1:26AM. Nasira yung aircon. Ang init. I can't sleep. Bukas ko na iisipin ko paano kami bibili ng bago. A few days back, yung camera ng phone ko ayaw na gumana. Almost used up na rin ang memory, so... Haaaah.
Yung akala kong harmless copyright claim on my page led to 4 days of significantly low performance. I decided to delete the video. It wasn't earning that much anyway. Tokwa, I should've deleted it right when I received the claim. Exchanging visibility for miniscule shared revenue was far from worth it.
Sa February ang ika 7th month ng mga kittens. I need around 12k to have all of them spayed.
2024 was hard. 2025 is going to be so much better.
01:35 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Woke up early today. By "early", I meant 6:30. I was actually woken up around 3 because of damned allergies. Oh well.
Gah! Ang bilis ng panahon. Matatapos na ang 2024. Nairaos na 10 months akong walang trabaho. Lol.
But know what, I had breakfast with my parents today. And every night, I receive hugs and 'good nights' from my niece and nephew. I cuddle with my cats, sleep and eat my hearts out, plan my future, and live in my own terms. And I still have money. I'm truly grateful.
Sa ngayon, hindi ko naman talaga alam kung paano ko aayusin ang sitwasyon ko. It's not so bad. But it's not great either. And I don't want to be just on this level. Haaaaa. Kaya ko to.
I bought perfume for rebranding para sa online shop ko. Hindi pa dumadating, pero pinost ko na for pre-order. Walang omorder. Lol. Kailangan ko pa ata ng fda registration dito. Ang mahal. Fda registered yung manufacturer, so parang redundant na need ko pa magpa fda, so ewan. Hahaha. Ang there's BIR filing also. Siguro kaya parang laging kulang ako sa oras coz I do a lot of different things at a time.
I received a copyright notice sa isa sa mga monetized videos ko sa FB dahil sa background music. Well, di naman pinapatanggal, though isa yun sa options. I chose the revenue-sharing option. Like 20% lang sakin, the rest sa kanila na. Wahaha. Hindi man lang 50%. Pero, oh sya, sige na nga. Hindi naman ganun kalaki yun.
I love BL. I'm glad I get to earn money from recommending stuff I love. Sana one day, my earnings will get to sustainable degree. Tipong kaya na kong buhayin, ganern.
I also started some testing gig, though so far, I have only declined projects, so wala pa kong kita. Hindi pa kasi ako tapos sa training, I needed to decline.
I have online shop. My sales are growing, but still not yet on the sustainable level. So, ewan ko.
Sa ngayon, I'll do what I can with what I have. Alam kong in time ay magtathrive din ako sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko.
I send personalized messages to every package I ship out to my customers. Sabi kasi nila, yung mga bagay daw na binibigay mo sa iba, bumabalik din sayo. In my notes, I send them prayers and wishes of good health, love, joy and monetary blessings. Bumalik man o hindi, writing and sending out those notes make me happy.
I know, things are gonna get better soon. Big hug, Universe.
09:29 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I stopped updating my YT this week, yet the views and subscribers kept growing. It looks promising. I'd love to get back to it, but right now, I need to focus on things that are actually giving me money.
I want to learn how to edit like Molob. But heck, I don't even have time to comb my hair.
02:12 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I want a good coffee.
I bought ground coffee in Lazada with great reviews. So sad, di masarap. Despite being dark, hindi matapang, hindi rin mabango. I want good coffee. T_T
I usually drink brewed black with sugar. I'm don't like instant coffee. I'm not good with milk so I often skip creamer, but I love cappuccino. I haven't tried sb's black coffee, but their cappuccino is too mild for my taste. I think the best cappuccino I had is the one from Paper Moon. I miss their mango layered crepe cake thingy also. Ah, I miss crepe.
I've been very busy these days. I don't do face yoga anymore and I haven't exercise in ages. I do a lot of physical works in the morning though, like mopping the floor of the cats' room and all that stuff. I haven't watched tv for ages.
Haaaaa. Siguro kung hindi factor ang financial aspects e I can say na I like what I'm doing with my life now. But this is not enough. I must do more. I need to make money.
4 months ago, the pregnant neighborhood cat gave birth sa kulungan ng aso namin. We took the kittens in, and the mom too. Now we have extra 3 kittens and 1 grown cat. Mabait yung mama cat, so despite Mom only acknowledging the kittens as ours, I told her the mama cat is mine too. So yeah.
I can't have these cats get pregnant, so I'll need to have money for kapon. The kittens should be ready in 2 months. The mama cat can go anytime once I have the money. Syempre, that's extra 4 mouths to feed cat food with, so... Haaaaa. Ewan ko. Kaya ko to.
