Entries for July, 2011
today, i just thought of giving up.
its not that i've lost the hope or anything..its just that, i feel like, if im gonna go on like this...i will never be able to move forward..
maybe it would be better to just give it all up if it doesnt actually doing me any good.
but i dont think there's any point of giving up half way though. if im going to give up, i wanna give it all up.
human minds are just so complex. at times i feel like giving up means that im just being coward in fighting for what i want. but at times i feel like, it wouldnt be so bad to give up..if giving up would help you to go on.
maybe in life, you need to let go of some things so that you can empty you hands to receive something else. im not good at letting go, neither in giving up...maybe because i do not usually start to fight.
they say happiness is a choice. a choice that would always require courage and resolve, i think. resolve. i think that is that thing that i lack that every human must have. a resolution to choose my own happiness.
i dont fight because i hate to lose. this is the thing that i hate most about myself. i hate running away when things get though.
happiness. sounds like fiction. i wonder.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:58 PM.