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Isang malalim na buntong hininga. Hayssssst.
Naiirita ako sa maraming bagay. Ayoko nang maging corporate alipin. Kung tutuusin, wala naman talaga ako sa posisyon para mag reklamo, pero basta. Ayoko na nang ganito.
Yung kasama ko sa work, magtatayo na ng business kasama ang mga friends nya. Nag suggest sya sakin na mag stock market daw ako. Lol.
I do have money invested in stocks. I religiously set aside nearly 1/4 of my salary there every cut off. Though its growing naman, it's still very slow, and I'm still at the mercy of the market's performance. May pera rin ako sa lending. 5-10% per annum na interest. Again, it's also very slow. Same with gsave at 4% p.a. Nagastos ko pa a huge chunk of my savings to pay for my laptop. Bawi nalang ulet.
I also sell cat food. I can sell out about 1 sack in 3 weeks. Nasa 600 lang ang kita ko per sack. My cats consume 500 pesos worth of cat food per day. Yes, PER DAY.
Sahod ko parin ang main sourcce of income ko. I want to find a way to earn on the side, then eventually eliminate the need to work as an employee.
Binuhay ko ulet ang shop ko sa shoppee. Few hours after kong mag post, wala pa ring bumibili kaya napanghinaan kagad ako ng loob. Lol. Ang bilis mapanghinaan ng loob, parang engers lang. Sighs.
Release na ng bagong ep ng Boruto. Takaw oras pala mag add ng product sa shoppee, hindi na tuloy ako nakapanood. Nalaman ko rin na meron palang onepiece sa VIU. Hindi ko na kailangang pahirapan ang sarili kong manood sa Facebook. Mehehe. Meron din palang Slam Dunk dun, but I already finished Slam Dunk.
I just want to live an easy life. Nood ng anime, play with cats, attend ng learning events na interasado ako. Mga ganun lang naman ang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko. Kaya ko naman gawin yun ngayon. Pero kasi....
Gusto ko maging malaya.
05:51 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Tokwa. If it can be helped, I wouldn't do this talaga.
Will be sending one of my cats to the vet to be spayed on Wednesday. In heat na kasi. Baka mabuntis. If all goes well, I'll bring the other one next.
Nagre research ako ng mga preparations na kailangan. Lalo tuloy akong kinakabahan. Kawawa naman yung pusa ko. Huhu. If only there's anything I can do for them not to go through the pain of having this surgery anymore.
Sabi sa nabasa ko, need daw mag fasting. Dapat no food daw the night before surgery. Hindi sanay sa gutom ang mga pusa ko. Si Iya, umiiyak pag nagugutom. Every hour sya kung magutom. Sobrang nakakaawa to think na magugutom sila nang sobrang tagal. Tapos ikukulong pa daw ng 1 week kasi baka bumuka yung sugat. Hindi sila sanay ng nakakulong. Kawawa naman yung mga pusa ko.
Sighs. Ano ba gagawin ko? TL had already allowed me to take a leave. Hindi pa rin talaga ako decided.
May contraceptives ba for cats?
05:33 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Tsk. I'm itching to create Naruto theme here in Tabulas. I already generated Naruto font for "cinderellaareus", only to realize, I need to upload it here, to embed the link, blah blah. I don't remember it so well, but I'm pretty sure all the other themes I've made here, I used the office pc of my previous company. In this co, naka citrix at vdi na nga lang kami, takot na takot pa kong gumamit for non-business purposes. Lol.
Should I buy a laptop na ba?
If there is one talent you wish to have, what would it be?
Dati tinanong ko ang nanay at kapatid ko, on separate occasion, kung saan sa tingin nila ako magaling, they both answered drawing daw. I've joined a poster making contest in high-school, hindi naman ako nanalo. I've brought a few medals from writing and speech contests home, I wonder why neither Mom, nor Brother, think I'm good at it. Maybe because they've never really seen my works.
Kung may talent ako na gusto ko ma acquire, at least at the moment, siguro drawing yun. Sa kababawang dahilan na gusto kong gumawa ng Naruto theme dito sa tabulas, kaso kinakabahan rin ako kumuha ng images from internet dahil sa copyright, though I always make sure to add credits naman.
I'm thinking of buying a laptop. Maybe I can buy it right away, pero gusto ko pa rin pag-ipunan. Mag aaral ako ng... i don't know... siguro photoshop, or digital drawing something. Hindi ko lang sure kung meron ba akong time and talent para rito.
May technical drawing class nung college. Kinda expected since Civil Engineering ang course ko. My works were average, until Jenna thought me a secret on how to make my drawings clean. The secret is to never slide your drawing tools (ruler, triangle, etc.) on the paper. When I applied that on my next drawing, it looked so good, one of my classmates stared at it, thinking I asked Jenna to draw it for me.
