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木曜日: March 26, 2020



Unang off ko simula nang mag wfh ako.

Wala lang. Parang may work din. Di ko mapigilang magbasa ng chat sa group chat na pang work. Nakichismis na rin ako ng kaunti. Natutuwa ako na natagpuan ko ang company na to bago ang COVID-19. Natutuwa ako na natagpuan ko ang company na to, period.

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My ladies are planning for an e-numan sesh on Saturday. May work ako nun. Hahabol nalang siguro ako. Gusto ko ng moscato. Or anything sweet. Puro dry ang wine dito sa bahay. Magso softdrink nalang ako.

Kung tutuusin, hindi naman talaga ako gala, kaya ok lang ako sa buong quarantine setup na to. Nakakausap ko parin ang mga friends ako, nakakasama ko ang parents ko, at nakakapagdilig pa ko ng halaman. 

Ngayon ko narealize na hindi pala ganun ka importante ang mga bagay na pinaglalaanan ko ng oras noon. Kasi kahit ngayon na hindi ko na yon nagagawa, ok naman ako. Hindi ko naman namiss.

Hindi man masyadong ramdam, alam ko, binabago tayo ng krisis na to. Siguro pag labas natin, pag nasurvive natin to, magiging better na tao na tayo.

Lagpas isang linggo na ako sa bahay. Nagbago man ang buhay ko, hindi ako nakakaramdam ng lack sa ngayon. Pakiramdam ko kasi, lahat ng kailangan ko, nasa akin na. Kahit ang totoo nyan, wala akong masyadong pera. Haha. Pero ok lang.

Ok rin yung ganito no? Simple.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:25 PM.

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Himaaaaaaaaa
木曜日: March 19, 2020



Talagang bang Day 3 palang ng home quarantine? Feeling ko nakaka 2 weeks na ko. Nakakaaning.

Ang daming bagay na hindi ko ikinatutuwa pero ayoko nang mag reklamo kaya hindi ko na rin isusulat dito. Ang dasal ko lang, sana matapos na to sa lalong madaling panahon.

Sa kwarto lang ako madalas nitong mga nakaraang araw. Lumalabas lang para mag wiwi at kumain. Pwede naman akong tumulong sa gawaing bahay, ayoko lang. Tingin ko kasi, mas healthy sa mga magulang ko ang maraming ginagawa. Pag bored kasi sila, lumalabas sila ng bahay with the excuse na bibili ng pagkain kahit sapat pa naman ang supply. Ayoko rin na tulog ng tulog si tatay sa tanghali dahil baka lalo syang ma high blood.

Ang boring ng buhay. Medyo nakaka depress.

On a brighter side, andyan pa rin ang ilan sa mga kaibigan ko para mangamusta.

Feeling ko, nasa saturate na ang utak ko sa social media.

May online meeting din kami bukas. Kahit medyo nalulungkot ako, ayoko silang makita.

I will probably have an online conference with the ladies anyway. Might hit the sched. We'll talk about stockmarket, and I asked one of my girl-friends to invite her fiance along. He's an expert. He gives talks to big people about this subject kaya sobrang excited na ko.

Oh man, I can't snap out of this super low feeling.

Siguro kailangang kong lumabas ng kwarto.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:21 PM.

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Migrainetion Migration Migraine
木曜日: March 5, 2020



Pangatlong araw ko palang sa night shift pero yung pagod ko, kumo quota na ng isang buwan. Pag sakay ko ng jeep, muntik ko nang sabihin sa driver, "Manong, can you grant me access to your screen?"

Takte. Awat naman na sa dami ng calls, Universe.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 06:34 AM.

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1236
木曜日: February 27, 2020



It's 36 minutes past midnight. No tik tik tik sound whatsoever. All good. In a few hours, I'll be visiting the doctor to get a clearance to get back to work.

I was chatting with Mel a few days back. Sabi nya napapaisip daw sya kung gusto nya yung trabaho nya. Halos isang buwan kasi syang hindi pumasok, pero hindi nya naman daw namiss.

Namiss ko ba ang trabaho ko?

