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12:00am thoughts
Wednesday: November 2, 2017

If you can't sleep, count your thoughts instead of sheeps.

1. Ang galing ni Heneral. Parang kahit anong isulat nya, kalokohan man or seryosohan, nagiging work of art. Pak. Ang galing talaga ni Heneral.

2. A photo of Bo Sanchez facing his wife in kimono. He had his hands in his pocket gazing at Marowe like she's all that he can see. Super awww moment. Pag nakatagpo ako ng lalaking ganito... Ay nako, Universe... Kung makakatagpo lang talaga ako ng lalaking ganito.

3. Sabi sa nabasa ko, hindi daw healthy na masyado naten i-fangirl or i-idolize ang isang tao kasi minsan nakakalimutan naten na kaya rin nateng gumawa ng bagay na just as impressive.

4. Mejo masaya ko lately.

5. Nanood kami ng The Ghost Bride kanina. Majority ng tagalog horror films na napanood ko, panget (Shake Rattle n Roll, Pagpag, etc). This one, hindi panget. Not exactly maganda, pero nagustuhan ko yung latter part. Nakaka amaze ang culture ng mga Chinese. I wonder if the Chinese traditions shown in the film are fact based.

6. I remember you liked (likes?) this Chinese girl... Urgh! Nevermind.

7. Don Juan of the Zodiacs. Ito yung description na napanood ko sa youtube about your sign. I think that was on point. R has the same sign too. Also a Don Juan in his own way. The rest of the descriptions fit just as much. Naisip ko lang na theoretically, sino bang magkakagusto sa lalaking babaero, hindi gentle with his choice of words at hindi keen on settling down?

8. Jeez, I have terrible taste in men.

9. "Ako si Super Maaaaaam"... My niece and sis-in-law left for Cavite last Saturday and since then, wala ng sumasagot ng "lumalaban!" everytime na kumakanta ako ng "ako si Super Maaaaaam".

10. Ok. Hindi ko na kaya. Inaantok na ko.

11. Shucks, it's working...

12. Antok n q zzzzzzzzzz....

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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:29 AM.

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Turning tables and stuff
Wednesday: October 4, 2017

I know this.

That feeling when your stomach tightens into a knot at the thought of not seeing him there.

Of going crazy knowing that he will be with this other girl (eventhough he said she's someone else's), because you know what presence can do and it drives you nuts.

How you try so hard not to look obvious whenever your eyebrows fly off the ceiling everytime he's talking with another girl. Or girls for that matter.

If it's up to you, you'd want him all for yourself, but you believe that being jealous is so unattractive, so you keep your cool. 

Keeping cool didn't bring you so far back then.... Why insist? Idk.

This is what I hate about allowing someone to hold a place in your heart. These mini tortures that are side effects of caring about another human being other than yourself.

And I thought I wouldn't like you.



Still feeling not fine. Probably bday blues. I know my life is not really as bad as how it feels like. 

I know.

I still wish I feel otherwise though.

I heard from jane earlier about how one shouldn't let the mess inside be projected outside. Good point.

Still thinking if I'd attend the meeting on Fri. I need a bday rest, but my mentee will deliver her 1st speech and I feel bad to even consider allowing her deliver her speech without her mentor. Pero kasi...

I've been feeling so low lately I prefer fewer human interaction. I did see them a few days back though and it went well naman. Idk. I still have a day to decide. Bahala na.


Wait, I need to sleep.


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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:34 PM.

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Random thoughts before i snooze off
Wednesday: August 23, 2017

Everyday i brainwash my niece, "love ka ni Tita," and since then, her response to "love mo ba si Tita," evolved from "hindi" to "mamaya nalang" to "opo" to "love" to "lablab Tita".

Sabi na nga ba, powerful ang words. Matry nga sa crush ko. Hahaha. Charot.

Sighs. Just trying to lighten things up for it wasn't a good day. Iniisip ko nalang na this is the Heaven's way of pulling me out of here. Make me experience pure hell so i will have no other choice but find a way to get out. Gusto kong maniwala na magagawa ko nga to.

