I want to live life with effortless ease.
EE.
I submitted a video introduction to a propective employer. Ayoko sana kasi baka kung saan nila gamitin yung video ko. When I told Mom, she said, "naku, baka gawan ka ng video na nakahubad". Lol. That doesn't scare me anymore. I mean, at this age, sa totoo lang, wapakels na. Wahaha.
Another interview tomorrow.
It's been 2 months since I started actively job hunting. Dati akala ko 2 months na yung pinakamatagal na job-hunt duration ko. Tokwa. Ang hirap hindi mag-alala, ma depress, at mag self-pity.
Pero I remember back then, pag nadedepress ako, the more painful it is, the faster I managed to get myself out of the situation. Parang yung line na nabasa ko saying, "pure hell forces action" something.
I have goofy niece and nephew, plus, I also have Mom. No matter how bad the situation is, hindi ko naman talaga mafeel yung "pure hell" since I have them. And that also brings me a diffent kind of fear.
Being unemployed gives me fear of being unable to provide.
Loving my family gives me fear that a day will come when I no longer have anyone to provide for.
Hindi ko pa rin maintindihan yung nabasa ko sa somewhere (I think, sa bible) na fear is the opposite of love daw.
I don't know why my love always comes with accompanying fear. Mali ba yung way ko of loving.
Well, idk.
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Tita sent me a message the last time. Nangungutang ng 250K. She borrowed 150K to me the last time, hindi pa bayad yung 50 + yung promise nyang interest na 20K. I told Tita na wala akong trabaho for a year now.
Hindi ako mahilig magpautang, but if I had an extra money, I think I'd help Tita out. My other Tita ran away with her money kasi. This Tita owns a school which was once thriving, until my other Tita withdrew the money from the school's account, and ran away with it.
Well, hindi ko naman alam ang full story.
Sabi ni Tita she'll pay her balance daw sakin soon as she gets the government subsidy sa school nila. Sabi ko kahit wag nya na muna bayaran at asikasuhin nya muna yung problem ng school, but she insisted. Well, wala pa naman syang bayad, so okay lang rin.
Haaaa.
Kahapon, bumili si mama ng ice cream para sa mga kids. Syempre kasama ako. I usually buy 3 tubs, total of 5-6 litters of ice cream para saming lahat. Pero kahapon, pinagkasya namin yung 1 tub parang sa aming 6.
Hindi na ako sanay sa kahirapan. Lol.
Nung bumili kami ng ice cream, humirit yung nanay ko na bilhan ko daw sya ng cornetto, which I did. Alam kong ang gusto nya e yung kitkat na ice cream cone keneme, pero dahil sa alam nyang mahal, nagsettle na sya sa cornetto. I feel sorry for Mom. I wanted to buy her that kitkat ice cream and more.
Magiging maayos din ang lahat. Malalagpasan din namin to.
04:37 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Not feeling great.
Kahapon, nag effort ako mag make up at mag outfit para sa camera-on job interview. Kaso nag hingalo yung laptop na hinirap ko sa kapatid ko, at yung walang pasensyang interviewer e nagsabi na reschedule nalang daw. Oh well.
So bukas yung bagong sched. Hindi na ko mag aayos. Will connect both sa laptop and phone para may backup sakaling maghingalo ulet yung laptop.
Speaking on hingalo. I had a dream last night. 3 of our relatives died daw. Nakalimutan ko yung iba except kay Tito Y who is very much alive pa. I told Mom this morning, pero wapakels sya. Lol. Asawa yun ng Tita ko sa side ni papa. Kaya siguro wapakels si mamabear. That Tito lives in Canada, so hindi naman kami close, but he has been kind to us though.
Well, it was just a dream anyway.
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Not it best state. I have 3 ongoing job application. Yung isa dun e mag wa 1 month nang ongoing. So, IDK. Yung other 2 e inendorse lang ng 2 different job agencies. Though I frequently check job search sites, wala naman akong maapplyan masyado dahil ang lalayo at fully onsite.
Push.
Nag-aalala ko. Pero seriously, ano bang pwede kong gawin other than to keep going and keep trying, di ba?
The one that I'll be having interview with tomorrow e fully WFH. I want to get hired there. Nag review ako today, and I've given all I can. So bukas, the rest is up to the Universe na. Nakalagay sa job posting e native level yung hinahanap, so IDK why they considered my application. Basta, I will do my best.
Let's do this.
