Entries in category "Thursday"
10/16 on watching Legend Of The Blue Sea. It's nowhere near superb, but Lee Min Ho is cute enough to make me finish the entire series. Besides, Shin Hye Sun is there, my favorite k-actress. Her role is minor there though, but she's still Shin Hye Sun, so I don't care. I think I'm still not over with "My Golden Life". Man, I'm wasting my youth watching kdrama. Pak this.
I understand now why Lee Min Ho is so popular with women. I still think that Park Si Hoo is more gwapo though. So long as he's not laughing.
Ang gwapo ng mga koreanong to, nakakainis! Pengi ng isa, Universe.
We're starting to discuss the District Conference happening in Cebu by April--the girls and I. I hope the situation at the office will be settled by then. I need to take quite a long leave by April. 2 to 3 days lang naman since the days that follow fall on the golden week at wala naman kaming pasok. There's also BFF's wedding by March and KCON by November. There's no way I won't go. Importante sakin to. Sana maging ok lahat. I wonder if I should inform them this early.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:20 PM.
"Yung fiancee ni ***** parang si Zah din. Mas maganda lang si Zah."
And what am I supposed to say about that? Lol.
Idk. I just don't want to think about this right now. For one, e ano ba kami?
I'm 2 episodes away from completion of the Kdrama that consumed the first 17 days of my 2019. Oh, how productive. I love the male lead, but I love the female lead as much. I just get her. I read some comments so I already know that this is likely to have a happy ending. Looks like the dad is going to die though.
Sa totoo lang, ayoko ng drama these days. Real life type, that is. I just realized there are three things you can do when someone is struggling, hurting or having a hard time; (1) be there, (2) shut your mouth, and (3) don't ask questions.
I wish the people in my life know this.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:57 PM.
"Exact location where your path crossed is not available at the moment, but we are 100% sure that it's on planet Earth where you are meant to meet."
Ang echosero nung dating app na ni-suggest ng kasama ko sa club. Ang cheesy ng terms na ginagamit, pero infey, ang sipag mag send ng message ng mga tao dun
Z: ok lang. Ikaw?
G: ok lang din
I know people who are terrible in online conversions but are pretty nice to talk to in real life, but still~.
But I know I'm half the problem. I'm pretty busy nowadays. Well nothing important. There's just this k-drama I'm super hooked on, it's consuming my entire waking hours and I've been barely eating lol. The drama is quite long. I just finished the 15th episode pero wala pa ko sa 1/3 ng entire drama. My golden life. That's the title. Also currently being aired in GMA. I saw it sa commercial and I got intrigued so I started watching it online, and maaaaan... nakakaadik sya! See, this girl (me) hates drama, but I fell in love with this one. Sana, please, sana naman maganda ang maging ending.
I read somewhere about the bad effects of fiction--books and movies alike-- sa isang tao. Damang dama ko. Someone once said "reality is beautiful", but it's just hard to believe that when the world you're watching is so much better. It's not really so much as the world they're in. At least not so much as the people they are with. Meron kayang ganun? Yung taong lagi nalang susulpot everytime na kailangan mo sya?
I think k-dramas are doing us disservice by raising humanity's standards in finding a partner into an unrealistic level.
But I remember a line I once read before that said, "they say nobody's perfect. That's because they haven't met you."
Baka meron naman talagang perfect. I want to someday say this line to someone also. I believe that people have a different meaning of "perfect". I am in no way perfect, but maybe I could be for a particular someone.
Maybe this year is that year that I'm gonna meet that someone. Who knows... Pero malamang mahirap na mangyari yung kung ang mga mata ko e naka glue sa monitor, watching koreanovela. Lol.
But to be honest, I really don't care about that now. Ang iniisip ko lang sa ngayon, ano na kayang mangyayari kay Seo Ji An ngayong alam na ni Choi Do-Kyung na hindi talaga sya ang nawawala nyang kapatid? Paano sila magkakagustuhan kung galit si guy sa girl dahil niloko ng parents ni girl ang parents nya? Paano sila magkakatuluyan e naipagkasundo narin si guys sa isa pang anak-mayaman? Magkakatuluyan nga kaya sila at all? Kapanapanabik ang mga susunod na tagpo. Abangan ang susunod na kabanata.
Gah. This is hopeless.
J-holiday on Monday. My mobile data can't handle watching videos online so I guess after tomorrow, I will have to wait for 3 days before I can continue watching.
I will miss you, Do-Kyung. T_T
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:22 PM.
It's been a while.
I was just fixing my things for work tomorrow when my head started pulsating. My neck and forehead feel a little hot. I hope I'm not sick. I just took a leave yesterday because my lower abdomen felt like it was being kicked non-stop. You know... time of the month.
