Entries in category "木曜日"
10:13pm. It's almost 10 when I left the office. My shift is supposed to end at 9. Ito na yata ang pinaka hyper na work day ko since I came here. Kababa ko lang ng phone, may pumasok kagad. 3 users yung kinailangan kong isupport sabay sabay. Epic.
Nakakatuwa lang na ambabait nung mga kasama ko sa trabaho. Kahit yung mga hindi ko naman talaga normally kinakausap, ang he-helpful. Tapos pumayag pa sila na mag endorse ako ng tickets. Thank you so much! T_T
So, wala akong pasok bukas. May pasok kasi ako sa weekends. Kailangan kasi ng 24-hr support sa weekends dahil magkakaron ng outage. 9pm-6am ang shift ko Sat-Sun. 9-hr shift pero technically 2 days ang kakainin. Ok na rin. As long as nandun si PK, magsu survive naman siguro ako. His shift will end by 1AM. On what to do from then till 6AM, bahala na. In a way, tingin ko, ito na rin ang best option for me.
Contest ulet tomorrow. Wala pa kong speech for the international speech contest. Hindi ko alam why I've spent most of my free time binge watching Twoset Violin on Youtube. I could've used that time to finish my speech. Gusto ko matuto mag violin. LoL. I barely have time as is.
Ang pangarap ko talaga e maging district (national) champion. When I checked, I realized that Division contest will be on Feb 8. I'll be in Taiwan by then. Our flight is already booked. Winning the division contest is required to be able to proceed to the District Championship. If so, ano pang point? Haist. Iniisip ko kung aattend pa ba ko ng contest or magpapahinga nalang sa bahay lalo na't may pasok ako ng Saturday- Sunday.
Bahala na. I'm also a little sick. More than a week na ata to. Sarado na ang botika twing umuuwi ako kaya hindi na ko nakakabili ng gamot. Pero kahit ganun, I feel generally happy. Wala namang kakaiba. I just do.
10:30 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Thursday. I was able to catch the last train from work on the way to my place in Manda. My shift tomorrow will be 4 hours earlier. Nawa ay magising ako sa alarm.
The travel could take more than 20 minutes. Sarado na yata ang mga mall by then.
Tomorrow will be the club contest. I needed to say "no" for a meetup because of this.
Know what, I have an officemate named Wilma. We call her Wendy. She once saw me busy with extracurricular stuff and told me, "ang busy mo no..." She also told me na sana daw ganun din sya. Sya daw kasi walang direction at go with the flow lang. Pero sa totoo lang, wala naman akong pinagkaiba kay Wendy.
Ano future plans ko? Wala.
Anong goals ko sa buhay? Hindi ko sure.
Paano ko nakikita ang sarili ko 5 years from now? Heck, I don't even know.
At sa tingin ko, ok lang naman talaga yun.
Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko today. Runny nose, colds and cough. Ayoko mag sick leave ng Friday dahil made deactivate ang badge ko. Isa pa, ba hassle ko na si Angelo para makipag palit ng shift sakin.
7th day or November. More than a month na kong vegetarian. The last time, I dreamt of eating chicken. In the dream, I regretted it so much that I felt such a relief when I woke up and realized that it was just a dream. I used to think mahirap maging vegetarian. Now I realized, mas mahirap palang bumalik.
I still eat most sea foods except fish. Basta mga walang back bone. I was eating crab last night and was looking at the eyes of the dead crab and felt so sorry. Naiinis ako. Kung lagi nalang akong naawa sa mga hayop, ano pang makakain ko?
Sabi ng isang gifted naturopath, humans are made to be omnivores daw at maraming vitamine deficiencies na makukuha kung vegetarian ka. Ano bang gagawin ko? Naghahanap din ng meat ang katawan ko. Ganito siguro ang feeling ng aswang na nag decide na di na sya ulet kakain ng tao.
Next station na ang baba ko. Eto muna for now.
09:40 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Super quick lang.
Nakasabay ko si Sir P on the way to MRT kanina. Yung crush kong TA. Small talk about the j-hiring progress. Chill na usap lang. Ok naman sya kausap. Comfy. Iniisip ko lang kung anong usual galawan ng mga instaG Gabriella sisters ko sa mga moment na ganito. I'm sure they won't go chill. I think I need to have some "how to landi your crush" tutorial with my lady friends.
