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Brown
金曜日: November 13, 2020



47 hours ng brown out. Nung kabataan ko, pag brown out, minsan lumalabas kami ng bahay para mag kwentuhan ng nakakatakot.

Pumunta kami ng esem kanina. Balak kong na charge ng cellphone sa coffee shop. Nagdala na rin ako ng extension. Yung maliit, para di naman garapal, pero kasya tatlong socket.

Pag dating ko, yun cbtl na di nmn npupuno dati e punong puno today. Tas kada poste ng esem n may power source, may tumpok ng tao na nakiki charge. Naisip din nilang magdala ng extension, but most of them didn't bother to be descreet. May nagcha charge pa nga ng electric fan. Lol.

Ok lang. Can't bring myself to judge. Crisis e. Nakikicharge din nmn kami. Had a few talks with people there. Naaliw din naman ako. Natuwa nga ko sa extension nung nakasama naming mag charge, may usb port. Tumatanda na nga ata ako. Ngayon ko lang nalam na meron na palang usb port ang mga extension ngayon.

Kung nangyari to 5 to 10 years ago, hindi siguro ganito ang reaction ng mga tao. Siguro 2 days of brownout wouldn't be so much of a big deal kung hindi natin natutunan to rely so much on gadgets at internet.

Alam mo ba, ngayon nalang ako ulet nagbasa ng libro. I would've spent this day binge watching on Netflix kung di lang brownout.

It's not really so bad. Mejo nakakapagtaka lang na may ilaw na sa kanto. That's just about 10 blocks away from us.

As of the moment, 49% nalang ang battery ng cp ko. I wasn't able to have it fully charged, kasi by 4pm, pinapaalis na kami ng guard. If this brown out will continue tomorrow, hindi ako makakapasok sa trabaho. I hope I'd have enough battery left by then to at least inform our TL that I couldn't work. 



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Don't Dare To Dream
金曜日: October 16, 2020



Just finished watching Don't Dare To Dream, which is also known as Jealousy Incarnate. An addition to my top favorites. Basta ata kasama si Kong Hyo-jin sa casts, maganda e. Grabe ngayon lang ako inabot ng past 4am sa panonood, and I could've went on watching kung di lang na deds yung cellphone ko. This is the first time that my phone totally ran out of battery since Mom bought it.

Ang ganda, grabe. Nung in pain yung male lead, I was squirming and ouching, feeling his pain. Grabe. Around 2nd-3rd eps, di ko na dapat itutuloy kasi ang pushover ng character ng bidang babae, di ako makaralate. Tas yung bidang guy, not the usual inhumanly beautiful male lead ng korean novela. I'm glad I kept watching. And as I went on watching, grabe ang laki ng kinapogi nung mail lead sa paningin ko. Wahhhhh! Mahal na mahal ko ang palabas na to it's hard to let them go. T_T

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Every time I catch myself remembering the past too much, I make an effort to be aware of the present moment. To do this, I need to touch the walls, or feel any object just so I would know that, hey, Z, you're here. This is where you are now. This is where your power is. Come back, come back...

Sighs.

Some ramdom memory from about 15 yrs back. There was this dude who was taking a picture of me. When he found out that I knew, he started asking casually to take pictures. We were kinda close, that dude and I. A friend concluded that maybe the dude liked me, but back then, I felt like that wasn't the case.

It was you, wasn't it? Ginawa mo na kasi yun before. Also, sa pagkakakilala ko sa iyo, maiinis ka pag may ibang lalaking gumawa sakin ng ganun. But that time, you were there, and you were fine with what was happening. It was you, di ba? It was you.

Anong ginawa mo sa pictures ko? Tinapon mo ba before your wedding? Or way before that? 

Kung hindi ikaw ang nagpagawa nun, then it doesn't matter. Even if it was you, maybe it shouldn't matter, no?

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Jeez. I feel like I'm watching too much kdrama. Sa sobrang daming romcom na napanood ko, malapit na siguro akong maging love expert. Lel.



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Many Men
金曜日: September 16, 2020



Wednesday and I'm free again.

I remember reading somewhere that we should love in such a way that the person we love feels free.

There're just so many things running in my head now.

This week, I realized na marami pang lalaking good catch na single pa rin at hindi bading. 

Tinatamad lang naman talaga akong mag reply. Minsan kasi mas gusto ko nalang manood ng koreanovela.

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Just got a message for an officemate that another one from JP team has resigned. Hindi nya rin alam kung bakit.

Morning shift had been so hayahay lately. 2-3 calls, max na yung 7. Tas mga backlogs, minsan wala pang 10. Hindi ko maintindihan bakit hindi na kami binibigyan ng backlogs ni Divya.

I am in no way missing the times when I'm working on over 40 tickets per day. Nakakapraning lang kasi pag biglang ganito. Tas malalaman ko nalang na biglang nag resign si Kenta? Tokwa, bakit? 

Sighs.

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I don't know what's with this feeling. Yung... ano ba tawag dito? Yung feeling na parang walang saysay lahat,  ganun? Ewan ko. Kung tutuusin, ok naman ang lahat. My family is happy and complete. We sleep in warm bed. We have lovely dogs and a cat. And I have a job that pays me well...

Tapos?

Hindi ko masasabing love life ang kulang. Not at this time. I feel like it's all within my grasps, as if offering a hand for a handshake and I'm just standing there staring.

Ano ba tong hallow part na hindi kayang punan kahit ng love life? 

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When I signed in for work this morning, a call immediately came. When the man on the other line spoke, I understood the language but somehow got lost on how to respond. I fumbled for the Japanese words to use, yet nothing felt applicable until I realized, "takte, Korean."

