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水曜日: January 5, 2022



Yesterday, woke up wanting to live the mantra, "today, I shall judge nothing that occur."

E kaso, ayun. Umepal si Robert.

Ayoko sanang bigyan sya ng space sa blog na to, pero siguro for documentation, ilalagay ko na rin.

It all started when he made a "haha" react on my message sa work gc para mag aux to do backlogs. I didn't feel like letting it slide, so I asked, "what's with the 'haha' react?". And he went on to complain about my auxes. Of course I went ahead to defend myself, with matching screenshots to prove my point. I challenged him to show proof and file a formal complaint, and he responded with nonsensical rants, plus a "hahaha".

The TL stepped in. He talked to each of us to hear our points individually, and also investigated the matter. Ayun, lumabas tuloy na sya may pinakamaraming aux saming lahat. Lol.

TL asked me to be calm and not turn our gc to a battlefield. Nirequest nya rin na burahin namin yung mga messages namin dun. Ang sarap kalbuhin ni Robert kahit matagal na syang panot. Nakakatawa na ang kapal ng apog nya to accuse me of things e sya yung maraming escalations.

Kahit nung new hire palang ako, I already noticed that Robert had a habit of looking down on people. Well, hindi nya ako pwedeng i-bully. Education, language skills, and tech skills, wala syang binatbat sakin. Excuse me.

Lintek sya, hindi ko sya uurungan kahit umabot kami sa HR. The data are all there. Kita kitang naman kung sino sa amin ang mas productive.

Lol. Hinga ng malalim. Hahaha.

Sabi ng TL ko, kalma lang daw. Sinabi nya rin na wala akong dapat i-explain dahil nakikita nya ang productivity ko sa trabaho. Kung di nya kami inawat, hindi ko titigilan si Robert. Confident ako sa performance ko sa work at hindi ako katulad nya na nag i-slack off. Hanggang ngalngal lang sya at wala syang mapapatunayan dahil di totoo ang pinag-sasabi nya. I'll make this moron pay for crossing me.

Okay, joke lang. Ayokong mag spend ng energy to make that impakto's life a living hell. He's probably living that life already. Iniisip ko nalang na baka hindi masarap ang ulam nya or baka hindi sya minahal ng magulang nya nung bata pa sya kaya para syang pinaglihi sa sama ng loob. Lol.

Hayst. So much for "today, I shall judge nothing that occur". Nanggagalaiti talaga ako kay Robert. Gusto ko syang tirisin.

When I was younger, I used to forgive people easily. Pero ngayon, ewan ko ba. I feel like I'm starting to be the type of person I hate. Masarap naman ang ulam namin, at minahal naman ako ng mga magulang ko nung bata pa ko. I know I shouldn't be behaving like this.

For a long time in a while, I asked the Heavens for help. Ayokong patuloy na magalit. Even today, I'm still trying.

On a happy note, Wednesday ngayon, at off ko na bukas. Ayoko sana lumabas dahil ayoko gumastos, but the bank called, and I need to pick-up my rewards card. We also have an appointment with our ENT.

Maraming dapat isipin at pagbuhusan ng enerhiya kesa sa galit ko kay Robert.

The kittens will be 2 months old on Feb 2, which will make their mother cat eligible for kapon. Iniisip ko pa lang yung sakit na ie-endure ng pusa ko, naiiyak na ko.

Hayst. I wish my heart is so much stronger than this.



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Jikan toori
水曜日: December 22, 2021



6:30 am- wake up, feed cats, clean cats' room

7:30 am- eat breakfast

8:00 am- take a bath

8:30 am- set up pc for work, feed cats

9:00 am- work

11:00 am- 1st break, feed cats

1:00 pm- lunch, feed cats, wash cat bowls

4:00 pm- last break

6:00 pm- shut down pc, clean up desk, feed cats

6:30 pm- dinner

7:00 pm- evening shower, play with cats

8:00 pm- facial yoga, evening routine, feed cats

8:30 pm- prep bed

9:00 pm- sleep

Hindi talaga ko madisiplinang tao, but I religiously follow my schedule lalo na't may trabaho. Over 8 hours ang tulog ko daily. Hindi naman busy sa work. Nakapag crochet nga ko ng placemats while on shift e.

