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Blue and green
月曜日: June 21, 2021



Lunes, and I'm in the hospital's eye center.

Eyes have been hurting from quite some time. The pain threshold has been decreasing day by day, that today, I can only last a few minutes on gadgets. 

5 eye aparatus in 1 day. Just when I thought the one with the blue light was the nastiest, another one with green light appeared. Parang na torture yung mata ko. My talk with the doctor was light. He seemed positive that there's nothing too much to worry about. I read something about glaucoma before. Hindi naman daw siguro, sabi ng doc. Ayoko non. Tokwa.

I was advised to take 2 days rest and then go back to the hospital after a week. Ang mahal din ng gamot.

Gusto ko lang naman manood ng Naruto. T_T

Last week, I had 10 consecutive days no work WITH pay. Tapos, aba, hindi na naman ako papasok. Mas masaya sana kung pwede akong mag binge watch ng Naruto while resting no?

Ang mahalaga, yung wala akong sakit, at bumalik na sa normal yung mata ko. 



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Dapat Pala
月曜日: June 7, 2021



Ika limang araw na ng long weekend ko including my days off last Thursday and Friday. Hindi pa nadedeliver PC replacement kaya hindi pa rin ako nakakapag work. I should be celebrating my extended weekend, yet I still feel... anxious?

I don't know. 

Still watching Encounter. I'm nearly finished. Park Bo Gum on episode 1 had longer wavy hair. He was an absolute hottie looking like that. I thought he'd carry that vibe the entire series, pero binalik ulet sa usual yung hairstyle at pormahan nya after ng 1st episode. Still gwapo though. 

Parang ang perfect ni PBG no? Naalala ko tuloy this guy I've met years ago.

The guy was tall. Nothing close to PBG, but he was also quite good-looking. Good-looking enough that when he passes by, women (and sometimes men) turn their heads for a second look. He also carried clothes so well that he can make a plain sando look fashionable on him. Pogi nga e.

He also got some personality. He was fun. He knew stuff. I truly felt enchanted when we first met. There were even times when I've felt like he was the most wonderful person I've ever met.

Until I've seen the sides I didn't notice at the start. I was so blinded on how he sparkled, I didn't see the sides of him that were dark.

Nung tinitingnan ko tuloy si Park Bo Gum, looking seemingly perfect, naisip ko tuloy kung katulad din ba sya ng lalaking nakikilala ko years ago... I mean, meron kaya talagang lalaking perfect?

Sabagay, ako rin naman hindi perfect. I'm so much far from being one.

Perfect din ba ang hinahanap mo?

Sa totoo lang, hindi rin ako sure kung ano bang hinahanap ko.

I reminisce the past sometimes. Tingin ko, wala akong masyadong pinagsisisihan sa buhay ko, pero na realize ko na ang daming kong mga "dapat pala" stuff. Stuff that I wish I've done or chosen instead. Is this not a "pagsisisi" also? Lol. Ewan ko.

Parang ang lungkot ko today. Wala naman talagang dahilan. Or baka yung kawalan ng dahilan itself ang dahilan, no?



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Written by cinderellaareus at 01:53 PM.

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Nijihan
月曜日: May 31, 2021



Nag reply na yung manager sa reklamo ko. May meeting ako with them mamayang 2:30. Tatlo sila, mag isa lang ako. Di naman ako takot. Pero sana parin makuha ko yung terms na gusto ko.

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Joke time. Yung ticket ko pala  sa lotto e last Friday pa yung bola. 1 lang nakuha kong number. Oh well, hanap ulet ng ibanh way para yumaman.



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Change Plans
月曜日: May 10, 2021



Hindi ok. I haven't been for a long while already.

Change plans. Dad and I will check NHA on my rest days to look for available land I can buy. Mom agreed na hindi na ipapagawa yung harap bahay. I'll just buy my own land and build a house.

When we were in Taiwan and Mel asked my mom kung kanino sya sasama pag bumukod na ko ng bahay. She said sakin daw dahil ako yung bunso. I was like, "as if"! From how things look, I was probably right.

Kaya ko kaya to mag-isa? Well, financially, sarili ko lang naman talaga ang aasahan ko. But once I made it, pag nagkaron na ko ng sarili kong bahay, kaya ko ba talaga mag-isa? Mabuhay ng ako lang mag-isa kasama ng mga pusa ko?

