Entries in category "火曜日"
Kung totoo ang swerte at malas, pakiramdam ko, hindi ako swerte sa month na ito. Una sa lahat, yung matatanggal na ang JP team ng account namin, at heto at hinahanapan kami ng bagong account.
Pang 1.5, nagkaron ng announcement na the following week after ng interview namin with the other account e transition na daw namin sa new account. I was so worried dahil tatama sa VL ko, pero luckily, hindi natuloy. And bad side e, hindi ko parin alam ang kinabukasan ko sa company namin, kung makakapasok ba ko sa new account o hindi.
Pangalawa, nabasag yung water bottle ko 2 days ago.
Pangatlo, nagka pigsa ako a week before ako mag Japan.
Pang-apat, yung power shutdown sa NAIA na kung nausog lang ng onti e nadamay sana yung flight ko. Siguro, swerte to in a way. Sana nga talaga. Please, Lord.
Panlima, pumunta ako ng hospital today, hoping to be prescribed with antibiotics and pain killer para nga sa pigsa. Pero ayun, nakita ko yung sarili ko na nasa operating room at nakikipag negotiate na baka pwede naman na after na ng trip ko sa Japan nila ako operahan. Hindi daw pwede. Huhu.
Luckily, sabi ng doctor, pwede pa rin naman daw akong mag Japan. Grabe, ang daming kaganapan na muntik muntikan na akong pigilang mag Japan. Juice colored.
Ang sakit ng surgery ko kanina. Sabi ng doc minsan daw talaga hindi tumatalab ng maigi ang anesthesia kung swollen yung area. Dama ko yung first 2 hagod ng hiwa sa balat ko. Mejo dama ko rin ng onti yung pagtahi nila at pagbuhol. Dahil di naman expected na ooperahan ako, ako lang mag-isa ang nagpunta sa hospital. If Mom was there, baka natulala yun sa dami ng dugo at sa panay "awooo awooo" ko from so much pain.
Epic tong experience na to. But I'm glad that I'm still alive. Thank you Universe.
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Sana matuloy ang Japan ko. Tokwa, isang linggo nalang, ang dami pang nangyayari. Mag eempake dapat ako ngayon, kaso nakita ko yung dugo na nag leak sa supposedly waterproof na dressing ng sugat ko. Kailangan ko ata muna magpahinga. Bukas, luluwas ako to get my laptop sa office. Pinayagan ako mag work from home. Tas yung actual schedule ng wfh ko e next week, so parang na extend. In a way, hindi naman siguro ganun kamalas ang buhay ko.
Pero sana dinggin ng Diyos ang dasal kong matuloy sa Japan as scheduled, and makauwi rin as scheduled, safely, sa piling ng mga mahal ko sa buhay. Sana manatili akong safe and happy before, during, and after the trip. Sana may ma meet akong pogi. Haha.
Basta, sana maging ok lahat.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:10 PM.
Sighssss.
Last night, we were asked for our phone numbers para sa interview, then today, nagka panel interview kagad. Off ko, nasa bahay ako. I was asked to open my video when it was my turn. Buti nalang kumuha ako ng blazer at nag ayos ako ng buhok kahit paano. I feel positive about my performance during the interview, pero hanggat walang results, hindi parin ako sure.
Ang sabi, this week daw agad agad ang reprofile pag nakapasa. Nag aalala ko dahil ang flight ko sa Japan will be in 2 weeks. Kakailanganin ko bang i-cancel if matanggap ako? Hindi refundable yung flight. May mga reservations na rin ako na nakakahiyang i-cancel
Pag hindi ako pumasa, mamomroblema ako kung saan ko magtatrabaho. Pag pumasa naman ako, namromroblema ako sa upcoming travel ko. Either will cause problems, pero sana meron solusyon para sa lahat ng ito.
May away na nagaganap saming team. It's us against Charlie. Aalis nalang kami, nagkakaaway away pa. Yung pinaka close ko sa team, sigurado daw syang di papasa dahil hindi sya makabasa ng kanji at all. She was not able to go through with the reading test, at hindi na sila nag proceed sa writing test. Hindi ako magaling makipagkaibigan. Sa totoo lang nag aalala rin ako na bagong pakikisama na naman sa bagong trabaho. Sana tanggapin nalang kami lahat. Sana formalities nalang yung interview.
Hayst. Sana maging masaya. Sana maging okay. Sana makalabas kami sa month na ito with our health and sanity intact.
Sana matuloy ako sa Japan. At sana wag akong mawalan ng trabaho. Sana parehas kaming matanggap ni Wendy sa JT.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:56 PM.
Today too. Same feeling. Gah.
