Entries in category "Wednesday"
And so you looked while chanting "it's okay, it's okay" inside your head. Then after 5 posts... t*ngina, it's not okay.
I visited the doctor for cough and colds, yet I ended up having an ultrasound and blood extraction. What the eff.
Watched Exes Baggage and I loved it so much. Ganda ng boses ni Carlo, gusto ko na sya iuwi.
With this, I WAS okay... until I looked.
Oh, damn this.
Written by cinderellaareus at 11:07 PM.
I'm back on vacation mode because I'm effing sick. I'd love to just lie in bed but my body just won't let me. Recently, it developed a rule that if I exceed 6 hours, it'll hurt like eff to kick me out of bed. I've never slept for more than 6 hours since. I became an instant early riser.
I plan to watch a movie and actually see a doctor by the afternoon. I'd gladly see them earlier, pero alam kong late naman sila darating so afternoon. But what I love about being sick is that it helps you sleep deeply. I'm half conscious most of the time during sleep. Last night, I wasn't so. Sana tonight din.
Was watching Bo Sanchez's Full tank las night and he talked about "not comparing". I feel so out of joy lately and they say that gratitude can bring you joy so let's give it a try. Let's count our blessings!
1. I'm seeing the sun by the window. My baby plants are probably happy.
2. Every morning whenever I leave the house way before dawn for work and then by the evening when I get back, Dad, with his old and ailing body, always send and pick me up to the bus stop to keep me safe.
3. A dog from the neighborhood we named "Pogi" accompanies Dad whenever he sends or picks me up. So sweet our Pogi.
4. I have a job that allows me to have a breakfast break for 2 hours in the morning, 1 hour at lunch and watch movies or korean novelas anytime I want.
5. Sis-in-laws cooking tastes great
6. We have a sari-sari store named after me where I can get all the chicha I want (so long as Mom won't find out).
7. We have a loading station too! And I often get free load.
8. I can speak Japanese. It can be pretty pointless when nobody else does, but at least, it's still pretty cool. Plus, it gave me a job.
9. I have a fully functioning body that allows me to do the things I want to do and go to places I want to go.
10. I have a family, few wonderful friends, plants and pets that I love so much.
11. I may not be rich, but I have money to spend.
12. And food to eat
13. People to love and talk to.
14. A bed that Mom gave me as a birthday gift years ago. Uratex foam with air holes. It didn't relieve me of back pain just like we hoped, but I still love this bed.
15. I have a crazy, goofy and maldita-but-sweet niece that I love so much.
Sitting here in my bed, I realized I've got countless of things to be thankful for. Sabi sa nabasa ko sa Facebook, kung tutuusin, lahat naman tayo, blessed. Masyado lang tayong madrama.
Tomorrow, maybe I'm gonna get back to work. Hopefully by then, my nose is no longer dripping and I'm no longer barking (coughing).
Written by cinderellaareus at 09:04 AM.
It hasn't been easy, you know.
It took me a month to at least feel ok, only to look at his social media account and feel my chest hurting again.
WHY CAN'T I JUST STOP LOOKING?
I remember the first time he met my parents, he just froze. Ganung level na pala sila. They kinda look good together. Believe me, I'm happy that he's happy. I am. I am. I just don't feel happy for myself.
It just gets harder as time goes by...
To believe that someone will ever love me again.
Written by cinderellaareus at 11:09 PM.
Sabi sa nabasa ko, bad luck daw ang cactus. Di rin daw advisable na itabi sa jade.
Matapos ko alagaan ng isang linggo, ayoko namang itapon to. Ok lang. I will just work harder.
80 words. Nagawa ko na ang start at ending ng speech ko. Body nalang. That's 80/800. 10 percent is still better than nothing. Sana matapos ko na bago mag Friday.
Naririnig kong tinatawag na naman ako ng lagnat. Nakakatamad naman kasing magpayong.
Ang hirap ng pera lately. May order nga ko, hindi ko naman ma-accomodate. Kahit matters of the heart, hindi rin ok. Kasalanan ba to ng cactus ko? Ahahaha.
Gusto kong patunayang hindi malas ang cactus ko. Sana manalo ako sa contest. Kahit wala pa akong speech.
Written by cinderellaareus at 08:08 PM.
August 1. Buwan ng wika. In character n naman ang mga kasama ko sa club na kina-career ang pagtatagalog. Bedrock levels ang lalim. Nahihilo na ko.