Ang alam ko lang, ayoko na talaga dito. 

Dun din naman pupunta to. Mainam na rin siguro para mas mabilis akong masanay.

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TL approved my VL request for tomorrow. Ang bait talaga nun. Will bring my Hamanya to vet. This cat fits the palm of my hand. Sobrang laki ng cat carriers ko sa bahay. Mas mabigat pa yung carrier kesa sa pusa. Sana malapit nalang ang vet dito. Good luck bukas.

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Hay, Universe. Hindi ako masaya today.



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Kin
月曜日: May 3, 2021



Monday. Golden week sa Japan, so holiday until Wednesday. I'm expecting less calls today. So far  25 minutes na kong avail.

Nagsimula akong magbenta ng cat food. Yung binili ko ng 95 pesos, binenta ko ng 120. Naubos na lahat kahapon. Bumili ako ng 1 sack na 22 kilos. Base sa kalkulasyon ko, considered na ang 100 off sa shipping, coins spent at coins earned, e aabot sa kulang kulang 800 pesos ang kikitain ko. Pangarap ko na bago matapos ang pandemic e mayaman na ako enough para di ko na need mag trabaho. Ang hirap pala. Hahanap pa ko ng mas mabilis at mas effortless na paraan. Naiisip ko talaga e Youtube. Or maybe mag game streamer nalang kaya ko and show portions of my boobs to earn money? LOL.

I don't judge people who do that. I think that's a very effective marketing strategy. Pero ayoko parin gawin yun. Hahaha. I also suck at games. I wonder if people will notice that you're not good, when they're busy looking at your boobs, no? Hahaha.

I'm thinking Youtube. Maybe I don't have to be seen on the video. Basta iisip ako ng way.

I'm trying to gather 100k para mapagawa yung harap ng bahay namin kung saan nilalagay ni mama yung mga sinampay. She's stepping on the old roof--remnants ng dati naming bahay. It looks creaky and dangerous. Mom will pay, but she doesn't have the money yet, so I'll lend her. I need to raise this money fast.

Kailangang mag tipid ng bongga. Or pwede naman benta ko nalang yung dollars ko ng palugi. Or mag benta ng stocks. Lol. I think I'd go for mag tipid ng bongga.

Sana manalo ako ng 10k shopee pay credits. Mamiss ko mag online shopping. T_T



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Quick
月曜日: April 5, 2021



Wasn't able to sleep so much last night. Tokwang coffee ice cream. Ayoko sana pumasok today, kaso absent na ko last Monday, at ayoko rin itapon ang 1-day worth of salary ko para lang matulog. I probably won't sleep anyway.

Gusto ko ng pasta na puro mantika at hindi matamis. Miss na miss ko na ang pasta ng Shakey's. Makapagluto nga mamaya.

Nakita ko sa nf ko yung nilutong ravioli ng kakilala ko. Feeling ko hindi pa ako nakakatikim ng ravioli. Parang masarap.

Ang weird ng tiyan ko today.



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Ichi nenkan
月曜日: March 22, 2021



It's been a year since this Work From Home setup started.

I am supposed to have APE on Wednesday. Kaso ayun, lock down na naman ulet. Hindi pa ma confirm ng HR kung kelan pwede magpa sched sa clinic. I was actually looking forward to my planned SL. Pa APE sana ko ng maaga para maagang makauwi at makapag kdrama marathon. Lol.

I can kdrama marathon daily though. I just don't. 

For some reason, bringing back the lockdown made me remember how I felt like nung 1st time na nagkalockdown last year. I hate this uncertain feeling. See, uncertainty is something a control-freak like myself find really disconcerting. I feel like grasping to find control again. Tokwa. Bahala na.

But as long as I still have the people I love, and we still have money to feed ourselves, then maybe it's not so bad.

Know what, a former colleague's mother just died. The Mother is not far from my age. Maybe late 30s or early 40s. Biglaan daw. Na stroke. After 2 days, deds na. She looked pretty fit in pictures.

Ewan.

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An officemate and I were talking about a dating app while I was on lunch. Kulit ng convo.

