Entries in category "Sunday"
One of the ways I show my affection is by hitting (usually punching) the person on the stomach. How weird is that? This applies only to men though.
I remember about 2 to 3 years ago, I used to wonder why for someone who looked so cuddly, his hugs were rather stiff.
But tonight, he was soft.
I love that person, you know. As to what kind of love, I've decided it doesn't matter anymore.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:26 AM.
If there's one black man that I consider to be gwapo, it's Michael B. Jordan. Can't think of any one else, pero promise, ang laki ng ikinagwapo ni Trevante Rhodes sa character nya sa Bird Box.
And the arms and abs... oh boy...
Watched Bird Box twice today, because the first time, I was modeling play dough and wasn't able to focus. I also had to take off my eyes from the tv and cover my ears a number of times whenever the film got a little too intense to handle.
I just love Tom there and I found the part when Tom asked Malorie what's the night dress for quite cute. He's just perfect.
Ang lakas talaga maka gwapo ng character.
Well maybe the arms and abs count too. Lel
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:25 AM.
Nails painted red. Bouncy dark brown hair. Red lipstick. Signature necklace. Uncaring stance. Beautiful voice that serenades the Earth.
Ganda ni Vanya, I feel like wanting to paint my nails red too. Sadly, I can't pull off red lipstick. Kung naging maganda rin siguro ang boses ko, I would be up on the stage singing at the Feast.
Was reading a Bo Sanchez book a little while now. What stresses me so much is whenever Bo says something about passion and knowing one's self. I realized that the times that I felt most alive, I was answering math problems. How can I even earn from that? R does though. But I wasn't collecting 1's during college. The highest I got was 1.75. Probablity and Statistics. I sure am feeling the need to defend myself on how I think I'm capable of getting 1's, but really, what's the point?
I've long been wanting to cut my hair. I'm just waiting for bff's wedding to come to pass. I might end up missing this long hair though. I want to have it bleached. Color it crazy with my fingers crossed hoping this wouldn't add to the biggest regrets of my life.
Bagay kaya sakin ang platinum balayage?
At Tito's wake earlier. I saw my cousins and their hugs were tight. I was glad to see them, it's just sad that it has to be at a time like this. This might be a sad occasion yet we managed to have some good laughs.
Know what, I really love the concept of family.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:57 PM.
Woke up at past 10am today. 1st time to have an 8-hour sleep for a very long time though technically, its just 6+2 hours. I learned that once my back hit it's 6-hour limit from lying in bed, I can just sit on my swivel chair for a few minutes then go back to sleep for a few hours more and voila! Total of 8 hours sleep. Not as good as a continuous sleep, but I think, this will do.
I noticed a sign at the toilet door that says "schedules" along with names and respective time, so I asked Tita what it is:
Tita N: Schedule ng linis nila ng cr. Sila naman gumagamit kaya sila na rin pinapalinis ko, pero babaguhin natin yan.
Mama: Punta nalang ako dito pag schedule na ni <insert my name here>. Hindi marunong maglinis yan e.
Tita N: Wag na, Ate. Ako na maglilinis pag schedule ni <insert my name here"
I often hear my parents lambast somebody else's children for being lazy and not helping out in the house. Funny how they totally overlook that their very own daugther is just the same. Maybe worse.
I can't cook nor dishes. I'm not really looking forward to this.
When I was little, Mom used to tell me it's important that I learn how to wash clothes. Then we found out that from detergent to rubber gloves, I have allergies, she just ended up saying, "wag ka na nga lang maglaba".
Mom is meticulous with clothes. We have washing machine, but she handwashes most of the clothes still. When get rich, I will buy Mom a washing machine na isasalang nalang tas paglabas plantsado na. If she complains, "masisira ang damit," I will just tell her, "It's ok. I'll buy new ones". Sarap!
