like im not posting something everyday. yeah.

my head feels so cramped up so im dumping some of the contents here.

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got my 4th and 5th ear pierce yesterday. bale 2 sa left tas 3 sa right. i wouldn't have meddled with the left ear kung hindi lang required na bumili ng earrings in pairs. arg. iniisip ko kung magiging issue ba to sa greeter duties ko. i cant remove it for the next 2 to 3 weeks. pak. ang saket ng ears ko. i feel like these are more painful than the last one i had. the dude who pierced my ears was a bit brute. tipong.. "ok, 1,2,3..pak!".. ganun lang.. well, at least, nag "1,2,3" sya.

now im satisfied. these will be my last ear pierce ever.--- kaya lang, a pierced tragus looks nice too..  pero parang ang saket.. or basta. bahala na.. next year siguro. first things first.

im scouting for a decent tattoo parlor that i can trust. i aim to get inked before the 30th birthday. they say good tattoo parlors are mostly fully booked so you have to get an appointment weeks before. i think i still have an ample time. i want something simple and subtle. yung minimalist, para i can still look classy.

shucks... am i really doing this??!!!

feeling ko, this is my way of fighting some lifelong inner battle. And for once, im winning.

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lately, ive been fancying doing some bold changes. like the ones i did 2 years ago. yung super life changing na decision na one-way lang, once you're there, wala nang balikan. no turning back. ganun.

im thinking of leaving. somewhere far. in the west siguro. hindi ko maisip kung pano ko gagawin yun or kung anong gagawin ko dun. pero naeexcite ako at the thought.

but part of me's wondering if im just running away.

but, well, kung hindi yun, i want to do something i haven't done before. something na hindi ko maimagine na makakaya kong gawin? something... grand. i want to be one with those people that i look up to. i want to be something.. great.

great. sighs.. eto na naman tayo..

kung eto talaga ang gusto ko.. dapat my ginagawa na ko ngayon, di ba.

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i hate how you're starting to invade my head. i can feel myself losing. i hate losing.

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dad's birthday today. we'll celebrate this weekend. and 2 weeks after that will be my bro's bday celeb. i dont know how im gonna reach the item no. 4 in my bucket list with all these pigging out. tsk.

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its raining again. i love the rain.

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