The past days were difficult. Kagabi, dinala namin si mama sa ER dahil ayaw parin bumaba ang BP nya. Today, I needed to quickly clean up and feed the cats, then ran to buy meds for Mom, while trying to reply to emails left and right.

I felt frustrated kanina. Iniisip ko kung dahil ba sa pagod? Puyat? Money problems? Many problems? Or dahil I'm still sick, but I don't have the luxury to even nurse myself?

Pag hindi mo alam kung anong problema, nakakafrustrate naman talaga. Upon thinking futher, na realize ko na all these weren't the reason why I was upset. It was because I fcking live in the boonies. Like, I need to travel total of 6 to 8 hours para kumuha ng TOR. Another 6 to 8 hours for nbi, another for medical, and so on. And travel time palang yun, wala pa yung actual process.

Tapos, nagsusuka pa yung pusa ko.

Upon realizing the cause of my frustration, I managed to calm down a bit. I managed to solve a few of my problems, with minimun effort. I thank God for the existence of ChatGPT.

At siguro, may power talaga sa pagiging kalma.

Instead of listing all my problems, I want to list down all the blessings I received, and the things I'm grateful for.

1. I still have my parents. They keep me going.

2. I have my cats, niece, and nephew. Their cuteness heals me.

3. We have Tito R who helped us bring Mom to the hospital. Hinintay nya kami kahit past 10 na kami nakalabas ng hospital.

4. Mom seems to be getting a bit better. Hopefully, tuloy tuloy na.

5. I have cc. With it, I was able to pay Mom's hospital bill and medicines.

6. Last night, I prayed that we'll get to go home. Bukod sa pagtaas ng bill, ayoko lang rin kasi matulog sa hospital. The Heavens answered my prayer. 

7. I'm grateful for my sis-in-law. When we got home from the hospital, the dishes were washed. The kitchen was clean, and she also gathered the trash for collection the next day. I'm glad na nandyan si sis-in-law. 

8. Gathering of my pre-employment requents is somehow progressing.

9. I'm glad that my start date on the new company comes in later. Considering our current situation, sakaling mas maaga ang start date, mas lalo siguro akong ngarag.

10. I managed to sleep properly last night. Finally. 

11. I managed to finish my dinner earlier. It's the first meal I managed to finish in a while.

12. I'm glad that this company accepted me. I hope that things are gonna sail smoothly from here on. 

July just started, and it's already testing our strength. I feel hopeful na malalagpasan namin to, at magiging maayos din ang lahat.

12:07 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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