Ewan ko. Ang alam ko lang, kinakabahan ako dahil sabi ng isang ka officemate ko, ang dami na daw nadagdag sa trabaho namin. Methods at work are ever-changing. Laging may nababago or nadadagdag sa KB namin. Kinakabahan ako na baka mangamote ako pag balik ko sa trabaho. Lalo na kung maibabalik na ko sa panggabi. Jusko Lowrd!

Hindi ko alam kung namiss ko ba ang trabaho ko. Ang alam ko lang, Jusko, nagpapanic na ko! T_T

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Kain-tulog days. Iniisip ko kung kasya pa ba sakin ang mga damit ko.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:45 AM.

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Rolling sleeves up
木曜日: February 20, 2020



Past few days, I've been reading "eye of the darkness" by Dean Koontz. Eto yung fiction book na naisulat nung 80s pa pero para napredict nya ang existence ng COVID-19. For days nakakulong ako sa kwarto at lumalabas lang para mag wiwi or kumain, all to finish the book. Bigla akong na home sick. Kaya today, I spent time, like really spent time, with my family kahit nasa bahay lang. Ang weird naman kasi yung na homesick ka kahit nasa bahay ka lang. Lol. The book can wait.

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Iniisip ko parin yung ibig sabihin nung panaginip ko kagabi. Kahit naman kasi sa bible, may interpretations ang mga panaginip. Iniisip ko kung related ba to sa love life ko na hindi ko maayos.

Kaya today, sinagot ko lahat ng nag message sakin sa dating site kahit tamad na tamad ako mag type.

Umoo din ako sa team building ng office namin kahit na I don't usually go to team buildings. Well, partly kasi natatakot din akong maiwan sa office para mag support, and partly to get to know the people there, especially the single men. Bukod sa crush ko na ni hindi ako sure kung single ba, wala naman akong ibang bet sa office. Pero malay mo.

Then there's this dude lurking around. He doesn't have a good reputation in our circle. Nothing extreme. Inentertain ko na rin. Again, malay mo.

Naalala ko yung sabi ni Andee. Ang mga single daw e dapat laging nakikipag date. Hindi para makilala yung guy, kundi para mas makilala mo pa yung sarili mo. I guess I'm taking that advice.

Naalala ko rin kasi si Parrot. I ignored that guy for years, and when I tried to go out with him, he turned out to be a really good guy pala. Dapat laging open sa possibilities. (Parrot is already married now with his very pretty wife, btw).

Ayoko lang magkamali. At kung sakali man na sa pagiging mapili ko e manatili na kong single, ok lang din. I actually live an incredibly wonderful life as a single person. It's not going to be so bad. 

Ang mahalaga lang e yung wag mahulog or magpauto ulit sa maling tao. Nag-iingat ako sa part na yon. I'm convinced though that my values in life have a stronger hold of me now, than my emotions do. I should fine.

Sa ngayon, gawin na natin to.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:27 PM.

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Moku
木曜日: February 20, 2020



I had a dream. Nini and I were working for a props of an event involving foreign people. When we were done, we needed to climb a mountain-ish slope to get to where we needed to get to. About one feet into climbing the slope, ang dulas dulas na daw at di na ko makaakyat. Nasa taas na si Nini. There were people around so I asked for help. Nini gave me a glance, not sure if she left me for a reason, basta nagising ako na hindi pa ko nakakaakyat sa taas.

I always dream dreams like that. Climbing and not making it to the top. Tipong hindi naman talaga nahuhulog, sadyang na iistuck lang dun. Hanging. Kahit sa bible may ibig sabihin ang dreams. Ano kayang ibigsabihin non?

Bored out of my wits. Gusto ko mag Baguio. Or Sagada. Or kahit mamasyal lang sa mga museums around Metro. I just learned that Mel visited the hospital for frozen shoulders. Hindi nya magalaw ang right shoulder nya, wala akong mayaya. Tapos naalala ko, wala nga rin pala akong sasahurin kaya kailangan ko rin magtipid.

Nakakatamad sa Earth. 



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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:16 AM.

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Zuuuuun
木曜日: January 30, 2020



Depressing times.

I left the work station to go to the cr. I didn't press the aux kasi bababa yung pangalan ko, e wala pa nga ko nakukuhang call today. May called me from the rest room na may pumasok daw na call. I was about to answer it na when the caller hung up.