Spent the day binge watching a korean novela entitled "The Beauty Inside". Lee Min Ki is there. I remember him from "Because this is our first life". He's not someone you'll call handsome from a Filipino standard, but I really love this guy. Universe, isang Lee Mi Ki-ish guy naman dyan, please. Lel.
The story is a cute fantasy rom-com. Must be inspired the book 'Everyday' by David Levithan. Still 7/16, 9 episodes left. Looks like I won't be able to finish it since tomorrow is my last day at work and I'll be back by Jan 4 pa. Each episode is about 1 hour long. Even if I watch without wiwi break, I will still be able to watch around 6 eps max. Work at the cage is very low volume I can binge watch kdrama all day. But trust me, it's not something to be happy about. I believe that work is good for one's wellbeing. I'm just doing this because it's the holiday season. So, nag explain talaga ko. Lol.
Few days before 2019. I back read some of my end-of-the-year and start-of-the-year entries. Some of my hopes did happen. Some didn't. I think that's okay. We can always start over again, right.
Sabi ni Bro Bo, yung Law of Generosity daw ay nakasulat sa fabrics ng Universe. Na when you give, more will be given unto you. I don't know about that, but let's give it a try.
I want to give you blessings today. You who are reading this.
I wish for you joy and prosperity.
I wish for you peace and loving relationships.
I wish that 2019 will be your year of breakthrough.
The year that you will find passion and purpose in everything you do.
A year where all your efforts will finally pay off.
A year where people will look at you and see someone precious.
A year where you will find- or keep- your One True Love.
May you and your loved ones be healthy, wealthy and happy all year long.
It's nice to wish for yourself, pero masaya rin pala mag wish for someone else. But don't get me wrong, Universe. I also wish these things for myself, okay.
2019 is going to be amazing. Cheers Tabulas peeps!
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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:16 PM.
I wrote an entry at 12am earlier and then a similar one just a few minutes ago and both of which were miraculously erased. Ayaw yata ng langit na ipost ko yung gusto kong i-post, kaya, oh sya, wag na natin ipilit.
Thursday ngayon at uuwi na ko bukas. I miss my dogs, my plants and my parents. I intentionally didn't water my plants for 2 weeks just to make sure they will survive in case Mom will accidentally water them everyday even when I clearly told her not to. Mine are dessert plants. They won't survive too much water. I hope they're still alive when I get back. Nanganak na kaya yung lithops ko? Malaki na kaya ang melo seedlings ko?
Malapit na rin pala magpasko. Kaitlyn and sis-in-law left the house last Sun. They'll be spending Christmas at sis-in-law's place in Cavite. Bro will join them by Friday. It's just gonna be Mom, Dad and me for Christmas. And also the dogs.
Christmas may not be as exciting as it was back when we were kids. But I'm happy and thankful that at least both my parents are still around.
2019 is going to be better.
Wtf. See, this was posted with zero trouble. What's up with that?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:01 PM.
I called it a day at 10pm last night only to sleep way past that, entertaining customer's inquiries via chat, tas hindi naman pala bibili. Grrr.
Ano bang pwede kong gawin para yumaman? Ano bang pwede kong gawin para makuha ko lahat ng gusto ko sa buhay?
Ask and it will be given to you... seek and you shall find...
Ask. Seek. Tara.
A lot of things I look forward to this coming November. Weekends are as fully booked as ever. Nothing major. I'm not complaining.
Changes are about to happen in a few weeks now at the cage department. Ayaw pang magsink in and I'm not even moving yet like it's not happening. Nakakatamad.
Kaitlyn's birthday in a week. I'm not really in the mood for socializing, but I'm thankful for another year in my beloved niece's life.
This Saturday we'll go hunt for a room to sleep in during workdays. On Sunday, we'll have unlihorror film via sm. I need (screaming) energy for this.
Then KCON. I already booked for a place to stay months before. I'm not as excited as I was back in 2013, but let's see. Sana naman hindi ganun ka OA ang dami ng tao.
I was feeling super ok this morning. I don't know why I no longer do. Siguro gutom na ko.
I miss someone close to my heart. Not romantic. Or is it?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:31 AM.
I skipped work today and was too lazy to invent a valid reason so I told them the truth. "Sorry, antok na antok pa po talaga ko." I've lost a day's worth pay pero ok lang din.
Dad had been sick for days so I made him take an aloe supplement drink. One of the products I sell online. He doesn't seem to be as sick anymore. Yesterday, Mom was asking me not to attend TM meeting tomorrow because Dad's sick and I need to go home. From how things look now, maybe I can attend. It's been ages since I last went to our meeting I'm starting to forget that I'm a Toastmaster.
So how are things going?
