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RTO fast approaching.
For some reason, I'm the only one on shift today. Hopefully the others will come by 10AM.
Nakakatamad. I'm starting to feel lonely. Lol.
Watching Dr. Stone. The story is super interesting and funny. Will probably finish this soon though, then I'll need to find another to watch.
Sheesh. Nothing interesting with the real world lately. Thinking about the RTO gives me insomnia, so I'm trying not to think at all.
I want to live a really cool life. Like, kick-ass cool. I don't really envy my friends who got noisy children, but I am surely curious on how it feels like to be pregnant. I've always preferred an easy life though. Surely there were times that I worked my butt off in order to get what I want. Those were good times too. I miss those times.
What will I do from here? Nakakatuwang isipin na I can be whatever I want to be since I have some time, a few money, and no attachments. But in a way... ewan. Nakakatamad mag-isip.
Watching Dr. Stone, I feel like I'm more likely to agree with Tsukasa than with Senku. Same way that I've never think Thanos to be bad, or on now I often wonder what Hitler really thinks, after reading portions of his Mein Kampf book.
I feel like there are so many things to understand, though we, humans, tend to stick to a certain belief, and deem everything else as evil. I feel like it's such a waste.
A friend happily told me a few weeks back that her divorce process is almost finished. Mag samgyeup daw kami. I don't eat meat. Lol.
The ex-husband is a Pinoy whose citizenship is in London. If there's divorce in the Philippines, things would've been so much easier for her. The ex-husband cheated and impregnated another woman. He refused to get back to his wife even after she begged for him to come back. My friend didn't have any choice but resort to divorce.
I support divorce and same-sex marriage. I believe that the government should be impartial and not be binded by the beliefs of any religion. Discussions on topics like these can sometimes be toxic, so I often keep my mouth shut.
There are so many things I find interesting in this lifetime, but I really hate to argue and explain my point.
10:44AM. I'm hungry.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:45 AM.
Gah! I felt like I've lost a few years off my life from shock.
A friend told me na nakipagrelasyon daw sya sa iba. She's married with 2 kids, and I know her husband. I felt so relieved when she told me it didn't involve anything physical, and it only lasted for 2 weeks.
Ang hirap. Tokwa. I didn't know what to say. Madaling pagalitan ang mga nagkakasala at sabihing, "umayos ka", "ayusin mo buhay mo", "isipin mo ang mga anak mo", blah, blah, blah... but these lines mean you're taking the person's struggles lightly.
Naisip ko lang na isa sa mga fears ko about having a relationship e yung gumising ka isang araw na ayaw mo na. Yung tipong wala namang mali sa partner mo pero hindi mo mashake yung feeling na hindi mo na gustong magpatuloy pa. Ang hirap.
I told my friend na pag-isipan nyang mabuti... and all other lousy advice, kasi hindi ko naman talaga alam. I'm just an outsider with zero involvement in their situation, but I still feel bothered... and sad. I feel sorry of the husband, but I can't judge my friend either. I've known her for so long. She's a kind-hearted woman.
I've been single for so long. If I happen to find someone and settle, I think I'd think twice before cheating, no? I will, right? What makes people cheat anyway?
I'm also partly annoyed that a good man is being treated like that. But I love my friend, I can't possibly hate her. Tsk, ano bang gagawin ko?
She said I'm her "only true friend". Sa totoo lang, gusto ko syang batukan.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 05:15 PM.
This was Armin's line that I saved in my note pad few eps ago. Damn, whoever create this ingenious masterpiece? Sobrang ganda! I can't watch it on my phone, it has to be on tv. Grabe ang intense, I need to pause for my heart to catch up. Goodness.
I'm on season 3 part 2. I've seen a meme in FB on how Armin will look like in season 4 so I'm still hopeful he'll somehow survive after getting burned. I want to stop predicting what's next... seriously, this too good. Sana hanggang sa ending, overwhelmingly good parin.
Officemate sent me a screenshot of an email containing the news. Looks like companies like ours were being forced by the government to go on 100% RTO by April 1. I asked a friend from the same industry. Said their company's not gonna follow the government's mandate, and plans to resume the office mid-May. Magbabayad nalang daw ng fine yung company nila. I wonder if our company will do the same. There's no official announcement yet.
I remember Armin's line. I also remember the line from The Richest Man In Babylon. It's not good for people to not work daw. And also something from Illusions (The Adventures of the Reluctant Messiah) about sacrificing boredom.
I'd love to stay working from home, but it's not like I can be like this forever, di ba?
Bahala na. I guess I want to practice detachment on this topic. Bahala na talaga.
