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月曜日. March 11, 2024

Work and Tita

Nag punta ako ng bank to deposit some check. Nag grocery ng konti at nag-uwi ng konting pasalubong sa bahay. Then, when my niece got back home from school, after thanking me for yhe the pasalubong, she asked:

Niece: wala ka work?

Tita: di ba nag resign na ko?

Niece: resign? Kelan ka mag wowork ulet?

Tita: hindi na.

Niece: *long pause* paano na tayo bibili ng kotse?

Tita: don't worry, yayaman parin si Tita kahit di mag work.

Ugh, that look of worry on her face when she finally realized that I don't have work anymore was quite heartbreaking.

Coincidentally, nag message din yung former workmate ko. Nalaman nyang nag resign ako and was offering me a job na 100% percent wfh. I told him, I don't plan to work anymore, at balak ko nalang mag artista.

Haaah. Kaya ko to.

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Mom's attending some birthday party happening at a private resort in Laguna. Overnight, and she wants me to go with her. I already told her I can't because I need to take care of the cats. She talked to my sister-in-law and asked her if she can do the job just for the weekend, and she agreed. Ayoko talaga pumunta, pero drinamahan na ako ng nanay ko, so I guess I'm going. 

Tita will go too. She's bringing her stepson. I hope she won't push me into the dude, because that guy is like an older cousin to me. We're actually cousins by law, aren't we? Nakakaumay.

Well, whatever. 

Sabi nila, if gusto mong dumami ang pera mo, you've got to expand, not only your knowledge on your craft, but also your network. Tsaka gusto ko rin naman magswimming, kaya oh sya, sasama na.

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Ang bilis ng araw. 11 days na kaagad ang lumipas at wala parin akong nagagawa para matupad ko ang plano kong kumita ng 1 million pesos  monthly.

Basta. Kaya ko to.


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月曜日. February 5, 2024

5th of Feb

We were at a mall in QC when Dad noticed the mall decorations overflowing with red. I told him, "baka kasi Chinese New Year". To which he responded, "hindi, dahil sa Valentines yan."

Valentines na nga pala. Akala ko ang pagiging wfh ang dahilan kung bakit walang ganap ang lovelife ko, but 2 years after return to office, I realized, it was never really the case. Oh well.

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Nagpunta ako sa Quiapo with Mom and Dad. We ate something fancy before going there. Bakit kaya iba ang pakiramdam. Naisip ko lang na iba ang confidence ng alam mong marami kang pera.

Last Saturday, kahit sa sosyal kami kumain, wala yung usual na... angas ba ang tawag dun? Idk.

I like that part of myself. Yung maangas at confident sa mga bagay na kaya kong gawin. Akala ko dati natural ang confidence ko, pero lately, narealize ko na nakadikit pala yun sa idea na meron akong magandang trabaho.

Sa totoo lang, ayoko ng ganitong feeling.

Sinabi ko kay Mama na mas konti ang work lately. Nagdagdag kasi sila ng tao dahil na rin siguro sa andami naming reklamo. Sabi ni Mama, "oh okay na pala, wag ka na magresign. Di ka naman na pagod."

Alam mo bang natulog ako kagabi at gumising ngayong umagao dreading going back to work, kahit na work from home na ko? Nandun yung resign-na-resign-na-ako feeling, even though I have submitted my resignation already.

Ang gulo no? I love the version of myself na confident dahil marami syang pera, pero ayoko paring mag stay sa lugar na nagbibigay sakin ng confidence na yun.

Gusto kong maniwalang makakayanan ko parin to kahit hindi na ko empleyado. Na magkakaron parin ako ng maganda at masaganang buhay outside corporate world.

Matalino parin naman ako. Talented parin naman ako. At hindi naman nabura ang skills at achievements ko kasabay ng pag resign ko, kaya, kaya ko to.

Haaayst. 

Payakap nga, Universe.

Tapos, pahingi ng passive income na 1 million pesos monthly.

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Nanaginip yung tatay ko na mag-aasawa na daw ako.

Mas matangkad daw sa kanya. Medjo macho daw at kulot ang buhok. Lol.

