alis naming mag-anak. I also have an ongoing application, though hindi naman talaga ako nag-aapply these days because of the project I've been working on. Final interview ko sa Monday. Nung binasa ko yung review ng company e parang hindi maganda. Bahala na. 

Law and contract-related yung work. Engineering ang educational background ko, at mostly IT naman ang work experiences. Hindi ako masyadong nag-eexpect, but I still happened to pass their assessment.

Kung matutuloy to, I will need to make a few changes sa plans ko with my ongoing project. Since wala namang masyadong progress, okay lang rin siguro. Best part sa company na ito e 3x a month lang ang work onsite. The rest e WFH. Sabi ni mama e maganda daw kung makukuha ako. Hindi ko alam. Kinakabahan din ako. Pakiramdam ko kasi e higher level ng Japanese ang need dito. Pero tokwa, I need money na.

Naniniwala ako na minsan may mga bagay talaga na kahit di pilitin e mapupunta parin sayo. Hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari. Bahala ka na, Universe.

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