Entries in category "Sunday"
These are the ingredients of my sunday evening. 3 days into my bakasyon grande and im still at the "decluttering" stage and yet to reach the "planning" stage. Kinailangan ko kasing magpalayas kaya hindi din ako matapos tapos.
Soap and dust.
Two things I'm allergic with. Sabi ng doctor before wala naman talagang cure sa allergy, you can only drink meds for relief or totally avoid the cause. I know it's impossible to avoid these two and I've long resigned to the fact i have to go on a sneezing fiesta in every day of my life. Pero recently, dumadagdag pa yung itchy eyes sa side effect. Hindi ko kaya, bes.. Huhu.
Kapapanood ko lang ng bagong ad ng jollibee sa facebook. Hindi ko nagustuhan. Eexplain ko sana reason ko pero, nakakatamad kasi. Basta.
Out of the arena for days now. Or weeks na ata. I lost counting. It is during times like this na wala akong target na naaalala kita. Tas napanood ko pa ad ng jollibee. Well, iba naman story naten pero.... Wait, ano ngang story naten?
Alam mo ba, hinihintay ko ang time na magse-settle down ka na. Gusto ko kasing malaman kung anong magiging reaction ko dun, because right now, i can only speculate.
Kamustaka ka na ba, R?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:20 PM.
Pag ako yumaman, magpapatayo ako ng zoo.
O kaya farm.
Tapos aampunin ko lahat ng street animals or yung mga hindi naman talaga naaalagaan.
Tapos hinding hindi na ko kakain ng mga hayop.
Ayoko na kumain ng mga hayop.
Gusto ko nang yumaman.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:52 AM.
-while everyone's having an action packed day at home with all the cleaning and cooking, im here doing yaya/tita duties, looking after my niece while she sleeps. Not really complaining.
-ok na. ok na. ok na. Promise, ok na. *repeat until u believe your own lie. Oh sh*t.
-some boy from 14 years back managed to find me. I regret that i gave him my number. I was fond of him ages ago but things are diffrent now. His "para sayo", "dahil sayo" and "lahat kakayanin ko para sayo" banat is making me cringe. Please, leave me alone.
-ok na. Ok na. Ok na. Promise, ok na.
-z, please don't cry...
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:52 AM.
My arms and hands look hideous. Accompanied mom in picking mangoes straight from the tree in Lola's backyard through a bamboo stick with a hook that we call 'panungkit'. Since i rarely do any physical labor, my hands are not used to so much stress that by this time, i have red paches on my hands (and arms too) that are a cross between insect bites and 'latay' like i was beaten minus the bruises or something. Mahirap pala and nakakapagod. feeling ko nag gym ako, but i had fun. Minsan talaga yung mga bagay na kasing simple lang nito yung masaya, no?
My dreams are grand. I know i may not reach them, but in case i do, sana hindi ko makalimutan na there's that kind of bliss in simplicity that even the glory of the grand cannot replace.
Now i know why i like you. You are both simple and grand. I guess, in a way, i am too.
Execom yesterday at Ivan's place. Gabby cooked and we were complete attendance. Overall, masaya naman. There were just few changes in TI that i found upsetting. Well, we dont have the full details yet. Sana in the end, maging ok ang lahat. May 2 years na transition naman daw. 2 years is 2 years. A lot can happen. Will i still be a TM then? Wala naman talagang nakakaalam.
We watched wonder woman after. Ang ganda ni diana. Kung magkakaron ako ng katawan na ganung levels, promise magpapakabait talaga ko, dear Universe.
The friend reported a few stuff about the target. Seems like she's on it na, starting the battle and all. I'm just amazed how she's doing all these while having her shark on the sides. She's technically single so i think there's nothing wrong with that. Nagagalingan lang ako na kaya nyang mag multitask that way. Multitasking is never my forte, so i told her to teach me how.
Can't help but notice the target though. He's also like that. Simple and grand. Ganito ba talaga taste ko eversince? I wonder...
I have once saw your storm quieting down and i loved the sight of it.
But it was when i touched you that i realized you aren't storm...
You are waterfall.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 05:54 PM.
If we always long for–if we always seek–ONLY those that are unattainable, what does that say about our self-respect?