Pero ang daming bagay na di ko nagagawa lately. Hindi ako nakaka netflix, hindi rin masyadong nakakapag browse ng fb newsfeed, or kahit ng tabulas. Hindi ko pa natatapos ang FCON classes ko. I never had time to chat with friends, sobrang behind na rin ako sa mga new eps ng boruto.

Siguro ito yung dahilan kung bakit pagod na pagod ako lately kahit di naman ako kulang sa pahinga.

Pagod? Or undermotivated? Hindi ko alam.

Our relatives in surigao del norte were badly hit by the typhoon. For days, mom was trying to get a hold of her siblings na dun nakatira. Kanina lang nya sila na contact. 

Giba daw yung bahay. Wala namang namatay. I could hear their conversations over the phone, and Tita wasn't asking for anything. Yet my  mom, who already sent some money, is still planning to send more.

Sa totoo lang, kuripot ang nanay ko. Pero sa mga panahong ganito, bigla syang nagkakaron ng pera.

I've watch Kryz Uy's post on what happened to their house in cebu. Ang ganda at anlaki ng 3-storey house nila, pero sobrang laki parin ng naging damage. Imagine what it can do to smaller houses.

Paano kaya magpapasko ang mga taong nawalan ng tahanan, kabuhayan, or worse, ng mahal sa buhay?

Sympathy is cheap. Alam ko naman. And I feel really cheap right now.

Wala akong extra money at the moment, but producing money should be easy.

Ayoko lang. Ewan.

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Ang alam ko lang, pagod na pagod ako ngayon.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:41 PM.

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Extra
水曜日: December 15, 2021



Lagi talagang may happy feels pag Wednesday. Syempre pa, off ko na bukas. Masaya rin ako na hindi natuloy ang Return To Office ko. At least, hindi ako kailangang gumising ng mas maaga, at mag commute ng over 5 hrs to go to work and get back home. Next rto wil be next month pa. I'll have some time to prepare my heart. Lol. Balita ko pahirapan daw ang tools at internet sa office, tipong mas okay pa na nasa bahay.

Hindi ba talaga pwede forever nalang na work from home? 

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Andaming alalahanin these days. Nanganak ng 4 yung pusa ko. The mother was very sweet to her kittens, and I think that's already given dahil sya yung nanay. Nakakatuwa lang dahil my other female cat who is already neutered is playing mother to the kittens kahit di naman sya yung nanay. 

One time, the mama cat was having her usual morning walk outside, so I took the time to play with the kittens. One of the kittens cried on top of his lungs. Dali daling pumunta yung neutered cat ko to calm the kitten down. F na F nya talaga ang pagiging nanay.

Sobrang gastos mag-alaga ng pusa. When I found out how much a certain fb page spends for the cat food for their 13 cats, I realized, theirs is even cheaper than how much I spend on cat food alone, considering I only have 3 cats.

Wala pa yung cat litter, vet expenses, toys at accessories. 

Hindi talaga wise to keep these 4 kittens. Tokwa. Naawa lang ako sa mga pusa ko. Earlier I was trying to feed my cat, Iya, with a cheaper cat food brand. By cheaper, I mean 70 pesos per 400g can. Not cheap at all. Alam kong ayaw nya non, pero makakatipid ako ng 75% kung kumakain lang sana sila ng ganitong cat food.

I told my cat, "di ba love mo yung kittens? Kainin mo to, para di na natin ipamigay yung kittens." To my surprise, when I placed her on her cat bowl, aba kumain talaga!

Yun nga lang, nagsuka sya after. 

Sighs. Ewan ko ba. Ano bang gagawin ko? Gusto ko na yumaman. Tipong hindi ako manghihinayang sa laki ng gastos ko sa cat food.

