opis crush sent me an email containing this..

sabi nya kasi 18 palang daw ako (sabi ko nga sa kanya 16 lang e, amp sya..hehe)..

eeeee!!smiling ears to ears now..

wahehe.. ang babaw lang..

anyway, setting kerengkeng stuff aside, ang gulo ng buhay trabaho ko ngayon.

ngresign na daw si ns. last friday pa. i remember last friday kami ngkabadtripan. sighs.. hindi sya pumasok ngayon. hindi ko sure kung papasok pa ba sya.ang totoo nyan, since magkabadtripan kami last fri, im itching to resign narin. pero syempre, pag ngresign ako ngayon, para narin akong nag career suicide nun. company policy again. tsaka bukod pa sa company policy, our family is not doing good financially.. sahod ko pa ang main source ng income namin..so technically , suicide talaga sa lahat ng aspect pag nagresign ako.

i know this is bad, but im actually relieved. ..relieved kasi i dont have to resign. relieved, yes, but not happy.

the calls today proved how NS got a point in all aspect. if my situation in life is not as bad as it is, my principles would have made me resign again... sighs.. bahala na.. eto lang naman kasi talaga ang choice na meron ako. mgstay. nahihiya rin talaga ko.. pero ano bang pwede kong gawin.. still, im doing my best and im willing to stretch myself further..hayy.. heavens..bahala ka na po..

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know what, i thought arrogance is not listed in my vocabulary. but maybe the fact that im not doing good at work is triggering me to be like this as a defense mechanism or something. really, it is not fun to be one. 

sighs..ayoko ng ganito. ayokong maging ganito..

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sighs(ulet).. tough life is ahead.. i should brace myself.. damn.

oh, wish me luck..

{ mood } praying..

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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:24 PM.

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