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水曜日: June 22, 2022

It's barely 2 months since RTO started and I already bought 5 lipsticks. Before Pandemic, I think I got about 12. 

Jeez, should stop this. 


Will be going back to work tomorrow. I feel like my rest days had just passed me by, I didn't even feel it.

I want more sleep.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:19 PM.

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水曜日: June 15, 2022

12:51AM, gising pa ko.

Will be meeting the girls 6PM. A little earlier with Mel at 5:30. We'll be spending 12 hrs sa spa, so I told my parents na sa Thursday na ko uuwi. Hectic din since nagpa sched ako ng nueter for one of my cats mamayang 8AM.

Anu ba, gising pa ko. Huhu.

Mel plans to go ice skating tomorrow. I'd rather go home and take care of my then newly neutered cat. I also feel homesick just thinking that I won't be sleeping on my own bed tonight.

Pero di ba, hindi naman pwedeng ganito ako lagi. I need to go out.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 01:00 AM.


水曜日: May 18, 2022

Meguri, my former JP boss from prev company, sent me a message saying that he's now working in the same company as mine, only, he's in Yokohama. 

I owe so much to that guy. He helped me a lot, and kept helping me even long after he left the company,  and even after I also left the company myself. It appears like we'll be having the same job. It's weird to be the sempai of my former boss.

He's as friendly as ever. I told him that he can ask me anytime about work as I hope to be able to help him this time around. Sa totoo lang, sobrang laking blessing sakin ng taong yun. I don't think I can ever do enough to repay his kindness. I hope he'll get to be friends with my other teammates as well. He's super friendly. I'm pretty sure he'll get to like my teammates. Partly e para hindi ako lang yung kinukulit nya. Haha. I'm more that willing to help him out with work, but his kwento can go on forever, so it will be better he'll have othet people to chat with.

Naisip ko lang... sablay man madalas ang love life ko, nabless naman ako ng universe ng mga amazing na tao like Meguri around me. Alam kong maiirita na naman ako sa haba ng mga kwento nya at mga kulang sa hulog na banat, but I'm still glad having Meguri around again.


I like that kiddo. We only get to meet 3x a week as we have different rest days. Heck, I didn't even see him last Monday eventhough we were both on-shift (was glued on my PC as there was an outtage that affected a lot of JP users).

Jeez, how can I get closer?

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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:31 PM.


水曜日: May 11, 2022

Diode sched today. Armpits can finally breathe, though only for about 3 days, maybe. Then, another 6 weeks to the next session.

Still plagued with this growing dissatisfaction. 

An officemate introduced me to this online shopping app for clothes. I want to try different outfits. Denim pants are a pain in this heat. I tried out clothes after the diode session today, I didn't like any.

I felt like I've lost a few inches off my waistline. I want to lose more. I haven't heard from Mel regarding the plan to travel somewhere. She works for one of the leading TV Networks in PH. She must be busy, with the election and all.

I miss being busy. Though I barely have time for anything as I spend most of my waking hours with work and daily commute, I still miss actually being busy on more meaningful stuff.

The world is starting to go back to normal. I heard the face to face classes will start on Monday. I miss the action and the fun. I want to go back and do more.

I remember the conversation I had with some my workmates who were also on a weekend shift. I told them how different they are from my usual circle and on how I find it interesting. 

I feel like there's so much to discover. About ourselves, about other people, about the world. Sobrang dami.

I know the cause of my dissatisfaction. I want to end this as soon as possible. I feel like getting this will complicate things and may prevent me from my desire to discover... I hope not. I hate restraint.

I hate restraint...

I hate... jeez, I just remember, Marcos is winning the presidential race.

I'm sad. Also a little scared. I understand that it can't be helped as this is how democracy works. 

I remember in a management book I've read before. Said if you were to hire someone with questionable character, you have to make sure that he's super lazy and stupid. It would be great if he's actually lazy and stupid. We'll just have to wait until his term is over and hope that another chance for a better governance will come. 