Recently getting engrossed with BL manga. This is kinda addicting. If we are to go back to the office by April, I want to make use of the remaining days, watching anime and reading manga. It's not like I can read this once I'm back at the office, you know. I don't know why BL sends more kilig than usual love stories. Sobrang cute eh!
I just finished Koisuru Boukun. The story is so heartwarming, though a little nsfw. It's still ongoing. The other BL mangas I had read were cute too, but I forgot the title. I usually read based on categories. I've never encountered a boring BL romance just yet. Will read a new one tomorrow.
What's in store for us around April kaya no? Tipong literal na buwis-buhay pag pumasok ka sa trabaho. Parang ang sakit sa ulo ng naka mask for more than 12 hrs. Tokwa. Alam ko namang hindi pwedeng nandito lang ako sa bahay at habang buhay na nanonood ng anime. Alam ko ring kailangan kong palawakin pa ang mundo ko... pero seriously? Commuting everyday for 5 to 6 hours in virus-infested streets from Bulacan to Quezon City and back? Hindi ba suicide yun?
Wah! Bahala na.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:49 PM.
My favorite drink in the world is SB's matcha green tea frappe with coffee jelly add-ons.
I love cuppucino, but I haven't tried SB's. Do they even have cappuccino? All the hot drinks I've tried in SB tasted awful.
Papermoon's and Figaro's cappuccinos are good. Jollibee's and Dunkin Donut's brewed coffee is also good. If you happen to visit Shercon Resort in Batangas, that shabby eatery outside Shercon serves really great coffee. You can also try their beans. Batangas has the best coffee beans.
We haven't been using our coffee maker in a while. We ran out of beans and the ones available here doesn't compare to the one we bought in Batangas. I wonder if I can use coffee beans from SB.
I want to buy a coffee machine, but I can't really drink coffee regularly for health reasons. Neither are my parents. I miss having coffee in Shangri-la. I miss Shangri-la and Megamall.
I haven't brought my parents to eat out for the longest time now. I've already reached my target emergency fund. I should be free to spend a little now. It's just that, if I bring them with me, it will take so much time. I usually go and eat alone, then quickly go home and just buy pasalubong. That way, I'll be able to go back home in time to feed my cats.
Dad walks really slow. Mom keeps going back and forth to the toilet to pee. We'd probably spend a minimum of 4 hours if we go there together. If I go alone, I can spend less than an hour to eat and go home quickly.
I want to eat a decent meal. Dad used to cook well. Must be because he's getting old. Now his cooking are either too salty, or too... i dont know... gross? Bland-tasting food is fine. I just can't handle extreme flavors.
At my age, I know I shouldn't rely of my aged parents to cook for me. But if cook on my own, it might not even be edible. I once cooked pasta that was too bad, even the stray dogs refused to eat it.
If we'll eat out, we'll get to eat good food. Dad will not get tired from cooking and mom will not have to wash the dishes. Everybody happy. But I also want to go home early.
I ran out of things to watch in Netflix. I'm watching Attack on Titan now, but I'm not sure if I can continue watching. I mean, real life has pandemic and war in Ukraine, tas on my leisure time, post-apocalyptic anime pa papanoorin ko? Seriously.
I finished the latest chapter of Iruma in manga. I love this so much. I hate that almost all of my favorites are on-going.
Fire Force and Billionaire Detective is too serious. I just managed to watch an episode or two. Gusto ko pa rin talaga e yung mejo comedy naman.
Nakakatamad. Gusto ko ng green tea frappe na may coffee jelly.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:06 PM.
Less than 2 hrs into my shift, drained na drained agad ako.
In this line of work, I've worked with people from of different nationalities. Pero alam mo ba kung anong nationality yung pinaka entitled and pinaka nakakainis sa lahat.
Tokwa, di rin naman ako maka reklamo dahil ganun din naman kasama yung ugali ko. Lol.
I feel like the children of the new generation have gotten so much better than their predecessors. Mas magaganda. Mas smart. Mas talented. I can see it in own neice and nephew. Pati mga anak ang pinsan ko ganun din. These children are exceptional.
Kaya pakiradam ko, it's on us, adults, to make sure that the next generation will grow up with strong sense of morality. I mean, great minds mixed with evil intent will call for massive disasters. Remember Hitler. Remember Marcos Sr.
Naalala ko lang how children are being raised in Japan. They were raised to be polite and hardworking. Their mind were conditioned to admire great effort.
E tayo? Aren't we raised to be so full of ourselves, pretending to do things excellently with very little efforts, entitled to have the best while offering less?
I don't know. It can't be just me, di ba? Ang yayabang kaya ng mga Pinoy.
