It's a Monday and I'm sick AF. 

I must've eaten too much back in kaitlyn's bday party last sat. My stomach hurts and I have to make frequent trips at the bathroom so I had to phone in sick at the office. Great. 

My head spins at the slightest movement. Maybe because I haven't eaten much. The thought of food makes me want to throw up. much more the sight of it. I don't remember hating food this much. 

I so want to play with kaitlyn but I'm feeling nauseous so much I wonder of this is how it feels like to be pregnant. Only, I'm pretty sure I'm not. I hope all these will stop before tomorrow. 

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There is this boy who reminds me so much of R. His long and lanky built. The nerdiness, the eyeglasses and also on how he talks to me. I received a friend request from the boy in fb and confirmed immediately.  Got curious so I checked his profile. Same course, same interests. I even saw one post when a friend of his called him "master". That's how our other friends call R back in the day and they  still do. Master. This is bad. I wonder if I should mark the boy "dangerous", but then maybe I'm just over thinking. Also,  he could be gay. For the last 3 years,  whenever I notice someone they either fall on that category and if not,  married. So I learned not to take my eyes (and heart) seriously. Or maybe I'm just paranoid. 

I think I miss R-type men. if I will once again find someone like him, under better circumstances and in a more matured setting, then maybe I will know now how to do better than what I did before... Maybe... 

Tsk. I hate being like this.

11:52 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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