Bagong tasa si Crush. Infey, bagay. Mas malinis tignan at nagmukha syang tunay na lalaki. So I told him, "bagay. Para ka nang tunay na lalaki." And he acted all macho and initiated a handshake. Fail. Haha. Hanggang gupit lang talaga ang tunay-na-lalaki look ni Crush. Lol. Of course, I still don't mind.
Naalala ko lang na lahat ng naging crush ko sa company na to e nag iistart sa P. How's that?
And back to Crush, sabi nya excited na daw sya na magka jowa ako. What the eff. Lol.
OTW to meet J. Heavens, please give me wisdom and clarity.
07:45 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Mga kababawan lang naman. Sa totoo lang, hindi na kami masyadong nag kwe kwentuhan nung crush ko. Palakad lakad kasi yun sa office na parang supervisor at kung kani kanino nakikipag kwentuhan. Pero bilang parehas kami ng shift, sabay kami umuuwi. 15 minutes. Mga ganun katagal na usapan na puro kakulitan lang naman. Pero alam mo, gusto ko tong taong to.
Said the account is eyeing him to be one of the TLs. Pinag oot nga sya today to do "shadowing" or something para dun sa magiging bagong position nya. Pero wag ka, that dude ran out of the office after me, saying "wait for me!" Lol. Nakita pa sya ng isang SME pauwi, asking him "di ba sabi ko mag ot ka", but he somehow charmed his way out of it.
Sabi nya, if he's to become a TL, he wants to handle APAC daw para pang-umaga. Ang gulo siguro pag sya na naging boss ko. I also asked him, "so hindi ka na aalis?" And he was like, "hindi na." Yehey! Pero magulo kasi yung taong yun. Siguro maniniwala lang ako pag mid 2020 na at nandito parin sya. Sana nandito pa rin ako nun.
Something bothers me though. Alam mo bang nalungkot ako nung nag resign si Perry? Tapos eto na naman. TL Jek talked to us about it na. Balak nya daw umalis. Di pa daw sure, pero may plan na. Hands down ako sa taong yun. Sobrang bait nya samin. At so far, hindi nya pa ko nilalagay sa pang gabi at sobrang lenient nya. Sweet din yun e. Malakas lang mang asar, pero sweet. So sobrang nakakalungkot. Di ba pwedeng wala nalang aalis?
Teka... pwede ba kong malungkot? Ni hindi ko nga alam kung hanggang kelan ako pag tyatyagaan ng account na ito...
09:45 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Been feeling kinda low for days despite having some people close to me around. I thought maybe I was feeling homesicked, so I packed my bad and went home last night.
Dad picked me up from the bus stop. Mom was already asleep. I only had a few exchanges with Brother when he got downstairs for a while to get something.
This morning, I woke up and saw my niece in their room. I gave her a kiss and rubbed her cute tummy. Dad was still asleep when I visited them on the next room. The dog wouldn't even turn her head when I called her name. That was about it. But I guess this is already enough. Now I feel all ready to take on the day with a happy heart. Thank God for family.
Kung bading si Crush, at may idea ka kung paano sya pakiligin bilang parehas kayong pusong babae... mahuhulog kaya sya sa arms mo sa ganitong strategy?
LOL. Humanap na tayo ng maayos na crush, Z.
But then again, crush lang naman. Hindi ko naman pakakasalan. Why sweat it? LOL.
10:32 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Was on my home when I got a message from Brother that they are in the hospital. Sis-in-law was in ER because her BP was shooting up endangering her pregnancy. Today, they killed 4000 pesos because of that.
It must be tough getting pregnant in your 30s. She's 2 years younger than I am. Paano pa kaya ko? My BP has always been low though.
Mom managed to convince my neice to leave her parents at the hospital and go back home. I was tasked to be her yaya for a few hours. We were in their room and while watching Power Ranger, she said out of the blue, "babay, Mommy." She wasn't crying, but there were droplets of tears stucked at the corner of her eye.
