Sunday: January 28, 2019

One of the ways I show my affection is by hitting (usually punching) the person on the stomach. How weird is that? This applies only to men though.


I remember about 2 to 3 years ago, I used to wonder why for someone who looked so cuddly, his hugs were rather stiff.

But tonight, he was soft.

I love that person, you know. As to what kind of love, I've decided it doesn't matter anymore. 

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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:26 AM.

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Staying power
Saturday: January 26, 2019

So the day progressed yesterday with me wholeheartedly believing tbat it was Thursday until someone from the office said, "happy weekend", so I had to check my phone only to realized it was Friday. Thank you very much.

Home now. There were a lot of things I was so scared and worried about. But there's just something magical about being home that it melts my worries away. In a couple of days, maybe my fears will haunt me back again. But for now, I want to enjoy home.

My niece happily reported to me that she went to her new school yesterday. Come June and she'll leave day care and will move to nursery. Bro and sis-in-law decided to send her to the same school that Bro and I attended. It was funny my niece was boasting "ang laki ng school ko" so I told her dun rin kami nag aral ng daddy nya. I even showed her the picture.

It seems like yesterday when that picture was taken. Grade 1, I was 7 and Brother was grade 2. It was Christmas party so we weren't on uniforms. In the background, my cousins are visible in blurred forms as they were approaching us to have all our pictures taken.

Ang bilis ng paglipas ng panahon. My neice doesn't want to have siblings. I wouldn't know if I'd be the same when I was her age because I was never given a choice. When I was born, I already have a brother. Mom said my brother had always wanted to have one though.


I just finished Legend of the blue sea yesterday. Looks like I can finish a 20-episode long series in a week because I don't really have so much work load. If I'd kept watching, I can finish about 52 series in a year. I can already feel Kdramas frying my brain cells.

I'm a woman who likes men. I think there will be always something nice about a guy if only you will look hard enough. Maybe it's in the way he talks. Or in the way his eyes squint when he's smiling. Or the way he adjusts the watch on wrist. I think men are fascinating creatures.

But with these kdrama men being so perfect and all, I just can't see normal men the same way again. 

They're not even real. Boy, this is bad.


I was killing time at the bookstore yesterday. I bought Bob Ong's new book and walked around browsing. I found that Dean Koontz is still writing books and Harry Potter still has a whole section all for itself.

It's been more the a decade and our favorite books are still up in the shelves. They are still there even if we've long been gone.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:21 AM.

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Thursday: January 23, 2019

10/20 on watching Legend Of The Blue Sea. It's nowhere near superb, but Lee Min Ho is cute enough to make me finish the entire series. Besides, Shin Hye Sun is there, my favorite k-actress. Her role is minor there though, but she's still Shin Hye Sun, so I don't care. I think I'm still not over with "My Golden Life". Man, I'm wasting my youth watching kdrama. Pak this.

I understand now why Lee Min Ho is so popular with women. I still think that Park Si Hoo is more gwapo though. So long as he's not laughing.

Ang gwapo ng mga koreanong to, nakakainis! Pengi ng isa, Universe.


We're starting to discuss the District Conference happening in Cebu by April--the girls and I. I hope the situation at the office will be settled by then. I need to take quite a long leave by April. 2 to 3 days lang naman since the days that follow fall on the golden week at wala naman kaming pasok. There's also BFF's wedding by March and KCON by November. There's no way I won't go. Importante sakin to. Sana maging ok lahat. I wonder if I should inform them this early.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:20 PM.


Tabemashou, tabemasu yo
Wednesday: January 23, 2019

Because I can't effin stick to dieting, I went to a mini food exploration today. Some of my friends say that I'm a picky eater, I have to disagree. There are just 2 things I wouldn't eat- garlic and onion. Sadly, these are virtually present in almost every dish there is. Today, I'd stick with bread.

I'm particularly fond with croissant. I love the thin crispy layers so much these often appear in my dreams. My favorite is the choco crossaint I've tasted in Diamond Hotel where I stayed during Nini's wedding. I tried Breadtalk's but it didn't even come close. 

I didn't find any chococro today. Instead I found Pain Au Chocolait. The exterior is much like croissant and the choco filling tasted heavenly. I also had some apple turnover. I loved it but I have to say that French Baker's tasted way better for half the price.

I just finished my Mango Mille Crepe from Paper Moon. Pricey, but it didn't really look masarap so I wasn't expecting much. But boy, this one's off the roof. To say that it's delicious is an understatement. I'll try the blue berry one next time.

I wish to continue this mini food exploration but my stomach is already raising a white flag. Awat na daw. Bukas naman.

What is your favorite food? Please send me your recommendations. I'll find them and will give them a try. Basta walang garlic and onion. 

Happy Wednesday !

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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:56 AM.

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Saturday: January 19, 2019

It's 10:38. Mom and Dad went out for some medical thingy and Brother left to see a doctor on a separate hospital. Niece and Sis-in-law followed and they met for their own mini family bonding. I was left to man the house, cook breakfast for Mom and Dad and that was pretty much it. 

Tomorrow is the feast of Sto. Nino. We'll have a mini feast at home. Still debating whether to go back to Metro tomorrow or go straight to the office by Monday. My weekends have been pretty uncomplicated these days, and I really like it.

My job is foreign-language related. Though I could be getting more more money somewhere else, I think I get a pretty decent pay. I give most of my salary to my mother. My needs are pretty scarce so what's left is more than enough for myself. It's not so bad, you know. I'm just watching Korean drama at the office anyway.

It's hard to get motivated to do better when I already got everything I need. I know it doesn't cover my future, but it's hard to look into the future when you don't even know what's in there.


