feelin' sleepy. or baka tinatamad lang ako.

i feel homesick kahet na nasa bahay lang naman ako. the weekends had been fully booked lately. i need some time to at least clean my room. i cant even find time to paint my fingernails. woah!

ewan ko. mag ho-holy week na. gusto ko sanang nasa bahay. i miss the deafening silence of holy week. i miss watching those usual holy week programs. i miss being home, doing nothing. pwede naman ako mag leave. sayang nga lang yung double pay. tsaka wala na nga pala akong leave for this quarter.

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it made me sad when i saw in fb that sis gg's dad passed away. she used to post pics of him when he was still battling something (must be sickness, death or whatever). i dont know her personally. i just often saw her on the stage playing piano. i kind of like see dad in her dad. i remember back when we almost lost him from stroke. i just cant imagine how id feel if we'd lost him for real. i feel really sad for sis gg. will i look stupid if i cry for this?

isnt it terrible? losing people... im pretty much certain im not scared of dying myself, but if it's someone i love, then that's another story.

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maybe im not really feelin lazy today. maybe i just need some time to mourn for someone else's grief. ang labo no?

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dapat busy ako. dapat meron akong ginagawa ngayon. the more i think about it the more i realized how much time i need to spend to change things. tapos wala man lang guarantee na may mag che-change nga. pero may iba pa ba kong choice?

nakakatamad.

can i just sleep?

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thinking of going to my panata wednesday tonight. they say fr. mario will leave by april. baka nandon pa sya. maybe i can at least see him precide the mass one last time?

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kaso nga.. nakakatamad.

very good, z.

*image source: http://charleshahlen.com

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