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Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Sigh

I miss you and I don't know what to do about it. 

 


Written by cinderellaareus at 11:44 PM.

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Tuesday, May 8, 2018

BZ

Spell T.I.R.E.D.

Been working on my biz lately and there's a lot of things to do. One of my mentees, Toni, sent her speech draft and I'm yet to work on that one. I'm barely answering PM's from messenger. In a way, I'm liking this kind of busy. I just hope I don't feel this tired.

I haven't been eating and sleeping much lately. Must be the source of that walang gana feeling.

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If there's one thing I'd like to learn para masabi kong nag mature na ko bilang tao at bilang babae, siguro yun e yung hindi na lilipad yung kilay ko twing may ibang babae susulpot na baka bigla mong magustuhan... because come to think of it, wala rin naman akong magagawa.

What's meant for me will not miss me.

Naalala ko rin yung law of least effort. Maybe sometimes, we need to be at peace and just allow things to fall into place.

I'm letting go.


Written by cinderellaareus at 09:25 PM.

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Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Kyoukai no otoko

Araw araw ko syang nakikita sa simbahan.

Naririnig ko kasi yung kaluskos pag lumuluhod sya sa pew sa likuran ko.

Bukod sa fact na mejo gwapo sya at matangkad, napansin ko sya kasi paulit ulit ang ritwal na ginagawa nya araw araw.

Pagpasok nya, luluhod sya sa parehas na pwesto araw araw. Yung pangalawang pew mula sa harap. Magdadasal ng ilang minuto, tapos tatayo palabas. Hihinto sya saglit sa may labasan para magsindi ng kandila. Apat na kandila na pinagdidikitdikit nya sa iisang tirikan. Tapos magdadasal ulet. Ginagawa nya to approximately same time araw araw. Iniisip ko tuloy kung dito rin sya banda nagtatrabaho.

Ano kayang pinagdadaanan ni kuya at bakit sya araw araw nagsisimba? Para mag effort syang pumunta don araw araw, siguro may mabigat syang dinadala. Kung ano man ang pinagdarasalal nya, siguradong importante yun sa kanya. Naku-curious ako kung ano-ano bang mga bagay ang pinagdarasal ng isang lalaki sa Diyos. Finances kaya? Work? Business?

Gwapo si kuya, so hindi naman siguro love life...

Kaninang umaga, mejo nalate ako ng punta sa simbahan. Pagdating ko, nakapagtirik na ng kandila si kuya at nagdadasal na ulet. Pumasok ako at umupo sa parehas na pwestong inuupuan ko araw araw. Yung pinakaunang pew mula sa harap. Nagdasal ng ilang minuto, tapos tumayo palabas. Huminto ako saglit sa may labasan para magsindi ng kandila. Apat na kandilang pinagdikitdikit ko sa iisang tirikan. Narealized ko na parehas na parehas pala kami ng ginagawa ni kuya. Parehas kaya kami ng ipinagdarasal?

Pagdaan ko sa tirikan ng kandila kanina, sinindihan ko yung apat na kandilang naiwan ni kuya na wala nang sindi. Sinindihan ko na rin pati yung mga kandilang nasa tabi nito. Kung ano man ang pinagdadaanan ni kuya, kung ano man ang ipinagdarasal nya... Kung mabuti yun para sa kanya at sa mga taong nasa paligid nya... Sana makuha nya.


Written by cinderellaareus at 09:50 PM.

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Tuesday, April 3, 2018

11:20 thoughts

Inaantok na ko kaya mabilis lang to.

Nagpagupit si Heneral ng mega ikli. Dahil super idol ko yun, parang gusto ko na tuloy magpagupit. Kaso yung crush ko mahilig sa mahaba buhok. Char.

Ang galing ni Heneral. Sobrang brilliant nya. Pero bukod sa galing nya, hat's off din ako sa pagkatao nya. 

Yung mga taong nilu lookup daw naten ang clue sa kung anong bagay tayo talagang passionate.

Sa totoo lang, i feel like life, or just parts of it, is falling apart. Siguro kaya hindi ko maayos yung mga magulo kasi inaayos ko sya from the outside instead from the inside.

Kailangan naming mag heart to heart talk ang sarili ko.

Now, I'm hopeful.

Please, pray for me.


Written by cinderellaareus at 11:30 PM.