Officemate: ang dami ring poging AFAM dun, kaso yung iba mga mukhang puday.

Z: hahahaha. Anong hitsura nung mukhang puday? May hiwa sa mukha? Hahaha.

Officemate: I mean, mahilig manghingi ng nude pictures. Hahaha.

Tokwa, hanggang ngayon tawang tawa ako sa imagination ko sa kung ano hitsura ng mukhang puday. Hahaha. Ang literal. Tokwa. Hahaha ulet.

Sabi ng relationship coach na finafollow ko sa FB, don't put your life on-hold daw dahil lang sa pandemic. Kung ayaw mo makipagdate at a time like this because you're not good at chatting, then take it as an opportunity daw to learn this skill. And dating is a skill daw.

Kaya ayun, nag open ako ulet ng dating profile. Hahaha. Tapos ang tamad tamad ko naman mag reply. Hahaha ulet.

I'm actually interested in someone at the office. Wala lang naman. Pampasaya lang ng araw, tsaka inspirasyon din para magpapayat ulet para makapag post na ko ng bagong picture sa FB. Hahaha.

I seem to really like men with authority, no? Pero sigurado ako na ayaw ko sa taong authoritative. Gusto ko ng lalaking chill, pero ayoko rin nung hindi maingat sa trabaho nya.

Was backreading entries from years ago, and came accross my posts back nung may ganap pa kami ni L. 

I never hated that person, you know. And I don't think I hated any men na nakaharutan ko lang, tas nawala nalang. Lol. Because even for however brief moment, they actually added color to my life. And in however little ways, may natutunan ako sa kanila about men, or about relationship itself. At napapangiti pa rin ako sa memories ng mga kilig moments eventhough the feelings I've felt for them had long left na. All cool.

You know what, I feel really comfortable about being single. I actually love the freedom of being single. Hindi naman talaga ako natatakot to stay this way for the rest of my life. It's just that... 

I like men. I genuinely do. It's not even in lustful ways. I just feel like they were built to suit my taste.

And I still think about building a relationship.

So I figured, if I still think about it, then maybe it's because, I still want it. Di ba? Idk.

Kaya ayun. I plan to do what any normal person who would like to build a relationship will do—attend a seminar! Hahaha. 

Wala lang. Hahaha. Paparegister ako sa workshop tungkol sa mga lalaki. Sounds silly, but I really think this will be fun.

Dami ko pa pala gagawin. O sya! Ja!



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O sya
月曜日: March 8, 2021



Minove ang schedule ng buong Japanese team, except those who are on mid and night shift, into 7AM-4PM. Client's directives daw. Kasama ako sa na move ang sched.

Good luck sa pag gising ng maaga bukas. Main concern ko lang e yung mga kittens ko. Bahala na. To cover the shift of a colleague who filed a leave, sa weekend 12nn-9pm sched ko. Good luck sa body clock.

2 more days, tas rest days ko na ulet! Yehey!

No plans this "weekend". I'll probably just watch kdrama to my hearts content. I have no complaints about this setup at all.

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I wonder how my parents feel, having all of us here in the house all day, everyday. Maybe they're tired for having to take care of us. I think Mom has so much less clothes to wash though, because I only wear pambahay dress daily. That's so much easier to wash than maong pants, blouses and jackets, right?

Ambabaw lang mga trip ko sa buhay. Masaya na kong nakatambay lang sa bahay. Siguro hindi ko naman talaga kailang maging mayaman.

Pero gusto ko pa rin. Gusto ko talaga. 



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Not good
月曜日: February 15, 2021



Good morning!

1 hour into my shift, and I already feel spent.

Universe, I want to have the freedom of money, health and time, so that I can enjoy a great life with my family.

Pengi po ng permanent passive income na 2M pesos monthly!

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So balentayms kahapon. Was working. 

I feel like my views about love and marriage has changed a great deal since the lockdown. Afterall, we got 2 married couples here at home. And I also have friends with marital issues, so yeah.

Sa ngayon, ewan ko.

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Finished off Terrius until past 1am. Barely had sleep. I just ate cereals for breakfast. Sabi sa book na nabasa ko, hunger will keep you alert daw. I kinda like feeling a little hungry.

I don't feel so good a about so many things these days.



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