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日曜日: February 21, 2021



Sunday at work.

Gusto ko ng pastang hindi matamis. Miss na miss ko na ang pasta ng Shakey's. I think they have about 3 types of seafood pasta and I can't decide which one is my favorite. Watching pasta recipes on YT is not helping.

Almost 1 year na pala akong work from home. I converted my room into an office/kittens' room. I have folded the bed and turned it into a couch. I haven't been sleeping here for a long time already.

Hayst, sana ganito nalang palagi. Sana hindi na namin kailanganing bumalik sa office.

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Brother bought an oven as my niece and sis-in-law love to bake. I've tasted the ones they baked in Cavite and they were really good. Even better than the commercial ones.

Still, gusto kong maniwala na kaya ko paring pumayat sa kabila ng lahat. Tiwala lang.



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REA(L)OVE
日曜日: January 31, 2021



Watched this on Netflix, REA(L)OVE. A reality dating show with a twist. The twist is that, each participant has a dark secret.

Nayak ako by the end of the show. There were a lot of them that I hated at the start of the show, but ended up loving them towards the end.

<Spoiler Alert>

There was this woman there whose secret was that, she was born a man. In the end, she was chosen by a man, who didn't trust women because he was raped by one. His mother was also having an affair, and was using his hard-earned money for it. I was never a fan of BL romances, but after knowing their stories, I can't help but root for them.

Then there's that woman there who had sex to over 300 men, wondering if she'll ever find someone who can accept her. She ended up with this wonderful dude, whose dark secret was not really so bad. The girl was crying profusely when the guy chose him at the end of the show. I ended up joining her. Nakakaiyak kaya! Haha.

In the show, there is also that scheming girl that I hated from the start. Harot nya kasi e. Hahaha. But her dark secret explained everything. She's just fighting real hard, and with a justified reason at that. In the end, the guy she liked didn't choose her, though they both like each other, all because of her dark secret. Nakakasad lang.

Sighs. This show made me realize a lot of things. Maybe some stuff there were staged, but still, I feel like I've learned a lot about humanity watching it.

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Alam mo ba, what I hate about being an employee is that I feel like I do not own my time. There were many times when the wind breeze felt so nice on my face that I wanted to savor it longer, but needed to hurry up to prepare for work. Minsan gusto ko lang tapusin yung Bawal ang Judgmental ng Eat Bulaga, or tumingin sa ulap, i-admire ang ganda ng mga halaman, ganun. Pero parang laging walang time. Parang laging kailangan magmadali.

Lately narealize ko na hindi naman talaga kasalanan ng trabaho ko.

Off ko ng Thur Fri. I did spend some time feeling the wind breeze on my face, but I didn't stay long enough. Ano ba ginawa ko? Ewan. May oras din para manood ng Eat Bulaga, pero di rin naman ako nanood. Ni hindi ako nakapag dilig ng halaman. Wala namang humahabol sakin, and yet I always feel like I need to rush.

Will things change ba pag hindi na ko nagta trabaho?

Feeling ko mas ok pa ko during may younger years. I didn't have so much money, and had even less time  but I least back then, I had an idea where I wanted to go.

Ngayon, ewan ko. Tingin ko, I just want to own my time. But as to how I want to use it for, hindi ko naman talaga alam.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:14 AM.

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日曜日: December 20, 2020



12 years na kong empleyado. And I still feel the same all these years.

I've worked for 4 employers already.

Kung tutuusin, maswerte ako sa mga napasukan kong trabaho.

Company #1 made my major dreams come true.

It sent me to Japan. Made me study Japanese.

Company #2 wasn't so good, but it led me to change my career, so I landed to Company #3.

Company #3 was an answered prayer. I asked to get paid with the same amount as I was having back in co#1 minus the work load. 6 years spent with almost just having to sign in and out of the office. Supee petiks! Sounds good? Sa totoo lang, hindi masaya.

And now Company #4 came. I got the exact salary the I asked the Heavens for. Sabi ko rin, yung medyo may ginagawa naman, so yeah, may ginagawa naman talaga. I also asked for officemates I can be friends with, and I kinda have it now... okay ba? Okay!

Okay naman e. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganun parin ang feelings ko towards work.

Kahit mabait ang mga boss ko.

