friday. i survived the week. congratulations to me.

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almost a week of staying away from toxicity and wow, im having better sleep. great. i also started to do hip hop abs again and since im using our tv for hip hop abs, hindi na rin ako nakakanuod masyado ng news. naalala ko tuloy yung sabi ni janna stanfield as to why she's not watching news.. para to stay away from negativity something daw. she also added na if magkaron man daw ng super importanteng bagay sa news na mamimiss nia, for sure naman may magbabalita sa kanya nun. made sense, right? maybe id do the same.

also watched a few of the past "the feast" sessions.. got hit by bro. Obet's words saying, "dont sacrifice your power source." referring to those who chose not to go to the feast in exchange from doing something else. kelan nga ba ko huling nag feast?? naibaon ko na rin sa limot ang plan kong sumali sa love life retreat at ang maging servant sa feast malapit samen. i hope i still have time to catch up.

kcon is fast approaching. there will be changes. i wonder if i need to work as early as now for my plan B (sounds familiar.. BBM, is that you?Lol).. anyway, as i was saying.. ayun nga. kcon. i am also fancying a few idea.

was reading success.com when the idea hit me. ang wierd nga naman kasi. i know what i want. i know what i need to do to get it. so why am i spending my time, energy and resources into doing something else???!!

ang labo di ba? walang sense di ba? so yun. naisip ko lang na, siguro dapat na nga talaga magsimula. sa totoo lang, etong mga times like these kung saan nagsisimula na akong mag-isip na kumilos para tuparin ang mga pangarap ko e saka super ingay at nag sisigawan ang self-doubt at mga critics sa utak ko saying, "di pa kaya yan.." or "di ka pa handa." or "di magwo-work yan" or "pano kung masayang oras mo?" and so on..

hindi talaga ako matapang na tao, but in those few instances na naging matapang ako and faught my own self-doubt and those evil critics inside my head, lahat naman yun naging worth it. so, may sense naman kung ilalaban ko ulet to no? pero kasi hindi naman sense ang sinusunod ng utak ko... ang alam ko lang, dapat ko nang i act out to sa lalong madaling panahon bago ko pa maisipang mag back out.

book-seminar-website... gaya nga sabi ni sir larry na create it, campaign it and then cash it in.

kaso wala ata akong pera so baka seminar to raise fund tas book tas membership-based website.

pero kasi... alam mo yun.. yung "what? me? me? ako? as in ako?? weh...kaya ko ba yan?" feeling.. andun e.. sighs.. ang hirap talagang kalaban ng sarili.

1 week daw nagawa ni migz ang kanyang drafts. ganun nalang din ako. im thinking of staying away from how-to articles para yung style ko new, saken talaga at walang restrictions. hindi ko alam kung magagawa ko ba to. ayoko naman na na magsign ng isa pang covenant because the last time i did, it costed me 3000 pesos (which i am yet to pay). so no more covenant signing from now on.

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nabasa ko na naman yung tungkol kay alexander the great and the "burning boat" concept sa art of war. sinunog kasi ni alexander the great ang lahat ng boat nila bago sila lumaban sa persians.. ang concept kasi e yung tanggalan yung mga tauhan nia ng option to retreat para mas mag commit sila into winning. well, we all know it worked.

ive burned a lot of boats in my life.. and ive been burning more. hindi ko pa nakikita yung positive outcome sa ngayon but im feeling positive na it's working and that im getting there.

i hope im right. in case im not, i will make myself so (naks, ang tapang..).

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