Barely 4 hours into my shift, namatay bigla yung PC tas ayaw na ma on. 4th replacement ko na to. Finally, the company decided to issue a new laptop. Abang abang na naman kung kelan deliver. Probably on Saturday ulet.
Spent the rest of the day watching naruto. Watching it on tv doesn't strain my eyes so much as when I'm watching it on cellphone.
Over 30 episodes spent on saving Gaara. The arc that follows I find a bit boring. I'm just so sick of orochimaru and kabuto.
My eyes are hurting again. Tokwa.
It's 9:44 PM and I'm craving for red ribbon mamon. Gusto ko talaga. Now na.
09:47 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Wednesday na. Weekends ko na.
Excited na ko mag naruto marathon. Already started with shippuden. 25/500 eps na. The one on Netflix pala e completed eps nung bata pa sya. Shippuden is 2 years after nyang mag training with ero sennin at nakabalik na sya sa Konoha. Since I already spoiled some parts of the series, alam ko na na hindi bad si Itachi. I wonder how different would everything feels like, kung hindi ko alam.
Sakura is so much better in Shippuden. She's so cool. Naalala ko tuloy ulet yung pangarap kong maging doctor. Mukhang aabutin ng isang buwan or so bago ko matapos lahat ng to. I need to put some restraint though as my eyes are still not well.
Kailangan ko maglinis ng kwarto. Magpa checkup sa doc. Dalhin pusa ko sa vet. Mag withdraw ng pera sa bank. Blah blah.
220 eps Naruto (kid)- completed. 500 eps shippuden . 10 Naruto movies. XX eps Boruto.
I should not do this. Tokwa.
08:25 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Peaceful Sunday at work. I had the Avaya setup on my work PC, so I'm free to use my phone now as I no longer need to connect to VPN.
Still need to regulate my netflix time though as my eyes still hurt from time to time. I forgot to book an appointment to the doctor on monday. Andami pa man din hanash pag nagpabook ka same day. O sya. Bahala na.
No news re pdt backup. Balita ko magreresign na daw si Hudas. Dahil kababalik ko lang rin naman sa work, di ko masyadong pansin, pero sabi ng kasama ko sa JP team, we were having fewer JP calls daw these days. Also, we were supposed to be having communication training. Probably JP language training. Ewan bakit di natuloy. Ewan kung matutuloy pa.
Avail today. I can watch Naruto. I just don't. I've been reading Naruto fandom site and found a lot of spoilers. I feel like my heart is not yet prepared on what to come. Huhu. Plus, wikipedia labeled Jiraiya as deceased. Huhu. Ero sennin. I kennat.
Hayst. What a waste of heartbreak. They're not even real. Tokwa.
Know what, I worked real hard in my 20s. I sure am reaping the fruits of my hardwork now. But I feel like I'm wasting my 30s overindulging on things that most probably will not get me anywhere nearer the life I want to live.
Pero gusto kong maniwala na may perks ang overindulgence lalo na sa katulad ko.
A few days back, I bought a small box of ferrero. Mom eats chocolate sparingly, so I practically ate the whole box in less than 2 days. Ngayon, pakiramdam ko, ayoko nang kumain ng ferrero ever.
See. Overindulging for 2 days saved me from eating overpriced, unhealthy chocolates for the rest of my life! That's saving my health and finances at the same time, di ba?
I wonder if other people are like this too— finding ways to trick themselves because they lack the discipline to tackle their own demons head on.
Doesn't seem to work on Netflix indulgence though.
Trying the audio visualization to manifest massive wealth and abundance. I can't seem to pull off the same trick I did to get this much salary. That one requires a peaceful heart. I find it so hard to be at peace these days.
Ano bang nakakatakot sa pagigiging sobrang mayaman?
09:32 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Saturday and I'm back to work.
I hate how I feel about it. I mean, I've got a good job that pays me well. The job itself is not so bad. Hindi ko alam kung anong iniinarte ko. Bahala na.
Gusto ko nang yumaman. Mayaman enough to never work anymore.
Kulit ng panaginip ko kanina. Nasa school ako. May exam daw. Math. Keber daw sakin kahit late dahil magaling naman ako sa Math. Promise, hindi ako ganun ka arogante nung nag aaral pa ko. Hindi ko na natapos yung test, nagising na ko.