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Been trying to get rid of my excessive supply of yarn lately. Araw araw akong naggaganchilyo para maubos na. Doormat na waffle pattern ang ginagawa ko ngayon. Mahal ang ganitong klaseng yarn. Then if we are considering my hourly rate at work, multiplied by the number of hours I've spent to finish this, aba'y napakamahal ng doormat namin!

I remember that poncho that Leni was wearing na biglaang sumikat. I found it nice since the time I saw it. Sabi tumatagal daw ng isang buwan ang paggawa ng ganung poncho. I hope the makers are selling it for the price that matches its worth. Lalo na't international nilang nabebenta. 

Pero sana kung ako yung bibili nang poncho e makakuha ako ng mura. Lel.

Ang mumura ng bentahan ng hand-made products sa shopee. Sabagay, wala naman kasing bibili kung tataasan mo ng presyo. Pero keri. Di naman ako mahirap. Hahaha.

Ano kayang pwede kong gawin sa mga yarn ko na pwede kong pagkakitaan? Pwede kong gawing doormat lahat to, pero sayang naman. 40 pesos lang ang doormat sa palengke. Napakamahal nung yarn.

Pano ko ba ito ikayayaman?

Universe, gusto ko ng extra income na 2 million pesos per month.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:24 PM.

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Childhood
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水曜日: November 3, 2021



When we were small, the world felt a whole lot bigger.

Nakakita ako ng sunog sa news. It brought back a few memories from the time nung bata pa ko.

I was born in Manila, and lived there until I was 4. We were renting a small room near talipapa. Shared yung bathroom. Tatlong pamilya ang magkakahati.

Tapat ng kwarto namin e sila Ate Dakloy. Kapatid nya si Ate Tessa, at ang tatay nila ay pulis. May lola rin silang naka wheelchair na minsan nang iniligtas ng tatay ko sa sunog.

Sa katabi namang kwarto ay sila Aling Fely. Anak nya si Weng weng dokleng. May Ate sya, nakalimutan ko na yung pangalan.

Sa second floor nakatira si Lolo. Sya yung may-ari nang bahay. Madalas nyang itapon yung laman ng arinola nya sa labas nang bintana, at minsan na kaming nabasa ng ihi.

Sa tabi ng bahay ay may maliit na eskenita. Pag katapos non, bahay na nila Princess. Sa abroad nagtatrabaho ang papa ni princess. Marami syang magagandang damit at manika.

Sa tapat ng bahay, may nagtitinda ng spaghetti na nasa plastic at may malalaki rin silang chichirya. Sa katabi nung tindahan, dun yung bahay nila Angie. 

Sa may kanto ng lugar namin, may nagbebenta ng masarap na lugaw.

Madalas bumaha sa lugar namin noon. At ilang beses din na nagkasunog. Naalala ko nung lumikas kami dahil sa sunog. Naghintay kami sa may kanto hanggang sa mawala yung apoy.

Pag balik namin, okay pa yung bahay. Pero kila Angie, mas malaki yung naging damage. Naalala ko na mejo natuwa pa ko nun dahil nasunog na ang mga laruan ni Angie at di na sya makakapag yabang. lol.

Hindi siguro totoong inosente ang mga bata. Salbahe kasi ako nung bata. Lol. Pero baka ako lang yung ganun.

4 years lang akong tumira sa lugar na yun. Most of the years I've spent there, hindi ko rin masyado maalala dahil baby pa ko. Pero kahit sa mga sakuna na naranasan namin non, hindi ko naalala na natakot ako or nagpanic. Siguro may pagka field trip yung feeling sakin noon, twing lumilikas kami.

Mula ng lumipat kami sa Bulacan, naging smooth na ang buhay. Wala nang "field trip". Wala na ring masyadong kwento. Hindi ako masyadong close sa mga kapitbahay namin kahit nakakalaro namin sila minsan ng batohang bola. Hindi rin ako masyadong close sa mga pinsan ko dito kahit magkakalaro kami nung bata.

I wonder how different it would have been kung hindi kami umalis ng Manila. But I do think transferring here was our best choice.



