hey, it's june.

one month left and we're half way through 2016.. before we know it, Christmas and then, new year na.

so, what happened for the past 5 months? well, marami naman. maraming nangyari, marami ring nagbago. hindi nga lang masyadong dama ang mga pagbabago siguro kasi hindi ko pa nababago yung gusto kong baguhin.

i am heading for a different direction from what was previously planned. talked to yang weeks back. i decided to stop the partnership. no more NCMnl. long story.

tita then had a talk with me when we saw her on our way home. she offered me a kiosk space in her school that i can rent for free. nice right? decided to partner up with brother. for one, because though we have less overhead with the free rent and all, i still need someone who will share the expenses with me since i dont really have much to spend for a capital. plus, brother needs another source of income as much as i do. kaitlyn is growing real fast. pretty soon, she might be going to school already. there is also that probability of brother having a second baby. he too needs this. i know this wont be a lot. siguro ang mahalaga sa ngayon e makapagsimula. we will be looking at the place this sunday.

aside from the kiosk, i plan to buy a xerox machine. talked to tita about it. she said i can place it in the library. Dad said he will talk to tita. maybe she can allow us to have the electricity for free too.. im feeling positive. i know how tita loves dad. she's inclined to say yes. well, sana.

sa tingin ko, gusto ko parin maging speaker.. yung katulad ni sha. gusto ko parin makapag bigay ng seminar... and one day, maybe i too can be a speaker at kcon. hindi ko pa sure kung pano. or tungkol sa ano. pero gusto ko parin tuparin to. i will talk to my other tita. she's the principal of the school and a teacher too. maybe she can let me borrow a few hours of her class to give a talk/seminar to her students for free. from there i will just figure out the next step. bahala na. sabi nila malalaman mo daw na handa ka na, pag feeling mo, hindi ka pa handa. sighssssssssssss. maybe i just need to ignore whatever doubt i'm feeling right now and do it anyway. bahala na. in a way, im thankful i have these people with me. i know these will be a whole lot harder kung ako lang mag-isa.

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tm meetings will just be 2x a month na starting this june. im not sure yet if the following months will be the same. in a way, siguro ok nalang din since ill be needing time to execute some plans. i will be one of the backup speakers on fri. meaning, if someone will fail to deliver his/her speech, then i will have to fill up that slot. i actually finished my bsp4 and already had mentor check it. i am yet to memorize the speech, but since it is a personal story, i think i will find it easier to memorize. its just that, mentor suggested "to use purposeful gestures during your speech in preparation for BSP5". you see, i have no issues in speaking in front, but if i have to MOVE and speak, then that's another story. i actually dread that bsp5. its the speech project where we have to make our body speak. still, i know mentor had a point. i just cant really run away from this forever, right? i was just hoping i can buy some more time. sighs..

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i signed a covenant with the Heavens yesterday. i read that Migz did the same though he signed it with a friend. his covenant said he will finish writing the draft of his book in a week. if he fail to do so, he will go to a club in clubbing clothes, stay there for an hour, then approach some random girl and ask for her number. he must have hate clubbing that much because he was able to write the draft in a week. so i thought of doing the same.

ive been far from living a healthy life for these past months and so the covenant i signed had something to do with my health. i have to live healthy for the entire month, exercise regularly, eat healthy, drop unhealthy food(goodbye hepatitis joints..huhu), unhealthy habits and the like.  if i fail to do this i will have to give mom P3000. Believe me, this would be a great motivation considering that i am on tight budget most of the time. i hope i wont be P3000 poorer come end of June.

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the week is crawling real slow. bat parang bumagal ata ang oras...im still upset over what's been happening to our country. im tired of hearing about mayor. maybe i need to stop watching and reading news.

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