Tingin ko, math lang yung bagay na kaya kong pag trabahuhan nang hindi iniinda ang hirap. Nung bata pa ko, akala ko gusto kong magsulat. Pero twing nagsusulat ako, dama kong pinipilit ko lang angbsarili ko. Hindi ganun pag math e. Siguro magugustuhan ko rin ang chemistry. Hindi lang kasi kami nagkaroon ng pagkakataong magkakilala ng lubusan. Distracted ako sa cocc nung hs, nung college naman, walang kagana gana yung teacher ko dun.
Kung yumaman nga ako to the point na di ko na kailangan magtrabaho, anong gagawin ko sa buhay ko?
Gusto ko matry mag work sa hotel. Kahit yung sa reception lang, or taga serve ng food sa dining area, ganun. Lol, anlabo talaga ng mga trip ko sa buhay.
Ang haba ng Naruto. Season 8 na ko. Mukhang di kompleto yung nasa Netflix. I already found the rest elsewhere. Pati mga movies. Iniisip ko pa if panonoorin ko yung boruto. Dun ata madededs si naruto. Huhu. Sana fake news lang.
Grabe ang tibay ng gumawa ng series at manga na to, no? Great job, though.
Ano bang gagawin ko sa buhay ko? I need this job. I need money. I don't think I'll ever find another company who will pay me this much. Hindi native level ang Japanese ko at wala ring background sa IT. Sinwerte lang talaga, di ba?
Alam ko namang malaking blessings to for me. I'm truly grateful. Naiinis din ako na nararamdaman ko to.
Tokwa. Help me, Universe. Penging passive income na 2 million pesos per month, please!
May sakit na naman ang isa sa mga cats ko. Bringing her to the vet today after my shift. Wala kasi yung vet kahapon. Private vet to dahil maaga ang public vet. Di na kami aabot. Wala pala akong pera. Mehehehe. I rarely keep cash. Nanghihinayang ako mag withdraw from gsave. Sayang interest. Sana sapat na ang 500.
Sana ok lang ang pusa ko. I don't really trust private vets. They all seem to be after the money instead of the animal's welfare. Kainis. I wish I can send my Iya to the city vet. They have better facilities there.
Mag aral nalang kaya ako mag vet? There will be no safer hands for my cats than mine, di ba?
07:02 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Off work to rest my eyes. Feeling ko scammer yung doc. Sa mahal nung gamot, yet my eyes aren't feeling any better.
Few minutes after opening the tv, sumakit agad yung mata ko, so I spent the afternoon sleeping. My eyes hurt as I write this. It hasn't been 5 minutes since I started.
Dahil natulog ako ng tanghali, ang hirap matulog now.
Ang aga ng pasok ko. Ansakit pa ng mata ko. Good luck talaga sa work bukas.
12:33 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Lunes, and I'm in the hospital's eye center.
Eyes have been hurting from quite some time. The pain threshold has been decreasing day by day, that today, I can only last a few minutes on gadgets.
5 eye aparatus in 1 day. Just when I thought the one with the blue light was the nastiest, another one with green light appeared. Parang na torture yung mata ko. My talk with the doctor was light. He seemed positive that there's nothing too much to worry about. I read something about glaucoma before. Hindi naman daw siguro, sabi ng doc. Ayoko non. Tokwa.
I was advised to take 2 days rest and then go back to the hospital after a week. Ang mahal din ng gamot.
Gusto ko lang naman manood ng Naruto. T_T
Last week, I had 10 consecutive days no work WITH pay. Tapos, aba, hindi na naman ako papasok. Mas masaya sana kung pwede akong mag binge watch ng Naruto while resting no?
Ang mahalaga, yung wala akong sakit, at bumalik na sa normal yung mata ko.
02:18 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Ang baba talaga ng EQ ko. Sa ikli ng pasensya ko, naghanap ko ng spoilers ng Naruto. I found out who he'll end up with, if he'll become a Hokage, blah blah. I also happen to find out that he's going to die pala. I didn't read all the details. Ansakit. Now I'm left heartbroken. Kainis.
Sighs. Ano bang ginagawa ko sa buhay ko?
Naalala ko tuloy si Shikamaru. Sabi nya gusto nya daw maging katulad ng ulap, sumasabay lang sa hangin.
