Dad has been wanting XO Hennessey for as long as can remember. For the longest time, I've been checking the wine section of SM. It used to be 8k pesos. Now it's around 13k. I couldn't afford it back when it was 8k. I'm pretty sure I could afford it back when I was still working in my previous company. I should've bought it back when I still can afford it.
I love looking at expensive liquors. I can't drink much, but I like how they look so luxurious. I want to build a bar in my house one day. I want to have pretty liquor glasses of designs appropriate for every kind of liquor. I actually bought a stem less wine glass before. I still have it. It looks so cute, it can't stand upright, always twirling like a spinning top.
I want to collect luxury liquors and pretty liquor glasses. But before that, I'm gonna buy Dad XO Hennessey first.
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I sold a total of 8 items from my shop today. It's the biggest I number in a while, so I'm really happy.
Thanks, Universe. Please give me more.
Please give me a quick and easy 1 million pesos also.
12:41 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I marked my calendar with FJ for days that I'm gonna find job, SJ for days I'm going study Japanese, then TH for days off/reading BL for content for my Facebook page. I put stars on dates when I can't perform any of those three.
I work real hard these days, you know.
This week, 3 days were marked FJ. I spent 3 days seriously sending out applications, pero walang pumansin sakin.
It doesn't help that my language skills seem to be getting rusty. And heck, I really need money.
Ang hirap hindi panghinaan ng loob. Sa ngayon, I just do whatever I can at the moment. Taking it one day at a time.
Hindi pala nakakaproud na you're turning 40 and broke. Tas single ka pa. Lol.
Sa totoo lang, wala akong pake sa ibang bagay ngayon other than money.
This time too, I want to have the best possible outcome.
I want to earn even more than I used to from my previous job.
I want to have enough time for my business and hobbies, my cats and my family, and having enough time to sleep on top of that.
I want to travel again. And I want to bring Mom and Dad with me.
Tas gusto ko ulet kuhanin si Ate Neneng as our helper para hindi na mahirapan si Mama.
Gusto ko ulet mag-ipon at palaguin ulet ang stock portfolio ko.
Gusto kong kumain ulet ng masarap. Gusto kong bumalik ulit sa Okada.
Gusto ko ulet bumili ng bagong damit. I'll buy some for Mom too.
Tas maraming cat food.
At bagong cat tower.
Bagong cellphone at bagong laptop.
Tas gusto ko ng rin sarili kong printer.
Gusto ko na yumaman ulit.
Yung mas mayaman pa.
Yung mayaman, masaya, at malaya.
12:50 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Today, I woke up will multiple violation notifications on Facebook. Said I can no longer monetize my page. This is one of my main sources of income since I've been unemployed.
Haaaaa. Will they take down the page? IDK. It took me 2 years to monetize, so wtf.
Haaaaa. I don't feel so much. It's not that I can feel angry. They own Facebook. They have all the right to restrict me. Well, whatever.
Life's really tough right now, but let's keep going.
09:35 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
It's 4 minutes before 2AM. I am awake, browsing Aglio Olio Recipe.
Know what, I don't usually cook, but I think I make pretty good pasta. But then, I don't remember ever eating a bad-tasting pasta, so maybe, I just have a pretty low standards for pasta since I love it so much.
I'm so having aglio olio for breakfast. But I also want sweet style spaghetti. Let's see which one will win. I hope I won't end up with instant pancit canton. I want real food.
Oh, wow! It's 2:02 AM now.
02:02 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Ikatlong araw ng taon.
Celebrated Christmas with just Mom and Dad, since Bro and his family went to celebrate in Cavite. It was all good.
New year, kompleto kami.
2019 was my best year ever, lalo na sa financial aspects. So to copy the result of 2019, nicheck ko kung paano ba kami nag celebrate then, and I tried to recreate it nung new year.
I was wearing black spaghetti strap top and green printed silk robe that year. This year, I wore spaghetti strap dress and the same robe, though, tokwa, ang init, so the robe was just resting on the sofa.
Tapos, sinulat ko rin yung mantra ko nung 2019 na nilagay ko sa wall namin. Same mantra, ni tweak lang ng onti.
Nagdagdag ako ng balloons, tas HNY banner, tas more balloons sa table. Naglagay din ako ng 2025 candle same sa ginawa namin ng 2019. Then when the clock hit 12:00, nagpatunog ako ng coins sa buong bahay while shouting "happy new year".