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Nakakatakot talagang lumabas ng bahay these days. Pag nag compute ka kasi, magugulat ka nalang sa laki ng nagastos mo.
Sabi ko sa female officemate ko na tinatamad na kong mag sipag para ma promote. Then she showed me her recent payroll na mas mataas pala sa ineexpect namin. Bigla akong nagkaron ng motivation na magsipag sa trabaho. I still feel tired though.
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Kahapon, I was expressing my frustration sa seatmate ko sa work on how I got kicked out from a group I've been active to in FB. She looked over my desk and saw the name of the group from my PC:
BL Comics Recommendations.
Biglang may pumasok sakin na call. She ended up asking her other seatmate (male) to ask what she wanted to ask me.
Female Officemate: Ano yung BL?
Male Officemate: Ewan ko... Backlogs?
When the call ended, she proceeded to ask me:
Female Officemate: Ano yung BL?
Z: Backlogs
Female Officemate: Ay, yun ba yung boys love? Yung men to me—
Z: Backlogs nga.
LOL. I thought I didn't mind them knowing. Turned out that I do mind afterall. Backlogs. Jeez.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:30 PM.
My birthday is fast approaching. Every single year, it had always been like this. Birthdays and Christmas always come bluer than most days of the year. It has become normal like this.
Currently reading Murderer Lewellyn's Enchanting Dinner Invitation. It's kinda dark. Must be the cause of the mood. I've been remembering a lot of people lately. It made me wonder that maybe the love we're being deprived of, is some sort of a punishment equivalent to the accumulation of the hurt we have caused. Okay, it doesn't relate to this manhwa, but the mood is kinda similar.
Haaaaah. Will I ever be forgiven?
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Had lab rat duties today. I feel so tired. The nurse had a hard time finding the right spot to insert the needle for blood extraction. It took 5 tries until they were able to get some blood out of me. What's worse was that they left bruises in all those 5 spots. I have bruises on both arms, and on my hand, all to get just a few amount of blood. And I need to go through this again after 3 months. I really hate this. Is there a way to make my veins thicker?
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It's 5am, and I just finished Murderer Lewellyn's Enchanting Dinner Invitation. Beautifully crafted story. Truly a work of art. I will never see onions the same way again.
Thanks to the author for being kind enough not to break readers' hearts at the ending. I probably won't be able to easily recover if either Lewellyn or Shavonne died.
Ok, now I guess I gotta sleep.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:14 AM.
Stumbled upon a manga whose MCs have the same names as the characters of the contest entry I had submitted months back. Said the winners will be announced by November. I'd thank my characters too if I'll win. If not, we will just join again. Same characters. Maybe different story. Still, it'll be nice if I can win on my first try.
Come to think of it, I've developed so many hobbies and interests in my lifetime. I usually stop doing things once I feel like I'm already good enough, then proceed to do the next thing that interests me. It's only writing that I haven't abandoned yet. Maybe because I don't feel good enough yet. Or maybe because I actually truly like this. I really can't tell for sure.
Aside from this blog, and my Toastmasters speeches, I've written very few literally pieces. This is only the third time that I'm joining a writing contest. The 1st one was in high-school. I got the 3rd place. Next was in college where I placed 2nd. Maybe I'll lose interest once I become a champion. Well, I don't know.
Wait, I also joined a poem writing contest in FB back then, and I did not win. I guess people tend to forget the times they lose, no? Maybe there's more.
I could use the prize money right now bilang ang gastos ko lately, plus, I need to pay para sa paghahati hati ng lupa ni Papa.
I'm probably having PMS as my head has been covered with dark clouds lately. I do have some motivation to write my entries for next year, but I feel too lazy to open the laptop.
In less than a month, birthday ko na. I told Mom na ang gusto kong handa e baked sushi, baked mac (no-meat, pasta, sauce and cheese only), tas lumpiang toge. She also promised to buy me cake from kumori. I really wish to advance my birthday, only for the food. I remember just a week ago, the doctor strictly instructed me to go on diet. Is this an adult rebellious phase?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:12 PM.
An officemate sent me a screenshot of an email he was planning to send to our account manager containing a "suggestion" to have Robert moved to the night shift. He had been kicked out from the JP team months ago due to an escalation from a Japanese user. He's only supporting English calls now.
The officemate who sent the screenshot was absent yesterday. He might've heard about what Robert did to me from our other teammates. He said our other teammates are planning to send a similar email as well against Robert. "Lintik lang ang walang ganti", Officemate said.
This may not be the case all the time in the future—and I also absolutely do not have any plans on retaliating—but I'm glad, they're with me on this now. I'm grateful.
