makakasulat ka ba tungkol sa mga masasayang bagay bagay kung currently e badtrip na badtrip ka???!! well, let's see..
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it was a happy weekend.
saturday, yang and i went to a toastmasters chapter in QC. extreme nosebleed moment, man. people in there use the english language as naturally as breathing. ang gagaling nila! my normal self would've felt intimidated, but during those times, i didnt feel that way. i was more like... challenged. see, i've seen sha nacino's plaque for winning a toastmasters contest before and since then, i want the same plaque for myself. i dont know how could that be possible.. but yeah.
from what i understand, there would be an inter-division contest where a girl named janelle will be joining as representative for their division. she looked smart. i wonder if she's going to win the contest. i have no idea how good people from the other divisions are. i dont even know what division sha is from. there's also another girl in there who seem to be joining a contest for evaluators. i didnt know they do contests for evaluators too. she' great too, with matching animated face, actions and all.
the people we sat with on the same table was a married couple who just recently joined the club. i find it so nice watching them doing something like this together. i think for most cases, after getting married, the lives of a married couple will be all about raising a family, sending the kids to school, etc etc--but will never be about theirselves as an individual or their personal growth... it made me think that maybe, marriage doesnt always mean having to live a life less than the life you had as a single person. maybe you can continue learning. maybe you can continue taking care of yourself. maybe you can continue to be an awesome human being just as how you were as a single person. or even better, maybe you can get to do it all together with your partner. i guess it all relies on picking the right partner... maybe.
aside from that couple, there was another couple there who are much older. indeed, one can never be too old to learn new things and extend youself to your full potential. this said couple were 2 among the 5 who gave their prepared speeches. And despite the age, they were awesome!! i love their stories and i love how they delivered it. nakaka amaze. nakaka.. awe... nakaka... basta.
if it wasnt for the whopping 3200 membership fee, i wouldve join right away. funny, 3200 use to be nothing back in the day, but now i consider it as a whopping amount. hindi naman ako magastos. in fact, the last time i updated my wardrobe was more than a year ago. And kung uso pa ang piko ngayon, sa sobrang obsolete at lowtech ng phone na gamit ko, pwede mo nang gawing pamato. i dont know why money has the habit of extinguishing itself before my eyes recently. i wasnt even able to take advantage of the recent stockmarket bloodbath. sighs..
siguro tama si yang, ang dami dami kasi naming gustong gawin. laser focus daw ang isa sa mga secret ng successful people-- and that's the very thing i dont have at the moment.
yang and i were thinking of club hopping first tas saka na muna magpa member, kasi nga, mahal. we we're so amazed by their guest general evaluator named jesse. we heard he's from a chapter in cubao. we're thinking of sitting in for that chapter too (to hunt jesse. but he's probably married, #zannen..haha).. mejo inconvenient nga lang yung sched and merong "Membership eligibility criteria required" daw. so im not so sure if we are eligible to sit in. we'll see.
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sunday, tito rudy's bday celeb. we went to their place and relatives from everywhere came.
the moment i entered the gate, it was tita gina who welcomed me first. she motioned her head near mine i thought she's gonna give me some beso beso or something. but instead, she bowed down and in a solemn voice whispered, "tumataba ka na."
ouch. huhu. i remember a conversation that took place just a week ago.
-hindi ka na nag eexercise no?
-so, ang ibig mo sabihin mataba ako?
-ikaw ang nagsabi nyan.
**laugh trip**
ok. fine. kailangan ko na talagang mag diet. huhu.
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the party was fun. kwentuhan. kulitan. tawanan.
megan shocked me by introducing me to her boyfriend... who's actually not a boy.
the girl boyfriend was cool. we talked, she's funny. she already know a lot about me even before we were introduced. perks (or more like downside) of being an overrated member of the clan.
she works as a headhunter which is somewhat related to my work so we had a lot to talk about until the topic went into the most predictable topic of all when she asked,
"sabi, wala ka daw boyfriend.." to which i just nod. she then asked, "baket?"... and she added, "ok ka naman, kalog ka naman.. pihikan ka lang ba?" and the whole time she was giving me that scrutinizing look, I wonder if she's questioning my preference...
sighss.. fyi. lalaki ang gusto ko. lalaki lang.. huhu.
see, i have nothing against those who go for the same sex or both.. it's just that im not one of them.
know what, this whole thing made me see tito leo and tita gina(megan's parents) with a higher respect. i mean, other parents wouldn't be so happy if this happens to their daughter. but to tito leo and tita gina, it didnt even become an issue. ive always been fond of this couple, but their acceptance to their daughter's preferred partner made me fond of them even more.
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j was there at the party too. he is a 3rd(or maybe 4th) cousin whom i get to talk with some time about a year ago back in lolo salo's wake. that was the first time we've met and we jive really well.
when we arrived at the party, i was introduced to j's twin brother, j2. they're not identical, but both are equally good looking. sheeeshh.. bat ba ang gwa-gwapo ng mga kamag-anak ko? haha.
earlier that day, mom received a text from j's mom saying that j's asking me to go to the party earlier kasi wala daw sya kausap. as usual, we came late. j and i wasnt able to talk until that time where they were about to go home (we somehow ended up going home with them). learned that j was now working at a j-engineering company i am actually familiar with because a former colleague is now working in there too. natuwa lang ako na jina -japanese na ko ni J. that boy has big dreams.. i can see myself in him. only i have different dreams when i was back in his age. i congratulated j for landing to a good company and joked, "manlibre ka naman.." to which he said yes. yey! free food!!...hahaha.. ang PG.
I only get to talk to the other twin, j2, too only when they were about to go home. sabi nya pa nga, "selfie tayo." which we did using his phone... and i was like, "ui, ang gwapo naman ng batang to..".. haha.. he's just 21. i heard from mom that this boy just got out of a relationship and is currently brokenhearted. said he was in a relationship with an older woman (as to how old, i have no idea) who left him for another man. hearing this boy's story made me all "aawwwwww" because he seem to really love the girl. but knowing that the girl was older than he is made me think, "wait... really?? he's into older women??" with a twinkle in my eyes.. hahaha.. #IncestNaPedoPa #ewww . LOL
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know what, our family is the type na mejo ma-social life like this. i use to not enjoy it back then. dati kasi i would always just stick with my brother and my cousin dada whom i get to grow up with. we dont mingle. we dont talk much to other people even if we know they are our relatives. at times when im not with my brother, i would just cling to my mom, not talk and just smile politely. i guess it all changed when tito peking confronted us about our attitude. i thank him for that. i wonder if he noticed the remarkable difference now. he's absolutely right. things could be so much more fun kung susubukan mong makipag connect sa iba. at hindi lang ikaw yung sasaya. sila rin.
i think keeping to yourself could be a display of self-centeredness. pag masyado kang focus sa sarili mong discomfort at fears baka hindi mo na mapansin na meron ding tao sa paligid mo na kailangan ng kausap na dapat sana ay ineentertain mo.. minsan kailangan mo lang talagang subukan.
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there. now i feel better. as a conclusion, pwede ka naman pala magsulat ng masasayang bagay kahet na badtrip ka.
ang dami kong ikinaiinis sa araw na ito. i can make up excuses, be in denial and all, but the truth is, there is only one person who's the root cause for all these. yung iba, nadamay lang naman talaga.
sabi nila hindi ka daw kayang saktan ng taong hindi mahalaga sayo. but right now im not hurt, im just angry.
gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
i wonder if this is a call to again move on kasi mejo nakakasawa narin talaga...
{ 音楽} Stuck-Darren Espanto
{ 本} The Real Rules-Barbara de Angelis
{ 気分} angry
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