Z: Bakit ka nagbababay kay Mommy?
K: Kasi may sakit sya e.
I explained to my niece that her mom's gonna come back. They're just waiting for the doctor who is probably having lunch and that her mom's gonna be ok.
I squeezed my niece in a tight hug. I feel like my heart is not made to handle children. It hurts me so when my niece is being like this, and I'm not even her mother.
Got home past 3AM last night. We had an afters, and I feel like it's been a while since I laughed so hard, I was having stitches. I really love these people. There are just few things I'm worried about regarding the executive committee. We're already halfway the term. I wish we will be able to work this out by the following months. After this term, I'm gonna be free na. With more time in my hands, I want to explore my options and have a concrete plan on what to do with my life. I hope I still have my work by that time.
Speaking of work, I just hit the 2-month mark last September 12. An officemate often tease me because I keep calling myself "shinjin"(new person) to which he passionately disagree. Now he always greet me, "hello, Shinjin-san" para mang-asar. In fairness to him, I do feel like I've been here for a long enough time already though. Well, save for my shinjin-level skills, that is.
Well-paid, well-treated, very low workload. Ano pa bang hahanapin ko? Ang sabaw nga lang ng mga calls ko lately, iniisip ko kung hanggang kailan kaya nila ako mapagtyatyagaan dito. While here, I think I really should save money.
Queen B's birthday celebration next Sat. The Instagirls are coming. They are girl-friends I miss to bits. The theme is Britney Spears. I wonder is my permed hair is Britney Spears enough.
I also just registered for KCON classes by November. I still don't have leave credits by then. Sayang ang sahod. Bukod don, hindi ko rin alam kung papayagan ba ko.... or kung meron pa ba kong trabaho sa mga panahong yon. Muli, bahala na.
07:33 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1:15 and I still can't sleep.
Yung guy na feeling ko type nya has taken the seat next to him bilang nag resign na si P****. Ewan ko.
When he got to the office, he went to my seat to initiate a convo. I made myself busy with the things I'm busy with outside the office. He took the cue.
Mega kwento sila nung guy na feeling ko crush nya kanina. He's sarcastic most of the time, pero to that guy, mabait sya.
From time to time, pumupunta sya sa seat ko in another attempt to start a convo. Ang hirap. Ang hirap hirap makipag-usap. Hindi ko rin gets. Parang ayoko ng palalain pa to. Pag nakausap ko ulet sya baka mas magustuhan ko pa sya e.
Lagi lagi sa kanya ako nagtatanong pag meron akong hindi alam gawin sa office. May Japanese call na pumasok sa kanya kanina, so Kurt told him na ipasa sakin. The whole time, he was behind me, pero mas pinakikinggan ko si Charlie. When he left to go back to his seat at hindi alam ni Charlie yung sagot sa tanong ko, normally sa kanya ako magtatanong, but I went to ask PM instead. Ang hirap makipag-usap. Ang hirap ngumiti sa kanya. Dati dati never akong umalis ng office na hindi nagbababye sa kanya, pero kanina I skipped mentioning his name and went out and said bye to everyone in general. Heck, I couldn't even say his name.
Siguro iso-sort out ko lang muna tong nararamdaman ko. Gusto ko parin naman syang makasama. Sana kahit paano magawa ko yung friends lang na setup. Sana maayos ko to. Kasi, putek, ilang beses na bang nangyari yung ganito? Ayoko na bumalik sa ganito.
01:41 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
As humans, we often lie when we're scared.
I've been lying a lot lately that sometimes I don't know what's the truth anymore.
Itigil na natin to, Z.
I bought bracelets made of healing stones, one of which is called BOTSWANA. Said this stone is beneficial for overcoming depression and strengthens you at times of grief. Oh, wow.
09:01 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Lunch. TL asked if I can go back by 3:30 for health card orientation. 1 hour lunch barely suffice, 30 mins pa kaya?
I plan to send the list of roletakers for Aug 30. I forgot my notes. Bakit antagal maluto ng food ko? Rawrrrr!!!
Hindi ko maintindihan. Bakit lagi nalang tayo nagmamadali, Z?
03:16 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。