Hayst. Gusto ko pumunta sa Japan. Kung walang Pandemic, it could've been easier. I want to bring my parents there tas kakakin kami ng masasarap na pagkain. I also want to go on a separate trip there with LA, and maybe with Mel too. Manonood kami ng concert ng Snow Man. Baka ma meet ko si Ren in person. Eeeeeee!!!!
Hayst. Gusto kong mag work from home forever, pero gusto ko na rin matapos ang pandemic. Universe, can I have both?
Nakakatamad today. Gusto na mag Thursday.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:57 AM.
Ikatlong araw na magmula ng huminto ako sa pagkain ng matatamis. Zero sugar/artificial sugar, zero fruit, zero fried food. Paksiw at sabaw lang ang ulam ko lagi, tapos tsaa at tubig lang ang drinks. 2 days back, nagluto ako ng spaghetti na walang asukal. Masarap pa rin naman. Nalungkot lang ako na di rin ako makakain ng tinapay. I love tinapay.
On the 2nd day, I've lost about 1 kilo. Pero today, I have the exact same weight as yesterday.
I've been reading Ted's earthclinic archive on cancer. Sinusubukan kong sundin yung mga recommendations nya. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kelan ko mapapangatawanan to.
Feeling ko, hindi naman ako takot ma deds. Ewan ko kung anong point in trying to be healthy. But then again, wala namang mawawala. Mas makakatipid pa ko dahil di na ko bibili ng junk food at kakain sa labas.
Mom doesn't plan to get operated. Injection nga lang nanginginig na yun, opera pa kaya. Ayoko rin syang pilitin lalo na't sabi ng doc, sa age nya, may risk na magka cardiac arrest sya during operation, kahit na ma clear nya pa yung cardio check up. Baka mas mapadali pa ang buhay nya kung magpapa opera sya.
We've been taking some herbal meds recommended by my tita. Dito daw kasi nawala ang mga bukol bukol ni Tito sa katawan. I've checked the ingredients myself, at wala naman dun yung mga ingredients na sinabi ni Ted na dapat iwasan, so sabi ko, go na.
Basta walang sugar, walang calcium, keriboom.
If my mom wouldn't get operated, why would I? Hindi na rin ako nagpabiopsy. Parami rin kasi ng parami ang COVID these days, at malayo ang East ave. Sa totoo lang, I feel neutral about my own situation. Ang concern ko lang, if I get so sick, who will find a way to get money for my mom in case she decides to proceed with the operation? I know my brother will never abandon our parents, but I also know that he doesn't earn so much, and he has a family to feed. It has to be me.
Pero okay lang. Mom thinks living for 64 years is enough already. I also think the same at 36. Siguro ganito yung "surrender".
2 days since we met with the doc, alam kong hindi nakakatulog ang mama ko. Though mom doesn't snore, she sleeptalks daily, as in walang mintis. Pero 2 days since the appointment with doc, tahimik syang matulog. That was why I knew she wasn't sleeping. I felt a little relieved dahil last night, nagising akong may inaaway na naman ang nanay ko sa panaginip nya. I'm glad that my mom is starting to sleep normally again.
Alam ko, magiging maayos din ang lahat.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 05:51 PM.
Grabe yung antok ko.
It's 3PM. My shift started at 9AM. Spent the 1st hour of my shift with the IT as I was not able to login. Tapos, until now, wala pa rin akonh calls, chats or backlogs. All good.
Antok na antok ako. Must be vaccine's side effect. Dad's a little worse. Nilalagnat sya ng bahagya. Mom said she's not having any side effect at all. Mine is same as the last time. Masakit na katawan. Masakit na braso, matinding antok.
Ika pitong araw na ng December. Next week, return to office na kami. 3 days lang naman. Hindi naman ako takot, tinatamad lang akong gumising ng maaga at mag commute. Tapos dala ko pa yung laptop.
May naiwan ba kong pagkain sa locker? Siguro expired, bulok, or nilalanggam na yun.
Kung tama ang alala ko, I was on night shift bago mag pandemic. Yung katabi ko na lagi kong tinatanungan about troubleshooting, nag resign na. Yung mga nakasama kong mag samgyeup, manood ng hot air ballon, etc, karamihan sa kanila, wala na rin. One of my officemates even died from COVID. Tapos buong CN team dissolved na.
Mejo nakakalungkot din. More than 2 years in the company, and I only spent 8 months of my stay sa office. The rest, work from home na. Pero kahit ganun, I did spend a few good times with the people here.
Okay lang yan. Siguro kailangan lang na mag move forward.
Ang tagal ko nang hindi nakikita ang mga friends ko. BFF had long been wanting to have a video call with me, pero kahit yun, pahirapan pa. Hindi kasi kami sabay ng rest days.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:25 PM.