I few days back, naglalaro ako ng game sa Netflix na Too Hot To Handle. Kulot yung nakatuluyan kong character. I wonder if Dad saw that. Although dun sa game, lalaki yung character ko, then lalaki rin love interest ko, para BL. Hahaha.

Tokwa, sa totoo lang, masama ata talaga sa lovelife ko ang BL hobby kong ito. Gah.


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月曜日. December 25, 2023

HBDKJ

On shift ako today. Work from home. Sobrang chill, that's why I'm super grateful. 

Alam mo ba, it feels like ages ago, kahit months lang naman ang nakalipas nung inannounce ng previous account namin na they are letting go of the JP team. 

Ako ang unang pumasa sa next account na interesadong kuhanin kami. I remember how I tried to comfort Wendy when she was worried and sad dahil hindi sya makabasa ng Kanji during the assessment. I told her na malay mo, pag natapos ang lahat ng to, mas maganda pa pala ang napuntahan nyo kesa sakin.

Hah! It came true.

Alam mo, I've long known the power of words. It's nice to use it to give encouragement to people. Pero tokwa. I should've known better than to use it against myself.

Hahhhhh.

Yung account na napuntahan ni Wendy, forever work from home, at madali lang daw ang work. Tas today at sa new year, wala silang pasok.

Sa totoo lang, wala namang bitter feeling. Hindi naman puro bad stuff ang naranasan ko sa account na ito. I'm glad to have met Kayla, Johanna, Diday, John and Alex. Sam is also treating me well. Hindi naman talaga masama.

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I couldn't sleep kagabi. Like, past 3 na, gising pa ko.

Siguro may dahilan ang langit why I ended up here. Whether I stay here or leave, sana maging maayos ang lahat.

Malay mo, ako naman yung maging maswerte this time.

Baka ito pala yung mag led sakin sa one true love ko. Char!

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Sa ngayon, gusto ko lang ng malaya, masagana, at maligayang buhay.

I wish the same for you, Tabby peeps.

Merry Christmas sating lahat.


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月曜日. October 16, 2023

Wind Breeze

Every single time na nagresign ako, laging meron nung super pleasant feeling of knowing na hindi ko na kailangang pumasok ulet sa trabaho. Yung tipong paglabas mo sa office, it's like feeling the wind breeze on your face for the first time.

I love that feeling.

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Na ping daw ako for always being late sa trabaho. Back in Takeda, even if I was late every day, they left me alone, and quietly deduct money from my salary. I wonder why can't this account do the same.

Nakakatamad. Gusto ko na maging malaya 

My only saving grace in this life is BL Bukod don, stress at pagod lang ang nafi feel ko sa buhay.

Of course, I'm grateful for this job. I love having more than enough money, allowing me to love myself and my loved ones better.

Pero pwede kaya yung parehas na mayaman ka at malaya?

Gusto ko nang maging malaya.

Yung malaya at mayaman.

Sighs.


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月曜日. October 2, 2023

Monday

Monday palang, pang isang buong week na yung level ng umay ko sa buhay. As always, I wanna get out of here.

This Saturday na ang Hong Kong namin. Friday palang, absent na ko. Sa totoo lang, the thought of not having to go to work excites me more than going to HK itself.

Siguro unfair na sabihing ang toxic ng mga workmates ko ngayon. I know they're just doing their job, and they're not like that 100% of the time. But trying to be understanding doesn't erase this feeling of wanting to get out of here quick. Umay na nga ko sa work. Umay pa ko sa workmates ko. Umay fiesta ba ito?

Haaaaah! Hanggang kelan ba ko magrereklamo until I actually do something about it? I want to end this corporate slavery for real.


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月曜日. June 26, 2023

Mata yasumi ka

Down with colds, so I took a leave at work. Since I've used up all my SLs and VLs, madadagdagan na naman ang salary deduction ko for the next 2 cut offs. Well, anong magagawa ko?

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Hindi pa ko nakakalipat sa new account. Baka 1st week ng July daw. Baka. Nung nicheck ko yung account ko with the current account, July 21 pa ata ang end ng contract. If the contract is the reason, baka matagal tagal pa bago ako makalipat. 

