sabi dapat daw nag iingat tayo sa mga metaphor na ginagamit naten to describe our life.

i feel like a lot of things had been going on lately and i just cant find where i am amidst the chaos. it's like i was in there but not really. it's like im "lost" figuratively, but i feel lost literally. weird.

have you ever felt like this? that feeling when you cant feel your own presence?

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spent the weekends home. i was trying to make it up to my niece. for the past week, mom and i had been leaving the house right after i get back from work to go to some wellness program we enrolled in. it crushed my heart everytime i say goodbye to my niece and she will just wrap her arms around my waist or legs or whichever she can reach, wanting me to not leave and just stay home to play with her.

if i feel this bad and im just her tita, i wonder how much worse parents feel when they have to leave their little ones too.

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career decisions three years back were once again brought up yesterday when mom and i were talking. i tried to make her see how i have wonderful plans for my life but seeing how i lacked progress for the past three years, i guess it's just hard to win an argument if you cant present any evidences of your point. i wonder if mom is right.

there are things im sure i dont want to get back to, but is where i am now really a better option?

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TM night last friday. first TM night that started without g and mentor. i was the TME. g said it should be my role to entertain the guests. being my overly introverted, borderline anti-social self, the thought frightened me for real that when the first guests came, i thought im gonna get sick. lol. but hey, i made it. at least i was able to prove that i can talk to people i dont know without fainting. haha! but seriously, i actually enjoyed it.

it is also my task as the club secretary to text guests before and after the meeting. im just glad the some of them are replying and that they are not calling me "ate". haha!

one of our first-time guests was such a cutie pie. he actually looked like y's bf. i wonder if he's gay too. well, i hope not. i wonder if he's coming back for our next meeting in nov. Dear Universe, more cutie pie guests please..haha.

harot mo te.

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