while staring at the walls earlier this morning, i had that thought again.
maybe because yang's planning to do it too..
and really, what's there lose?
a side of my brain says, "a lot" and i know that a lot of people are depending on me, but the other says, " so what?"
ive done this twice... what's weird is that im scared because im no longer scared.
see, i have the knack of deciding things that are worst for me and put myself into trouble. i guess i just want to push myself against the wall in the hope that maybe, id start doing incredible things once i lose all my options.
maybe im being selfish.
but i dont want to use my responsibilities nor the idea that other people depend on me as an excuse to not jump off and settle for a life i do not want.
this time being selfish sounds better..
im just lacking sleep.
Written by cinderellaareus at 01:38 PM.