spent most of the day actually working..
sa tingin ko, hindi parin naman ako nagbago. whatever i feel about the job, expect that i will do it well.. or at least try hard to do so.. and that's a good thing, right?
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see, you're not doing so bad, z... cheer up!! yey!!
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sighs. well, minsan ok lang naman talaga. ok lang. period.
still, ayokong dumating yung araw na maging ok na ko sa ok lang...
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dad's birthday on 9th.
last night we were planning on what to do and where to eat. it was until dad told us how we've been eating buffet a lot of lately and how we got a lot more eat outs and family dates scheduled for this month, he said all these are no longer healthy for him and mom. he was right. so yeah.. we're staying home.
dad will also be leaving the house that day to pick up some relative from US.
im more than free on the 9th.
sakto, tm officer's training. i would love to go and i should be going since we need to send 4 representatives and most of the top officers cant come.. so... would i go???
takte.. i have a great excuse. it's dad's birthday..
pero syempre..excuse lang yun..so bakit ba ayaw ko?
hindi ko naman ayaw..sighs..
i think i became too used to not talking i forgot how to people anymore.
said mentor will be going. mabait naman un.. i know.. besides, chance ko rin to to pick his brains and learn from him.. hindi lang sa public speaking or sa pag eenglish, etc... im also interested in what he do,.. i heard he and g were doing biz.. my school ata sila or training center or something.. idk.. i kwow it would be best for me to come.. also, kailangan din ng club representative di ba...
ang wierd lang. suki ako ng mga seminars tas etong training na dapat ako umattend ayoko pang attendan.. wahhh!! ang gulo ko..
leche.. mag-iipon muna ako ng lakas ng loob..
or para mas madali.. hindi nalang ako sasama.. haha..chicken. arg.
bahala na..
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i might be going back to baguio.
in a way, natutuwa narin ako..
ang weird lang kasi i spent weeks researching and emailing resorts in subic and batangas tas sa baguio lang pala mauuwi.
sana makapunta kami sa bencab museum at mt. cloud bookstore.. sana rin maglaglag ng book yung multo ron.. promise, bibilhin ko talaga basta resonable ang presyo...
sana magustuhan nilang kumain sa mongolian resto na kinainan namin ni indian dun...
sana pumagyag silang mag straberry picking kami sa benguet..
a relative from US will be paying for this so i can only influence her decisions, but in the end syempre sya masusunod..
pero okay lang..
basta nandian si mama, papa, kuya, kaitlyn at yen kasama ko, siguradong magiging masaya parin ang baguio..
sana bumili si mama ng maraming vigan longanisa.. paborito ko yun e..
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ayun lang naman.
today, ang lately e malungkot kong mga araw e mejo nahaluan ng ibang emosyon (kaba at excitement)..
ano't ano pa man... i know that life is good.
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ano ano kayang emosyon ang nararamdaman ng mga tao sa langit?
naiisip ko parin paminsan minsan ang pagkamatay ni cris..
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and yes, i still sleep in my parent's bed.. thank you very much.
well, hindi na naman talaga ako masyadong takot sa multo..mejo konti nalang..
i think i just want to buy time..
you know..make sure mom's still breathing and all..
im scared of the day that she wont anymore..
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