Confronted the Heavens for clarity.
Boy, the answer was swift.
Then, I'm back to day 1.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:44 AM.
gave my mom a hug today. Though kisses are constant in our family since we have a habit of kissing mom before leaving the house, hugs are rare. But then I don't want to wait until she can no longer feel my hugs anymore so I did it anyway. She just laughed. I found mom annoying most of the time but then I dread the day when she'll no longer be around to do the annoying things she do. To this day, mom remains to be the person that I love most in my life. To other women my age, it's probably their husband or kids or maybe at least a boyfriend. Saken ok na rin. I'm just happy that she's still around and hopefully she'll remain to be around for a super long long time pa.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MA!
It was past 12 when we finished the meeting. I texted mom minutes ago but she wasn't replying. I thought they had fallen asleep waiting for me to go home. Mentor said, "sige para sayo hindi na ko matutulog. Manood nalang tayo ng DVD tas umaga ka na umuwi, " then they started planning which koreanovela to watch. I delighted at the thought of spending more hours with them just watching DVD, I actually wished my parents had actually fallen asleep. Parang ang saya kasi. Funny, I don't even watch koreanovela. E kaso mom replied afterwards so hindi rin nangyari. Nalungkot ako dun ha...
I've always thought that being mababaw, being appreciative, and finding delight in simpliest and littlest things are good traits. I still think they are, but then I realized that they actually have a downside.
Remember your deadline, z.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:34 AM.
11:41PM and I'm still up. Dead tired from travelling a total 10hours today. Would love to sleep but I'm still waiting for a customer's reply. I really hoping to get this one because this is a bulk order. Pinapaasa lang kaya ako neto?
The ball. I saw the video of someone I know, dancing. Then in the background was L sitting next to J and I can't help but feel bothered. I hope J will ask L to dance. Kung nandun ako yuyugyugin ko talaga sya to do so because that should be given. She's all dressed up looking really beautiful. For Heavens sake, don't just sit there. Go ask her to dance already. Putik. Naiiistress ako. Hahahaha. I remember mentor during tita remy's birthday. It wasn't even a ball but he didn't have to be told, he asked for a dance. I mean, you don't have to have feelings for the person naman... Friends naman kayo e.. Parang appreciation nalang na maganda at nagpaganda yung kasama mo.. Di ba? Guys, are you getting my point? Arrg! I don't know. But really, can you blame me why I like men like mentor most of the time? Sila kasi yung sensitive. Tas minsan mas gentleman pa sila. Mas sweet. Seriously.
In J's defense, baka iba naman yung setup. Wala naman ako dun to judge. That was just a few seconds video. Still I hope the boys in our club will not let the girls just sit there... Oh please...
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:00 AM.
It is Sunday. I wake up to the delicious aroma of coffee and a sumptuous breakfast..
"wake up the kids, hon..breakfast is ready." he says inbetween singing some song. he sings random songs all the time, sometimes i think he's got massive collections of songs and lyrics inside his head.
i walk my way to the kids' bedroom..i kiss their foreheads and whisper.."wake up babies, it's time for breakfast"..
they open their eyes.. say their "good morning, mommy", and then, one of them goes back to sleep, one sits up and snoozes off, and the other one jumps up and down the bed waking the other two..
we eat our breakfast together. share stories of how the few days had been. share eachother's plans for the day ahead. and then head back to fix ourselves as we are going to our sunday mass in PICC.
"so, who's gonna drive the car now?" he asks.
"you.." i say with a teasing smile.
"oh, ok".. he says, smiling back.
and off we go.
-excerpt from "Saturday"
written by zaia
was out with the girls yesterday to attend sha's conference. At first, wala na naman talaga kong gana pumunta because :
1. Nananapak ang init.
2. I left home with a very sweet smile from my niece that made me want to just stay home and hug and kiss her the whole day.
3. I wasn't so happy that two of the girls cancelled the last minute though I myself would love to do the same.
But then the day turned out great. I'm just so glad I went.
The conference was about happiness. I felt like it was written just for me. Nakakatuwa.
I loved Edward Lee, I swear I can listen to this man the whole day. Then toots was really charming. So funny, so confident and so larger than life. Nakakatuwa how these big people are just so humble, na parang abot-kamay lang. I really want to meet them one day. Then maybe, be one of them too.
