I am thinking of cancelling tomorrow's supposed schedule because:

1. My stomach feels funny

2. My nonstop coughing 

3. I'm running out of budget 

4. A carpenter would be working on my closet (he apparently didn't follow a few details in my drawing).

5. My toe nails badly need a pedi.

6. I need to catch up on sleep.

7. Family's complaining about me not staying home most of the time already. 

.... and yet I went to today's event despite of the same reasons.

Hmmm.. may weird ba saken?

Nalulungkot ako na di nagchampion si mentor for humorous speech. 2nd Lang sya. I didn't even like the speech of the winner. Mentor was the champion for international speech contest though for his other club. He seemed to be happy about it though. Still, Nalulungkot pa din ako na Hindi sya yung champion ng humorous speech sa area namin. 

Was asked if na engganyo daw ba Kong sumali after watching. Judging how I felt disappointed when the person I wanted to win didn't, made me think that maybe I'd be worse off if I had been the contestant. 

The truth is, I know how to accept defeat but that doesn't mean I like being defeated. i think The reason why I rarely fight was because I hate losing.

Nung napanuod ko yung speech ng mga kalaban ni mentor, I already felt worried because they were all good. When he gave the same speech back when he was rehearsing at our club I thought no one else can possibly beat that.

Moral lesson: kahet gano pa kagaling ang Tao Hindi mo pwedeng i-discount ang possibility na may mas magaling pa sa kanya.

but more than all these, I find it laughable how here i am wondering how I would feel if I lose the area contest without thinking that I might not even make it to the area contest in the first place. Bago nga pa la ang area contest e club contest muna. We actually have a lot of good speakers among us...grabe, feeling ko naman.. haha.

Pero sa tingin ko gusto ko paring sumali. At syempre, manalo. Hindi ko Alam Kung kaya ko ba. Pero gusto ko talaga.

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Ugh, damn cough. Ikakamatay ko na ba to?

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