This year ang unang Feastcon na hindi ko niattendan since we started attending year 2013. Nalungkot din ako. Pero kasi, yung hotel, pagkain at Feastcon fees, I could use it to buy more important things instead. So I decided not to attend and told Mom I'd buy them Crocs for Christmas. I feel bad that I won't be able to give mom my usual 13th month salary since I'm jobless, so I'd like to at least still give them gifts.
Gusto ko nang yumaman ulet. Kawawa naman yung nanay ko.
Haaa, so basta, right now, same battle plan. I'll do all I can with whatever I have. I'm smart and talented. Syempre kaya ko to.
Wahhhhhh! Big hug, Universe.
01:27 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Haaaaaaaa...
So, one YT vid woke me up from my delusions of being a full-time socmed content creator. I'm thinking if I should start again from scratch, or find a workaround. If workaround, my only armor would be AI, which I'm not even very good at. Gah.
Should I wait it off until I reach the 1st level first?
Haaaa...
Hindi ko na alam.
Pa hug nga, Universe. T.T
10:35 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Just finished the language interview. It took only about 15 minutes. I told Mom that I had a hard time and there were a lot of things I didn't understand. And Mom was like, "mayabang ka kasi, ayan". Lol, she's not wrong.
Before I took the interview, I was worried that I'll get accepted and will have to go back to my life as a corporate slave. Tapos ngayon na tapos na and I didn't do well, I'm worried naman on what will happen to me if this whole socmed monitazation project thing will not work. Pupulutin ba ko sa kangkungan?
Well, whatever. Sa ngayon, I'll do what I can, with what I have right now.
Send me your love, Universe.
04:28 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Last Friday, Mom asked me how the interview went. When I told her how I answered the questions, she was like, "pano ka tatanggapin nyan e pinaalam mo kagad na maldita ka?" Lol.
Ayoko lang magbait baitan para di na sila mag expect. Sa totoo lang, ayoko pang mag work. I wake up everyday more excited than usual dahil kahit papano, umuusad na yung mga projects na ginagawa ko. Tumaas din yung earning by 2x, pero sa tatoo lang, hindi parin sapat yun kahit para sa basic necessities lang ng family. But I still have money, so as long as I can, I want to postpone this whole job hunting thing.
They replied though. Japanese language interview on Wednesday. I don't know if I'll pass, but I don't have doubt with my skills. Hybrid parin tong work na to. Will I be able to negotiate full-time wfh?
Well, hindi pa naman tapos. I might not even make it to the language interview. Tsaka if they can't give me the salary I want, then... haaaa. Bahala na.
9k views on my new YT channel. I need 10M to monetize. Wahaha. Suntok sa buwan kaya to? Hindi ko alam, but I'm going to do everything I can. Fight!
06:31 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1 call.
Ang tagal na since I posted my resume in jobstreet tas ngayon lang ako nakareceive ng call from them.
Hybrid setup daw sila. Sinabi ko na I have a small biz and am looking for a full time wfh job dahil nga sa business ko. Sabi ko rin AT LEAST 1XXk monthly salary. Wahaha. Ang daming demand. Tatanggapin man lang kaya nila ako?
IDK. If hindi, edi hindi. Pero it would be really helpful kung makukuha ko yung gusto ko. Have the cake and eat it too.
Gusto ko ng fully wfh work. or if hybrid man, 1 day a week lang.
At least 30 leaves per year. With annual salary increase.
Tas AT LEAST 1XXk montly salary.
5 days a week lang work at walang OT.
Mabait na boss, mabait na workmates, at super chill na work load.
Wish me luck.
03:22 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
BFF sent me a message a few days back asking for help. She's gonna undergo an operation, and the hubby's gonna be out on a business trip. They need someone to bring and pickup the kiddo to school, which is just right accross their apartment. BFF is in Malaysia, btw. I was up for it, but I told bff I'm scared of blood. Wala naman daw blood, still, takot parin ako. She messaged me yesterday and said na nakahanap na daw sila, or something. In a way, I was kinda looking forward to travelling again, but still, okay na rin yun, ang tamad ko kaya. BFF knew that, pero sabi ng mama ko, "alangan namang yung pinagkainan mo e pahugasan mo pa dun sa pasyente". Lol. IKR.
Speaking of Malaysia, a company sent me a message inviting me for a career opportunity in Malaysia. I miss travelling, pero ayoko tumira dun. Ang bilis kong mahome sick, so IDK if I can live and work away from my family. Pero if sa Japan siguro, kaya ko. I love Japan afterall.
Haaaaa. I want to go back to Japan. I still have money, and the yen I got left from my trip a few months back should be enough if I only stay there for a few days. Gusto ko pumunta ulet next year. Haaaa.
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Parang jungle ang social media. I blocked a few bashers kahit na dagdag kita rin yung pagko comment nila sa page. I prefer peace of mind. Sa totoo lang, medyo hindi matibay ang puso ko sa mga ganitong bagay.
Haaaaa. Kaya ko to.
04:03 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