Because of back pain, I still woke up quite early so worked straight to see how my plants are doing. Most of them are still barely surviving. I'm thinking of taking pictures of the healthy ones and see if meron bang bibili if I'll tag them as "for sale" on my social media accounts. Anong kayang gagawin ko if totoong may bumili? Iniisip ko palang na mawalay sakin ang mga alaga ko, ang sakit na ng puso ko. At this rate, hindi ko alam kung paano ko gagawing negosyo ang paghahalaman. Siguro pagkabili, benta kagad no?
Today, I exhausted every single drop of will power I have para hindi sumugod sa plant store at bumili ng halaman. Kaka order ko lang kasi ng rare cactus seeds na may kamahalan at kailangan ko bayaran COD once dumating na. Nakakainis pa na nag super sale ang isang fb page na finofollow ko ng lithops, yung dream plant ko, tas super bagsak presyo. Takte... hindi ba pwede mag sale kayo bandang kinsenas katapusan para sakto sa sweldo? Huhu. Ok na rin. Kailangan ko mag ipon para sa isang event this Nov at sa Cebu trip ko next year... at oo nga pala, March ang kasal ni bff.
I don't have enough money to buy everything I want. Pero sa totoo lang, masaya ko na at least may pera ko.
Oooooh! Oo nga pala. I recieved a friend request earlier. Judging from the profile picture na puro halaman, I'm guessing he/she saw me from the plant-related fb group that I belong to. I don't accept friend requests from people I don't know, but for some reason, I felt the need to give this one a chance. I checked the profile of the person and viola! She's the owner of the youtube page I follow na tungkol sa succulents! Wala lang. Fangirl moment. Nakakakilig. Lel.
Gah! So pathetic the things that make me kilig nowadays.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:56 PM.
Exactly how I've been feeling lately.
Failing doesn't change your value, worth, or goodness. It feels like it does. But that is a big part of this lesson. Nothing you did or didn't do could have won this situation. Now you have the chance to learn to love and accept yourself regardless of what you accomplish or don't.
There may even have been a set of lies and betrayals from others leading you to an unfair position in life. You now have to come to terms with finding self-love even when you have been framed. You now have the chance to fall, exhausted, into universal love that has no judgments of you.
You have to find self-respect that goes far deeper than others' judgments. This is especially challenging when judgments are based on false pretenses. However, there is nothing else left to do but liberate your mind.
If you tried to win in a situation and all seemingly intelligent acts of will backfired, you are being asked to surrender to the universal will. Who you thought you were, what you thought you were meant to do, and the ways you thought you were going to do it, just weren't accurate. Let life take over and help. Your only job now is to do nothing.
You will come out well later, though that means little when one is in the worst depths of despair. The lessons of self-love, self-worth, and trust in universal will are about to become evident. Don't push it. Rest. This will all dawn upon you as time goes on, once you give up.
Once you are saturated with new understanding, tenderness and compassion for self and others will grow strong. Your situation will improve greatly by not exercising will for awhile. You will later see that this experience paved the foundation for your dreams to come true and far greater success to take hold. It just cannot be now.
Hibernate, with no will-power being used for awhile. If you need someone to handle basics for you, be humble enough to ask. That's about all you can do at this point anyway.
If you fought against the Ten of Swords consciousness, you enforced your own downfall. Lies, addictions, or complete denial of healthy participation brought you here. Others saw it coming, but you kept your eyes closed. Time for growth work and amends.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:58 AM.
I had my first fight when I was around 6 or 7 yrs old. Grade 1. We were at the school chapel where I banged my classmate's head against the wall. I wasn't hurt whatsoever and yet when the whole commotion was over, I started crying. Mom saw me and asked what was wrong. The classmates explained that they were fighting against my cousin, not me.
When we were young, Mom always told us, no matter what happens, she got our back. Even when we're wrong, she may not tolerate, but she will always take our side. She kept true to these words up to this day. I think in a way, that made me both fearless and stubborn.
What Mom told me that day was so effective that it became my first and last fight ever: "Anak, may tahi pala sa kilay yung kaklase mong inuntog mo. E paano kung mamatay yun? Alam mo bang makukulong ang Nanay?"
I grew up with Mom saying, wag daw kaming magpapaapi. If someone wrongs us, she told us to tell her at sya na ang bahala. She told us to avoid fighting. I swear there were many times na hindi ako nagsumbong sa nanay ko, not because I was scared of the person involved, but because I was scared FOR the person involved. I figured that taking matters in my own hands is way kinder than making my enemies experience my mother's wrath.
Because of Mom, I became a person capable of protecting myself. Now that I'm an adult, I don't know if that's always a good thing.
I'm feeling a lot better lately but I still don't feel like mingling with anyone. But I got to attend our club's meeting tomorrow because it's payment time. Besides, I can't go on hermit mode all my life, right?
I know my taste and I know the kind of men I'm drawn to. Sabi nila, "follow your heart." l think that's bullshit.
Siguro nalulungkot lang ako.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:07 PM.