From 6th, my name went up to the top 3 sa ranking. May pag-asa na sana akong makuha yung shift na gusto ko, until I abandoned this call. Hindi ko pa alam ang repercussion nito. Baka i-deny yung leave ko... or mawawalan na ba ko ng trabaho?

Hay, Universe... please send help. T_T



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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:14 PM.

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OMGeee
木曜日: November 14, 2019



10:13pm. It's almost 10 when I left the office. My shift is supposed to end at 9. Ito na yata ang pinaka hyper na work day ko since I came here. Kababa ko lang ng phone, may pumasok kagad. 3 users yung kinailangan kong isupport sabay sabay. Epic.

Nakakatuwa lang na ambabait nung mga kasama ko sa trabaho. Kahit yung mga hindi ko naman talaga normally kinakausap, ang he-helpful. Tapos pumayag pa sila na mag endorse ako ng tickets. Thank you so much! T_T

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So, wala akong pasok bukas. May pasok kasi ako sa weekends. Kailangan kasi ng 24-hr support sa weekends dahil magkakaron ng outage. 9pm-6am ang shift ko Sat-Sun. 9-hr shift pero technically 2 days ang kakainin. Ok na rin. As long as nandun si PK, magsu survive naman siguro ako. His shift will end by 1AM. On what to do from then till 6AM, bahala na. In a way, tingin ko, ito na rin ang best option for me.

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Contest ulet tomorrow. Wala pa kong speech for the international speech contest. Hindi ko alam why I've spent most of my free time binge watching Twoset Violin on Youtube. I could've used that time to finish my speech. Gusto ko matuto mag violin. LoL. I barely have time as is.

Ang pangarap ko talaga e maging district (national) champion. When I checked, I realized that Division contest will be on Feb 8. I'll be in Taiwan by then. Our flight is already booked. Winning the division contest is required to be able to proceed to the District Championship. If so, ano pang point? Haist. Iniisip ko kung aattend pa ba ko ng contest or magpapahinga nalang sa bahay lalo na't may pasok ako ng Saturday- Sunday.

Bahala na. I'm also a little sick. More than a week na ata to. Sarado na ang botika twing umuuwi ako kaya hindi na ko nakakabili ng gamot. Pero kahit ganun, I feel generally happy. Wala namang kakaiba. I just do.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:30 PM.

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Aswang
木曜日: November 7, 2019



Thursday. I was able to catch the last train from work on the way to my place in Manda. My shift tomorrow will be 4 hours earlier. Nawa ay magising ako sa alarm.

The travel could take more than 20 minutes. Sarado na yata ang mga mall by then.

Tomorrow will be the club contest. I needed to say "no" for a meetup because of this.

Know what, I have an officemate named Wilma. We call her Wendy. She once saw me busy with extracurricular stuff and told me, "ang busy mo no..." She also told me na sana daw ganun din sya. Sya daw kasi walang direction at go with the flow lang. Pero sa totoo lang, wala naman akong pinagkaiba kay Wendy.

Ano future plans ko? Wala.

Anong goals ko sa buhay? Hindi ko sure.

Paano ko nakikita ang sarili ko 5 years from now? Heck, I don't even know.

At sa tingin ko, ok lang naman talaga yun.

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Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko today. Runny nose, colds and cough. Ayoko mag sick leave ng Friday dahil made deactivate ang badge ko. Isa pa, ba hassle ko na si Angelo para makipag palit ng shift sakin.

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7th day or November. More than a month na kong vegetarian. The last time, I dreamt of eating chicken. In the dream, I regretted it so much that I felt such a relief when I woke up and realized that it was just a dream. I used to think mahirap maging vegetarian. Now I realized, mas mahirap palang bumalik.

I still eat most sea foods except fish. Basta mga walang back bone. I was eating crab last night and was looking at the eyes of the dead crab and felt so sorry. Naiinis ako. Kung lagi nalang akong naawa sa mga hayop, ano pang makakain ko?

Sabi ng isang gifted naturopath, humans are made to be omnivores daw at maraming vitamine deficiencies na makukuha kung vegetarian ka. Ano bang gagawin ko? Naghahanap din ng meat ang katawan ko. Ganito siguro ang feeling ng aswang na nag decide na di na sya ulet kakain ng tao.

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Next station na ang baba ko. Eto muna for now.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:40 PM.

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