Naala ko lang yung sinabi ni Toots. Ang goal daw nya e to be better for her husband. Ang goal naman ng husband nya e to make her happy. My dear Universe, this kind of marriage please!!!
The last speaker was Michael Angelo. He's pure genius. After giving me stitches for laughing for the first few minutes of his talk, pinaiyak nya naman ako dun sa middle to latter part. I love people like him. Yung pajoke joke lang pero may tapang to stand up and fight for what he believes in. Yung tao na yung pagmamahal nya sa Diyos, hindi sya tinuruang maging mapanghusga.
Then, of course, Sha. The last time I attended her seminar, I was just a face in the crowd. Pero ngayon, whenever we meet, she addresses me by name and gives me beso beso. I think sha is just like me. Introverted, super shy... And yet she was able to make it to where she is right now. Siguro kaya ko rin yun no?
I feel so thankful to gabby and Ivan because if it wasn't for them, hindi ganito. Really, how can I not love these people?
Aside from the speakers at the seminar, it was the people I was with that made it all worth attending. I realized I need not look so far to meet amazing people when most of them are with me already.
Aliw na aliw ako Kay LA. Sha was having an interview with Edward and toots at the stage when LA got amused at a point in the talk that she gave her usual reaction when amused. She raised her hands and did a 'wave' with a 'woohoo!' in appreciation. She did so with her usual rocking confidence that gives no sh*t. Toots saw her and asked her to repeat what she did and made everyone else follow. So bibo, our LA gurl. She was just elected to be our president in the club, I'm excited to see how this bibo lady will soon lead us.
And there's Bea. At the Q&A portion, she stood up and asked a question. This girl's definitely something. Strong, highly intelligent, confident. I often seek people like her to gain example. How come I didn't notice I'm already friends with one?
We also saw a few TMs at the venue and they joined us at the table during break. I found myself conversing with people I don't usually interact with, with ease. I wasn't like this. I think I too am changing and I love it.
The girls and I had a bonding sesh after the conference. Our convo over light dinner went for hours and I loved every moment of it. I just realized, WE ARE ADULTS. In a deeper sense and I loved that. Love, life, marriage, sex, fetish, fashion, finances, among other things were the topic. Including NSFW and juicy stuff. I think a mark of adulthood in its realest sense is when we can go uncensored with our thoughts and listen with other people's uncensored thoughts while reserving our judgment. If only I was able to record everything, we could've produced a seminar out of it. Andami kong narealized at natutunan.
This day gave me a clear idea on the kind of person, the kind of woman, I wish to become.
Ang tao, parang libro din no... If you listen and look close enough, sobrang dami mong matututunan. I feel beyond bless dahil sa mga taong pinadaan ni God sa buhay ko. Excited akong makita kung sino sa kanila yung pipiliing mag stay.
During our talk, Bea told us the importance telling the idea of your dream day together with your man before you get married. She was engaged then when she found out her then fiance wasn't really the one for her because the guy said he's not someone who can give her her dream day. Made me remember I posted my dream day 3 years ago.
Sabi, "we are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true. We may have to work for it however."
Gusto kong gawin lahat ng kaya ko... Everything in my power, to make this dream come true. I hope the Heavens will work with me on this...
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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:25 PM.
A few days back, I woke up with the message asking, "may magagalit ba kung makikipagkaibigan ako sayo?"
Like I haven't heard that word before. I allowed a few exchanges and then the guy got blocked and unfriended. You've got to believe me if I tell you though that this girl is a whole lot friendlier most of the time.
Probably PMS. this is what I love about being a woman. You can almost always blame PMS for everything.
There are these two people I care about. One is my storm and the other is my calm sea. One drives me crazy, pisses me off and gets me mad all at the same time, while the other soothes, calms, and fixes the turbulence that the other creates.
You know how I care about my freedom, right? I can accept the fact that I can only influence people to a certain degree but they remain to be out of my control. What I cannot accept is me losing my control over myself. Of having someone else take too much space in my head to the point that it affects my day, my schedule and my life.
I think I'm heading to the easy way out.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 01:44 PM.