And now here, we got the news that were going back to the office, alright. 1 week per team daw. So for 1 week, we'll work at the office, and then the rest of the month, wfh na. For us JP peeps who have shift during weekdays, bale 3 days lang kaming work at office because were supposed to be on wfh during weekends. Not at all bad, pero humirit parin ako na wag nalang since 3 days lang naman. Lol.
In a way, iniisip ko, okay lang rin. Basta wag matagal.
Pano kaya setup namin next year no? Ewan ko.
Problema ko pa di na ata kasya sakin mga pants ko. Hindi na rin ako sanay mag suot ng sapatos.
Parang ghost town ang labas ng bahay namin today. May kinidnap kasi dito kahapon. Puting van. Nakakatakot.
I was working upstairs when I heard the shout. Kala ko nasagasaang aso. My tita was the 1st witness. Nung nag break ako sa office, I went outside to take a picture of the slippers left behind by the victim. We had no idea who she was. I was thinking maybe I can do something to somehow have her family find out that someone took her.
The incident was reported to the police. They came here around 12mn. I can't help but feel frustrated about the lack of urgency ng mga taong dapat at nagpo protekta at nagtatanggol sa mamamayan. She could've been saved kung nagkaron lang ng mas mabilis na aksyon.
Last night, Dad and I were wondering kung ano nang nangyari dun sa babae. Hours have passed. San na kaya sya dinala? Buhay pa ba sya? Ang hirap hirap matulog while having all these thoughts. I mean, it could've been me. Or someone from my family. If I were in her situation siguro gugustuhin ko rin na merong mag effort na mailigtas ako.
Nakakalungkot lang isipin na para sa ordinaryong mamayang tulad namin, pag nalagay ka sa alanganin, wala ka talagang pwedeng maasahan no? Naalala ko yung post ng classmate ko na nasa Japan. May babae lang na nadapa. Tumawag sa 911 yung mga nakakita and a few minutes lang may rumesponde na. May pag-asa kayang maging ganun ka efficient ang Pilipinas? Imagine how many lives will be saved kung mas mabilis lang ang pag aksyon nang mga nasa posisyon para tumulong.
This morning when Mom is opening our store, someone came up to her to ask about the incident. Mother-in-law daw sya ng kinidnap. At yung kasama nyang bata e one of the kids of that woman daw. 30s na daw. With 3 kids.
Hindi ko sila kilala, at hindi ko sila kaano ano, pero kagabi, nahirapan akong matulog kaiisip kung anong nangyari sa biktima. Pano pa kaya yung asawa at anak nya na magdamag naghintay sa pag-uwi nya kagabi?
Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari. Bago mag Pandemic ay may bali balita na tungkol sa puting van na nangkikidnap at naghaharvest ng internal organs ng mga bata.
Noong unang panahon, mayayaman lang ang kadalasang nakikidnap para sa ransom. Pero ngayon, basta may internal organs ka, posible kang maging target.
Are we ever going to feel safe again?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:59 PM.
Been feeling anxious since yesterday. We're changing TL again. The new TL is Chinese. He's in China. I heard that the previous TL from China was very strict. I submitted a VL request for the Feastcon about a month ago. The current TL already approved. Pero eto, kailangan ko daw ulet ng approval ng bagong TL. A workmate's VL has been approved already. Sakin wala pang reply. Huhu.
Hayst. Iniisip ko pa yung election next year. It will fall on a Monday. Paano kaya kami boboto.
Siguro partly e hindi rin ako comfortable sa mga Chinese. Syempre binubully tayo ng China. I've also seen in the news that there are Chinese tourist bullying Pinoys here. Siguro hindi naman lahat, but still.
Hayst. Sana mabait sya. Pero issue parin talaga ung Election. Ano kayang gagawin ko?
Gusto kong maging multimillionaire bago mag May 2022 para hindi ko na problemahin ang lahat ng ito.
An FB friend who's travelling in Japan posted her trip to a Japanese grocery. Grabe nakakamiss. My favorite supermarket/mall in Japan was Jusco in Tsudanuma. I was told that the name was changed into Aeon. Pangarap kong dalhin dun ang parents ko! I showed the video to my mom. Gusto ko talagang matupad yung dream kong madala sila ron.
My mom was raised near the sea. I was raised in the mountains. Kaya siguro parehas naming mas gusto ng city kesa sa mga ma nature na lugar. If we are to go to Japan, I'd like for us to stay around Tsudanuma. Mainly because of Aeon. Pero syempre pupunta rin kami sa Kyoto.. and maybe Nagoya and Osaka. Gusto ko mejo matagal kami mag stay. Pero syempre naiisip ko yung mga pusa ko. I wonder if I can bring them with me. Baka hindi rin safe.
Hay! Gusto ko na talaga yumaman!
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:24 AM.