Iniisip ko if may negative effect ba ang pag sign everytime, but just to be sure, let's avoid it.
Matatapos din to. Magiging okay din ang lahat.
06:10 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
That company who had me take a Berlitz language assessment, reached out. Said they received the results of my assessment but didn't receive the speaking and listening part. They asked me to let them know if I haven't taken it yet, so they can reschedule. I told them I already did. I wonder if they lost the results, and if I'd need to have a retake. If yes, then that will work on my favor.
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Kanina, I called out my cat, and he rushed back home upon hearing my voice. Mom said, "paano pag wala ka dito? E sakin di nakikinig yan."
Haaaa. Sa totoo long, kung hindi issue ang pera, I want to stay here at home, and be with my family, and my cats. I'm not sure if I'd be able to find a fully wfh job. I read somewhere from back in my previous company na government mandated yung rto. Like, pwede mag hybrid, but not 100% wfh. Something like to help the economy recover after the pandemic or something.
Well, there are non-bpo jobs, pero kasi...
Ewan. Bahala na.
I told Mom I'm going to work 1 year to save up, then resign and rest for 5 months, then find work again. I plan to spend the 5 months traveling with my parents, and just spending time at home with my family and my cats. Age is not usually an issue sa call center. I plan to study for N2 so that it'll be easier to get a job, and with better pay. Mom said, gawin ko na daw 2 years para mas maraming ipon. But I'm thinking I want to do it while my parents can still walk. Mom then said, "e di mag wheelchair". Mom's really optimistic.
I want my parents to live forever. I want to be able to be with them for another 70 years pa.
Yung mga companies na nag respond sa application ko e mostly in Mandaluyong and Taguig. 1 is hybrid, and the other is fully onsite. Even yung hybrid one, kailangan ko parin mag work onsite for 6 months during training. Which means, I'll be needing to rent a place in case I get accepted. Minimum of 6 full months of not seeing my family and my cats during weekdays. Sa totoo lang, nalulungkot ako.
But what else can I do? I really need money soon, lalo na't bagsak ang stockmarket at hindi advisable mag benta.
Haaa.
Lord, pahingi ng quick and easy 1,000,000 pesos.
01:12 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Just finished another language assessment from another company.
Mabait si Kuya interviewer, pero, IDK.
I was asked to read something in Japanese. First word palang hindi ko na mabasa yung Kanji. LOl. But I proceeded and was able to read the rest, though marami paring part na hindi ko mabasa. Ewan kung anong result, so bahala na.
On the other company I applied a week ago, the Japanese interviewer said, "kampeki desu", referring to my answer, which means, "It's perfect". Sure enough, I passed that interview. Kaso, they had me take the Berlitz language assessment, and I didn't perform that well.
Sabi nung Japanese dude na kausap ko kanina, mag aral pa daw ako ng ibang kanji for future interviews. Recruitment company yun, so siguro, pagka endorse ng profile ko sa client nila, baka another interview ulet.
From what I heard, 2 business days daw after ng assessment naglalabas ng results ang Berlitz. Since holiday nung Wednesday, then today is the 2nd day. So I won't hear from day by Monday...
Whatever.
Last night, Dad and I was watching the top 10 most expensive luxury buffet in Metro Manila sa Youtube. I think Dad miss luxery buffet, and maybe travelling too. Mga ganun kasi ang lagi nyang pinapanood lately.
I want to have a high-paying job again so I can treat my family to something nice soon.
Know what, I didnt regret leaving my previous job one bit. I knew that time na that was the only way. If meron akong regret e yung sana hindi ko ginalingan dun sa interview nung lilipat dapat kami sa isang account. Kasi kung hindi ako natanggap, nandun sana ako sa forever wfh na account, where my other teammates who didnt pass were transferred.
Pero siguro, may reason kung bakit nangyayari ang mga bagay bagay.
I get to spend a blissful 11 months at home.
For the record, hindi ako humilata lang sa bahay.
My hands have gotten rough from mopping the floor everyday.
Nagkaron rin ako ng god-tier skill sa pagtitiklop ng damit, that when my 4 year old nephew opened our closet once, he was like, "wow!"
I managed to grow my BL Page, build a business, learn AI.
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Gusto kong matanggap work na chill lang. Yung pwede ako mag aral ng Japanese habang walang calls at chats. Gusto ko rin tumanggap ng malaking sweldo. Kahit a few ten thousands higher lang sa previous job ko.
Mag-iipon ako. I will to build my stock portfolio again.