Kahit ok ang sweldo.

Kahit mababaut ang mga katrabaho.

At kahit ngayon na hindi ko na kailangang bumyahe, may mga araw parin na ayoko nang pumasok.

Kailangan ko ng pera. Di ba kailangan naman talaga ng pera para mabuhay? And I want to give my parents an even better life. Habang kaya pa nila mamasyal, gusto ko silang ipasyal. And I want to give them all the fine things they can have, and I can only do that if I have money.

Tae. Sinubukan ko rin namang mag negosyo pero ganun di  yung feeling. Yung feeling na you owe everyone everything. Parang kahit oras mo hindi ikaw ang may-ari. Ganun. Ewan ko.

May way ba? 

Yung hindi ka magtatrabaho, or mag nenegosyo, pero masusustain mo pa rin ang sarili mo financially, without having to downgrade your lifestyle? Naniniwala akong may way...

Alam ko.... mahahanap ko rin yan! Sa 2021, mahahanap ko yan! At makukuha ko rin. And my family and I will enjoy all these together. 

Thanks in advance , Universe.



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Sabishiku
日曜日: November 29, 2020



Nalulungkot pa rin ako na wala na sa company si TL D. Kahit mahirap ang buhay trabaho ko nung nasa night shift ako, it was so much more bearable to go to work knowing na makikita ko sya dun. Nung nag start ang work from home, kahit i-seen nya nga lang message ko sa GC sumasaya na ko. Lalo na pag nag cha chat sya. Or yung minsang tumawag sya para i-setup yung Avaya ko. 

Nalulungkot ako. But I'm training myself to learn how to live with the sadness na resulta ng mga bagay na I can't really control. Na ok lang yung minsan malungkot ka kasi normal na reaction naman talaga yun.

You see, I'm not really expecting anything from this man,  you know. He's married with a kid. I'm totally fine with just looking at the guy from afar as it makes my day a whole lot tolerable when he's there.

Tapos ngayon, wala na sya.

At kahit siguro isantabi ko pa ang pagtingin ko sa taong yun, bilang parte ng team, alam kong malaking loss ang pag alis nya samin.

Hindi ko alam. Ano bang gagawin ko?

Also, today nalaman ko rin na nag resign na rin si Eric. He's one of the very few genuinely nice men I know. Sobrang bait ng batang yun. Sabi ko nga sa kanya, if hindi nya bet yung malilipatan nya e balikan nya kami.

Tokwa, nakakalungkot.

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Andalas ng pag ulan nitong mga nakaraang araw. Nalulungkot din ata ang langit.



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Jinx
日曜日: November 15, 2020



What a week!

Ilang araw na nagfi freeze ang pc ko, so I took a leave last Wednesday para pumunta sa office to have it fixed onsite.

Same day, kinagabihan, bumagyo, nag brown out, nilipad Yung bubong, pinasok ng tubig ang kwarto at nakalas ang metro ng Meralco.

Kinabukasan, wala paring ilaw, sumunod na yung tubig.

4 days na nawalan ng kuryente. Habang brown out, bumagsak yung cellphone ko sa hagdan at nabasag.

Pinapalitan ko ng Lcd kanina. Bumalik na ang kuryente at akala ko magiging maayos na ang lahat.

Tapos ayon, walang internet. May issue daw ang Converge. Just when I though I can manage since I used to work using my phone's data on my PC via USB tethering, tokwa biglang ayaw na gumana ng touch screen ng phone ko. Ni hindi ko MA unlock. Huhu.

Anyare? Feeling ko ayaw akong pagtrabahuin ng langit. 



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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:50 PM.

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Modotta
日曜日: November 1, 2020



I had been off work for 4 days, until I got back yesterday. Iba na pala ang process ng MIM. Basta may mga nagbago sa trabaho.

Sabi sa librong nabasa ko, hindi daw healthy para sa tao ang hindi nagta trabaho. Sa tingin ko, totoo yun.

Antamad ko no?

Ewan ko. Siguro iba yung tamad sa tinatamad.

Hindi ako tamad. Tinatamad lang. At kahit tinatamad ako, lagi ko pating ginagawa yung best ko.

Tapos? Ewan ko ulet.