I remember when I was young, I wanted to be great. Masyado rin sigurong vague ang naging definition ko ng greatness, kaya until now, I don't know what to seek. What to pursue. Tapos antamad ko pa. Lol.
If you know what you want, you won't need to force yourself to get motivated. I think. Siguro. I don't know.
Gusto ko rin bang maging gaya ng ulap? Parang hindi naman...
07:10 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Been having thoughts about death and stuff. I remember an old book I had. Tuck Everlasting. I don't remember everything from the book, only the part where the girl gave her elixir to a toad to save it forever, thinking that she could anytime get another elixir from the fountain. The elixir was from a boy. He and his family own the fountain, and they all became immortal after drinking the water from it. The boy gave that bottle of elixir to the girl. She's supposed to drink it once she's 17. They promised to meet again. Kamalasan, after nyang ibigay sa toad, tinamaan ng kidlat yung fountain the following day. When the boy came to see her again, ayun, deds na sya from old age.
Walang kinalaman sa moral lesson ng story. Naisip ko lang yung toad. I wonder if it's wise to make your pets immortal. Like, pano kung ma stuck sya sa meat grinder? He'd stay there in pain for all eternity without dying.
Naisip ko tuloy... we were all programmed to fear death. But if you look closely, maybe it's just nature's way of expressing it's kindness to those who suffer.
Tas naisip ko yung religion. Tas naisip ko rin, why do we badly want heaven to be real. Or reincarnation. I mean, can't one life be enough? If death happens to be the end itself, then, what's the big deal? Do we really need more lives?
Ewan ko. Religion makes me feel like I'm sinning whenever I question things. If God is really good, will He throw me to the fires of hell just because I asked for some clarifications?
Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam.
Watching Naruto. The subtitles suck. Lol, I need to rely on my Japanese skills most of the time. Average Shonen anime, pero nakakahook parin. Sexist pa. I hate how the author made Sakura and Ino lame heroines. Uraraka of My Hero Academia may not be as good as the main heroes of the anime, pero hindi siya katulad ni Sakura who just sit there getting rescued. I mean, look at Froppy, a female frog hero, pero she's rocking it. Kainis tong Naruto na to. Pero pinapanood ko pa rin. Lol.
9 seasons. Nasa season 3 palang ako. Sana kumpleto itong nasa Netflix. Sad lang I can't watch it while avail at work, because I'm on VPN.
Pag natupad ko yung pangarap ko na maging mayaman enough to not work at all, ano kayang mangyayari sa buhay ko no? Uubusin ko pa rin kaya yung oras ko araw araw sa netflix?
I remember my theory on how I ended up not eating cheese cake anymore. Naniniwala ako na my body will find a way to kick me out of slumber after some time. Mehehe.
Kaya siguro drawn ako kay Shikamaru. Aliw na aliw ako sa character nya. Sobrang tamad. Lol. Still a genius through and through.
It frustrates me though. The kanji in Gaara's forehead means love. The kanji written in one of the sound village's genin means death. The kanji in 4th Hokage's hat means fire. I'm pretty sure all the other kanji in there were from basic n5 level. Hindi ko mabasa lahat. Kung alam ko lang na kakailanganin ko to ng ganito sana pala nag-aral ako ng maayos noon. I mean, these are kanjis you wouldn't learn from work, you know.
07:59 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Matatapos ko na yung 5 seasons ng My Hero Academia, di pa rin nadedeliver PC ko for work. I remember they once delivered before, oround 12 MN na. Still waiting. Makaka work na kaya ako bukas?
2 eps left. Bitin to for sure. Dapat talaga completed series lang ang pinapanood. It can be frustrating otherwise. This anime is good. The main character, Midoriya, reminds me of Gon ng Hunter X Hunter.
I remember Injan and I were huge fans of HXH. I loved Killua, sya naman, so Hisuka ang bet. I'm pretty sure she'll like MHA too. I wonder kung sino sa mga characters ang bet nya. Mine is Kirishima. Todoroki too. I doubt if Injan can still watch anime these days though.
Dapat around December nalang ako nanood neto. Now I have to wait weekly for new eps.
Gusto kong makahanap ng bagay na gusto kong gawin. Something I'd be willing to work really hard for, and actually enjoy the process, hardships included.
Anime side-effect ba to? Tokwa.
08:06 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。