Night of the election, I was looking at the wall of our kitchen, contemplating if migrating elsewhere will be a good idea.

What's the worst to happen?

I'm not scared of dying. I don't want my family to die. And I hate restraint. I HATE RESTRAINT. 

I hate it. I hate it so much. Tangina. He better be lazy and stupid. Sighs.

Okay. Let's calm down. I want to focus on the things that are within my control. I've just been slacking off all these time though.

I've been reading too much BL, I sometimes forget straight men exist.  Haha! Oh wait, do they?

Gah! I've got so much to do.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:35 PM.


水曜日: March 30, 2022

Took an SL today to see a dentist, only to find out that they were fully booked. Got myself sheduled late April. To kill time, I went to the next mall, and somehow ended up in a skin clinic having some diode treatment thingy. It's like an IPL, but more advanced. Killed 4k in 1 sitting. It will cover a total of 4 sessions though, and a few products, so, not bad na. I should've done this way before RTO. Said I'm not allowed to do anything with my armpits. Ang hirap magiging babae no?

But if I am to be born again, I'd still wish to be a woman. Well, only for the prevelidges. But being a man doesn't sound so bad too. I think it's so much less hassle.


I remember a long time ago, at school. There was this physical exam thingy. To save time, the attendant physically examined a number of women in one go. Chest exam.

I was mixed with this woman from the same dept. We never really talked much, she was just someone I knew.

Few days after the physical exam, the girl went up to me to profusely say sorry. Said she didn't know we're going to get mixed at the physical exam. I absolutely had no idea what was there to be sorry about, but at that time, she looked so kawawa being apologetic like that, so I said, it's all fine. Later, someone told me that the girl liked me.

What's kakko warui in English? I do not know how that is supposed to be translated, but that was how I felt. I mean, it hurt my woman's pride. Like, do I look like a man, to be liked by a woman? Lol.

I still don't understand why she said sorry that time. I mean, it wasn't her fault that we were told to undress. And we both have it. We both saw it. So, what's the big deal?

Anyway, maybe there are just still a lot of things that I do not understand in this world. And at this age, my experience in that department is still not much different from a fetus. It's kakko warui, you know.

There are so many things I want to understand.


Had one of my cats scheduled for kapon tomorrow. I still remember the trauma I went through the 1st time I had my other cat neutered. If I have a better choice, I will never resort to this. Sana maging maayos ang lahat. Sana maging safe ang pusa ko.


Time will pass even if I won't do anything, no? I think I might as well give it a try. My fear is to spend time, tears, and effort, then fail to get it in the end. Or, manage to get it, then realize that I don't want it afterall.

Well, ewan, bahalanaa.

I just don't want to be the same anymore.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:32 PM.


水曜日: March 9, 2022

 やばい! もう眠いだ 。

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Written by cinderellaareus at 08:45 PM.


水曜日: March 9, 2022

Problamadong problemado ako kung paano ako tatagal nang hanggang 3am sa training mamaya. I used to be able to stay awake until 5am, pero lately, 9pm palang, antok na antok na ko. My threshold now is until 12 midnight. 

I drank macha green tea frappe with coffee jelly today. Bumili rin ako ng coffee flavored donuts para mamaya. I'm pretty sure real coffee shall do the trick, I'm just scared of GERD.

Dear eyes, gambare!


Kuroko's basketball turned out to be really nice by the final season. I love Junpei. I ship him hard for Coach Riko.

Also finished Bungo Stray Dogs yesterday and started watching Tokyo Revengers. These two have a more matured plot. They're nothing like any other animes I've watched before. Really, meron bang pangit na anime at all?

Too much violence in TR though. Got so bothered if the protagonist will be able to save Draken, I checked for spoilers a little. I love Draken and Mikey. I want both of them to be safe and happy.

Lol... should be sleeping now at 1:50PM. After the coffee jelly, is that even possible?


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Written by cinderellaareus at 01:57 PM.


