4:21 AM. The alarm will ring in an hour, pero gising na gising pa ko.
May nabasa akong meme which I liked a lot:
Listen, Big Dog...
Forgive your past self.
Believe in your current self.
Create your future self.
Nice.
Haaaaa. Ba't ba hindi ako bumili ng bitcoin nung mga panahong hindi pa $70k ang price nya? Ang yaman na siguro ni Mel.
I bought ETH the last time to fund the minting of my nfts. Lalaki pa kaya to? I still have some left. Ayoko mag-isip. Ang hirap mangapa. Dapat ginawa ko to nung kumita pa ko ng 6 digits monthly.
In FB, my post will need at least 100k reach for me to earn $1. Pero may nakita akong earnings calculator thingy that says it should earn me more. Bakit kaya mas maliit ang earnings ko kesa sa sabi ng calculator? Dahil ba sa 5k lang followers ko? The same page says na ang required number of followers daw to be eligible for content monetization is 30k. Maybe I shouldn't be even earning in the first place. Idk.
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Haaa, ano na? I want to trust myself and believe na tama tong ginagawa ko. Mom's been bringing up my joblessness. Sabi nya matanda na ko so I should work while I still can. I know there's truth in what she's saying. Pero...
Sighs.
Nag byahe ako for 7 hours today just to buy NAC sa healthy options in trinoma. I don't know why they don't have it in their shop online. I've been having cough since Oct 6. It's nearly a month na. Nagpa doctor na ko, hindi naman ako gumaling. That's why I don't usually go to the doctors for cough. Their meds were never really effective. So I'm going back to my good old NAC. Dang, it's super expensive. T_T The ones available in Shoppee snd Lazada were ineffective and gave me stomach ache. That's why kinailangan ko pang dumayo sa Trinoma, that's the nearest Healthy options branch know.
Man, I don't really want to go back to my life commuting 5 to 6 hrs to work daily. Ayoko nang mapako ng 9 hours sa trabahong hindi ko gusto. I don't wanna go back to the life of corporate slavery. I know, I know I need money to live. Pero wala bang ibang paraan?
If I can travel back in time, I will tell my old self to buy bitcoin.
04:51 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
"Be smart to realize that life doesn't wait for you to be okay."
Ito yung post ng FB friend ko na sobra nag resonate sakin. Been holding on to this line since the day I saw it.
Haaaa...
I feel down. I fucking hate those flat earthers who hate AI and bash those who use it. I mean, you're free to hate anything you want, but that doesn't mean you're free to lambast people for thinking differently. I mean, galit na galit?
Haaaa. Daming BV. Also encountered a scammer pa. Buti nalang I've done IT jobs before, or else I wouldn't notice.
Tapos yung flat earther. Gahh! Kainis. Lakas maka bad vibes. Before, naisip ko na I have to choose my own battles at wag pumatol basta basta. But it always leave a bad taste a bad taste in my mouth. Bilang self-care, kailangan kong patulan ang mga dapat patulan.
I still don't have work. Walang offers, nothing. Nung hindi ako naghahanap, sila yuny habol ng habol. Haaa.
Okay lang din. I still have money. It's one of the biggest miracles and my greatest blessings. But I still can't shake this uneasy feeling. Natatakot ako.
Haaaaa. I'm not my best self. I feel down and hopeless. I want to cry.
10:17 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
It's Monday. I visited SSS to update my info. I was planning na mag loan because according to my tita, it will increase my pension in the future daw. Also, I was thinking na if I will invest in stock market the money that will be loaned out to me, mas malaki parin yung kikitain ko kesa sa interest from the loan. Win-win. But turned out, di pala pwede kasi I need to have at least 6 months worth of contributions this year daw para maka loan. Oh well.
I responded to an email for a job invitation last Saturday. Naisip ko na baka kaya sila hindi nag reply e dahil Sabado. Now Monday came, and the only call I received today was from the courier for an item I was about to ship out. Hmmm...
Well, I checked the details of the job posting and I kinda understood why.
My salary on my previous job was Native-level. Heck, it was even bigger than the salary of my native Japanese former officemate on the company I worked for, before that recent one. Ayoko paring isiping 'mahirap'.
I'm looking for a strictly WFH job. I don't want to shut down my store, so it really has to be fully WFH. Day 1 palang of no contact from the prospective employers at heto's nadedepress na ko. LOL.
8 months na kong tambay. I still have money to live by, pero hanggang kailan? I need to earn money while I'm still trying to figure out how to earn money without working for life. Haaaa.
I want to find a job where I can earn at least the same amount as my previous work. The higher the better. I want to save as much as I can for at least half a year. Then I will spend the rest of the year resting and spending money. LOL.
I feel bad from my Mom. I still give her 20k monthly kahit wala akong trabaho. Still, hindi ko na sila nati treat sa labas as often as back when I was still working. I want to give Mom everything. I want to bring her to beautiful places. Gustong gusto nya ring mag Dubai since my uncle works there. I want to give that to Mom.
I think, with the money I have, as long as we live modestly, magkakasya naman yung pera ko sa stockmarket plus my small income from other sources. Pero kasi, kawawa naman yung nanay ko. Besides. hindi ko parin naman kasi maisip kung anong need kong gawin to earn more money, so siguro, while trying to figure it out, I can work muna. As long as it's WFH, I still have time to work on my small business, plus other projects. Plus I will have more money to invest in stocks. WIN-WIN!