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Tuesday, April 3, 2018

Four

916. It's been a long day. I'm kinda feeling sad, i need to write.

Will be back to the cage tomorrow. My problems in and out of the cage probably didn't get fixed on their own, so I will have to face them all again tomorrow.

Ano bang gagawin ko?

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A few months since i became a member, i was elected to be an officer right away. Been an officer since. In 2 years I've only experience being an ordinary member for a few mos that I'm not so sure if i remember how it would be like.

I told the people closest to me sa club that i don't want to run na. I think they understand. 

A few more meetings and im handling over my vpe position. Sa totoo lang, petix sa office so in a way, i found delight na at least, sa club, meron akong ginagawa. Without my position, I'm probably going back to being perpetually petix again.

Mejo nakakalungkot din. 

Pero sana with this, totoong magamit ko ung extra time ko to fix my life.

August ang target ko. Lord knows how much I want to free myself. Araw araw ko talagang kukulitin ang langit para dito.

Sighs...

Parang ang corni maging ordinary member ulet. Tsaka sigurado akong sasama ang loob ko pag hindi nila ko inonominate at iboboto even thou i practically asked them not to. Ang labo ko di ba?/lol.

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August...

Sighs...

Oh, God, please....


Written by cinderellaareus at 09:47 PM.

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Tuesday, March 13, 2018

rummage

Some old sheesh i got from the trash (mula sa jurassic era pa). i kinda enjoy reading this. gave me a good laugh. lol.

(70) <his name here>

(69) Ingat pretty : )

(68) (Hahaha)

(67) ganda mo kanina kaya nadidistract ako. hahaha

(66) uy baka napipikon ka ah.. alaskador lang ako talaga. mahilig kasi ako mag said ng alaska condensed milk nung bata pa ko hahaha

(65) oo eh... hahaha

(64) Di ah... pretty ka naman...

(63) kung di nga lang bawal baka inaya na kita lumabas hahaha

(62) Peeaccee : p san ka na?

(61) Nakasakay ka na?

(60) Yeah... pero cant be... mahirap na... hahaha baka may masabi ang madlang people...

(59) saka baka mag ***n ka pa ako pa masisi hahahaha

(58) hoy... baka mag ***n ka ha loka lolsss

(57) pero alam mo... dapat sumama ka sa t*@ b@!#ng para na idisplay mo yung pinag dietan mo. hahaha. pisss ; p

(56) hahaha di naman

(55) wak ka muna magtt... baka nasa jeep ka pa or nag aantay ng masasakyan

(54) *txt

(53) hahaha... nice... san k na?

(52) question...

(51) If wala ka bf... kelan ka last nag ka bf?

(50) hahaha speechless o na agaw ang celfone? : p joke

(49) hahaha... are you seeing some right now or maybe seeing someone exclusive? nakkss pang miss pilippines mga tanong ah hahaha...

(48) ohhh? ok...

(47) hmm... wala naman...

(46) complicated ako masyado siguro eh...

(45) why? what do you mean you thought so?

(44) oo nga... kaya nga ok lang ako ng hang out and have company of friends or girl buddies ko once in a while

(43) kahit ikaw naman siguro di ka makikipag sa katulad ko hahaha... at ma#@!* mo pa hahaha

(42) hahaha yun nga eh...

(41) eh ikaw bat wala kang bf?

(40) ahhh

(39) masyado k pla seryoso... ako binabaling ko n lang sa #o*&... if may girl n natipuhan... ill see her and hang out. if hindi nag click eh di wala

(38) oo naman... enjoy while it last and if it clicks- go - pag hindi no one to blame...

(37) mas preferred ko yung ganun... everytime i see someone naman i make sure na sya lang and im honest

(36) umuulan na ulet

(35) why? recently ba you had a guy na ganyan ang setup nyo?

(34) hmnn why? tama ba ko?

(33) sorry to ask... nagkaron knb ng relationship with a married guy?

(32) wala lang... akala ko lang...

(31) nope. you're not... and i dont mind if you had a past relationship like that... no one should mind about it... were adults and its a decision someone made so respect na lang.

(30) sa isang banda... pano kung sinabi ko na you're giving me that kind of impression? magagalit ka ba?

(29) haha men will be men... we have this instinct and likes na there something great with women na tahimik : )

(28) no offense

(27) haha which question?

(26) ahh so **** ka pang naging guy na married and i guess its *** in your head *&* in your w%^&dest dreams haha

(25) yeah what?