水曜日: February 16, 2022

2.5 hours into my shift, and I feel spent already.

Been watching anime and JP series for months now. Pag may kausap akong JP user, naiimagine ko na sila yung favorite anime character ko, or favorite JP series actor ko. May bahagyang kilig tuloy. Lol.

May bagong episode na ang Love Is Blind- Japan. I really love that kimpatsu dude. Looks like the girl he chose has fallen for him as well. Nakakaaliw panoorin ang mga dating reality show.

I find it quite amusing how men and women behave differently when they like the person they are with. Magkaiba kasi e, di ba? Basta.

Wala na naman akong pasok bukas. I'm trying to convince myself not to go out of the house to avoid spending money. Once I'm back to the office, I will have more than enough time to spend money by then. I should make the most of this tipid time. Really.

While watching Love Is Blind, I felt like there were times when the couple gotten closer together when they eat together. Problema ko talaga to.

I remember my TM friends used tease me on how picky I am with food. I wasn't even a pescetarian back then. Pano pa ngayon?

Sa tingin ko, hindi naman talaga ako maarteng kumain noon. Sadyang ang hilig lang kasi nila kumain ng ma garlic at maonion na pagkain. I hated those. I find these more tolerable now, but the amount of garlic and onion they eat is still beyond my powers. Lol.

IT could be harder now. I've never eaten meat for more that two years. I remember eating with my officemates sa samgyeup sal. Side dish, kanin, at mushroom lang kinain ko. Thankfully, nanlibre yung kasama namin ng mango cake sa contis, kaya kahit paano, di naman ako nagutom.

I find eating outside with other people a bit stressful lalo na kung di kami ganun ka close. If it's with my friends, I can force them to eat somewhere with seafood. Pero pag di kasi kami ganun kaclose, nahihiya akong mag inarte. I don't really want to cause people inconvenience dahil lang sa kaartehan ko sa pagkain.

Do I miss going out with people?

Ewan. Di siguro masyado. Hardcore introvert din kasi siguro talaga ko. But I do miss having bigger world than this. 

Come to think of it, before Pandemic, I was an Area Champion, Vice President of an organization,  doing all sort of cool stuff. Pero ngayon, eto ko, naglalampaso ng pupu ng cats at nagbibinge watch lang ng anime at J-series. Totally uncool. Lol.

I don't mind being uncool though.  I just feel like it's a waste of potential to be like this. Nakakamiss mag strive towards excellence, yung mga ganung bagay. Nakakamiss mafeel yung fulfillment pag feeling mo, finally, after ng pagpupursige, ayun, sa wakas, gumaling ka na rin sa ginagawa mo.

Isn't this why I love anime? Exactly because of this feeling? But anime aren't real though. Real life is.

Tsk. Ayoko pa ring bumalik sa office. 


Been reading manga of Kono Oto Tomare, Black Clover, and Skip Beat. Iove these so much. Kainis  lahat ongoing. Ilang dekada pa ba bago ko makuha ang closure na kailangan ko sa mga ito? Ahrmp.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:01 AM.


水曜日: February 9, 2022

Wednesday. Wala yung usual happy feeling knowing na day off ko na bukas. Bad trep ako mula umaga dahil wala na naman akong pagkain. Alam ko namang kasalan ko dahil sobrang arte ko. Siguro time of the month na. Bwisit na bwisit ako on little things, and maintaining my peace can be a struggle. 

Gusto ko manood ng Spiderman. The nearest opened cinema is in fairview. Babyahe pa ko ng 2 hours balikan para lang manood ng sine, e marami namang pwedeng panoorin sa netflix. 

Gusto kong bumalik sa sm north to buy more supplements. Kailangan ko ng zinc at dhea. Sayang rin yung 150 off voucher na nakuha ko the last time. 4 hours travel to buy supplements. Argmp.

Mag franchise kaya ako ng Healthy Options dito samin. Wow, dami pera!

Sighs. Why is it so difficult to live with humans?

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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:42 PM.


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