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Tapa
水曜日: November 3, 2021



Nakakita ako ng meat-free tapa sa grocery the last time. Dad cooked it today. Lasang karne nga. Kadiri. Lol.

Over 2 years na kong pescetarian. Nadiscover ko recently na may allergies pala ako sa ilang seafood. I still have the remnants of rashes I had when we ate out. It spreads all over my arms, legs, and stomach. Tingin ko sa squid to. I also get this when I eat certain fishes, di ko pa lang alam kung ano. 

I don't think I can ever get back to eating meat again. Ano bang gamot sa allergies?

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Wrapping upmy workweek in a few more hours. I had one of my cats scheduled for kapon tomorrow. Yet to see the vet's reply. One of my cats is pregnant. Not sure if kaya kong ipamigay to pag lumaki. I'm actually excited to see the kittens. But I really need to have them adopted because it's not practical to have a lot of cats, lalo na't mahal ang cat food.

Gusto kong maging multimillionaire. I want to live in luxury with my parents and my cats. O sige na nga, I'll include my brother and his family na rin, since I really love my niece and nephew.

Is it possible to just wish something into reality, while doing nothing?

I know it is. Most of my dreams came true with very little efforts on my part. Gusto kong maniniwalang mangyayari ulet ito.



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Float
水曜日: October 13, 2021



Last night I learned na the cn-manila agents ng team namin e madidissolve na. Not sure why, basta gusto daw kasi ng client na sa Chengdu na manggaling yung support. The company will find another account to transfer them to. Habang wala pa, floating sila. May bayad naman daw, pero basic lang. A huge chunk of our salary comes from the language allowance. Basic is only about 20% of the entire thing.

The JP team of my previous company also got dissolved. I still remember the pain of uncertainty that I felt back then. It makes me feel sorry for my officemates. Yung iba sa kanila, nauna pa sakin sa company. Though I think they will never run out of other options naman, since multilinguals are always in demand, but ours is a good company kasi e. Tingin ko magdadalawang isip din silang lumipat.

Iniisip ko kung mangyayari din ba to sa JP team. Sana hindi. Nakakatamad nang maghanap ng trabaho ulet. 

Kaya mahirap talaga maging empleyado. Sabagay. Wala namang madali. Ang boring rin naman ng buhay kung laging madali.

Gusto ko nang yumaman.

Paano ba nagiging milyonaryo yung ibang mga tao?

Kahit mag save ka ng 20k per month, 240k lang ang mase save mo save mo sa isang taon. You'll still be 76% short from having 1 million.

Yung binebenta kong cat food, kahit consistent ang benta, 500 lang ang kinikita ko in 3 weeks. Yun namang shoppee shop ko, sa 6 books na nabenta ko, 1200 lang ang kinita ko. The actual price of those books were so much higher.

A few years back, na hire ako as interpreter sa event ng G-shock. 4 hours na pagpapacute, pero kumita ako ng 2.5 days worth of my salary, may free lunch pa. 

Alam kong may mas efficient way na kumita ng pera. Hindi ganitong todo effort ka para sa kapirasong kita.

Pero pano ba?



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Tubig
水曜日: September 22, 2021



Wednesday. Excited na ko matulog maghapon bukas at sa Friday. Mejo ok na ang pakiramdam ko kahit may ubo pa rin at wala paring pang-amoy.

Pero gusto ko pa rin mag rest. Siguro may halong katamaran na rin. For other people's safety rin naman ang di ko paglabas. I could have it, you know.

We plan to get vaccinated pag magaling na kami. Gusto ko magpa swab muna before vaccine. Sana covered ng card.

Magkano nalang kaya ang sasahurin ko next cut off? Kung hindi ako bumili nga laptop, mas marami siguro akong pera ngayon. Bumili rin pala kami ng ref. Nasira kasi yung ref. I still have money from investments, ayoko lang kasi talagang galawin muna.

