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Monday, May 28, 2018

fonder or not

they say that absence makes a heart go fonder...

or forgetful.

I guess I've underestimated my capacity to forget. Sino ka nga ulet? Lol.

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Been on an eating fiesta since the day after our 007 party. Need to go back on eating moderately if I'd like to look like a normal human being. Another black tie event in a month now. Pwede namang hindi umattend. I just want to support Gabby. Besides, I might be needing more nice pictures in the future.

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Today, I learned that the language in Maldives is called Dhivehi. It's kinda interesting how there so much more out there in the world that I am yet to see and discover.

Maybe I can also visit Maldives one day.... Wait, why not? : )


Written by cinderellaareus at 04:01 PM.

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Monday, May 21, 2018

Kerengkeng at dating site

Traffic kasi. Inaayos kasi yung kalsada samin kahit hindi sira. Para hindi uminit ang ulo ko, I turned on the data of my fone. Umiinit din ulo ko sa Facebook kaya nag register nalang ako sa dating site na sinuggest ni bff kung saan nya nakilala yung fiance nya. Tamad na tamad pa ko mag ayos ng profile nung una. Kasi naman wala akong idea ano ba ginagawa sa dating site. Tas sabi bff, filter daw ng search. Hanap ka ng trip mo. I-like mo. Tas pag ni like back ka, ayun na. I don't have an idea yet what "ayun na" means, but when I started searching, ay sheeeet! Dami rin palang gwapo! Hahaha. Kaya tyinaga kong ayusin ang profile ko at nag upload pa ko ng matino tino kong pictures. Ang landi lang. Lol.


Written by cinderellaareus at 10:51 PM.

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Monday, April 30, 2018

Chrises

Sabi sa librong nabasa ko, lahat ng tao daw, pinanganak na bisexual. Yung society lang daw ang nag brainwash saten to have preference for the opposite sex.

I never liked a girl romantically, so I don't really know if this is true. 

Pero pag nakikita ko si Chris Evans at Chris Hemsworth,

Siguradong sigurado akong babae talaga ko. Hahahaha!

Puteeeek, ang gwapo gwapo, ayokonah!!! T_T


Written by cinderellaareus at 08:34 PM.

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Monday, April 2, 2018

Asdfghjkl

When I was in college, feeling ko ang pinakapainful parts ata ng college life ko e yung bigayan ng class cards. Madalas kasi square root lang naman ng klase yung pumapasa, at dahil most of the subjects e prerequisite ng next, ibig sabihin, pag may bumagsak sa classmate ko, hindi mo na sila magiging classmates sa mga future subjects nyo.

Kung may isang bagay na hindi ako magaling, yun e seeing people go.

Club renewals over and the nomination for the next officers just started. On the same time of the year last year, naalala ko na mejo excited ako. Pero ngayon.... Feeling ko, bigayan ng classcard.

Regardless of what's right and what's wrong, i still feel like we ousted a family member and this is really breaking my heart. But what's there to do?

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A lot of things hurting me lately. Naalala ko lang yung isa sa mga principles ng Stoicism na "amor fati"... " love the life that you were given". 

Kung iisipin ko, sa tingin ko, I love my life naman. Siguro sadyang nalulungkot lang talaga ko.

Naalala ko kasi yung mga bagay na hiniling ko pero hindi binigay ng langit. Kung tutuusin, mas marami naman sa mga dasal ko yung dininig kesa sa hindi. Hindi ko alam kung baket ba ang emo emo ko ngayon. Kakatapos lang ng red days ko kaya sigurado akong hindi to pms.

Pero siguro dapat lang na finefeel ang feelings.

Lord, I'm hurting. Nakalimutan po ata akong balikan ng mga assistants mo dyan sa langit.

Hello, Lord...

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Watched "ready player one" today and i liked it so much that I'm worried i won't be able to like the movie we'll be watching tomorrow because today's movie had set the bar high.

Ang ganda ang ready player one. Panoorin nyo!

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Some days, i feel like maybe i really want to be with you.

Some days, i feel like we aren't really going anywhere.

Then most days, i feel like maybe I'm really better off alone.

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Bakit ang complicated ng buhay pag may taong involved?


Written by cinderellaareus at 07:56 PM.

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Monday, March 19, 2018

Drama and blessed

An fb friend posted something like, "kung tutusin, lahat naman tayo blessed. Madrama lang talaga tayo."

I cannot agree more.

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Got to the office on time.

Partner helped me attend to some painful customer. The issue was resolved in the end.

When I got off the bus on my way home, Mom and Kaitlyn were waiting for me.

Sis-in-law cooked sopas and it was so good.

BFF said she'll buy a swimsuit from my swimwear line.

My beautiful cousins said they will too.

Alam ko. Blessed ako. I am greatful.

I just can't explain this unhappiness. This dissatisfaction. And disappointment.

Probably the time of the month.