In our higher years, in our Timber, or maybe Reinforced Concrete Design class, we were required to design a 2-story residential house. A classmate commented on my elevation drawing saying mukha daw computer printed. We draw our plates by hand. Pero kahit anong ganda ng design at elevation drawing ko, I still sucked in perspective drawing so much, that my friend, Glaza, took pity and drew it for me. Yung perspective na magdamag kong tinapos pero pangit pa rin, natapos ni Glaza in few minutes, may mga puno puno pang kasama. Glaza is not particular with line weight, so unlike my drawings, hindi mukhang computer printed yung drawing nya. Pero hindi parin maitatanggi na magaling mag drawing si Glaza. Naisip ko then na kaya lang maganda yung ibang drawings ko was because I learned a few techniques. But I didn't really think I had the talent. Naisip ko nga non na kung may talent lang ako, tas may techniques pa, ang galing ko na siguro no. Lol. In the end, I got the highest score of 98 for that project. I was the only one who was given that score. I think Glaza got 95.
Pero hindi naman talaga ako interesado sa pag drawing ng bahay. Hindi ko talaga alam kung saan ba ako interesado, pero alam ko rin na I can't put my life on hold until I figured out what I want to do with my life. I guess I just really have to figure it out along the way, no.
Pero alam mo, whether through techniques or talent, nakakamiss maging magaling at something. To perform well, and have people acknowledge you for it.
But I'm a 35 yo woman. Sometimes I feel like there's nothing left to prove anymore. I really want to take things easy now. Parang early retirement phase. Ganun. Pero ewan ko. Will it be worth it to live an easy life ba?
Hindi ko alam. At gaya ng dati, ayoko parin magkamali.
10:26 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I finished Naruto Shippuuden last night. That's more than a month worth of living in shinobi world. 720 episodes +some of the OVAs and movies.
Okay, now what? Lol.
Ongoing pa ang My Hero Academia, and I also started watching Hiromiya.
Alam ko naman. Hindi productive. Marami sigurong pwedeng gawin ang taong tulad ko sa panahon ngayon na I can't really go out, and have so much more time that usual. Ano ba gagawin ko?
Started working out ulet. Just today lang. I've lost about 2 kilos these past days kahit di naman ako nag da diet. My stomach was acting weird. Probably because I ate mint candies 3 months past its expiration. Lol. I've gained 6 kilos for the past 2 years of this pandemic, so 2 less kilos doesn't really look that obvious.
Ewan ko. Ano bang goal ko?
Sa ilang years ko sa TM, I figured out that the best way to write a speech is to decide on how you're gonna end it first. Next, you should write the beginning. At the beginning, you must give your audience a preview on how you're speech is going to end. From there, you can easily move on to the next segments of your speech, since you already know the ending, and can just drive your speech there.
Siguro ganun din sa mga stories. Even Amiel Urbano, yung laging champion sa mga writing contest ng Kalyo, tingin ko, ganun din ang pattern na sinusunod pag nagsusulat. He usually starts and ends his stories with the same line. Ang galing ng taong yun.
Siguro pwede rin tong i-apply sa buhay no. Alamin muna kung anong ending ang gusto mo. Then start with that ending in mind. Then proceed as needed. Magbago man ang strategies mo to get there, as long as alam mo kung san ka pupunta, I think, that will give you enough clues on what's best to do next.
Anong ending ang gusto ko? Sa totoo lang, ang hirap sagutin ng tanong na to.
Siguro... siguro nga, may parte rin kasi na nakakatakot to spend your life trying to reach a goal then eventually fail. Sa anime, people acknowledge those who do their best. Hindi ko alam kung cultural thing ba to, but I don't think things are like that in real life. at least not if you're living in the Philippines. We'd rather want to appear effortlessly genius than someone who achieved excellence out of hard work, di ba?
Hindi ko alam kung ako lang ba ang nakakafeel ng ganito, pero sa totoo lang, naooffend ako whenever I manage to achieve something great through hardwork tas ang maririnig kong sasabihin ng mga tao e, "ang sipag mo", imbis na "ang galing mo".
Does anyone else feel this way too? Sakin kasi ang translation non e, "hindi ka naman talaga magaling, nag effort ka lang". Ganun. Lol.
Pero sabi nila, life is a mirror daw. How you see others reflects who you are. I'm probably having those thoughts myself towards others, kaya akala ko ganun yung iniisip nila towards me. Siguro. I don't know.
Kung tutuusin, hindi naman talaga yun mahalaga.
Ayokong may pagsisihan. Ayokong dumating sa point na I'm too old, and it's too late to change my life, tas saka pa ko magsisisi.
Sighs. Eto na naman tayo.
11:25 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Over a week back, 2nd anniversary ko na sa work. I've spent most of my stay in this company working from home pala no. I used to wish that I don't have to commute 4-6 hours back and forth to work, and work from home instead. Wish granted?
Community quarantine has nurtured my antisocial side. Kahit online gathering, gumagawa ako ng paraan para takasan. Siguro nga, solitude can be therapeutic, but maybe only to a certain degree. When left alone in your thoughts, there are dangers of being eaten by your own darkness, no?
I still hate that clown in the palace. And his daughter. And the stupid people who believe in him. There are many other things I hate. Even religion leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I remember some of the things I read in Mein Kampf. Makes me wonder if Hitler had been right all along. I mean, who are we to know?