(24) hahaha

(23) malayo ka pa ba sa inyo?

(22) hahaha... ok...

(21) na iimagine ko yung dimples mo hahaha

(20) theyre nice...

(19) hahaha just keep this conversation between the 2 of us and a#@ p@#*&! and w@!^% at the same time at ****.

(18) haha meron naman sa tingin ko hahaha

(17) pero na distract mo ko kanina ah... kase eh. lakas ng dating mo saken kanina... and your lips... hahaha man! kaka tuwa na nakakagigil. hahaha peaccee

(16) keep it that way..

       yung lagi kang smiling

       pretty ka naman eh

(15) hahaha i guess ok na suggestion yan...

(14) and which part is scary? kaloka ka hahaha

(13) hahaha...

(12) dont be mad at me on this... pero i think youre a great kisser (may nag sabi na ba sayo?)

(11) hahaha well... id like to try to find out

(10) pero di naman syempre pede di ba?

(9) : p

(8) (di na nag reply)

      hehehe churi naman...

      galet?

(7) lasing? hindi ah...

     hindi naman ako pala inom... anong mejo?

(6) mejo galet ka? hehehe sorry

(5) hahaha tange..

      seryoso yun... kakain ko nga lang eh

(4) bawal eh... saka wala sa isip mo yung mga ganung bagay...

(3) layo ka pa?

(2) ayt...

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(1) Good morning! san kana po? wak ma le $@!% ah.

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Kahit ano pang language yan, isa lang ang interpretation ko sa silence.

I'm pretty sure you heard it when I said I prefer that over setting things clear. Na I want to keep my pride intact.

So, ayan na ba yon?

Ok. Gets ko.


Written by cinderellaareus at 03:28 PM.

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Tuesday, January 30, 2018

hey tuesday

hormones are no longer dictating how much i eat but for some reason, im still eating.

oh  boy, it's February. A few things are jotted in my calendar though, really, right now, i just want to hibernate.

i swear im not even depressed or anything.

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kdramas are damaging my EQ. i watched Hwayugi's(a Korean Odyssey) 10th episode raw eventhough i dont understand a thing in Korean, all because i couldnt wait for the subs. lol. pero nakaraos naman. pinanood ko ulet kanina, now with subs, and i think my interpretation wasnt so far from reality. if it had been japanese, siguro sumakit na yung ulo ko.

Deepak Chopra's 4th spiritual law of success is the law of least effort.

29 days of the year passed and i didnt really do much to change my situation. partly because im lazy, party because im trying out that law of least effort thingy. kung nag jo-joke lang si Deepak Chopra, kawawa naman ako. lol.

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contest on feb 10. ill be attending some event on feb 17. events used to excite me back in the day, pero sa ngayon, puteeeek, tamad na tamad ako.

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there is this cute dude i "intend" to like. pag gwapo kasi at fit ang crush ko, naiinspire akong mag diet. sheeeet. ika crush-goal ko to!

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bff is getting married soon.

tintin had just gotten married.

sis-in-law's baby brother, kakakasal lang rin.

tas puteeeek, ako, nasa crush levels paren? why Universe?

lol.

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pero sa totoo lang, it doesnt bother me one bit.


Written by cinderellaareus at 02:16 PM.

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Tuesday, January 16, 2018

16

Half of the month just passed. Ano bang ginawa ko? 

I know I'd be in trouble but I don't really know how to fix my life so I decided to just sleep. Lol.

At least I'm not sleeping now.

I still don't know what to do, but i should at least do something, right?

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Our pups are 4 days old now and they're getting cuter. Our family is a dog loving family. If it's up to us we'd love to have them all inside the house. We used to have all our dogs inside the house until they started killing eachother. The favorites who didn't kill eachother were the ones we were able to keep inside. Thangs, Yuri, Mongee and Gracie May. The 3 died though, so now we only have mongee. I can insist on having the babies inside but that would mean I have to keep gigi outside because otherwise, she'll kill the pups. But I can't do that. I love gigi. Huhu. I wish they can all just get along.

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For 2 days in a row,  I was asked by 2 different random strangers about my husband. Both were men. I wonder if I should start wearing a placard stating that I don't have one. 

なんか、むかつく。


Written by cinderellaareus at 08:30 AM.

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Tuesday, January 9, 2018

2:22 am thoughts

I miss writing handwritten letters, 4 pages long (back to back).


Written by cinderellaareus at 02:19 AM.

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