Haaaaaaaa...
So, one YT vid woke me up from my delusions of being a full-time socmed content creator. I'm thinking if I should start again from scratch, or find a workaround. If workaround, my only armor would be AI, which I'm not even very good at. Gah.
Should I wait it off until I reach the 1st level first?
Haaaa...
Hindi ko na alam.
Pa hug nga, Universe. T.T
10:35 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Just finished the language interview. It took only about 15 minutes. I told Mom that I had a hard time and there were a lot of things I didn't understand. And Mom was like, "mayabang ka kasi, ayan". Lol, she's not wrong.
Before I took the interview, I was worried that I'll get accepted and will have to go back to my life as a corporate slave. Tapos ngayon na tapos na and I didn't do well, I'm worried naman on what will happen to me if this whole socmed monitazation project thing will not work. Pupulutin ba ko sa kangkungan?
Well, whatever. Sa ngayon, I'll do what I can, with what I have right now.
Send me your love, Universe.
04:28 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Last Friday, Mom asked me how the interview went. When I told her how I answered the questions, she was like, "pano ka tatanggapin nyan e pinaalam mo kagad na maldita ka?" Lol.
Ayoko lang magbait baitan para di na sila mag expect. Sa totoo lang, ayoko pang mag work. I wake up everyday more excited than usual dahil kahit papano, umuusad na yung mga projects na ginagawa ko. Tumaas din yung earning by 2x, pero sa tatoo lang, hindi parin sapat yun kahit para sa basic necessities lang ng family. But I still have money, so as long as I can, I want to postpone this whole job hunting thing.
They replied though. Japanese language interview on Wednesday. I don't know if I'll pass, but I don't have doubt with my skills. Hybrid parin tong work na to. Will I be able to negotiate full-time wfh?
Well, hindi pa naman tapos. I might not even make it to the language interview. Tsaka if they can't give me the salary I want, then... haaaa. Bahala na.
9k views on my new YT channel. I need 10M to monetize. Wahaha. Suntok sa buwan kaya to? Hindi ko alam, but I'm going to do everything I can. Fight!
06:31 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1 call.
Ang tagal na since I posted my resume in jobstreet tas ngayon lang ako nakareceive ng call from them.
Hybrid setup daw sila. Sinabi ko na I have a small biz and am looking for a full time wfh job dahil nga sa business ko. Sabi ko rin AT LEAST 1XXk monthly salary. Wahaha. Ang daming demand. Tatanggapin man lang kaya nila ako?
IDK. If hindi, edi hindi. Pero it would be really helpful kung makukuha ko yung gusto ko. Have the cake and eat it too.
Gusto ko ng fully wfh work. or if hybrid man, 1 day a week lang.
At least 30 leaves per year. With annual salary increase.
Tas AT LEAST 1XXk montly salary.
5 days a week lang work at walang OT.
Mabait na boss, mabait na workmates, at super chill na work load.
Wish me luck.
03:22 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
BFF sent me a message a few days back asking for help. She's gonna undergo an operation, and the hubby's gonna be out on a business trip. They need someone to bring and pickup the kiddo to school, which is just right accross their apartment. BFF is in Malaysia, btw. I was up for it, but I told bff I'm scared of blood. Wala naman daw blood, still, takot parin ako. She messaged me yesterday and said na nakahanap na daw sila, or something. In a way, I was kinda looking forward to travelling again, but still, okay na rin yun, ang tamad ko kaya. BFF knew that, pero sabi ng mama ko, "alangan namang yung pinagkainan mo e pahugasan mo pa dun sa pasyente". Lol. IKR.
Speaking of Malaysia, a company sent me a message inviting me for a career opportunity in Malaysia. I miss travelling, pero ayoko tumira dun. Ang bilis kong mahome sick, so IDK if I can live and work away from my family. Pero if sa Japan siguro, kaya ko. I love Japan afterall.
Haaaaa. I want to go back to Japan. I still have money, and the yen I got left from my trip a few months back should be enough if I only stay there for a few days. Gusto ko pumunta ulet next year. Haaaa.
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Parang jungle ang social media. I blocked a few bashers kahit na dagdag kita rin yung pagko comment nila sa page. I prefer peace of mind. Sa totoo lang, medyo hindi matibay ang puso ko sa mga ganitong bagay.
Haaaaa. Kaya ko to.
04:03 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
4:21 AM. The alarm will ring in an hour, pero gising na gising pa ko.
May nabasa akong meme which I liked a lot:
Listen, Big Dog...
Forgive your past self.
Believe in your current self.
Create your future self.
Nice.
Haaaaa. Ba't ba hindi ako bumili ng bitcoin nung mga panahong hindi pa $70k ang price nya? Ang yaman na siguro ni Mel.
I bought ETH the last time to fund the minting of my nfts. Lalaki pa kaya to? I still have some left. Ayoko mag-isip. Ang hirap mangapa. Dapat ginawa ko to nung kumita pa ko ng 6 digits monthly.
In FB, my post will need at least 100k reach for me to earn $1. Pero may nakita akong earnings calculator thingy that says it should earn me more. Bakit kaya mas maliit ang earnings ko kesa sa sabi ng calculator? Dahil ba sa 5k lang followers ko? The same page says na ang required number of followers daw to be eligible for content monetization is 30k. Maybe I shouldn't be even earning in the first place. Idk.
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Haaa, ano na? I want to trust myself and believe na tama tong ginagawa ko. Mom's been bringing up my joblessness. Sabi nya matanda na ko so I should work while I still can. I know there's truth in what she's saying. Pero...