Tumaas ang Globe sa stock market. Nung pumalo ng 60% ang kita ko  nagbenta ako ng lakahati. With this stock alone, 2x na kong kumita ng tig 400 pesos this year. Hindi mo kikitain yan with the same amount kung naka tengga lang sa bank ang pera mo. Kaya I really love stock market. 2000 ang pinakamalaki kong kinita sa dividends palang. MBT. Favorite ko talaga yun dahil sobrang laki nila magbigay ng dividends.

Gusto ko na yumaman.

Gusto ko magkaron ng 3 million pesos bago matapos ang November 2021, para makabili na ko ng lupa at makapagpagawa ng sarili kong bahay.

Tapos gusto ko magkaron ng net passive income na 200,000 pesos per month.

Magpapatayo ako ng apartment for rent. Palalagyan ko ng ad space for lease. Tas pag hindi ako masyadong tinatamad, gusto ko mag franchise  ng gasoline station... or courier service siguro.

Tapos, pag stable na ang kita from rental at business, magreresign na ko sa work... hopefully bago matapos ang 2022.

Sobrang pangarap ko talaga to.

Yung ipapagawa kong bahay, 2 storey rin. Same kwarto pa rin kami nila mama. May sariling kwarto ang cats, tas another kwarto for my work station tsaka lalagyanan ng damit.

Syempre may garden para sa mga halaman namin ni Papa. Tas may car...yung 8-seater para sakaling mamasyal kami kasama ng mga pamangkin ko. kaso kailangan ko rin ng driver.

May malaking terrace sa second floor. Portion of which, lalagyan ko ng bubong na see-through para tatagos pa rin ang araw. Para pag nagsampay ng damit, hindi na kailangan ipasok kahit umulan.

Dalawang malaking cr na parehas may hot shower. Tas may cr din sa room ng cats para mabilis i flush yung cat litter.

May open space sa 2nd floor na paglalagyan ng exercise equipment. 

Malaki at organized ng kitchen. Sa dining area, glass walls, kita yung garden sa labas.

Dalawang tv lang. 1 sa sala at isa sa kwarto nila mama. Sa bahay namin ngayon, may tv sa kusina, sa 2 kwarto, sa tindahan at sa sala. Sa totoo lang, hindi ko gets bakit kailangan ng napakaraming tv.

Dapat may electric fan sa mga banyo.

Tas lahat ng section ng bahay, may relo. Pati sa banyo dapat may relo.

Magpapagawa rin ako ng tindahan para di ma bored si mama.

Tas malawak na cage for my dogs, Mihan and Kilay. Yung pwede sila mag jogging. Siguro room nalang sa labas. Basta di kasya ang mga cats, baka magulpi sila ng dogs.

Promise, araw araw akong maglilinis ng bahay. Or pag tinatamad ako, maghahire ako ng maglilinis.

Gusto ko matupad to.

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Sarado parin ang shop ko sa Shopee. Paano ba ko kikita ng limpak limpak na salapi?



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Monku iu hima wa nai
水曜日: September 8, 2021



Been busy lately. Paisa isang episode lang ng Bleach ng napapanood ko. Kagabi, I had a recurring dream about Rukia sticker at... tokwa, hindi ko maalala. Paulit ulit akong nananaginip ng same dream tas nagigising tas nananaginip ulet.

Haven't been feeling well these past few days. Mom and Dad are sick too. Bro and family are staying in their room most of the time para hindi mahawa ang mga bata. My baby nephew seems to miss Mom. Siguradong malulungkot sila pag lumipat kami ng bahay. I'm looking for a place near our house. I've  been talking to a few agents, pero wala pang nakakapag dala sakin sa actual place. Dahil rin ata sa pandemic. Umaasa pa rin ako na hindi scammer tong mga to. Lol.

I have sold-out 3 items on my Shopee store. Not so much, pero gusto ko pa rin i-celebrate ang bawat progress kahit gaano kaliit. Sabi ng kasama ko sa trabaho, ang hirap daw magpayaman. Siguro totoo, pero ayokong ilimit ang sarili ko sa mga ganitong klaseng opinyon lalo na't hindi ko pa nasusubukan.