I'll still be looking for a place to stay. Though Tita N is really nice, nakakahiya parin kasi. Bukod dun, sabi nya, yayayain nya daw ako maging INC. Bukod sa habit nilang maging cause ng matinding traffic, wala naman akong issue sa INC. Still, I don't want to be one of them. Marami nga sigurong issues sa Catholic church, and maybe we have leaders who are far from holy, but I still want to stay here. I actually intend to stay for the rest of my life. Ayoko lang sana na kulitin pa ko ni Tita.
Some of the very few things that I actually look forward to about our transfer in shaw is that, I'll be nearer my favorite church. It's gonna be Christmas soon and maybe Father Mario will be back in the Philippines for a Christmas vacation. Miss na miss ko na marinig ang homily nya.
Whenever I see priests whose skills in giving homily could use a lot of improvement, naiisip ko talaga na sana may sumaling mga pari sa Toastmasters. Maybe we can build a club inside the seminary also. See, theirs is a very important task of proclaming the gospel. It's crucial that they develop an exceptional skills in public speaking since they carry the most important message. Pag may nakilala akong pari, itutulak ko talaga syang sumali samin. Father Mario is already good, he doesn't really need to be a TM. Still, I'm curious how his speeches would be like kung maging TM din sya.
I miss my club already. Dad's operation will be on 17th. By 16th, dapat daw nasa hospital na sya. Mukhang hindi na naman ako makakaattend.
Skipped the movie day out today because the sched of the cinema is not very good. Ok na rin because it's Tito Romy's birthday pala so I got to hang out with my relatives. The "ikaw kelan" question flooded once again, and I am now more than ready to give a witty reply. I know these people mean well. I don't hate them. I'm quite okay with all these. Maybe one day, mag-eevolve din ang mga demands nila into, "kailan ang kasal" or "mag-anak na kayo" or "sundan nyo na yan" and so on.
Siguro iba-iba lang talaga pace ng paglakad natin sa buhay. Hindi naman siguro kailangan makipag sabayan o makipaghabulan. I don't if I will get to build my own family sa lifetime na 'to. Pero sana, sakali mang magawa ko nga yun, I hope by then, confident na ko sa sarili ko. Yung maipapangako ko sa kanila (husband and kids) na mahal ko sila at hinding hindi ko sila ipagpapalit, and actually live up to that promise.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:53 PM.
Infey, natouch ako rito.
It's been a while since I last attended a TM meeting. There's a lot of new faces and kung tutuusin, even before my frequent absences, outnumbered naman na talaga kami ng mga newbies.
Bilang hardcore introvert, I found talking to strangers quite draining. But then, come to think of it, my friends now were also strangers to me before. Sabi nga dun sa nabasa ko, wala naman daw talagang strangers, only potential friends. Whenever I see new members silent in their seats with no one to talk to, it kind of makes me feel sorry. Maybe I can do better as their sempai no?
Mukhang dadalas na naman ang absence ko though. Dad will be needing to undergo an operation next week. Nothing serious, but he will need at least 1 week rest after that. Meaning hindi nya ko masusundo after work. Which means, Mom will. Which again means, bawal na magpagabi ng husto. Parang high school lang. Lol. But I'm not complaining.
There are things I'm trying not to think about. I know my own tendency to overthink. It's easy to search for evidences to prove your suspicions. Malay mo nga naman... baka kasi mahal ka pa. Pero sa tingin ko, ang pinaka matibay na ebidensya sa lahat e yung presence nya. If he's not there, then most probably, he doesn't. And come on, why should it matter?
Ok na. I still can't look, pero okay na.
Naisip ko lang, why focus on people who are so far away and overlook those who are just there? Between a man and a woman, hindi naman siguro kailangan na laging romantic ang pagmamahal.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 06:27 PM.
It's Sunday and I was starting to feel bad that it's Monday tomorrow when I came across Bo Sanchez's vid saying something like, "wherever you are, there's a reason why you're there." I don't feel so bad anymore.