Sighs.
Nag byahe ako for 7 hours today just to buy NAC sa healthy options in trinoma. I don't know why they don't have it in their shop online. I've been having cough since Oct 6. It's nearly a month na. Nagpa doctor na ko, hindi naman ako gumaling. That's why I don't usually go to the doctors for cough. Their meds were never really effective. So I'm going back to my good old NAC. Dang, it's super expensive. T_T The ones available in Shoppee snd Lazada were ineffective and gave me stomach ache. That's why kinailangan ko pang dumayo sa Trinoma, that's the nearest Healthy options branch know.
Man, I don't really want to go back to my life commuting 5 to 6 hrs to work daily. Ayoko nang mapako ng 9 hours sa trabahong hindi ko gusto. I don't wanna go back to the life of corporate slavery. I know, I know I need money to live. Pero wala bang ibang paraan?
If I can travel back in time, I will tell my old self to buy bitcoin.
04:51 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
"Be smart to realize that life doesn't wait for you to be okay."
Ito yung post ng FB friend ko na sobra nag resonate sakin. Been holding on to this line since the day I saw it.
Haaaa...
I feel down. I fucking hate those flat earthers who hate AI and bash those who use it. I mean, you're free to hate anything you want, but that doesn't mean you're free to lambast people for thinking differently. I mean, galit na galit?
Haaaa. Daming BV. Also encountered a scammer pa. Buti nalang I've done IT jobs before, or else I wouldn't notice.
Tapos yung flat earther. Gahh! Kainis. Lakas maka bad vibes. Before, naisip ko na I have to choose my own battles at wag pumatol basta basta. But it always leave a bad taste a bad taste in my mouth. Bilang self-care, kailangan kong patulan ang mga dapat patulan.
I still don't have work. Walang offers, nothing. Nung hindi ako naghahanap, sila yuny habol ng habol. Haaa.
Okay lang din. I still have money. It's one of the biggest miracles and my greatest blessings. But I still can't shake this uneasy feeling. Natatakot ako.
Haaaaa. I'm not my best self. I feel down and hopeless. I want to cry.
10:17 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
It's Monday. I visited SSS to update my info. I was planning na mag loan because according to my tita, it will increase my pension in the future daw. Also, I was thinking na if I will invest in stock market the money that will be loaned out to me, mas malaki parin yung kikitain ko kesa sa interest from the loan. Win-win. But turned out, di pala pwede kasi I need to have at least 6 months worth of contributions this year daw para maka loan. Oh well.
I responded to an email for a job invitation last Saturday. Naisip ko na baka kaya sila hindi nag reply e dahil Sabado. Now Monday came, and the only call I received today was from the courier for an item I was about to ship out. Hmmm...
Well, I checked the details of the job posting and I kinda understood why.
My salary on my previous job was Native-level. Heck, it was even bigger than the salary of my native Japanese former officemate on the company I worked for, before that recent one. Ayoko paring isiping 'mahirap'.
I'm looking for a strictly WFH job. I don't want to shut down my store, so it really has to be fully WFH. Day 1 palang of no contact from the prospective employers at heto's nadedepress na ko. LOL.
8 months na kong tambay. I still have money to live by, pero hanggang kailan? I need to earn money while I'm still trying to figure out how to earn money without working for life. Haaaa.
I want to find a job where I can earn at least the same amount as my previous work. The higher the better. I want to save as much as I can for at least half a year. Then I will spend the rest of the year resting and spending money. LOL.
I feel bad from my Mom. I still give her 20k monthly kahit wala akong trabaho. Still, hindi ko na sila nati treat sa labas as often as back when I was still working. I want to give Mom everything. I want to bring her to beautiful places. Gustong gusto nya ring mag Dubai since my uncle works there. I want to give that to Mom.
I think, with the money I have, as long as we live modestly, magkakasya naman yung pera ko sa stockmarket plus my small income from other sources. Pero kasi, kawawa naman yung nanay ko. Besides. hindi ko parin naman kasi maisip kung anong need kong gawin to earn more money, so siguro, while trying to figure it out, I can work muna. As long as it's WFH, I still have time to work on my small business, plus other projects. Plus I will have more money to invest in stocks. WIN-WIN!
Kaya ko to. Sana magawa ko.
Hay, sa ngayon, ka career-in ko muna tong job hunting. Please send me your love, Universe. And please send me massive amounts of money na rin. Thank you!
06:37 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Needed to bring my cat to vet for an operation. The med bills costed nearly 8k. That would've been nothing much kung meron akong trabaho, but I've been unemployed for 7 months already. Pero sa totoo lang, more than worrying about the money I've lost, I'm really grateful that I still have my Yomi.
I still don't know how to fix my financial situation. I've been avoiding it for a long time, but earlier today, I decided to check how much money I have left on the stockmarket. This has been my main source of funds since I resigned from work last February. Kinakabahan pa kong i-check, pero nagulat lang ako na parang lumaki pa yung pera ko compared to what I had back early March, to think na naka ilang withdraw na ko since then.
Alam ko namang the value is still at the mercy of the market's performance, at wala syang real value hanggat di ko pa binebenta. Pero kahit ganun, this is still giving me a tiny bit of hope na maybe, maayos ko parin itong lahat.
Walang nakakaalam sa future. But I'm hopeful. And grateful. I know the day when I'll never have to worry about money anymore is coming real soon.
01:24 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