I will to continue to find other passive income.
I will bring Mom and Dad to luxury buffet. Then, we'll go to Japan. I want to go to Japan at least once every year.
I miss Japan.
Haaaa...
Kaya yan.
04:05 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I just finished an interview from a recruitment company. They scheduled me for a language assessment tomorrow.
As for the previous company I applied for, I heard that Berlitz releases their result after 2 business days. Since holiday kahapon, maybe the results will be around Monday. Well, I don't know.
Gusto ko ng permanent WFH job.
Gusto ko na yung salary e even just a tiny bit higher than my previous company.
Gusto ko e yung chill at easy lang yung work. Morning shift at walang OT forever.
I want to have a lot of money again. I want to have even more money.
Thanks in advance, Universe!
04:06 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I had the language assessment earlier for reading and writing. Mahirap. I thought they were looking for N3 up. Later, I'm going to have the listening and speaking test via zoom. At least, no more Kanji. Gah.
Okay lang. Tomorrow, we're going to have a mini celebration for the CNY. Naglagay na ko ng red balloons na decorations sa sala. Hindi masyado maganda yung balloons na nabili ko, pero keri na.
I started checking the rin for other jobs. Kung hindi para sakin, then I just have to find something else.
Sana maging okay lahat.
05:42 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
"Good news: you passed the project interview."
It was past 7PM nung sinabi yun nung staff ng company. Sabay sabi na sa kabila daw ng JLPT certificate ko e kailangan parin nilang siguraduhing ganun nga talaga ang Japanese language skill level ko at hindi nadaan lang sa tsamba e kailangan daw na mag Berlitz language assessment test daw ako.
Online gaganapin. I heard that test before, pero sa 11 years ko sa BPO industry as a Japanese-Bilingual, hindi ko pa nae experience ang Berlitz na ito. Sabi ito daw ang magiging deciding factor if I'm gonna get hired or not.
More than passing or failing the exam, mas nag-aalala ako na online gaganapin. Sira kasi yung laptop ko. Nagka crash ang browser nya after every 10 minutes or so. Sira na to kahit nung bagong bili palang, tinamad lang akong isoli.
Sabi ng HR hindi daw advisable na sa phone or tablet. Dapat daw laptop or desktop. Hiniram ko yung laptop ng kapatid ko. Intel Celeron. Parang matandang may hika yung laptop. Lol. Mataas yung spec ng sarili kong laptop, pero itong sa kapatid ko, antique na yung spec, pero gumagana.
Haaaa.
Nagtest ako ng mic kanina. Delayed yung boses. Tokwa. Balita ko may oral test daw sa Berlitz at may time limit. Good luck talaga.
At the end of the day, naniniwala ako na kung para sa akin, harangan man yan ng sibat e akin parin.
Tuesday 7PM ang start ng test. Bahala ka na, Universe.
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Sa hiring event last Saturday, kahit hindi ako friendly e marami akong nakakwentuhang tao. All of them were women. Tabang, wala man lang akong naging prospect or kahit crush on that 1 time na lumabas ako ng bahay after a long time of being a hermit. In a way, kasalanan din siguro to ng BL manga hobby ko. The men I see there are hot and handsome, that real-life men can't even compare.
Well, whatever. Saka na siguro ko hahanap ng lovelife pag may trabaho na ko.
06:16 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
5:37pm and I'm still here.
Mom went to SM with my brother and his family, without feeding my cats. Huhu. I asked her to feed them as I needed to leave early. I actually fed them before leaving. But they're supposed to get fed again by 12nn. Kawawa naman ang mga pusa ko. TT
I'm kinda having 2nd thoughts about this job. It's Hybrid daw. 3 days wfh, 2 days onsite. Tas 10 hr shift including 1 hr lunch and 30 mins break, so 8.5 hrs work everyday, but still.
Hindi ko alam kung matatanggap ako. All I know is that I really need money now.
Sabi ng nakilala ko dito sa hub, naniniwala daw sya na pag hindi sya natanggap, ibig sabihin, may something better na naghihintay para sa kanya. I believe that too.
For now, I wanna go home and feed my poor cats. Knowing my brother, they'll probably leave the mall untill closing. Tokwa, kawawa naman ang mga pusa ko. Huhu.
05:43 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
So, I'm sitting at a recruitment hub for a JP hiring event.
A few seats from me, there are people talking fluently in Japanese.
I like this company. I want to get in.
Bahala ka na, Universe.
11:32 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