At my room now. I turned my study table into working table for gardening stuff so everything's beyond messy. 2 months since I started having an interest with plants and I already have 3 casualties. Truly heartbreaking. But I learn so many things. I'm gonna do everything in my power to make sure that none of my plants will ever die again.
Watched an orchestra for the first time last Friday and I was mesmerized by the soloist. I'm no expert in music, but with these ears, I know na angat na angat ang quality ng music nya kahit ikumpara pa sa buong orchestra. Sobrang galing. She's 17. Said she started playing violin at 12. Made me ask myelf, "ano bang pinaggagagawa ko when I was at that age?"
On stage and sa picture, she looked like a young lady. But when we met her sa backstage, she looked more like a kiddo. Her eyes emit so much innocence, para syang baby. Papasa syang Elementary. So young pero sobrang successful na sa larangang pinili nya. Feeling ko tuloy, sinayang ko ang kabataan ko. Lel.
Kung makakausap ko kaya ang 40yo self ko, ano kayang ibibigay nyang advice sakin? Gusto kong malaman kung ano ano ang magiging regrets ko sa future para masiguro kong mapre-prevent ko yung sarili ko from having those regrets.
Kung mababalikan ko ba ang younger self ko, ano kayang ia-advice ko sa kanya?
-kalma, wag masyado madrama. Be happy.
-don't have your tooth extracted kung pwede naman ipasta para lang makatipid. Siga ulo ka?
-don't take CE. Go for ECE.
-go talk to them. They are your future good friends.
-utang na loob, wag kang mag ROTC. Take NSTP. Utang na loob.
-take care of your health
-don't pop that pimple
-dog fur causes you pimple. You don't have to wash your face 10x a day.
-magpapayat early to avoid cellulite and back fats. You'll have a hard time getting rid of those when you get older.
-grab those free Mandy Moore concert ticket. Tiisin mo nalang ang galit ang mama mo kasi sayang, Baby, sayang!
-rent a bed space in college. Maawa ka sa sarili mo and don't commute 5-6 hrs daily. With that, you don't have to miss all the exciting school events, ie. concerts, dating games, etc.
-sleep. You'll have a hard time getting rid of your eyebags when you get older. Please sleep.
-invest in stock market and make sure to buy double dragon stocks at 2php. The price will shoot up to 50+ in less than a year.
Man, I think I can go on and on on this.
Gusto ko mag travel. Gusto ko ng dagat. Gusto ko bumalik sa Baguio. It is only in times like this that I wish na wala pang asawa si Injan, my favorite travel buddy.
Ang nakakalungkot lang sa single e madalas wala kang mayayang gumala...
That's not entirely true though.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:53 PM.
Clock reads 9:32PM. It's the 3rd day of my 4-day long weekend. Tomorrow's the last and I'd be out for a movie.
A few days back, I watched Goyo. I can't understand where the bad reviews are coming from because it was so good.
The last time, shinare ko yung post ni Heneral tungkol sa Goyo, tapos, Bes, hinart nya! Syempre lumundag ang fangirl heart ko. Nakakatuwa.
Totoong isa si Heneral sa mga writers na hinahangaan ko. Pero bukod sa writing skills nya, siguro yung mga pinaniniwalaan nya ang higit na hinahangaan ko at yung tapang nya na tumayo para rito.
Gusto ko ring maging writer. Gusto kong maging parte ng isang pelikulang mag-aangat ng antas ng kalidad ng mga pelikula sa Pilipinas. Pero bukod sa pagsusulat, gusto ko rin maging kasing tapang ni Heneral.
My definition of a bad ass woman is someone who gets what she eats from her backyard, runs with her dog in the morning to stay in shape, and fearlessly does whatever outrageous things she feel like doing... but most of all, she has to be kind.
I want to be a bad ass woman.
Ang mahal daw ng sili ngayon. May tanim naman kaming sili pero saktong pang gamit lang. Ikayaman ko kaya kung magtatanim ako ng marami pang sili?