Kaya ko to. Sana magawa ko.
Hay, sa ngayon, ka career-in ko muna tong job hunting. Please send me your love, Universe. And please send me massive amounts of money na rin. Thank you!
06:37 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Needed to bring my cat to vet for an operation. The med bills costed nearly 8k. That would've been nothing much kung meron akong trabaho, but I've been unemployed for 7 months already. Pero sa totoo lang, more than worrying about the money I've lost, I'm really grateful that I still have my Yomi.
I still don't know how to fix my financial situation. I've been avoiding it for a long time, but earlier today, I decided to check how much money I have left on the stockmarket. This has been my main source of funds since I resigned from work last February. Kinakabahan pa kong i-check, pero nagulat lang ako na parang lumaki pa yung pera ko compared to what I had back early March, to think na naka ilang withdraw na ko since then.
Alam ko namang the value is still at the mercy of the market's performance, at wala syang real value hanggat di ko pa binebenta. Pero kahit ganun, this is still giving me a tiny bit of hope na maybe, maayos ko parin itong lahat.
Walang nakakaalam sa future. But I'm hopeful. And grateful. I know the day when I'll never have to worry about money anymore is coming real soon.
01:24 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
2AM and I'm watching Japanese bento reels on IG.
Man, I'm hungry. I miss Japan's tamagoyaki. May itlog din naman dito sa Pilipinas, pero ba't di ganun yung lasa? At yung gulay gulay na hinahalo nila as side dish, takte, ba't ang sarap? Yung talong, radish at kahit carrots, manamisnamis. I stayed there for for 11 days on my trip there last May, pero there was never a day na nagkaron ako ng allergies. Funny, because I always get allergies everyday. Ano bang siktreto ng mga pagkain sa Japan? Ah, miss ko na rin yung inari sushi. I miss Japan so much.
02:09 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1 AM and I'm craving for lengua de gato. Also Tipas Hopia. I remember buying 3 boxes, and got tired of the taste even before I finished the first box. But I want it again now.
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Been raining a crazy lot. It's at times like this that I'm glad that I don't have work. I'm technically a business owner now, but aside from my old books, I still don't have any real products to sell yet.
I spent this week researching about dropshipping. Since China can directly sell their products in Lazada/Shopee, I feel like dropshipping is probably not as good here in the Philippines as it is elsewhere in the world. It's good for the consumers since we can avail cheap Chinese products for minimal shipping cost, but I'm sure this is hitting small business owners. Haaaa.
I guess, I gotta keep looking.
I attending Ken Honda's masterclass thingy tomorrow. I hope I'll get to find the answer there. But what was the question anyway?
01:20 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I cut my hair short last week. I know full well na hindi bagay sakin ang short hair, pero hindi naman ako nagsisi. A week on this hairstyle, and I kinda like how I can move freely with short hair. The only downside is that the ends are touching my nape, and it's giving me more rashes.
Whatever.
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Nasira yung aircon sa room ng kapatid ko. They just had it fixed last month. My brother is still jobless, which made my sister-in-law say, "grabe sunod sunod ang problema kung kelan wala kaming pera, sagad sagad na." Then continued, "di bale, mairaraos din to."
I think, sister-in-law is a great woman. If it had been someone else, they may have reacted differently. I think my brother is lucky for having his wife. On top of that, she's also very good at cooking. Just so you know, before my brother met her, I wrote a wish list where I included a wish for my brother to find a good woman. And it came true. So I want to take credit. Lol.
I wonder if I should start writing a wish list again. It kinda feels a bit childish to do it now though.
I pray that my brother will find a job soon. Sana dun sa kikita sya ng around 3 times ng previous salary nya. Sana talaga.
Sana ako rin. I pray na makahanap na ako ng way to earn money with less time and effort. Sana kumita ako ng around 3 times din ng previous salary ko. Sana talaga.
11:11 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Well, I'm just feeling a little down and disheartened. Maybe it's part of being human na paminsan minsan, pinanghihinaan ka ng loob. But I believe that this is just temporary. I'm still up and running. I'm still in the game. I'm not raising a white flag yet.
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Tinitingnan ko lagi yung travel pictures ng FB friend ko na si Jam. She's been to a lot of beautiful places, in countries I have never heard of until now. I want to go to those countries too, and more. And I want to bring my parents with me.
Kaya ko yun. Sana nga talaga.
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When you talk about your problems daw, you're giving them more power over you. Kaya you need to talk about your dreams.
I'm really struggling now, but I want to boost whatever little hope that's left in me.
I wish that things will get easier as days go by.
Sana umabot ng over 1000 USD monthly ang kita ko sa Facebook.
Sana kumita ako ng over 300,000 php monthly from multiple income sources.
Sana makapag abroad kami ulet.
Gusto kong dalhin ang parents ko sa Australia at Japan this year.
Sana magkaron ako ng younger boyfriend na tall, good-looking, and with fluffy, bouncy, beautiful hair.
Well, sana nga talaga.
11:48 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Nothing seems to be working. Nothing seems to be going my way.
My luck was usually fluctuating from average to above average, pero these days... tokwa, luck? What luck?
Gah.
Sa totoo lang, naiiyak na ko. Pero ano bang gagawin ko?
04:44 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
