Final interview. Next step is Berlitz. Berlitz na naman.

I asked if ano ba yung need nilang JLPT level. E N2 daw. I am only N3. So, I don't really know what to expect. I took Berlitz before, and the results was N3. Will it be any different this time? Sure, pwede akong mag gambatte and try to score higher, pero ano? Pag dating sa actual work, kamote?

Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko nga rin alam kung gusto ko ba to. Their terms are super ideal though. It's a miracle I've gotten this far. 

------

Burial ni Tita E yesterday. Makikipaglibing dapat kami. Nakahanda na yung damit ko. After breakfast, I took a bath. Tapos derecho sa kwarto na nakabukas ang aircon. Bigla akong gininaw. Lumabas ako ng kwarto kung saan walang aircon. I still felt weird. I felt nauseous. Tumitindig din yung balahibo ko. I told Mom and Dad. Thinking na magiging okay rin agad yung pakiramdam ko, umupo muna ako sa my dining area. I was feeling weaker by minutes and the sick feeling was getting worse. I rested my head sa dining table, but it didn't help getting me better. Mom tried to take my BP. Nag error yung monitor. To check if sira lang ba, Mom tried it on herself. Gumana naman. Pero sakin, even after several tries, hindi talaga gumana. Error parin. I was feeling even worse then. It was hard to raise my arm for Mom to put on that clothe thingy of the BP monitor around my arm. Mom said ang putla ko rin daw.

Umakyat ko sa kwarto, turn off the aircon, nag jacket at nag kumot. Ginaw na ginaw ako. Aalis yung karo ng 10AM, it was past 9AM then, so I gave up the idea of going. Magpapaiwan sana si Mama to take care of me, but I told her to go. I knew she wanted to. Sa 3 nights na naglamay for Tita, we were there every night. I was actually looking forward na makipaglibing 'coz that was the rare time na makikita ko yung mga kamag-anak namin na hindi ko usually nakikita. Tokwa, nagkasakit pa ko. Only Mom and Dad ended up going.

I described my symptoms to chatgpt. Sabi nya e THERMAL SHOCK daw. By the time na nakabalik na sila mama galing sa pakikipaglibing, I was wearing 3 layers of jackets, 2 layers of fluffy blankets, tas naka medyas at pajama pa ko, pero giniginaw parin ako. I asked mom to give me hot drinking water. After kong uminom, medyo nawala na yung ginaw, and after about an hour, pinagpapawisan na ko.

Feeling ko tuloy, hindi ako pinasama ni Tita sa pakikipag libing. Or baka nagkataon lang. Okay lang din.

RIP nalang po, Tita. I know you're in a better place na.

------

Hindi ko maintindihan kung anong nararamdaman ko. Malulungkot ako at mag-aalala kung hindi ko makukuha ulet ang work na to. But at the same time, I don't feel thrilled about going back to the corporate world.

Gabayan at pagpalain sana ako ng Langit.

05:35 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

コメントを書く