Gusto ko nang magtayo ng sarili kong garden. O kaya farm. O pwede rin hacienda para bongga.
I set my other phone on airplane mode and I'm now playing some meditative song on it. Itinabi ko sa pinakamaarte kong alaga.
Two months since I've started planting succulents and I feel like it's very close to having pets. Hindi talaga prepared ang puso kong mamatayan ng halaman. To date, I have 17 plants. My most favorite one is the most maarte among them. Sabi sa group na finafollow ko sa Facebook, fast-draining soil, once a month watering, bright shaded area and no to full sun. Then above all, wag daw papansinin. Sinunod ko lahat ng advice except the last. I checked it kanina, meron na namang molds at mga latang dahon, samantalang hindi pa sya nadidiligan ever. Hays. O sya, walang pansinan kung walang pansinan. Sinubukan ko nalang rin syang patugtugan ng music dahil healthy daw sa halaman. Sana mag work. At sana naman, wag mamatay ang paborito kong alaga.
I was feeling exceptionally lonely this morning. I thought maybe making someone happy will make me happy, so I helped Mom with the laundry. I also help her cook her favorite ginataang bilo bilo. Ok naman...
Iniisip ko kung hanggang kelan ba ko ganito.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:38 PM.
"Titaaaaaaa! Gawa mo ko tulaaaaa!"
Belted my niece last night. She'll be needing to create and memorize a poem daw for their buwan ng wika thingy at school. She's 3 years old. The poem should be in line with the theme, "Filipino: Wika ng saliksik". WTF, this is supposed to be for 3 yo's???
I just got a message from our VPE asking if I can back him up for the up coming Filipino Speech contest because he will need to send the preggy wife to the final checkup then. Ambait ko, I said yes.
Truth is, I woke up this morning with a heavy heart. It took me a while to remember why.
He changed his status. I guess that confirms everything. I think this is the first time. Siguro wrong timing lang kasi I'm single right to the last fiber of my being at this very moment. Kaya siguro mejo masakit. Ok lang.
Pag alam mo kasing single pa, maiisip mo na baka pwede pa. Pero now na hindi na, maybe its gonna be easier to dust off cobwebs from the past and move on to the present. Maybe I'm just sad.
Isang tula at isang speech. Sana kasing dali lang ng pagsulat ng isang blog entry. Pwede bang i-take ko muna yung time ko para ma broken hearted for a while?
Lol. Ok lang yan.
Kung magtatayo ako ng negosyo sa twing heartbroken ako, yayaman ba ko?
Gusto ko magtayo ng garden at magbenta ng halaman.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:45 PM.
Woke up and it's almost noon. My arms still hurt from hours of sorting files and what not. How are you? I woke up not feeling ok.
My heart is acting up. The literal thing. Feels like my left chest is being pierced with a fine long needle. The pain is bearable but it's been going for 3 days now. Do I have to see a doctor?
I don't feel emotionally ok too. I wonder if it's my literal heart's fault.
"Ba't di kayo nagpapansinan?"
... and I thought I was the only one who noticed.
This happened before only with different person. I wonder if things will work a whole lot better if we will remove all romantic thoughts and just be friends.
Bea was moving her car then and we ended up having a convo about our favorite topic-- men.
I told her about this dude I like from another club and she was like, "mahilig ka talaga sa effeminate no?" I immediately asked her if the dude is gay. Hindi naman daw.
I also told Bea about someone I recently like in our club and she was like, "crush mo si *@&#^#^#&@^ ??!!!" - repeat 10x. Lol. I swear I love this girl and all, but she always make me question my taste in men.
Iniisip ko tuloy na if within Toastmasters ako maghahanap, mukhang malabo labo ang magiging future ko ng love life ko. But I'm still hopeful. There's a lot of great men within TM, I think I just have to figure out an effective way to get them. *wink wink*
Then here goes the heart problem again. Gtg. : (
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Written by cinderellaareus at 08:21 PM.