If tama ang alala ko, may work ako ng new year last year, so I probably just slept. This year, I went all out. It felt good, you know. Sabi nga sa nabasa ko, your physical state affects your mental state daw. Kaya siguro making happy posture and happy noise do help make you a little happier.
Nung matapos ang pag-iingay, Mom was like, "tapos, balik na naman tayo sa totoong buhay bukas".
Know what, I've been unemployed since February last year but never once did I miss giving Mom the usual 20,000 monthly na panggastos namin sa bahay. I also buy toiletries on top of that. I also treat them to meals at least once a month. I know we used to eat out weekly, back when I was still employed, but despite some changes, sa tingin ko, it wasn't all bad. I don't know what causes Mom to lose confidence sa finances namin, considering na I still give her the same amount.
It's heartbreaking, you know. I want to give Mom everything. Hindi ko sila na ipasyal sa abroad last year. So, I dont know.
Still, hindi naman siguro need magfocus sa drama and to consider myself a failure for that petty reason. Another year, another chance.
Grateful parin ako sa lahat ng meron. Kahit sa dun sa mga wala. I will still push forward and find a way to improve our lives. Kaya ko to. Kakayanin ko to.
One time, my 4 year old nephew entered the room while I was working on my YT channel. Akala nya nanonood lang ako ng YT so he was like "Nood ka lang ng Youtube, Tita? wala ka work?" So I told him, "mayaman na Tita, di na need mag work". Then he said, "nye, wala nga tayo peya" in his cute voice na mejo bulol, pero cute parin. He's the same as his sister. I remember the niece's reaction upon finding that I no longer work was somewhat similar.
Kaya ko to.
Brother managed to find a work a few months back, so unti unti, bumabangon na silang mag pamilya.
I'm trying to find job too. Pero sana wfh. I want to keep my business, and I want to be able to keep growing my monetized FB page. Nag send ako ng email sa job invitation kahapon. Ayun, walang response.
You know what, I can write an entire list of problems na hinaharap ko now. Promise, ang dami. Pero what for?
Sabi nila, FOCUS ON YOUR DREAMS. FOCUS ON YOUR BLESSINGS.
Alam mo ba, first time kong naka attend ng Christmas recital sa dati kong school. I attended my niece and nephew's recital, and we stayed until evening. Nung nag-aaral pa ko dun, hindi ako pinapayagan ng nanay ko na magpagabi to watch the programs, so ang saya lang to finally experience it this time around.
Also, usually, I spend Christmas and New Year working, pero this year, nasa bahay ako, at nagawa ko pang mag decorate for the occasion.
And then, I still have my parents. My family is still complete. I receive plenty of hugs and kisses from my niece and nephews, and I snuggle with my cats everyday. Sa totoo lang, feeling ko, kaya ko lahat, basta kompleto ang family ko.
When I checked my money in stock market, I still have some money.
I am grateful. I, afterall, have so much to be grateful for.
I know, 2025 is gonna be kinder and easier.
2025 is going to bring more blessings for me and my family.
2025 is going to be a wealthier, healthier, and happier year for me.
2025 is going to be my best year ever.
I am wishing the same for you, Tabby peeps.
05:40 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1:26AM. Nasira yung aircon. Ang init. I can't sleep. Bukas ko na iisipin ko paano kami bibili ng bago. A few days back, yung camera ng phone ko ayaw na gumana. Almost used up na rin ang memory, so... Haaaah.
Yung akala kong harmless copyright claim on my page led to 4 days of significantly low performance. I decided to delete the video. It wasn't earning that much anyway. Tokwa, I should've deleted it right when I received the claim. Exchanging visibility for miniscule shared revenue was far from worth it.
Sa February ang ika 7th month ng mga kittens. I need around 12k to have all of them spayed.
2024 was hard. 2025 is going to be so much better.
01:35 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Woke up early today. By "early", I meant 6:30. I was actually woken up around 3 because of damned allergies. Oh well.
Gah! Ang bilis ng panahon. Matatapos na ang 2024. Nairaos na 10 months akong walang trabaho. Lol.
But know what, I had breakfast with my parents today. And every night, I receive hugs and 'good nights' from my niece and nephew. I cuddle with my cats, sleep and eat my hearts out, plan my future, and live in my own terms. And I still have money. I'm truly grateful.