Siguro din, namimiss lang kita. As much as i want to have you have a taste of your own medicine, it sucks that the thought of you hurting hurts me too. 

Sa isa sa mga paborito kong kdrama, may isang lalaking nagtanong dun sa bidang lalaki kung paano daw magiging kasing cool nya para sya rin maging popular sa girls. Ang sagot nung bida, ang cool daw e yung taong nagmamahal ng malaya. Nagmamahal na hindin nagho-hold back out of fear na baka sya yung higit na nagmamahal kesa dun sa other person.

Gets ko ung point. I think, what messes up loving e pride. Pero puteeek, ang hirap kasi nung wala yung pride. Ewan.

Sabi sa talk show na napanood ko noon, hindi mo daw masasabing nagmamahal ka kung hindi ka nasasaktan. Tingin ko hindi naman laging ganun. Hindi DAPAT laging ganun.

Kaya kanina, dumaan ako sa chap bago umuwi. Twing dinadapuan ako ng lungkot, feeling ko sinasadya lang yun ni God dahil gusto Nya kong makausap. Kanina i asked the Heavens for a love na hindi masakit.

Wala lang.

Para maiba naman.


Written by cinderellaareus at 09:44 PM.

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Monday, March 12, 2018

doomed

every time that i try to fix my speech,

i feel like it gets even worse.

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huhu.

ayoko na.

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"umiinom si za*?!"

people's reaction every time they see me with a beer in hand.

i started drinking 15 years ago, what's up with that?

i wonder why people always assume that i dont drink, in the same way they assume that im always single.

lol.


Written by cinderellaareus at 10:45 AM.

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Monday, December 18, 2017

Birds of a feather

"Pag ikaw ang nag recommend ng movie, *&%, pinapanood ko talaga." 

This sent my eyebrows flying to the roof. See, I'm a woman too. That can't be entirely innocent. Oh please! Tsk.

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Ang daming malandi sa mundo mo, nakakapikon.


Written by cinderellaareus at 08:51 PM.

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Monday, December 4, 2017

vortex and chill

sabi ng isa sa mga paborito kong bloggers, malalaman mo raw if tama ang decision mo depende sa amount ng peace na nararamdaman mo about it.

hindi na 'ko galit. hindi na rin ako naiinis. sabi nila hindi daw dapat nag de-decide pag ang emotions mo e nasa extreme, and i don't think im on the extreme right now. i think im perfectly chill.

the past few years had been turbulent. full of highs and lows. i think the highest of highs and the lowest of lows happened the last couple of years.

naalala ko yung sabi ni deepak chopra na pag calm daw ang waters, kahit isang pebble lang ang hinagis mo, may effect. Pero pag hindi daw calm, kahit isang empire state building pa daw ang ihagis mo, walang epekto.

a few more weeks and the year will end. i want my 2018 to be a whole lot peaceful than the previous years. the past years, i successfully shook my life. sa 2018, i want to bring back the calm.

five goals.

five goals lang ang sinulat ko for 2018 and I wrote them in the simplest manner. pero lahat ng yon naka focus lang sa iisang Ultimate Goal. Yes, capital letter talaga yung start.

I remember yang and i were talking about our favorite class in KCON when she told me about Jon Escoto's class. I didn't take that class so I had yang told me about it. yang mentioned about "vortex". eto daw yung something na nagde-drain sayo at sa happiness mo. kailangan mo daw hanapin ang "vortex" mo at unahin to work on resolving that before everything else.

i think i know what my "vortex" is. I think ive known about this all along, pero kasi, pag nakita mo sya as a vortex, mafi-feel mo talaga yung urgency na takpan yung lintek na vortex na yan, para puteeeek, hindi na maubos ang happiness mo, and maybe kabataan mo, in the process.

dun ko gustong mag-focus sa 2018. para magawa ko yun, i need to let go of a few things. this might take a lot of explaining and i hate explaining things. sana maging ok ang lahat.


Written by cinderellaareus at 03:44 PM.

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Monday, November 20, 2017

Gold-Copper-Sodium

I was given 50 raffle tix that I need to sell for our yearend party. Yung iba 100 tix kinuha so how can I complain? I learned that selling tix is not as hard as I thought though. Well, it's hard, but not so much. Ang supportive din kasi ng friends ko. (Thanksie, Schwarze! *wink wink)

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Since kailangan ko magbenta, i asked him too.

Z: Hello R! May raffle ang club namin blah blah blah. Mayaman ka naman bili ka na!

With a liittle pa-cute here, pa-funny there and a few more hahaha's, in the end, he bought 5.

And hey, don't judge me. I need to sell the tickets!!! 

Char.

Huling effort ko na to. Pag di mo parin kinagat, Gold(Au)-Copper(Cu)-Sodium(Na)! T_T

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*sa mga nakagets, credits goes to the owner.

Aminin mo, ang witty. Helium Helium Helium!


Written by cinderellaareus at 07:03 PM.

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