I shipped out an item earlier. Naka facemask ako while preparing at panay ang punas ko ng lysol sa bawat layer ng packaging para siguradong safe ang buyer ko. Hindi kalakihan ang kita, tas may deduction pa sa commissions, etc, mga 3-4% sya from sales. Pero kahit ganun, hindi ako nagtipid sa bubble wrap, at binigyan ko pa ng freebie stickers na gawa ko yung buyer. My negosyante mom may not approve, buy I'm kinda feeling generous these days. They are my first buyers. Kung wala sila, malulungkot siguro ako na walang pumansin sa shop ko. Sayang hindi ko nabigyan ng sticker freebie yung 1st ever buyer ko. Hindi ko kasi naisip agad. 

The money I've gathered so far from the sales e nasa 500 pesos. Mejo malayo pa sa target kong 3 million. But hey! I'm 500 pesos nearer to my goal!

Sighs. Not feeling well. Absent ako nung Monday. Kahit masama pakiramdam ko mula Tuesday, pinilit ko nalang magtrabaho. Nakakainis kasi magpaalam na di pumasok. Daming hanash. This is one of the things I hate about being an employee. Parang kailangan mong ma guilty twing mag-aabsent ka when you're not feeling well.

Nag-iisip pa rin ako ng ways para kumita. This consumes most of my time. Nakakadrain physically, mentally at emotionally pag marami ka nang ginagawa, tas marami ka pang iniisip. I just learned lately though na hindi naman ako required mag-isip talaga. And things feel so much easier pag hindi ka masyadong nag-iisip. Sana natutunan ko to dati pa. Lol.

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50 ish episode on Bleach. I'm starting to like it, but not as much as I love Naruto and Boruto. I watched the latest ep of Boruto last Sunday and will impatiently wait for the next ep sa susunod na Sunday. Ito ang nakakainis sa panonood ng incomplete series. After Bleach, I'll continue watching One Piece. Another incomplete series. Uhmp.



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水曜日: September 1, 2021



Ang cute ng boses nung kausap kong Japanese kanina. Para syang anime. Kinilig ako ng very slight.

Naalala ko pangarap kong mag asawa ng foreigner dati. Hindi ako masyadong attracted sa white. Mas bet ko yung asian.

Pero sa ngayon, hindi ko na alam. Ang dami kasing kaganapan at hindi ko na maisiksik ang mga bagay na feeling ko, hindi naman talaga mahalaga.

Balak kong maglayas samin. And I'm going to bring my parents with me. Normally, children run away from their parents, and not with them, di ba. LOL. It's kinda ridiculous. I'm having 2nd thoughts on bringing them though. 

Brother and I had a fight again. Petty reasons as always. I wonder if this is how Dad felt when he and my late uncle, Tito Peping, were fighting. Tito was so much like my brother, you know. Except that my brother doesn't really hurt anyone physically.

I remember Dad used to say that Tito was actually very loving despite his nasty attitude. I can say that the same is true for my brother. A good man, with an evil temper.

Pero alam mo, I realized that you can love people all you want, but if you don't treat them well, then it's all useless.

USELESS.

I'm currently looking for a place to move in. Ang mahal. Ang hirap. Hindi practical. So, I'm challenging myself to gather a huge amount of money in 3 months. Enough to buy or build a house without taking a home loan. Sana kayanin.

I kinda feel sorry for Mom. When siblings fight, yung parents ang naiipit. She said she'll come with me if I'll move out. But I know it will break her heart if she'll leave my brother and her grandchildren. Naisip ko na rin na tiisin nalang ang ugali ng kapatid ko... pero kasi, I'll eventually leave anyway. I might as well do it now na mejo bata pa ko and can still earn much, lalo na't pandemic at mas konti ang gastos.

Nung una, mejo nalulungkot pa ko. Pero ngayon, mejo nakaka excite. I prefer to build the house, instead of buying ready built ones in subdivisions. Hindi naman kasi kami sanay sa sobrang liit na bahay. Will be meeting parin someone from Camelia homes this Thursday. 

Pero icha challenge ko parin yung sarili ko to produce at least 1M in 3 months. Sana talaga magawa ko to.



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