Sa ngayon, hindi ko naman talaga alam kung paano ko aayusin ang sitwasyon ko. It's not so bad. But it's not great either. And I don't want to be just on this level. Haaaaa. Kaya ko to.
I bought perfume for rebranding para sa online shop ko. Hindi pa dumadating, pero pinost ko na for pre-order. Walang omorder. Lol. Kailangan ko pa ata ng fda registration dito. Ang mahal. Fda registered yung manufacturer, so parang redundant na need ko pa magpa fda, so ewan. Hahaha. Ang there's BIR filing also. Siguro kaya parang laging kulang ako sa oras coz I do a lot of different things at a time.
I received a copyright notice sa isa sa mga monetized videos ko sa FB dahil sa background music. Well, di naman pinapatanggal, though isa yun sa options. I chose the revenue-sharing option. Like 20% lang sakin, the rest sa kanila na. Wahaha. Hindi man lang 50%. Pero, oh sya, sige na nga. Hindi naman ganun kalaki yun.
I love BL. I'm glad I get to earn money from recommending stuff I love. Sana one day, my earnings will get to sustainable degree. Tipong kaya na kong buhayin, ganern.
I also started some testing gig, though so far, I have only declined projects, so wala pa kong kita. Hindi pa kasi ako tapos sa training, I needed to decline.
I have online shop. My sales are growing, but still not yet on the sustainable level. So, ewan ko.
Sa ngayon, I'll do what I can with what I have. Alam kong in time ay magtathrive din ako sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko.
I send personalized messages to every package I ship out to my customers. Sabi kasi nila, yung mga bagay daw na binibigay mo sa iba, bumabalik din sayo. In my notes, I send them prayers and wishes of good health, love, joy and monetary blessings. Bumalik man o hindi, writing and sending out those notes make me happy.
I know, things are gonna get better soon. Big hug, Universe.
09:29 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I stopped updating my YT this week, yet the views and subscribers kept growing. It looks promising. I'd love to get back to it, but right now, I need to focus on things that are actually giving me money.
I want to learn how to edit like Molob. But heck, I don't even have time to comb my hair.
02:12 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I want a good coffee.
I bought ground coffee in Lazada with great reviews. So sad, di masarap. Despite being dark, hindi matapang, hindi rin mabango. I want good coffee. T_T
I usually drink brewed black with sugar. I'm don't like instant coffee. I'm not good with milk so I often skip creamer, but I love cappuccino. I haven't tried sb's black coffee, but their cappuccino is too mild for my taste. I think the best cappuccino I had is the one from Paper Moon. I miss their mango layered crepe cake thingy also. Ah, I miss crepe.
I've been very busy these days. I don't do face yoga anymore and I haven't exercise in ages. I do a lot of physical works in the morning though, like mopping the floor of the cats' room and all that stuff. I haven't watched tv for ages.
Haaaaa. Siguro kung hindi factor ang financial aspects e I can say na I like what I'm doing with my life now. But this is not enough. I must do more. I need to make money.
4 months ago, the pregnant neighborhood cat gave birth sa kulungan ng aso namin. We took the kittens in, and the mom too. Now we have extra 3 kittens and 1 grown cat. Mabait yung mama cat, so despite Mom only acknowledging the kittens as ours, I told her the mama cat is mine too. So yeah.
I can't have these cats get pregnant, so I'll need to have money for kapon. The kittens should be ready in 2 months. The mama cat can go anytime once I have the money. Syempre, that's extra 4 mouths to feed cat food with, so... Haaaaa. Ewan ko. Kaya ko to.
This year ang unang Feastcon na hindi ko niattendan since we started attending year 2013. Nalungkot din ako. Pero kasi, yung hotel, pagkain at Feastcon fees, I could use it to buy more important things instead. So I decided not to attend and told Mom I'd buy them Crocs for Christmas. I feel bad that I won't be able to give mom my usual 13th month salary since I'm jobless, so I'd like to at least still give them gifts.
Gusto ko nang yumaman ulet. Kawawa naman yung nanay ko.
Haaa, so basta, right now, same battle plan. I'll do all I can with whatever I have. I'm smart and talented. Syempre kaya ko to.
Wahhhhhh! Big hug, Universe.
01:27 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