Though I don't feel any anger towards Robert, I, too, think that it would be nice and a whole lot more peaceful if we can get rid of him for good. Sana. Sana talaga.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:22 PM.
I just had an iced hazelnut mocha drink, and I feel like I'm being punched in the gut.
Know what, I really love coffee. I'd drink that everyday if it wasn't for GERD. Gah, I wonder if I'll need to go to the nearest doc to get a buscopan shot. Baking soda should've been a healthier option, but I left my stash at home. Damn, GERD.
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Life is super smooth as ever.
My officemates are nice. Pay is good. Work is easy. Even the commute has gotten so much easier since my bus stops right accross our office building.
There's still that growing dissatisfaction, but I'm still grateful.
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Got plans to have spa date with my TM girls next week. We haven't told one of the girls na hubaran don. Mel said we should break it to her gently. Lol.
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I've always been in a hurry since RTO. Mahaba ang byahe. I'd want to get home as early as possible. That's why I find it nice pag nakakasabay kong umuwi yung batang yun from pdt. He said he's a law student, so parang secured na yung morning shift para sa kanya.
I'm still not comfortable talking to anyone else though.
I wonder when will the club open for f2f meeting. And kung kaya ko bang umattend considering na may pasok ako on weekends. I wonder how I managed to have a social life before pandemic. Parang ang konti konti ng oras when I commute.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:09 PM.
I just clicked the "submit" button. Need pala na naka notarized yung entry. Wala nang oras, sinubmit ko na kahit di naka notaryo. Baka ma reject. Di bale, at least may idea na ko for next year.
I told Mom the champion will get only 18k, and she was like, "akin yung 8k". Lol. That was before I even sent my entry.
Mom said she wants to go to Korea. Looks like Tita from the province will be going here in Metro. Mom said we can ask Tita to take care of the cats while we're away. I need to save up ng bongga as I'll be financing a travel for the 3 of us, including Dad. I asked Mel if she wants to come. Sa malapit lang daw muna. I don't know if I can pull off travelling abroad on my own. It's not like I can rely on my parents eventhough I'll be travelling with them. I saw a tour package amounting to 35k per head. Kailangan ko ata ng 6-digits para i-push to. I'm not confident in going DIY.
I lent 100k to my tita the last time. Will be lending 50k more. She said she'll be paying an interest of 20k by the time she pays me on October. Mom and Dad asked me not to put an interest na daw as the same tita helped us a lot back when we had very little money. She never asked us to pay for interest back then. She even gave us money to deposit in the hospital back when Dad was needed to be sent to the ICU about 10 years ago. Well, I didn't ask her to pay, it was her who offered that amount as an interest. I'm thinking of letting her pay just half of the agreed. Bahala na.
Okay, saka ko na iisipin ang money matters.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:19 PM.
RTO fast approaching.
For some reason, I'm the only one on shift today. Hopefully the others will come by 10AM.
Nakakatamad. I'm starting to feel lonely. Lol.
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Watching Dr. Stone. The story is super interesting and funny. Will probably finish this soon though, then I'll need to find another to watch.
Sheesh. Nothing interesting with the real world lately. Thinking about the RTO gives me insomnia, so I'm trying not to think at all.
I want to live a really cool life. Like, kick-ass cool. I don't really envy my friends who got noisy children, but I am surely curious on how it feels like to be pregnant. I've always preferred an easy life though. Surely there were times that I worked my butt off in order to get what I want. Those were good times too. I miss those times.
What will I do from here? Nakakatuwang isipin na I can be whatever I want to be since I have some time, a few money, and no attachments. But in a way... ewan. Nakakatamad mag-isip.
Watching Dr. Stone, I feel like I'm more likely to agree with Tsukasa than with Senku. Same way that I've never think Thanos to be bad, or on now I often wonder what Hitler really thinks, after reading portions of his Mein Kampf book.
I feel like there are so many things to understand, though we, humans, tend to stick to a certain belief, and deem everything else as evil. I feel like it's such a waste.
A friend happily told me a few weeks back that her divorce process is almost finished. Mag samgyeup daw kami. I don't eat meat. Lol.
The ex-husband is a Pinoy whose citizenship is in London. If there's divorce in the Philippines, things would've been so much easier for her. The ex-husband cheated and impregnated another woman. He refused to get back to his wife even after she begged for him to come back. My friend didn't have any choice but resort to divorce.
I support divorce and same-sex marriage. I believe that the government should be impartial and not be binded by the beliefs of any religion. Discussions on topics like these can sometimes be toxic, so I often keep my mouth shut.
There are so many things I find interesting in this lifetime, but I really hate to argue and explain my point.
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10:44AM. I'm hungry.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:45 AM.