I heard na dalawa lang daw kami sa SAP JP Manila team. Tas may 3 pa na Japan-based agents. Yung makakasama ko dito sa manila e JLPT N2 level. I'm only N3. Nabanggit din sa interview na N2 ang hanap nila. Well, they took me in knowing full well that I'm only N3. Still, ang hirap paring hindi kabahan.

Sabi ng kasama kong nakalipat na sa new account, the other girl I'm gonna be with sa team e ipapadala daw for business trip sa Japan for 2 weeks around August. So sabi ko, "teka, hindi ako kasama?" I mean, dalawa lang kami sa team, do I really have to be left behind?

Oh well, joke lang naman yun. If they will send me too, then that's good. If not, okay lang rin. Kasagsagan ng summer ang August sa Japan. When I travelled there the first time, it was around August too. Nangangagat ang init back then. And that was like 14 years ago. With global warming and shit, it's probably even more mainit. Well, keri kahit ano. Though between going and not going, I think mas gusto ko pumunta. 

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Damn, I feel so sick. I can't visit my cats in their room coz I'm scared that I'd pass them the virus, lalo nga at kagagaling lang rin ni Iya from being sick. I miss my cats. I want to get well already.


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月曜日. October 24, 2022

Stars

Days have been a little lonelier than usual. Nung high-school ako, nagkaron kami ng play. Isa lang ako sa mga 3 kings na dadalaw kay baby Jesus, pero kinailangan ko paring sumama sa overnight para mag practice.

Naalala ko nakaupo ako sa labas sa bakuran ng bahay ng kaklase ko. Bigla kong napansin na ang ganda ng stars. Ang naisip ko at that time, ang saya siguro kung may kasama akong tumitingin ng stars na lalaking romantically special sakin. I was probably around 16 at that time. I think I didn't change much. I still feel the same from time to time.

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Was chatting with a high-school classmate just a few minutes back. He's teasing me about an old crush. I remember another classmate was doing the same thing before. Bakit alam ng buong klase yung crush ko nung hs? Sa pagkakaalala ko e mahiyain ako nung bata.

I no longer feel the same way, so super keber lang. Still, I don't want to speak ill of the guy. Hindi nya naman kasalanan na naging crush ko sya. Hindi na ko nag explain. Hindi ko na rin dineny. Hinayaan ko nalang syang asarin ako. Well, matatanda na kami. Wala na rin point. 

Tokwa, 3 years nalang at 40 na ko. Hanggang ngayon, gusto ko parin ng makakasamang tumingin ng stars.


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月曜日. September 26, 2022

Min

I lost my cat, Mini, today. Just a week ago, a workmate lost a mother. I know it doesn't compare, but that doesn't invalidate the grief I feel for my lost pet.

From 7, my cats are down to 5. 

Kanina, Mom was planning to just throw Mini away dahil umuulan at mahirap maghukay. Gets ko. Ayaw ko ring mahirapan sila mama at papa, so I proposed that they find someone na maghuhukay then I will pay. But as I was proposing, I started crying, kaya nag panic yung nanay ko. She immediately told Dad, " ilibing nalang natin at nag-iiyak na yung anak mo." I feel sorry na kailangan nilang mahirapan dahil dito. Kung wala akong pasok, I would've dig Mini's grave myself. I surely love my cats, but of course, I love my parents more.

I wish I'll never lose another cat. And I wish, I can have my parents forever.


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月曜日. September 19, 2022

Mafuyu

Gusto ko ng kotse na kulay orange. Pag nakabili na ko, papangalan ko yon ng Mafuyu. Yung character na vocalist sa anime na Given.

9 minutes, at off na ko.

Ang cute ng Here U Are na manhua. I'm almost finished.

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Officemate's mom is sick of liver cirrhosis. I've been reading about it since she left halfway her shift today. Said her mom was in pain again. She no longer has a dad. I've read that there are stages to this disease. And if I remember the symptoms that she told me her mom has, it seems like her mom is on stage 3. Sana maging okay lahat for her.

I've been checking for supplements to buy to prevent my parents for having the same sickness. Nakakatakot mawalan ng magulang. Sana magsurvive at gumaling na ang mama ng officemante ko.

I want to buy more shoes and clothes... but I feel like I need to save more money to ensure that I can provide for whatever medical needs my parents will have in the future.

Universe, penging net passive income na 1 million pesos monthly!


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