Alam mo ba, I spend most of my waking hours inside my head. I do one thing, but my head is elsewhere. With this, I feel like I'm not fully living. Kaya lately, I've been trying to get out of my head and actually live the moment. Ang hirap. Takte, ang hirap. Laging lumilipad yung isip ko instead of paying attention to what's actually happening. May ADD ba ko?

Nung college, meron kaming kaibigan na laging hyper. Para syang may ADHD. One time, another friend instructed her to hold a leaf, and her only task is to focus on that leaf for about a few minutes. Grabe, wala pang 5 seconds sumuko na sya.

Sa tingin ko kaya ko naman mag focus sa dahon ng mga isa o dalawang minuto.

I just want to calm my mind down. I do have ulterior motive.

See, yung mind daw kasi, parang tubig. Pag calm ang water, even if you just lightly touch it, the effect will create ripples. 

Pero sa turbulent water, kahit maghagis ka ng refrigerator sa tubig, it wouldn't make so much difference.

Feeling ko pag kalmado ang isip ko, I can manifest all the things that I want out of life effortlessly. 

And it wouldn't be dangerous because I am a good person and I can be trusted.

And even if I turn out to be a bad person, I don't think I'd create so much damage, because as you know, I'm very lazy.

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Our bathroom is done. This ends our house's renovation. Hindi ko na kailangang ubusin ang leave ko dahil lang sa nahihiya akong sumagot ng calls habang nag babarena or nag we welding ang mga workers sa bahay namin. 

I liked how the bathroom turned out. Ako ang namili ng color ng tiles. It could've looked even better kung available yung style na gusto ko initially.

Magpapagawa ako ng sarili kong bahay soon. Hahanap ng muna ako ng lupa. Ok lang kahit maliit at hindi kagandahan ang ipapagawa kong bahay, basta maganda at malaki ang banyo. Pangarap ko kasi talaga yung bahay na maganda ang banyo.



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Kdrama review keneme
日曜日: October 25, 2020



I feel like they heavily relied on the handsome casts. Ang shallow ng plot. The chemistry between the main leads is barely existent, it's painful to watch. Ep11 na hindi parin ako kinikilig. Sobrang sayang, ganda pa man din ng concept. Tuloy ko pa ba? Huhu.

11:20pm. Usually nanonood ako around this hour, pero napipikon ako sa Hwarang. Kaya ko lang pinapanood to dahil andaming gwapo. Lol.

Pero nanghihinayang talaga ko. I wish someone will create a remake and do a better job.



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日曜日: October 11, 2020



The workers were installing stair railings right in front of my room yesterday. The machines they used were so loud that I'm worried if my ears are still functioning fine.

My head has been exceptionally hurting these days. Naulanan din kasi ako nung Friday. I'm yet to bring my stuff back to my room, so I don't know where the thermometer is. I do feel a little feverish. 

Just 1 more day and I'm wrapping up my workweek. I'm taking VLs on Tue and Weds. Tas rest days for the 2 days that follow. 

4 days worth of vacay. Wala naman akong gagawin. Naiingayan lang kasi ako sa ginagawang renovation sa bahay, nakakahiya sa users na tumatawag, naririnig nila yung grinder at martilyo. Kailangan ko rin kasi maglipat ng gamit.

Nakakamiss mag travel. Namimiss ko na naman ang Japan. I want to go there, bring my parents with me. I wonder how much have changed since I went there 11 years ago. I want to go back. Gusto kong tuparin to.



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日曜日: September 28, 2020



A friend said that she feels like she's falling out of love na with her husband. I asked if there's someone else. She said none, and that she's not interested with anyone at all. She said she's just tired. 

It's one of my fears, you know. To wake up one day and realize you no longer want the person you chose.

I think she's tired because the husband doesn't know how to love her the way she needs to.

Know what, when I was young, I thought love was a feeling. As I grew older, I heard people saying that love is a decision. But as the conversation with my married friend progressed, I started thinking that maybe love is actually a skill.

Tingin mo?

I told the friend to tell the husband. I think he got to know. I mean, how else will you get better at loving when he's not aware that he's doing it wrongly in the first place? Pero alam ko, magiging mahirap ang ganung klaseng confrontation. Good luck sa friend ko.

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October is fast approaching. I hope I'd get to keep my current shift.



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