Last year, I watch a Korean drama, Go Back Couple, and it kept haunting me up to this day. The storyline is, there is a couple who got a divorce. A lot of misunderstandings were involved. They said they wish they never met. Then by some miracle, they just woke up and they were both timetravelled back to the time they met-- in college.

This kept me daydreaming of also going back. 

If you will be given a chance to travel back in time, which part of your life will you go back to?

Mine is in college. I find it pretty odd. Not in the time when I made some stupid decision in my early 20s. Not in the time when I had the best days of my life in CKC, not in time when I was a sometimes-happy-sometimes-overdramatic teenager. I don't know why I want it to be college. I think I just want to do it better this  time.

I wasn't bad though. There were 50+ students in our section when we started, and I was one of the 5 who made it out alive after 5 years without extension. I wasn't bad. I know I did my best. I don't know why I want to go back there badly.

Of course, it can't happen. And all that's left to do is move forward. It's nice to know I've got nothing to lose. What's bad is that it makes me ask, "why bother?" That's why I don't and I'm getting stagnant.

Sometimes I wish that the Heavens will just tell me what to do so that I don't have to think about it myself.


Universe, I want to feel happier tomorrow. 

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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:19 PM.


Thursday: January 17, 2019

"Yung fiancee ni ***** parang si Zah din. Mas maganda lang si Zah."


And what am I supposed to say about that? Lol.

Idk. I just don't want to think about this right now. For one, e ano ba kami?


I'm 2 episodes away from completion of the Kdrama that consumed the first 17 days of my 2019. Oh, how productive. I love the male lead, but I love the female lead as much. I just get her. I read some comments so I already know that this is likely to have a happy ending. Looks like the dad is going to die though.


Sa totoo lang, ayoko ng drama these days. Real life type, that is. I just realized there are three things you can do when someone is struggling, hurting or having a hard time; (1) be there, (2) shut your mouth, and (3) don't ask questions.

I wish the people in my life know this.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:57 PM.

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: January 11, 2019

I look terrible today. My hair just won't behave. I haven't been sleeping and eating much lately. Hindi ko naman ikinapayat. My head aches, my eyes sear, and I told my mom I won't be going home tonight.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:08 PM.

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Isogashii desu
Thursday: January 10, 2019

"Exact location where your path crossed is not available at the moment, but we are 100% sure that it's on planet Earth where you are meant to meet."

Ang echosero nung dating app na ni-suggest ng kasama ko sa club. Ang cheesy ng terms na ginagamit, pero infey, ang sipag mag send ng message ng mga tao dun

G: hey

Z: hey


Z: ok lang. Ikaw?

G: ok lang din

*the end*


I know people who are terrible in online conversions but are pretty nice to talk to in real life, but still~.

But I know I'm half the problem. I'm pretty busy nowadays. Well nothing important. There's just this k-drama I'm super hooked on, it's consuming my entire waking hours and I've been barely eating lol. The drama is quite long. I just finished the 15th episode pero wala pa ko sa 1/3 ng entire drama. My golden life. That's the title. Also currently being aired in GMA. I saw it sa commercial and I got intrigued so I started watching it online, and maaaaan... nakakaadik sya! See, this girl (me) hates drama, but I fell in love with this one. Sana, please, sana naman maganda ang maging ending.

I read somewhere about the bad effects of fiction--books and movies alike-- sa isang tao. Damang dama ko. Someone once said "reality is beautiful", but it's just hard to believe that when the world you're watching is so much better. It's not really so much as the world they're in. At least not so much as the people they are with. Meron kayang ganun? Yung taong lagi nalang susulpot everytime na kailangan mo sya?

I think k-dramas are doing us disservice by raising humanity's  standards in finding a partner into an unrealistic level.

But I remember a line I once read before that said, "they say nobody's perfect. That's because they haven't met you." 

Baka meron naman talagang perfect. I want to someday say this line to someone also. I believe that people have a different meaning of "perfect". I am in no way perfect, but maybe I could be for a particular someone.

Maybe this year is that year that I'm gonna meet that someone. Who knows... Pero malamang mahirap na mangyari yung kung ang mga mata ko e naka glue sa monitor, watching koreanovela. Lol.

But to be honest, I really don't care about that now. Ang iniisip ko lang sa ngayon, ano na kayang mangyayari kay Seo Ji An ngayong alam na ni Choi Do-Kyung na hindi talaga sya ang nawawala nyang kapatid? Paano sila magkakagustuhan kung galit si guy sa girl dahil niloko ng parents ni girl ang parents nya? Paano sila magkakatuluyan e naipagkasundo narin si guys sa isa pang anak-mayaman? Magkakatuluyan nga kaya sila at all? Kapanapanabik ang mga susunod na tagpo. Abangan ang susunod na kabanata.

Gah. This is hopeless.

J-holiday on Monday. My mobile data can't handle watching videos online so I guess after tomorrow, I will have to wait for 3 days before I can continue watching.

I will miss you, Do-Kyung. T_T

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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:22 PM.


Sunday: January 6, 2019

If there's one black man that I consider to be gwapo, it's Michael B. Jordan. Can't think of any one else, pero promise, ang laki ng ikinagwapo ni Trevante Rhodes sa character nya sa Bird Box.

And the arms and abs... oh boy... 


Watched Bird Box twice today, because the first time, I was modeling play dough and wasn't able to focus. I also had to take off my eyes from the tv and cover my ears a number of times whenever the film got a little too intense to handle.

I just love Tom there and I found the part when Tom asked Malorie what's the night dress for quite cute. He's just perfect. 

Ang lakas talaga maka gwapo ng character. 


Well maybe the arms and abs count too. Lel 

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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:25 AM.


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