Been watching a lot of kdrama. I never really stopped since we subscribed in Netflix. I'm seriously thinking of studying korean. Someone from the Korean team at work gave me a link where he self-studied Korean Language. Took him 1 year lang daw, and now nag ko Korean support na sya. Gusto ko rin matutong mag Korean.

Minsan feeling ko kaya I lack interest in meeting real-life decent men e dahil di sila katulad ng mga bida sa Kdrama. Bad trep. 

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May friend, LA, is crushing on this Japanese dude she met on an online TM meeting for a TM club in Japan. Infey, gwapo yung dude. There'll be having a meeting again this week, pero Saturday kasi at tatapat sa shift ko. I'd really want to join. Nakakatuwa kasi yung guy. I've checked his profile tas based on his picture e parang yung mga trip nya sa buhay e same ng mga trip ko sa buhay. Laman din kasi sya ng learning events. Tas Japanese pa sya. Wala lang. Interesting lang.

Yung crush ko sa TM from another club, ok rin naman e. Single din yun. And he's Chinese. Parehas din kami ng mga trip sa buhay. Alam mo, ang dami pa talagang ok na lalaki na single e...

Oh e tapos?

Sighs. Manonood nalang siguro ako ng Koreanovela.



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TLDT
金曜日: May 29, 2020



Namiss ko bigla this guy who said pwede daw magtanong kahit busy.

Tas di magrereply. Lol.



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Cruel
金曜日: May 29, 2020



Club anniversary's online celebration tonight. 

I haven't decided yet if I'm gonna go. I haven't read any messages, even those that I was tagged to. I don't want additional work. I don't want additional stress. I don't want to hear any more demands. I know this is a position I swore upon. A task I promised to do, but who cares.

Am I cruel? Well, it's not like they can't do this without me, you know. I just find them so exhausting, I can't bear having to give in to any more of their demands anymore. Lol, I know they might not even be demanding of anything right now. I wouldn't know. I haven't read the messagages. But still.

Normally, I think I'm so much more responsible than this.

Also, some of my friends will be there. And the new president is also my friend.... pero...

Have you ever felt like this, repulsed at the thought of having to deal with certain people again?

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Sa kabila ng lahat, marami paring magandang bagay na nangyayari.

A friend who tested positive in COVID has tested negative twice na, so she's cleared. Ang bait ng Langit!

Also, ang sarap nung carbonara na inorder namin kahapon. Hehe.



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Ambo
金曜日: May 15, 2020



I asked for a little rain. The Heavens gave me a storm.

Brownout. Lakas ng hangin. Binitbit ko yung kama ko sa kwarto ng parents ko dahil ang scary ng bagyo. Mom is way more scared than I am and this is not making me a little less scared. Well at least I'm not alone in fear. I can't believe that Dad is already snoring amidst all these.

Alis ka na, Ambo. Please bring COVID-19 with you.



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Beauty in gloom
金曜日: May 15, 2020



Intended to finish another kdrama this "weekend", but ended up sleeping for 10hrs straight. My back hurts.

It's a beautiful cloudy morning. I'm hoping for a little rain. I love rain.

Parents are about to leave to withdraw money from their mini business. I haven't been really good to them lately. There're just the three of us at home, to whom will I throw my temper to?

I think I should be kinder.

Someone said na coronavirus is here to stay na and we just need to learn how to live with it. I feel neutral about this. Sabi nila, lahat daw ng bagay ay nangyayari for the greater good. Maybe this is for the greater good. Hindi ko rin naman talaga alam.

People can become nasty when they're afraid. I am afraid.

Or, well, maybe I'm just nasty.

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Uy, it's raining na.

Ang ganda ganda talaga ng ulan.



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Doko ni mo ikitakunai
金曜日: May 8, 2020



Parents left home to the baranggay hall to get my quarantine pass. They asked the baranggay secretary to issue one for me since Mom, the quarantine pass holder in our household, doesn't know how to withdraw money from atm machine. Pumayag yung sec. Pwede na ko lumabas.

Teka, sino ba may sabing gusto ko lumabas?

The last time I went out during quarantine, I went to the market by foot. Nagpaltos ako, Bes. Pano kaya pag nag withdraw ako mamaya? Putek, ang ineeeeet.

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Spent my day yesterday in my parents room. Dun lang kasi may aircon. Every time na lumalabas ako ng kwarto nila, para akong piniprito. Nung gabi, dun na rin ako natulog. Nanginig naman ako sa ginaw. Lol. Buti today, hindi na ganun kainit. Or maybe, hindi pa. Gusto ko ng ice scream.

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It's been the longest that I haven't left home. Sinubukan kong alalahanin kung paano nga ulet mag commute papuntang opisina. Parang nakalimutan ko na kasi.

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Today still, gusto ko nang yumaman. Mayaman enough to have a choice.

Yun lang naman.



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Off1
金曜日: April 17, 2020



So, paano magsisimula?

He approached in a diplomatic way. I'm not that harsh. I told him I've been busy. And that I've long been wanting to take a leave of absence. I don't know why talking with this person makes me feel emotionally exhausted every time. Siguro hindi nya naman talaga kasalanan. He said there are only 2 months left for the term, and asked for us to finish this together. I still feel tired. I know we're not at odds. If anything, we're actually allies. But... I don't know. 

I hope he'll stop pushing me into giving more time and energy than I have. I think this is the only way I can stay.

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Thursday off and I spent most of the day sleeping. Parents sleep early these days so I really only get to see them during meal time. Nasanay na akong gising sa gabi, kaya ito, gising pa ko.

Mejo tinatamaan ako ng lungkot these days. At siguro pagod din. Yung emotional na pagod na hindi napapawi ng tulog at pahinga. 

ECQ blues? 

Anong magandang Kdrama pang divert? Takte, di kaya ng puso ko yung Hotel del Luna. Pakdis, ang scary!



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