Was looking at a friends profile in fb. Aside from seeing what i initially sought, i found a picture of a boy resting on her chest. Probaby "The Guy". I've been wondering about this even back then. How she's highly social, sexy and confident with gazillions of other wonderful traits. i thought then that there's no way someone wouldn't notice her because patterns said there should and I'm a believer of patterns. If the guy is indeed "The Guy", then the pattern still works pala.

If so, then all i have to do is to folllow the pattern and get the same result. Kaso nakakatamad.

Kung magiging honest ako sa sarili ko, sa tingin ko, hindi ko pa talaga kailangan. Lalo na ngayon na magulo pa lahat. Na sarili ko nga hindi ko maayos. Minsan siguro, binabato lang saten ng langit ang mga bagay na kaya na natin saluhin. Sa totoo lang, ok lang naman talaga saken.

A few people lurking. One's a charmer. I don't trust charmers. They are the most deceitful type, i think. I'm familiar with their weapons 'coz partly, i am one too. That makes it harder for me to trust them all the more. Normally, i would at least take a look, but not now....

Been feeling so low. Plus there's the headache which started since Monday. I'm probably PMSing. I still eat like a construction worker. My pants don't fit anymore. Pero ayoko na magreklamo. Balang araw mawawala ang PMS at baka hanap hanapin ko naman sya.

Naiisip kita. Oo ikaw.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:01 PM.

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Level up
Wednesday: August 2, 2017

Dapat talaga secret lang e. Pero ang hirap to keep a secret from a friend. I'm just so excited for me and jay. Mejo puyatan nga lang. Meeting on friday. I wonder if i can do something to ensure we end on time. I will be the tme after all. Besides, the contestants have to rest.

Excited na rin ako for our contestants. Im just a bit worried about the boy. He looked drained. When we talked as we were going home, i was able to confirm if my guess as to why he was being that way was true. Turned out, i guessed it right. I hope he's feeling better now.

Know what, im bothered by how the boy is so much like R. See, I'm a believer of patterns and i haven't seen one failed before, so i really don't know.. Still, baka mali lang ako. But if tama ako, e ano naman? Wala naman problema dun di ba? Ewan ko. 

Para rin kasi syang glass na pwedeng mabasag sa kamay ko. Or baka nako-compare ko lang sya kay R. Minsan kasi parang detached rin naman sya like me. If that's the case, edi walang problema. Or wait, baka wala naman talagang problema. Lol. Praning lang.


Kailangan ko ng magsulat ng speech. Tumambay na sa pc ko ung jonathan speech ko. Hindi ko mabigyan ng justice. Kasi naman may pagka horror. While writing halfway, natatakot ako na baka bigla bigla nalang may multo. Hahaha. Pak this. Baka umisip nalang ako ng ibang speech. Puteeeeek, anong petsa na? Huhu.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 08:33 PM.

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wednesday thoughts
Wednesday: July 26, 2017

it was because of jay that i found out na available pala sa supermarket ang sacramental bread (ostia), pero kanina lang talaga ako nakakita. diet talaga ko. at 3 days narin akong naka cheat day and cannot afford another. iniisip ko lang...

nakakataba kaya ang ostia? kasi malapit ko na maubos yung 500 pcs in one sitting. gutom?


tamad to the highest level. kung kelan may nabuo na kong outline sa isip ko for my bsp 9, tamad na tamad naman akong magsulat. tas nag volunteer pa ko for another event. i dont know why im doing this to myself.  yung ang tahi tahimik na ng buhay mo at wala kang inaalala tas ikaw pa naghahanap ng sarili mong problema. lel.

pangarap ko kasi yung role. excited na nga ko e. pero  kung hindi ako kikilos at magpe prepare then, im gonna get myself in trouble.

fancying the idea of taking the role of someone to man the registration booth with LA for the area contest come aug  5. perfect venue to expand network or spot new target. haha. but the day before that is a TM meeting. muri. hindi kakayanin ng katawang lupa ko unless willing akong pumunta dun kahit zombie. ayaw.


back in trying to fix my life. might be needing to extend this hiatus. career at financial life muna.

on the 29th, 4th anniversary na namin ng cage. ayoko nang umabot ng 10th, Lord. T_T

been reading Bo Sanchez' "how good people like you can become rich". who would have known that it could be a real tearjerker. sinisipon na ko. ang wirdo lang ng mga bagay na nakakapag paiyak saken lately.

i plan to re-read the richest man in babylon. sana wag naman akong ma stuck sa kakabasa lang. 