Gusto ko naman talaga makipag participate kasi nga, "mahalin ang sariling atin". Kung tutuusin tagalog naman kami mag-usap sa bahay. Pero ang tagalog kasi namin e tipong pang kanto, jeje levels na mejo may pagkabisaya (Mom is from Surigao). With sis-in-law in our family now, nadagdagan ng mejo Caviteno. Feeling ko sasama ang loob ni Jose Rizal sa paraan ng pagtatagalog ko.
Ang daming problema lately. Idaan nalang naten sa tawa.
Written by cinderellaareus at 11:57 AM.
Sabi ko kagabi, maaga akong matutulog tonight. 930 na, hindi pa ko nakakapag-ayos. Tamad na tamad ako lately.
Do you remember when was the last time your heartbeat raced inside your chest ? I just had that this morning. I know my patterns. I know what excites me so much, my heart somersaults. I don't know why I'm not doing anything about it.
Kaya ko gustong magkaron ng maraming pera e para magawa ko na ang mga gusto kong gawin. Ang weird na pinipigilan ko ang sarili kong gawin ang mga gusto kong gawin dahil sa wala pa kong maraming pera. Kailangan ko ba talaga ng pera para magawa ang mga gusto ko?
So, I see that you're meeting a lot more women recently. A part of me wonders if you now realized that you can't find anyone else like me. They could be greater than me in an aspect or so, but I know what you're looking for and I have all that. I know I'm still the only one perfect for you.
Naks, spell confidence. Lol.
Most of what I'm looking for, you have too. Still, I don't want to do anything about it right now. I don't want to put shackles on someone I'm not even sure I could keep.
Seems like you forgot.
Be careful with your metaphors, Z.
Nakakakaba pag sinabing "keynote speaker". Kailangan ko yata ng mas matibay na puso.
Written by cinderellaareus at 10:14 PM.
It's 10:18pm. There are things to do, but here I am, sitting on my favorite swivel chair as I type this. Just like earlier when I was riding the bus, my phone was beeping, but the moon and the night sky were so beautiful, I didn't want to miss a moment of it. I ignored my phone and admired the night sky instead. Truth is, I was trained to jump into doing seemingly urgent things... but lately, I'm changing, and I'm liking it. I think I just want to put priority to what really matters.
Years ago, Fr. Mario mentioned in his homily about the promises of Jesus to Sister Faustina. I remember I thought of researching about it, and it took me years to actually do so.
I just read it today. 17 things that Jesus revealed to Sr. Faustina about the Divine Mercy. As I was reading it, narealize ko lang na ang sweet sweet din talaga ni Jesus.
"I want to save them all," he said.
He also said na the more na grabe yung mga kasalanan mo, kahit kasing dami pa ng mga buhangin, mas lalong malaki yung karapatan mo para sa Kanyang Mercy. Minsan ang hirap din talagang hindi mahalin ang Diyos no. Sobrang bait Nya naman kasi.
Hindi naman ako madaling maapektohan pag jina-judge ako ng iba, pero just to be sure, I saved the link sa bookmark ko para sakali mang husgahan ako ng iba sa mga bagay na nagawa at hindi ko ginawa, maaalala ko na si Jesus, unli ang Mercy, unli kung magpatawad.
Naalala ko yung paborito kong chapel sa Megamall. Sa loob kasi ng office na katabi ng main chapel, meron pang maliit na chapel na madalas kong tambayan kapag nalulungkot o naguguluhan ako. Sa maliit na chapel na yun, may picture ni Jesus na sobrang gustong gusto ko. Akala ko dati, sacred heart ang tawag dun. Kay Jenny ko lang nalaman na yun pala yung Divine Mercy. Mahal na mahal ko yung image na yun. Pag pumupunta ko don, minsan ididikit ko lang yung noo ko sa picture ni Jesus at kumakalma ko tas natatagpuan ko yung peace. Nakakatuwa na all those times, ayun na pala yung Divine Mercy.
Every day that passed since the week started felt like Friday to me. I'm reading my Toni Robbins book. I should be writing posts for my businesses, or buying ads, but I guess I want to slow down for just a bit. Do very little and then see how things pan out.
Same sa love front. Do very little, see what will work out, and then from there, decide. If things don't work, then we can all just move on and proceed to the next.
I want to keep things as simple as possible. Incur the littlest damage possible-to myself, to the person involved. After all, feelings are investment too. You've got to dream big, but start small.
I will have considerably more time this coming month. I want to use this time to expand my world. Gabby have a lot of club hopping sched jotted on his calendar. I might join him on some of these.
