i dont know what's with this day but i feel like i was warped in a vacuum.

or no.

i am the vacuum.

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a friend and i is suppose to meet some people next week. i agreed to go though im not exactly a sociable person because he said he's coming. but today, he said he wants to bring his boyfriend along and now i dont think i still want to go.

the friend noticed how i looked bothered about it so he asked why. he seem to think that it was all out of prejudice that i dont want the bf to go with us. i admit im still not comfortable about a boy to boy relationship or any same sex relationships for that matter, but that's not really it. i dont think i would feel any different if he happens to have a girlfriend instead.  i hate having to explain my reasons.

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and then, last night, bro told us about this cute baby boy he saw in a jeep(or bus?) which he said he'd like to be his daughter's boyfriend (his daughter is a 7months baby and the boy is around 2 to 3 years old). we were teasing him about how its too early to think about that until mom said, "siguro ayaw nya kasing matulad sayo si kaitlyn."

im usually cool with this kind of joke(which is obviously half meant). i dont know why im being sensitive about it now. it use to amuse me how people treat being single like it's some form of sickness-some form of handicap- that demands curing or help or worse, pity. it failed to get into me back then. i dont know why it's getting into me now.

im a handicap. jeez. how pitiful. wait, i need a tissue. huhu.

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"When crucial needs aren’t met (like human companionship), they make us look to God in a way that satisfied people will never be able to imitate."

- Mr. Lonely drives home, Bo Sanchez

with this in my thoughts, i know i can get by..

11:08 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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