Less than 100 eps left on shippuuden. Kung kelan ang tindi na ng laban with Madara, biglang andaming filler. Keri lang naman, at least I can see Jiraiya and Neji alive again.
10:33 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Peaceful Sunday at work. I had the Avaya setup on my work PC, so I'm free to use my phone now as I no longer need to connect to VPN.
Still need to regulate my netflix time though as my eyes still hurt from time to time. I forgot to book an appointment to the doctor on monday. Andami pa man din hanash pag nagpabook ka same day. O sya. Bahala na.
No news re pdt backup. Balita ko magreresign na daw si Hudas. Dahil kababalik ko lang rin naman sa work, di ko masyadong pansin, pero sabi ng kasama ko sa JP team, we were having fewer JP calls daw these days. Also, we were supposed to be having communication training. Probably JP language training. Ewan bakit di natuloy. Ewan kung matutuloy pa.
Avail today. I can watch Naruto. I just don't. I've been reading Naruto fandom site and found a lot of spoilers. I feel like my heart is not yet prepared on what to come. Huhu. Plus, wikipedia labeled Jiraiya as deceased. Huhu. Ero sennin. I kennat.
Hayst. What a waste of heartbreak. They're not even real. Tokwa.
Know what, I worked real hard in my 20s. I sure am reaping the fruits of my hardwork now. But I feel like I'm wasting my 30s overindulging on things that most probably will not get me anywhere nearer the life I want to live.
Pero gusto kong maniwala na may perks ang overindulgence lalo na sa katulad ko.
A few days back, I bought a small box of ferrero. Mom eats chocolate sparingly, so I practically ate the whole box in less than 2 days. Ngayon, pakiramdam ko, ayoko nang kumain ng ferrero ever.
See. Overindulging for 2 days saved me from eating overpriced, unhealthy chocolates for the rest of my life! That's saving my health and finances at the same time, di ba?
I wonder if other people are like this too— finding ways to trick themselves because they lack the discipline to tackle their own demons head on.
Doesn't seem to work on Netflix indulgence though.
Trying the audio visualization to manifest massive wealth and abundance. I can't seem to pull off the same trick I did to get this much salary. That one requires a peaceful heart. I find it so hard to be at peace these days.
Ano bang nakakatakot sa pagigiging sobrang mayaman?
09:32 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Ang baba talaga ng EQ ko. Sa ikli ng pasensya ko, naghanap ko ng spoilers ng Naruto. I found out who he'll end up with, if he'll become a Hokage, blah blah. I also happen to find out that he's going to die pala. I didn't read all the details. Ansakit. Now I'm left heartbroken. Kainis.
Sighs. Ano bang ginagawa ko sa buhay ko?
Naalala ko tuloy si Shikamaru. Sabi nya gusto nya daw maging katulad ng ulap, sumasabay lang sa hangin.
I remember when I was young, I wanted to be great. Masyado rin sigurong vague ang naging definition ko ng greatness, kaya until now, I don't know what to seek. What to pursue. Tapos antamad ko pa. Lol.
If you know what you want, you won't need to force yourself to get motivated. I think. Siguro. I don't know.
Gusto ko rin bang maging gaya ng ulap? Parang hindi naman...
07:10 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Pakiramdam ko, sa sobrang pagkabwisit ko sa trabaho, lalo kong naa attract ang kamalasan.
Tumaya ako sa lotto. Ngayong gabi ang bola. Dama kong mananalo ako.
Pag may 46M na ko, pwede na ba ko magresign? Based sa kalkulasyon ko, I can live up to 86yo nang hindi nagtatrabaho while still maintaining the same lifestyle with that much money. Syempre di pa kasama yung kung may nagkasakit or emergency. Syempre wala na kong health card nun...
Pero, not so bad, di ba?
Watching the anime Saiki K. Sobrang laugh trip. Halfway na ko ng season 2, may season 3 pa. Ang sarap mag absent bukas para manood. Pero siguradong malulungkot ako pag natapos ko to.
Nag email na ko sa Manager namin kahapon ng formal complaint sa pagiging PDT backup. Wala pang reply. Siguro dahil weekend din kasi. Naka cc si Hudas pati si TL.
Sa totoo lang, nakakapagod mainis sa isang tao no? Ayoko ng ganito.
Sana manalo ko sa lotto mamaya.
07:50 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Lee Do-Hyun. I just finished watching 18 Again. Takte, ang gwagwapo ng mga Koreans na 'to, hindi makatarungan. Lol.
Shift will be moved an hour later just for tomorrow. Request ng client, at all jp calls lang. Universe, help me.
Sa totoo lang, gusto ko mag absent. Mom rescued a kitten 2 weeks ago. I named her Hamanya. Her tummy was big when we got her. Until now malaki pa rin. I sent a message to the vet about a week back to ask if pwede ko nang i-deworm dahil nga makaki tiyan. Vet advised to bring her to the clinic first. I wasn't able to go last Thursday. Mejo matamlay sya these past few days. I'm scared that things can get worse if I'll wait pa. Sana payagan ako mag VL sa Tuesday.
11:17 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。