Naalala ko yung sabi ni Sis Rissa noon. Naisip nya daw dati na sakali man na dumating yung time na nasa point na sya ng buhay nya na wala na talaga. Na hindi nya na makukuha yung gusto nyang makuha, at least daw, she can look back and say, "Lord, at least I tried."
Well, ako rin. I also want to at least try.
Written by cinderellaareus at 11:07 PM.
Z: Hello Ma'am, kamusta po kayo? May nagustuhan po ba kayo sa brochure?
Cust: Hello! Okay naman ako.
Z: *so, ano 'to, kamustahan?*
Z: Hello *insert name here*! We are located in SJDM, Bulacan.
Cust: Ok po. San po location nyo?
Z: *kasasabi ko lang, Ate. T_T
My mood fluctuates between wanting to laugh or pull my hair off dahil sa mga ganitong klaseng banat ng mga customers ko. But in a way, I'm happy that they're there. They keep my businesses alive. I'm greatful. Kahit ganyan yang mga yan, love ko yan. At pinagdadasal ko na ma bless sila ng products ko. Kahit minsan masakit sila sa ulo, sana talaga dumami pa sila.
24 hours since I signed up from this dating site. Two 20 yo's, a couple of dudes in 30's, about 3 in their 40's and a handful of 50s and 60s marked me as "interested". It's interesting how this works. Someone even marked me as "favorite". I also recieved a few messages na nakakabadtrip lang kasi hindi ko mabuksan dahil kailangan pang mag upgrade sa premium.
Isa dun sa mga nag "interested" saken ay mejo trip ko. He sent me a message. Sheeeet, nakakakileeeg! Hahaha. "Hi" lang naman ang sinabi nya pero feeling ko ready na kong bumuo ng pamilya kasama sya. Lol. Ang futuristic talaga ng mga babae.
I intend to upgrade to premium soon. I can afford naman, kaso I also want to have my money ready in case I recieve bulk orders from my biz and need to shell out money. Ano ba dapat mauna, pera o lovelife? Haha!
Okay, charot lang. I'm not really serious. I'm just enjoying myself. This is actually a good diversion. I still miss someone.
Will it even affect you one bit if I'd end up with someone else? Putek. I hate asking questions like this.
Written by cinderellaareus at 11:28 PM.
Mixed emotions ang araw na to. Parang thriller/horror movie na may nakaka heart attack na SFX.
There was an integrity roadshow this morning. We had a discussion about integrity related rules, sites we're not allowed to visit (which is practically every single website in existence), and so on. They'll do random inspections daw from tims to time. Ang hirap na tuloy mag Facebook in peace. Tas the CEO from America is here for a week too and will randomly visit accounts unannounced. These are making me jumpy everytime the door beeps. Suspense, pare.
Pero ok lang naman. Mas bet ko yung suspense kesa sa drama.
May isang crab na nagmessage sa business ko in fb earlier. Nakakapikon, gusto ko patulan kaso tinatamad ako. Feeling ko hindi rin naman worth it. I just used my seducing prowess to tame her grudge just to be sure she won't cause me problems in the future. Wala rin kasi akong energy talaga to engage in a fight na hindi rin naman magiging profitable saken in the first place.
Then, the boy sent me a message too. Now I'm getting how Gabby and LA felt. This is starting to get exhausting. I'm thinking whether to tell the officers about the convo or not, pero alam ko, pagod na rin sila. This whole issue is getting old. I think we all want to move on na.
Another suspense (but a good one : >.
My favorite world champ is coming to ph for the Discon on 2019. I cant let this pass so I guess I'll be going to Cebu April next year. I hope I won't be needing to sell a few of my stocks para lang rito. 50% excited na ko!!!! Siguro yung other 50% , saka na pag nakabayad na ko. Ang main concern ko talaga e yung problematic kong digestive system. Sana magaganda at maayos sa CR sa Cebu.
Iniisip ko rin.... Well, iniisip ko lang naman... Ang saya siguro if kasama ako sa district contestants sa Discon. Even better kung ako yung mag cha champion. Wala lang, para astig. Pampam kay idol. Haha. Pero srsly, namimiss ko naring manalo.
Now the comedy part.
May guest kami last fri na niloloko naming admirer ni Jay kasi nag message sa kanya telling her na ang galing nya sa public speaking. Tas pinupusuan pa mga posts nya. The following day, the same guest added me in FB, sent me a message, and we had this convo.
I like this kiddo. May taste sya.
Written by cinderellaareus at 08:55 PM.