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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:11 PM.

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Sabaw at kornik
Wednesday: June 21, 2017

Tuesday. I woke up with the sound of the doorknob being turned along with my brother's voice.

Bro: za**** gising na.

Z: bakit naman ako gigising?

Bro: hindi ka papasok?

Z: bakit naman ako papasok e sabado ngayon?

Bro: tuesday ngayon.

That made me jump out of bed and prepare to work.

Got home past 12 last monday as i joined people from the club to hunt for our club's new home. Sa totoo lang, i wouldn't mind the place so much as long as I'm still with these amazing people. Still, i guess it wouldn't hurt if we will find a nice one, and we did. Mejo na eexcite na ko. The budget will be tighter though as we need to help filling the consumable, pero kaya yan. Tiwala lang. Oh Lord, help me.


"Hypothetical question: what will be the headline if one of the biggest banks in the Philippines murdered Papa Jack or Chris Tsuper?"

Got this message from some dude who's a fellow TM from another club. Kala ko naman seryosong tanong tipong gagamitin sa table topics anik so i sent it to partner para maki join force. He had no idea about the people mentioned. It was when the dude said, "sirit?" that i realized na.... puteeeek, he was joking lang pala.

Video killed the radio star.

Vi de o killed the radio star.

BDO killed the radio star.

Gah! Sa sobrang korni natawa ko. Ngayon ko lang narinig yung song, infey, lakas maka LSS.

Kanina, partner asked from whom the joke came from. When i told him he's a TM from another club and already married, partner was like, "lumalandi ba yon? Wag ka papatol ha." Mejo praning. Lol.

Sabi nila, mahirap daw magsalita ng tapos, pero sa tingin ko hanggat mahal ko ang nanay ko, hindi ako papatol sa may asawa.

Still, sa tingin ko, the dude wasn't really flirting. I think he was just being friendly. He seems to really like his wife afterall. Bad trip lang, hindi ko parin ma shake yung kanta away sa system ko.

BDO killed the radio star.

Pag natawa ka sa corny na joke ibig sabihin ba corny ka rin? Gah!


Days been creeping so slowly. Mom's real birthday is on friday. 2 days pa. The celebration is on sunday. Sa totoo lang mejo tinatamad ako at mas feel ko matulog nalang, pero sana maging maayos at masaya parin ang lahat.


May namimiss ako. Ano bang ginagawa ng normal na tao pag meron syang namimiss?

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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:25 PM.


Panther and Parrot
Wednesday: June 14, 2017

He took my wrist to fit some nice bracelet onto it. 

Hindi kasya, so I offered my other wrist, the one without a wristwatch on it. Ayan kasya na. I was waiting for the punchline expecting him to make fun about the bracelet not fitting. 

"Maganda ba?" He asked. 

"This is nice," I said. 

Tapos Hindi nya na kinuha...

Minsan sweet din talaga tong batang to e no.

Salamat, partner! : )


Got a message from one of my mom's friends na sinendan ko ng invitation yesterday. She happens to be the mother of the guy I once dated. She said she remembers me. I hope she won't bring up anything about me and her son. Said she's attending. Nahihiya tuloy ako. Hahaha. Puteeek. 

And, dapat pala nag diet ako. Bat ba ngayon ko lang naisip to? Shoot, 10 days to go. Sana kayanin to ng kapangyarihan ni Dr. Atkins. 

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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:04 PM.


sabaw and sis code
Wednesday: May 31, 2017

inaantok ako. inaantok ako. inaantok ako. pag paulit ulit ko bang sinabing inaantok ako mababawasan ba yung antok ko?


would've had an ample sleep (in my world, ample means 4 hours) if i didnt spend what remained of my sleeping time chatting a girl-friend up until past 1 am.

last week, i asked this friend if she's really not interested with a certain target. she said no, so i told her, im taking it. she said sure.

then just last night, she said she's interested now. Mejo magulo. Pero ok lang naman. Im just glad that she was honest so i can at least step back.

if the friend succeeds, she might end up with a good beau. if not, then im taking the game back.

All is fair in love and 'war'.


socializing event last night drained so much of me. i think i need to go on a hermit mode for a week to recuperate.

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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:59 AM.

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